#that whole convo in 106 where Deb talks abt Frank blaming her for the dryer fire

[prozac-shaped-urn]

*Me at the start of therapy thinking it’s gonna be a chill convo*: I have new artwork! It’s from an artist who does fanart for my favorite show. *turns my laptop to show this*

Therapist: Oh cool! The blond looks like Jean Smart.

Me: That’s because she is Jean Smart 😂

Therapist: Who’s the young lady making sweet love to her??

Me: Her name is Hannah Einbinder. She’s—

Therapist: OH FROM HACKS!!!!

Me: Yeah!!

Therapist: I love that show! It’s so beautifully done and funny as fuck.

Me: I’m the Walmart Deborah Vance so it definitely speaks to me.

Therapist: So what did you think of the last episode of Hacks?

Me: Full on tears. Supertramp is forever ruined. Like I heard Goodbye Stranger while in line at Wendy’s and started crying.

Therapist: *worried in a fangirl way only another fangirl would recognize* They are coming back right??

Me: *internally goes found-in-the-woods-with-a-stick-in-my-mouth-and-covered-in-kudzu feral* Uhm… Y-yes. The WGA is on strike right now but yeah they’ll be back.

Guys………. YALL

I struck pay-dirt with this woman.

ETA: I feel like I need to explicitly state the reference to Jean Smart is her AS DEBORAH VANCE. My therapist just said the artwork looked like Jean Smart, and I confirmed she was and then explained Hannah’s connection and my therapist understood the artwork is them AS THE CHARACTERS. We’re not delusional. We live in reality. This isn’t a Robert Bardo/Rebecca Schaeffer situation. WE GOOD.

#what are the FUCKEN odds this would happen #it’s gotta be less than a thousand to one #or more #whatever #i can’t do math #ANYWAY #so basically I can refer to things in Hacks that really highlight my trauma as seen thru Deb’s pov #and like rly WHAT A BLESSING #I fully intend on speaking abt my shit in my own words bc that’s how I’m gonna grow #but this just makes it so much easier #cuz it’s like #that whole convo in 106 where Deb talks abt Frank blaming her for the dryer fire #and how he bad mouthed her to the press #and apply that to my NPD mother bad mouthing me to anyone who’ll listen #I can explain so much more by referencing a show we both love #maybe I should get her to read my fic 👀 #that’ll REALLY explain a lot fkdkkdjsjsjsj #irl post