#so rn its just back and forth to the vet assessing his quality of life and trying to make the right decision

[dogbunni]

I have a couple of asks in my ask box and I would like to say thank u I love u mwah kiss on the forehead for all of u and I WILL reply I promise but rn my cat is dying and has maybe 2 weeks left to live so I have zero brain space rn. devoting the next 2 weeks to snuggling my boy I hope u all understand

#i rly do have so many thoughts abt these particular asks and i want to wait until im less greif stricken and stressed #bc rn u would get a lacklustre reply at best #this is why ive been quiet lately #he's been battling seizures for a while now #ive thrown more money at this problem than i care to admit #but he hasnt responded to any of the meds and we are simply out of options #so rn its just back and forth to the vet assessing his quality of life and trying to make the right decision #regarding when do i let him go #putting quality of life over quantity here #he's been going downhill fast this past week and he had a scary fall #the stress of constant seizures has led to major overgrooming issues that ive somewhat gotten under control now but was very bad #so what little time he has left i am just going to make him the focus of my attention and put together a bucket list of sorts to go through #before i let him go for a big nap #im a fucking mess tbh and barely holding it together but these next couple of weeks are going to be the best of his life #ill make damn sure of it #im going to take him mcdonalds drive thru and get him chicken nuggets #he's been having outdoors time on his harness and leash every day and he's been loving it even tho he's too weak and tired to do much #he just sniffs some plants real good #he's been sleeping on my chest almost constantly #and he gets all the treats he wants bc there are no long term consequences anymore </3 #im going to the supermarket on friday to get him some fresh fish from the fish counter #and im going to take him for a drive with the window down so he can (safely and harnessed) stick his head out the window #im watching him sleep rn and trying not to start sobbing and wake him up #these seizures are robbing the best years of his life from him and i hate it so much #i cant help but feel like ive failed him #i shouldve done more #spent more money #idk #i wasnt trying to vent but oh my god it just all came out #i love this cat so much he is my boy my baby my babyboy