#that's another thing. atleast with actual tangible objectively sad situations

[yousaytomato]

When bad things are happening, and you're sad and stressed and anxious because of them, it's a truly awful feeling, and I don't wish it on anyone

But, it's such a uniquely worse experience, when there isn't anything to actually be sad or stressed about - but your brain has decided it's gotta be sad

- so you're just sad about absolutely nothing instead. You'll latch onto tiny, insignificant things that don't matter, that you don't actually care about, and these things will take over your life and make you sad for no reason at all

It's not a cathartic sadness, you don't take a step back and think "actually, this is a stressful situation, my reaction is proportionate," because it's not!! And knowing that, but having absolutely no control over how you feel makes you feel so much worse, makes you feel so stupid and crazy and pathetic :/

#i woke up so happy and well rested this morning #but hmm. sadness time i guess #but again. there's no reason!! #it makes me feel so lost and alone #like I'm floundering in the middle of the ocean gasping for air completely alone #woes of emily #negative #ask to tag #I'm not even going to tell yall what's on my mind because its so stupid #that's another thing. atleast with actual tangible objectively sad situations #you can talk about them. get sympathy and ideas and a different perspective #and feel less stupid and alone #but what do you even say about this stuff #it's mental illness innit #i think probably i am actually sad about other stuff #like there's plenty of bad things happening at any one time #Im sick and tired and I've got a family member actively dying and I'm lonely and i didn't get the job and I've been unemployed for too long #etc etc etc #but my brain doesn't care about those today #no. we're sad for imaginary reasons instead