#thats the one thing I miss abt my most toxic ex is I got to listen to music I liked during the most intimate/spiritual experiences

[binders-and-beanies]

Not to make it deep bc I do love having my own music taste but like. Listening to music that most people don’t like means you have to listen to music you don’t like during sexual/romantic moments, while you’re on adventures, while you work and study, any time you’re in public. Your happiest times are narrated by something that doesn’t feel like it’s for you and your most stressful times are almost mocked by the background music lol. Like not to be a bitch about it bc we all have to experience things that aren’t our favorite but I wish the world made it easier for me to like feel included in my own life. I wouldn’t mind other types of music at all if it weren’t an automatic expectation that I’ll like it and never want to show anyone what *i* consider to be A Vibe

#Idk how to describe the feeling I’m thinking abt lol #it’s like everyone decides for you what’s relaxing to you and whats fun and what vibe matches what you’re doing #and god forbid something entirely different sparks joy for you lol #that isn’t accommodated in the way that you’re expected to compromise 24/7 #this post was prompted by a post that said ‘let’s cuddle and listen to metal’ bc I was like me and who #thats the one thing I miss abt my most toxic ex is I got to listen to music I liked during the most intimate/spiritual experiences #(gay sex) #and like i have close friends who don’t know the most basic things abt me!! #and I talk about wanting to show them and it’s like they don’t hear me #I’m scared to like try harder bc I feel like they’ll just make fun of me lol #but GOD FORBID they ask me if I like h*rry st*les and I say no. then I’m a hater #and like in other cases I feel like people do support my interests and it feels so refreshing but #I still feel like I have to be annoying about it lol #im not even rly saying I want my music playing more with people who don’t want it bc that’s uncomfy #it’s just weird how people don’t even realize their music is the default and not everyone hears their own shit everywhere they go #mine #txt #music