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#so uh after work Thursday I almost overdrafted my bank acc because I used the wrong card to get gas and my moms reaction kind snapped
tiredsadpeach
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Hahaha heyyyy (I almost unalived myself today)
#tw suicide
#tw suicide mention
#so uh after work Thursday I almost overdrafted my bank acc because I used the wrong card to get gas and my moms reaction kind snapped
#something in me and I spiraled and am still spiraling so I called out Friday and today so I didn’t breakdown at work
#well this morning my mom woke me up and just kinda drilled into me because my sister helped me get this job and it could look bad on her and
#everyone has mental health problems but they still go to work and I have to work because they can’t always pay for me
#which btw I never ever said I wanted to quit I love this job but okay!
#and then she basically confirmed all my self deprecating thoughts like being a bad pet owner and not doing enough around the house etc
#so that’s so cool that she also thinks that about me that made me feel amazing!!!
#she said I step all over my dad and siphon money out of my sister
#which my dad and I are so very similar mentally so if I am I have no idea tbh
#and then the money thing is because my sister bought concert tickets for me her my dad and our cousin but I promised to pay her back in full
#like I calculated it and everything but I also reminded her that she didn’t have to get them
#any time my sister does something with her money that overlaps with my interests my mom thinks it’s me convincing her lol
#and then she was like ‘do you have anything you want to say to me’ and I should’ve know it was a trap! but I didn’t!
#so I said ‘I already know all these things and I hate myself for them I just want to be normal but I’m not’ type stuff because I’m hypervent
#hyperventilating and sobbing at this point and she said ‘stop trying to manipulate me’
#so now I don’t ever wanna be alone with her again
#I thought she had been finally listening and understanding and changing ever since I went to the mental hospital
#but obviously not because I felt like I was in school again
#she finally left to take a shower and I was gonna just down my Zoloft lmao I can’t please her so why be here yknow
#didn’t realize my dad was awake and he told me he contacted our therapist (we share one) and told her I might need a sooner session and then
#I went back in my room because I couldn’t get to my Zoloft and he wanted to talk and stuff and I almost took my backup ones from when I was
#on a lower dose but he came in and basically did damage control for my mom
#but he made me feel a bit better and somehow he just Knew I was contemplating sewer slide and had me promise not to
#I love my dad and he actually understands and is gentle and patient with me and I thought that was rubbing off on my mom but no!!
#love knowing I’m a big disappointment to her and that I’m manipulative too
#I can’t die but hopefully I can get out of here soon I can’t be near her
#she even said that even if my therapist suggests calling in I just shouldn’t!!!! so cool!!!!!
#love how you don’t want me to take care of myself because it could mess with my sisters reputation!!!!!
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