#that i genuinely cannot handlr

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i have the strongest urge to self sabotage and cut everyone out of my life because i am convinced that i am the sole person who is looking out for me and i cannot for the life of me figure out why i feel this way

#new symptom of undiagnosed mental illness 😍 #i just genuinely want to ruin my own life #because i'm bored #i know that's not normal #i just don't feel secure in any of my relationships #i have the mentality of get them before they get me #so i want to cut everyone out #i've done this several times before in the past and each time has ended horribly for obvious reasons #self imposed loneliness #i just don't know what's happening to me anymore #what's going on in my head #i've known for years that i have depression and anxiety but being stuck in quarantine has been a catalyst for all these new symptoms #that i genuinely cannot handlr #i feel like i am losing my mind #i