#sometimes it helps to tuonk of him as a sepsrate being eho just loves to torture me

[roboraindrop]

Deeeeeep breathssssss

I've got a 100% survival rate so far, I can keep going

#someone tell my thoughts that pls #like... mini emotional rant for a second but today has been awful and i feel so useless and anxious #depression also sucks and hates me and i hate me and i really would love to just fuckin kms rn #j has helped me through this so many times but Rein's never really had to deal with it and im afraid if he knows he'll think less of me #i want to protect him but i dont even wanna be alive to protect my damn self??? weak af #i dunno #j says that he wouldnt be like that #i know he wouldnt but my stupid mind hates making people worry about me even when i probably ahould be wotried about #i dont wanna go through this #i wanna be at home so i can cry alone and not at work where i have to pretend to not want to break dow #im just gonna stuff my face with the chicken i brought for lunch and draw until my hands are numb #i might draw rocco #rocco is the personification i gave to my depression and anxiety #sometimes it helps to tuonk of him as a sepsrate being eho just loves to torture me #because then i can focus my anger to him and not myself #rambling #meg is emotional