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erineas · 3 months

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Being in a relationship with more than one version of the same skeleton should be a bit clashing sometimes. Especially if their personalities go different ways.

Imagine your sleep schedule is a mess and you just go to bed awfully late one night. You know you're bound to wake up past noon the next day, but you're too tired to care. There's nothing important to worry about tomorrow, anyways.

Hopefully, the one that finds you first is someone like Classic Sans, probably sent by Papyrus to pick you up for breakfast since he would be sleeping too if given the opportunity. He would see you there, hiding behind a comfy cocoon of your sheets, and would climb next to you to resume his napping in your company.

You two would happily nap the hours away if it wasn't for your next skeleton to appear.

Someone like Swapfell Sans would burst the door open (careful enough to not be too loud to startle you or to snap it from it's hinges, for that matter), probably thinking you were already awake. It's a surprise he didn't check on you earlier since he's the type of guy to be up and about at the very same hour you went to sleep, but he still didn't wait until noon to give you your 'good morning' kiss before going on his day.

He would wake you right then and there, complaining about how you shouldn't waste a productive day. He actually doesn't care if you use it to be productive or not, that's just his way to help you fix your schedule. And after all this time dating him, you know he means well.

From then on, your tired mind would have two options: leave the bed and fight the grogginess until you're functional again (and wait for him to sleep together at a decent hour) or fall right back into dreamland with the still sleeping skeleton in your arms.

Whatever you choose, if they're not to fight each other, you know someone will try to convince you to change your mind.

#That's just one thing #Not to mention they would do this all the time #With all choices at every opportunity in all scenarios #Brain will end up saturated having to choose between different things all the time #specially knowing both outcomes are good ones #It doesn't need to be Classic and Swapfell either they were just examples #It will get worse as you get more skeletons involved tho #Some would fight some would passively tempt you like in this specific combination #I kinda lost my train of thought here- I woke up after noon and have been writing this out since then #Felt like rambling in my own grogginess #I'm still sleepy #Anyways #5am random thoughts

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thinkin-bout-milgram · 1 year

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Triage: Initial Thoughts

Hello! Venus back at it again with the 4-5 AM theory time! This time we’re looking at Shidou’s second MV, Triage!

I’m going to be going through my various thoughts on everything as usual, going point by point to analyze each thing. I’ll be referencing Triage, his first MV Throwdown, and the always-fast audio drama translation by @onigiriico!

Alright, let’s do this!

Shidou’s kids died immediately, but his wife had a chance to live.

I’m basically just going to give a quick play by play of what I think happened in the video.

Surprise, Shidou has kids! And a wife, but we figured that already. They’re all very cute and all until they fade out like ghosts pretty early on. Before that happens, though, I think that, chronologically, the opening sequence of Shidou walking with some groceries happens first.

He’s just going about his day, walking around, having a great time. He’s intending to take stuff back to his family and cook dinner or whatever he usually does that we see in the cute scenes.

Then, though, he gets a phone call. He answers it (this is the untranslated “Kirisaki desu” part; please let us know if you find a full translation of what he says on the call there!) and we move on to the next scene. However, later, at 1:57, we hear the line die. I think that this is probably Shidou getting a phone call from the hospital. He sounds casual in his initial response because he probably assumes it’s work related, but once he hears what happened, he drops the line and immediately heads over.

I think Shidou’s kids must have died immediately because of Throwdown. Throwdown has absolutely no references to his kids (though he does mention liking children and stuff like that in his first audio drama, which now kinda stings) and, were he also trying to save them, I’m sure there would’ve been at least some references.

I think it’s far more likely that, whatever happened, both his kids died immediately, but his wife was in a condition where he could still try to save her. That’s when Throwdown occurs. Shidou probably focused intensely on trying to save his wife as a way to cope with the death of his children. Then, after his wife officially died, it really hit him that he had nothing left, and he was forced to process it. That’s when he started feeling all the guilt and wishing for death.

This isn’t really relevant, but my best bet is a car crash. It seems like a likely and viable way that his kids could’ve died instantly while the wife could’ve kept living. As a minor note on that, he’s also walking back with groceries, which could indicate that someone else (the rest of his family) might’ve had a car. I don’t remember if Shidou mentions anything about driving or anything like that at any time, but if I had to call a method of death right now, that’s what I’d go for.

NOTE: I do want to disclaim this by saying it’s also possible that one of his kids was the flower person in Throwdown. He gives a receipt to one of his kids, so that could make some sense. I need to go back and compare the flower person in Throwdown with the people in Shidou’s family now that they have appearances. I also need to reread his first audio drama; he says something about it being fitting that Es is judging him, which could check out if his crime relates to trying to save his kid instead. If I am wrong and it was one of his kids that he was trying to save, then everything about what I’m saying still checks out; just swap everything I say about his wife with one of the kids.

Shidou purposefully showed us the least forgivable parts of his crime in Throwdown.

Looking back on it, Shidou painted himself in an awful light in Throwdown, and I’m sure it was intentional. After all, he was trying to get us to give him a guilty verdict. If you say that a prisoner like Muu might have been altering what part of her story we received in order to get her desired verdict in the first round (innocent), Shidou could absolutely do the same thing with a guilty verdict.

He doesn’t show us any of the context of his loved ones and how much he loved them; that was all stuff we had to read between the lines of. We see him butchering plant after plant only to end in horrific failure without ever seeing him succeed at anything surgical. (He still should’ve hypothetically been saving lives while doing all of this; it’s not like he was ONLY killing people.)

He even shows us the horrified reactions of the loved ones of patients he killed. I can only imagine that he would do that if he was trying to spark a negative reaction in us.

In contrast, this MV is very straightforwardly showing how the day he lost his family went for Shidou and directly examines what verdict Shidou wants (more on this later). I think, therefore, that this is probably a much more honest view of the situation than Throwdown, at least in terms of how Shidou perceives the truth.

Shidou is constantly plagued by the guilt of what happened.

The simplest way to explain this is with this image:

When showing Shidou’s family turning to ghosts, he views the man that he used to be as dying with them. Shidou, as he was, is dead. Still, what happened clearly still impacts him. That’s pretty obvious, but I’m talking down to the details. He mentions kids and liking them in both of his audio dramas. Further, take this lovely image:

Pancakes. Shidou made pancakes for his kids. In BOTH Minigrams 3 (Pancake) and 24 (Pancake: a Second Trial) Shidou is directly shown talking about pancakes and their relation to children. He really wants Amane, the young child, to try some. It seems like he used to make pancakes for his kids before they died. He’s very clearly not recovered in any sense. That’s not surprising, but it’s still something to point out.

Triage takes place almost entirely before and after Throwdown.

That sounds a little confusing, but all I mean is that Throwdown is completely isolated from this MV. Some parts of this MV happen before the events of Throwdown; those are the ones featuring Shidou’s wife and kids, as well as the ones where he simply looks younger. The other parts are clearly looking back at the same time frame, but are from Shidou’s present perspective, here in Milgram. Those are the ones where he reflects on his verdict or directly addresses what verdict he wants.

Most directly, I think the part at 2:14 indicates this. Shidou, looking back on the death he caused (knives in the pomegranates and other food, dead flowers, receipts from the surgeries that we also saw in Throwdown), says “I want to be INNOCENT / I want to live.” That’s him, in the Milgram prison, right now, coming to terms with the fact that he actually, genuinely wants to live right now.

In the audio drama, he’s clearly conflicted. He still says that he wants to die, that he wants to atone for his sins and that dying is the only way he can make it up to the people he killed. He also, though, says that, at least for right now, he wants to live. Futa and especially Mahiru are on death’s door, and there’s no telling what other injury might occur. He believes he’s essential to saving lives within the Milgram prison (and I think he’s 100% right).

He even directly references this in the song lyrics, talking about “extracting the fang.” The fang is clearly Kotoko, given that Milgram has referred to the damage Kotoko does with fang imagery before and given that that’s what he’s currently healing. He has to be the one to save them because he’s the only one who can; as a result, to save lives, he has to care about his life right now. While he’s still unsure of what final verdict he wants, he knows that he needs to stay alive, at least going into trial 3.

VOTE: INNOCENT

Personally, this one’s a no-brainer. Es theorizes in the audio drama that Shidou only harvested organs from braindead patients, and though he never outright confirms it, based on his responses, it seems to me like that’s true. That means his crime isn’t as severe as we initially thought it was.

Additionally, he’s right; he is indispensable to us right now. He outright says in the audio drama that if he stops giving Mahiru care, she’ll die, whether or not anything else happens to her. That basically tells us that voting Shidou guilty means Mahiru dies. That’s not good, and I’d rather avoid prisoner death when we think it’s possible.

I also just don’t think it’s smart to change verdicts on him here. If we decide that, after all is said and done, we can’t forgive Shidou, we should do that with the third verdict. Here, we want to leave both options open. Right now, Shidou is torn between wanting to live and wanting to die. If we switch to guilty, we’ll ruin any chance he has at recovering a will to live and a will to atone through any means other than death. If we want to preserve the option of forgiving him in the end, I think we have to forgive him here. We can debate whether his actions were forgivable or not in the last round.

#admin venus #milgram #ミルグラム #kirisaki shidou #shidou kirisaki #milgram theory #i'd like to apologize if this is incoherent #i moved around a bunch of paragraphs and i don't wanna proofread rn #i have to pack and go home for spring break tomorrow and it's already 5 am #the lights only just came back on recently #it's been a power out for a while over here which is why the other admins were talking about battery so much #also the mv didn't have english subs right at the drop so we watched in french for a hot minute #that was fun #also apologies if i'm too much of a shidou apologist but legit i feel like his crime is at least extremely understandable #and he does genuinely seem to want to help #the audio drama made me emo though ngl #like... oh... THAT'S why you were commenting on Es being a kid and all that so much...#i lost my train of thought. anyways have your initial thoughts #i'm gonna try to get the futa/mu/shidou full theories up over the next week or so cause break

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wickedlarkspur · 9 months

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GOOD OMENS SEASON 2 SPOILERS

(not a lot but still spoilers)

one things that i found really interesting about good omens season 2 is that we got to see aziraphale and crowley interacting before crowley’s fall. cause i always assumed (and i feel like most people did) that crowley was the on to fall in love first since he fell in love on the wall in eden but after watching the scene of them interacting as angels i believe that aziraphale was the one to fall first (he might not been aware of it however). the main reason is just like aziraphale’s behaviour when talking to crowley in heaven screams talking to my crush behaviour. like they’ve never really talked before and aziraphale is all smiley and lights up when crowley says it’s gorgeous thinking he’s talking about him and aziraphale gets really worried when crowley starts to ask questions. in contrast to this crowley seems really indifferent to aziraphale during this conversation like he’s just another angel coming for a check up. and i think you can see hints of aziraphale liking crowley on the wall in eden as well. which i initially interpreted as aziraphale being nervous because he was talking to a demon, which i still think is part of it, but there’s this one part where crowley says something and aziraphale starts laughing before really hearing it which i think is him being charmed by crowley just as he was before crowley fell but then realising what crowley said he stops laughing which i think is partly just that but also him remembering that crowleys a demon now so he’s “evil”

anyways maybe aziraphale fell (in love) first. just a fun thought

#anyways i kind of lost my train of thought cause i had to do a thing so i hope this makes sense lol #good omens spoilers #good omens #good omens 2 #aziracrow #ineffable fandom #ineffable husbands #ineffeble husbands #aziraphale #crowley #anthony j crowley

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l8tof1 · 6 months

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How often and how in depth do Lewis and Bono communicate during the race? I've always wondered (especially since Max seems to hate getting talked to lol)

it's a very chill atmosphere? like, it's insane how calm bono is. that's why i love listening to them, most of the time it's so soothing even when the race itself is stressful.

at the mexican gp now they were constantly chatting back and forth during every lap! but i’d say it’s usually very short to the point messages. if it's a quieter race (no chance of podium, no cars close to lewis, no overheating concerns, etc) they don't talk as much.

idk if you wanted this much detail but: bono constantly gives lewis the time to the car in front and behind him, gives him lap time comparisons of others so that lewis knows what kind of lap time to aim for. this season he often asks bono many times during a race if the tyre and brake temperatures look ok to bono (bc miss w14 struggles with those) and if/when he should lift and coast to cool the car. lewis also always asks bono where he is losing time compared to others and then bono tells him what he can improve in which corner. lewis often will reply with “understood”. if lewis ever doubts strategy or the tyre choice or is frustrated with the car's grip or a safety car, bono gives minimal responses (like "yeah, copy that lewis") or reassures him it'll be fine (like "you're doing a good job managing, keep at this pace, the race will come to us"). the very few times lewis ever tells bono to be quiet is those "famous" moments when he says "leave me to it, bono", for example when he has a couple final laps to catch someone, or needs to essentially do multiple quali laps to make up time. i feel like those really didn't happen this season at all since he's not fighting for a title. bono also rarely asks lewis to make strategy calls. he will sometimes check which tyre lewis would prefer to switch to and ofc how long he thinks he can still go on a tyre. bono always reminds lewis to drink in the more physical races (he'll literally in between just go "and remember to drink" <3) and a typical thing he says when lewis is on the hunt but doubts that he's actually making progress, bono will say "you're the fastest man on track" to remind him he's the king of everyone actually 💅 hehe. in the races i've watched, bono has never once been sarcastic towards lewis or teasing him in anyway or tried to "put him in his place".

#anyway oops forgot i was just answering a little ask and kinda lost my train of thought while writing this essay instead #they're just the best <3 #ask

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amzyspinkarch · 1 month

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HE SPEED IN THE WRAITH WHILE HIS HAND ON MY COO-

#my man my man my man #igris #igris the red #solo leveling #Siri play Gyptain ‘Nah Let Go’#I am down bad #but not really #because being an igris stan/ girl #I lost my train of thought #anyway #we stay winning

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todayisafridaynight · 6 months

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personally wanna thank the sudden LAD8 news for letting me win cowboy kirby from the new gacha machine at ebisu today

#snap chats #yes i did take this while on the train back dont look at me #‘snap isnt gambling bad’ when its kirby you never lose so its ok i think #i actually wanted to play the old kirby gacha machine from last week but it was gone </3 oh well i already won somethin from it #i never got to play these machines when i was a kid so im makin up for lost time now. is my excuse 🤪#is this just an excuse to show off my lil man Yes. Also I Got Snacks.#they changed the gacha machines what was i supposed to do…#ngl i lowkey wanted the magolor one but when i walked in and saw the new machine i immediately thought of cowboy kirby #TEECHNICALLY ITS LASSO I KNOW SHUT UP but still…#omg i should draw cowboy joon gi with lasso kirby….. maybe on saturday lol….#anyway no one ask about the kuromi card holder kit. im gonna watch suspect x now BYYYYEEE

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tadpoless4 · 7 months

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Thinking up ideas for Golden Cheese backstory before the kingdom

I’m thinking she was found in the middle of the desert, and was found then collectively raised by the poor village folk. I feel like she was probably mainly raised by the village head, a kooky old man who i don’t have an idea for a for name yet lol.

adding a little more ideas below the cut

I think i got this idea from @ skybristle (don’t know if they’re ok with a mention lol) but as she grew she probably started stealing things from other villages, or more often, Travellers who found her looking for guidance to the villages that would’ve been found nearer to the main river (and source of water). She’d pickpocket them for money, food, or other goods as “payment” for her help.

She also probably frequently eats bugs, especially beetles that she could find in caves (similar to the cheese birds)— that being said she has probably a higher immunity to bad food and getting sick as compared to the other ancients

#cookie run #cookie run kingdom #golden cheese cookie #my art #i lost my train of thought in the middle of writing this #anyways i love gc she’s my favorite

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dayurno · 5 months

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Devastating that you had ten peaceful years to get into Jean and Jeremy but you only became interested in them when your headcanons got an expiration date... Like yeah Ill always keep smoker Jeremy in my heart no matter what Big Canon tries to sell me but it is a lowkey hilarious turn of events for you. Here you dropped this *hands you a cardboard L*

BAHAHA (takes the L) thank you............................... to be honest ive always liked jean and i never really cared for jeremy beyond his friendship with kevin and those opinions haven't changed so much as they have evolved. i still don't think much of jeremy beyond that he's funny and a good man, and i'm glad he's a good captain for jean, but there's not much investment here. perhaps the new book might make him more worthwhile to think upon, but truly there's very little about jeremy that makes him interesting or engaging to me beyond the amusement of his dynamics with jean and kevin. i daresay that as a protagonist for tsc he'll be the weaker end

BUT YEAH IT'S TRAGIC. it's all very tragic. i'm not looking forward to ten years of fanwork getting disproved or rendered useless, and to me, that's the most awkward part about the timing of tsc's release. i don't think there's anything anyone could do about this, or if there was any way nora sakavic could've timed it better, but i guess it's just still a little sad to think about. personally i'm not excited for the influx of post-tsc release content that suffocates the fan content made in the past ten years

#everyone can do whatever they want forever of course but you know what i mean? its a little sad #i feel like if we got tsc in 2018 or 2019 it wouldve been. not ideal but not as awkward #i dont know really fandom is not a recent phenomenum but it's still new enough that we've never dealt with things like this #in the publishing industry #if tsc is perfectly in line with all of the fandom's hcs it will feel pointless #if it isn't it'll feel like a study case in disproving the general consensus #i guess my point is just that it's delicate. it's all very delicate when it comes to stories like aftg #and i'm sure nora sakavic is more than aware of this #which again brings me to the point that if the writer has to conform the fandoms hcs to avoid harrassment or mass rejection #and it is in her best interest to do this because writing is after all her breadwinner #then what is the point of the book? and how can it be respected as an original piece of work?#anyway i dont know really. i dont know. hopefully my concerns are unfounded #lost my train of thought theres a cute fuzzy little bee buzzing around me #asks #jeremy #jean #tsc

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