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#the fucking mental gymnastics im playing every god damn day
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mental illness is a rollercoaster and i want OFF
#shut up hanna
#im like. im fine i actually am not mentally ill
#i definitely dont have an eating disorder. i can have this *food i deem unsafe when deep in my ed*
#and i eat it and im like see. i was faking
#and then im panicking abt the fact that i can feel it in my body and i cant undo eating it
#the fucking mental gymnastics im playing every god damn day
#can it just be QUIET
#and it sucks bc like. mental illness is becoming less stigmatized like depression/anxiety are taken very seriously as illnesses now
#and its clear how prevalent they are in our generation
#but no one relates to my degree of mental illness in my social circle.
#like in my circle of supportive friends i have in person here. theres no one whos had an ed. theres no one with a mood disorder
#theres no one with ptsd or cptsd. bpd. bipolar. none of it. and they care and theyre supportive. more than i deserve but
#they dont Get It. like
#dgmw theyve never been like. just eat its not hard. like they KNOW. but they dont understand why its as hard as it is for me
#and like. this is a side thing but its kind of frustrating that every girl in the department (LITERALLY. all of them)
#will say they have an ed like. im not gatekeeping or diagnosing its just. that's just not statistically possible yk
#like. you can have severe body image issues. AND disordered eating. both of which are harmful and deserving of help
#like when i told my roommate abt mine she was like. maybe i do too. and we talked for a looooong time abt it
#and i knew she didnt but ill never invalidate someone. its just. its sometimes hard when ppl think they understand and they dont
#(she also came to the conclusion she doesnt after talking w me abt mine and knowing im not even bad enough to be inpatient)
#like i guess im glad in a way that what i deal with isnt the norm ? in the population yk. like
#its good to know that what i deal with. bipolar and bpd and ptsd and my ed being the hardest to deal with. that they also
#are like. not super duper common? like its kind of isolating but it is comforting to know that not everyone feels this shitty
#all the time so stuff is way harder for me than other ppl lmao
#anyway. i lost my train of thought
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