#sometimes i wish id stayed in that research and stats class i had in college

[kawaiianimeredhead]

Me pitching most things I've thought about

" 'Now does this have use? Does this matter?' NO! But I think there's numbers in it and therefore should be looked into. Do I know what to do with the numbers and what they mean? Absolutely not I just want to quickly look back and forth between them to see whats higher or lower and maybe I'll squeak out a reason for this all by myself and that sounds exciting"

#sometimes i just like looking at numbers #there was one day years ago i spent a good chunk of time #with some of my favorite youtuber/asmr youtuber specifically #and comparing theyre most popular videos #how many views they had how long ago they were published how many over a million view videos they had #not writing a single thing down but looking at like four or five different pages occasionally thinking 'thats so interesting' #and also 'i think they/that video deserve better' lmao #sometimes i wish id stayed in that research and stats class i had in college #but i also still feel very confident that i made the right choice in doing so as i felt a little too out of my depth #that i needed something between #also i was incredibly intimidated by the overall research project we had which required us to form groups day one with no knowledge of #each other which put at least my group on really shakey feeling and two of the three of us and actually i think the third as well all #dropped or co sidered dropping the class #i told them i was considering it and one group member said she already had which would have put our group down from the others and so i #also dropped it oops #hope our other member survived either in the class or out of it #but at lwast i spoke up before i did it the other gave no warning she dropped it #dont mind me #tag rambles #ive been sitting in bed because i dont actually want to be awake #so ive been on my phone listening to nick and occasionally the dog snore #pretending somehow im still sleeping or at the least relaxing despite already having my morning cup of coffee and having to get out of bed #to pee multiple times #its my dad off and if i cant actually slewp in i at least want to pretend i did dammit