#thinking abt this makes me so sad hfksjdn

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Adding something to the post about Mal accepting his death:

I also think what was really sad about Mal and his reaction to his impending death is the fact that he was SCARED to die imo when he said the sentence “Saints, Alina I want to live forever.” It’s just really said because it seems that Mal just accepted his death but deep inside he’s scared of it which I think is really ironic because in the very first book he tells Alina that he isn’t scared to die at all. Mal telling Alina that he wants to live forever imo showed that even though Mal is seen as a leader he is still a 17 year old boy who went through so much trauma but at the same time he’s willing to throw away that fear for the sake of Alina. I’m really glad he got the happy ending he wanted with Alina imo it would have been horrible if he actually died (even though the fanbase think it’s better bc ppl here don’t have reading comprehension skills)

True! I think he didn't want to come across as scared bc he wanted to make it easier for Alina to eventually kill him. And I think it made him feel like he got another purpose too? Like at first it was him being able to track down the other amplifiers that was giving him one, but he probably saw him being the third one as another way to help Alina to reach her full potential. He already would do anything for her, so adding dying to the list is something he would do without a doubt even tho he is scared of it. He already saw himself as a weapon to be used by Alina (which is why he got the tattoo), dying shouldn't be a problem too. As long as Alina is happy and gets the power she deserves.

It's just so heartbreaking bc he is still 17 years old, but just like Alina he still has the weight of the world on his shoulders. I'm glad he kinda got his happy ending too. Sure he lost his tracking skills, but he still got to grow old with Alina, which is all he ever wanted. It's one of the things I love about Leigh Bardugo's books, even though her books are full of pain and tragedy, she always manages to end it on a happy or bittersweet note.

#thinking abt this makes me so sad hfksjdn #mal oretsev #shadow and bone #again should i tag this as spoilers?? #ruin and rising spoilers #shadow and bone spoilers #asks #anonymous