#this is just me tryin to avoid what i'm supposed to be working on right now isn't it!!!!

[muirmarie]

god i really want to sign up for a bad things happen bingo card and just like. write the messed up whump and h/c that my freaky (derogatory) little heart really wants lmaoooo, i haven't written h/c for the sake of h/c (aka without, like, turning it into a Fic) in so so so long, but also i have enough on my plate with ye olde trying to build a consistent writing habit with my mcspirk bingo card - which is more about writing stories for me lmao, and not just, like, me leaning over my keyboard in a dimly lit room rubbing my grubby little hands together as i hurt someone (leonard mccoy) and then let the people who love them kiss their forehead and comfort them.

but oh i was looking at the list of the prompts, and i was like, yeah, yeah i do actually want to let my h/c freak flag fly lmaoooooo

i know it's not a good idea because i do not want to let myself get overwhelmed and/or in over my head! but also. also. also. i still have le ongoing problem of wanting to turn everything into a capital-f Fic instead of just dashing off nonsense, like i'll dash off nonsense all day here lmaoooo, but when it comes to a story i want to??? this sounds so pretentious. i always want to write something??? Good???? i don't mean good writing or whateve,r i mean like a??? meaningful story??? (ugh so pretentious) (and to be clear i'm NOT saying i'm succeeding - only attempting!!!)

and the siren call of writing 1k about a cardboard cutout bad guy that has a knife to mccoy's throat while mccoy backtalks and kirk tries to bargain and mccoy is trying to hide the fact that he's already been stabbed in the side and spock has to carry him back once kirk shoots the bad guy??? listen. listen.

but also i do know myself and would i be Content with dashing off 1k nonsense or would i. still. the meaning. would i still the meaning. that's the question. the meaning. would i still.

am i looking at my neighbor's yard like wow that grass looks so green and takes no upkeep (probably), do i still want mccoy with a knife at his throat and jim's desperate eyes and steady voice and spock's steady eyes and the imperceptible tremble in his hands as he picks mccoy up from where he fell (absolutely)

i mean i could just get a card! it doesn't mean i have to write anything! (that's the devil speaking)

(the devil looks so hot tho)

(the devil's got them baby blues)

#this isn't even really about me writing this is me TRANSPARENTLY hoping someone will say ''just get a card'' lmaooo i am. being SO obvious. #i'll still put it in the tag #stretching that writing muscle tag #i do genuinely know it's a bad idea to be clear #and i honestly do not know if i could shake the mindset that i need to write? like? stories with meaning? #(i'm not saying i DO to be clear!!!! i just mean that feels like what i have to ATTEMPT is all (ugh so pretentious!!!!)) #this is actually a bad idea isn't it. okay i think i talked myself out of it. (for now) #this is just me tryin to avoid what i'm supposed to be working on right now isn't it!!!! #i've connected the two dots / you didn't connect shit / i've connected them #(i give myself two weeks max before those baby blues make me a sinner lmaoooo)

[cainluvr69]

Surely, We Can Make Miracles Chapter 5

Previous Chapter

Nero: There ain't any point in eatin' it cold if it's supposed to be served hot! You don't even cook, and all you can do is fuckin' complain about it!

Originally, they'd been whispering to each other, but as Nero's anger mounted, his voice was getting louder. Even if Dianne couldn't hear exactly what they were saying, it was still perfectly obvious there was some kind of argument going on. Bradley leaned in, refusing to give in, audaciously trying to whisper into Nero's ear again even as Nero was glaring daggers at him.

Bradley: I can at least tell when the person makin' it actually has pride in what they're makin'. You ain't the one makin' this shit. Why are you tryin' to cover for 'em?

Nero: Now you're tryin' to preach at me about pride in your work? You're just pretendin' you know what the hell you're talkin' about when you're just flappin' your gums!

Figaro: (You know, now that I'm getting a good look at them…they're kind of obviously ex-partners, aren't they…) (I wouldn't have thought it'd be his friend in the kitchen. Really, preconceptions are never any good.)

Faust: (Nero… No matter how much he might say you're his friend in the kitchen, Bradley's still a Northern wizard.) (Thoughtlessly making him angry isn't going to end well.)

Lennox: (Goodness. Bradley's such a glutton.)

The tension in the air was only getting progressively more electric. And then Shino joined in, keeping his voice low.

Shino: I get what Bradley's saying. Let me be honest. First…

Heathcliff: Shino.

Heath said his servant's name sharply. He was every inch a noble right now, the look in his blue eyes cold and pointed. Shino flinched, and then took a deep breath and started shooting back.

Shino: I'm saying this for your sake. You don't need to do anything.

Heathcliff: You're being arrogant. And you're being ungrateful towards the noble Western Chenon House's Lady Dianne's hospitality, which she's put her heart and soul into… Any furthur critique is out of line. Your insolence is doing nothing but dragging the Blanchett name through the mud. Have some self-control.

Heathcliff's harsh words made Shino snap his mouth shut. He was trembling a bit, his gaze drifting away from him. After a moment, though, remorse showed on his face, and he deeply bowed his head. Heathcliff, too, bowed slightly to Dianne, and then elegantly returned to his meal.

Shino: (Heath's right… It wasn't all that long ago that I was hunting for scraps. Maybe I've gotten too used to living well.)

Heathcliff: (I'm sorry I was so forceful, Shino… But if I didn't say as much as I did, it could've turned into a diplomatic incident…) (She's smiling right now, but she must be furious in her heart… What if one day she says I need to give you up?) (It's possible I won't be able to save you from that, Shino… So…)

An unpleasant atmosphere settled into the silence as our meal continued. About when I felt confident no one else was going to start voicing their displeasure, Bradley leaned back and crossed his legs.

Bradley: But damn!

Nero: Woah! My hand's slippin' on the pepper…!

Bradley: Waugh…! Achoo!!

In the fight against <the Great Calamity>, Bradley had been afflicted with a bizarre injury that affected him when he sneezed--and, well, he vanished. Somewhere in the world, he was cursing Nero and his pepper.

Snow: Goodness gracious, I suppose there was no avoiding that.

White: We shall go to the market and retrieve Bradley.

Figaro: There's no way of knowing Bradley showed up at the market, is there? You two just want to go window shopping.

Snow & White: Gulp…

Figaro: Please don't do anything disrespectful. Rutile and Mitile are both sitting nice and politely…

Snow: You're so wrong! We're just going to go pick up our dear Bradley!

White: We have a duty to supervise him, you know! By the way, Owen dear, what's that cake called again?

Owen: Torta di cocco.

White: Thanks!

Figaro: Jeez.

The twins vanished like smoke.

Mithra: Hm? Is no one else eating? If you're not going to eat, I'll take it.

Owen: Here.

Owen pushed his food onto Mithra's plate, and then stood up from his seat and drained his cup of tea.

Owen: I want more of that cake, too.

And, having said that, he vanished, too. The ensuing silence was so heavy you could cut it with a knife.

Akira: (What should I do… Should I have said something…?) (I wonder what everyone's thinking…?)

Oz: … (Though this is not especially good…) (It still outclasses my own failures.)

Arthur: (I bet he's thinking this is better than his own mess-ups.)

Rutile: (I've made some pretty bad dishes too…)

Mithra: (Everyone's eating so lightly. That means I win.)

Mitile: (It's not very good, but saying that would be rude and wasteful.)

Riquet: (Expressing displeasure with one's meal is to embrace corruption. It is a terrible thing to do. I know that, and yet…) (I'd been wanting to eat something more delicious than this.)

Cain: (Owen's really going to go eat more…? I know that cake was delicious, but he already ate seven slices…)

Shylock: (My sincerest apologies, but I have no intention of putting anything that doesn't capture my heart into my body.)

Chloe: (I need to eat all of this, somehow… I've really gotten so used to eating Nero's food I've gotten spoiled…)

Rustica: (Chloe's ocean-inspired outfits look so good on everyone.)

Murr: (This rules! Watching everyone's reactions to having to keep their desires in check is so fun!)

Figaro: (For now I can just pretend to eat, and then get something from the market later.)

Lennox: (Lord Figaro isn't swallowing any of that, is he…? Is he making it disappear with magic…?)

Nero: (God… I can't do this… As a fellow chef, I can't pretend this is someone else's problem…) (What happened, Borda Castle head chef… Did you forget the seasoning to handle the smell or something?) (He seemed so meticulous in his work, too. Or maybe he got the cut wrong… Or is it someone else's work? Did they hire someone new?) (Maybe he got sick… He must've gotten sick. And now he can't taste things right anymore. That's gotta be it.) (Or maybe he injured his hands… How could things have ended up like this…) (What a disgrace… If it were me, I'd pack my bags and be gone by tomorrow…) (But what if he's got a family to support… Argh! I don't wanna even think about that.)

Faust: (Nero's making so many different faces right now…)

Dianne cleared her throat. She turned to face me and, bright as always, began to speak.

Dianne: By the way, Master Sage, I have a question for you.

Akira: Ah, yes. What is it?

Dianne: Lately, Borda Island has been facing a number of mysterious disappearances.

Akira: Disappearances…?

Dianne: Yes. Both the residents of the island and people visiting it are concerned by them. I'd like to ask your help in resolving them…

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Let me summarize what Dianne told me.

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Akira: Ever since Miss Dianne was appointed Borda Island's new lord, people have been disappearing. There's currently nine people missing, including both humans and wizards.

Chloe: Both humans and wizards…

Arthur: This island has its famous wizard market, after all.

Rustica: And this island is beautiful, so many humans come both to sightsee and to permanently settle down here.

Figaro: The development of magical technology has made it so much easier for humans to go where they like. If you look around, you'll see a lot of brand-new big homes.

Lennox: Meaning?

Figaro: There's more vacation homes. Hasn't land on Borda Island and in the City of Nectar gotten more pricy?

Shylock: I believe so.

Rutile: Isn't that odd? Are Southern Country's prairies going to be that pricy one day?

Murr: If there's more people living on them, yeah! The more demand there is, the more profit the suppliers make. Right now, Southern Country's pretty empty. But what if it got a population as big as Western Country's?!

Cain: Basically, Borda Island's a popular place to be for both wizards and humans.

Akira: Yes, exactly. According to Miss Dianne, the repeated disappearances are worsening the antagonism between wizards and humans.

Heathcliff: So they both think the other side is the culprit…?

Akira: It seems that way… The wizards in the market think it was the humans' doing… And the island humans think that it was the wizards' doing. And since Miss Dianne, who's open and friendly with wizards, just arrived…

Arthur: The island residents, already on edge, have been demanding that she leave. They think that a lord who's so close with wizards won't be similarly cordial with humans.

Akira: Exactly. You really understand what's going on, Arthur.

Arthur: It's like I always say. Though I may stand as Central Country's crown prince, I am also a wizard. The wizards think that I'll ally myself with humans. And the humans think that I'll ally myself with wizards. It takes a long time of open and patient conversation to stamp out any misunderstandings.

Shino: Why do you have to be the one to do it? They're the ones that are being stubborn.

Arthur: If you think the person you're talking to is being stubborn, you can never become friends with them. Both wizards and humans have decided that the other side is the one being stubborn. And so an endless cycle is born.

Shino: That's true… Actually, this is a good chance. You're a good guy, so let me give you some advice.

Arthur: You think I'm a good guy? I'm happy to hear that.

Shino: You're too good of a guy. You should let yourself get upset more often. If people don't wanna listen to you, they're not gonna listen. And then you're just wasting your time. There's not as many kind people in this world as you think. You should let up a little.

Arthur: Thank you. You're very kind, Shino.

Shino: Don't mock me.

Arthur: But don't worry. I wouldn't say I'm all that virtuous, either. I do have a goal in mind.

Shino: A goal?

Arthur: It takes time for people to see me not as a wizard, not as a human, not as a prince, but as myself. And for me to see the person I'm talking to properly, I need to take that much time as well. It's difficult to erase one's prejudices and preconceptions.

Shino: …I'm not willing to put that much work into other people. People who don't like me should just stay away from me. And I'll stay away from them, too. It's fine if we don't understand each other. It's enough to know what lines not to cross.

Arthur: I think that's fine, too. Boundaries exist so that you don't experience undue suffering.

Shino: …? Isn't that the complete opposite of what you said, though?

Arthur: I think it's the same. I probably just have much different boundaries from you. It's just about what we're good and not good with.

Shino: Meaning?

Arthur: If human society and wizard society stay separated, one day, they're going to collide messily with one another. I want to avoid that tragedy. I feel like that's the only thing I can leave in this world…

Oz: …

Arthur: What I'm trying to say, is… I'm good at having those kinds of patient conversations, and I have a personal interest in addressing the issue. So it's not something that's as difficult for me as you're worried about, Shino. But again, thank you.

Shino: Hmm… Well, if you say it's fine, then it's fine. Living just seems hard for you and Heath sometimes.

Heathcliff: …

Figaro: Things are getting pretty philosophical here. Both understanding something and misunderstanding something are important in a wizard's life. But for right now, let's just put that topic to the side.

Faust: You're just knocking that philosophical topic off the table like a cat.

Figaro: It'd be nice if it was the kind of topic that we could put on hold like that, right? So to sum it up, Master Sage, she wants us to find the true culprit behind these disappearances?

Akira: That's correct. The island residents are wary of the people in Miss Dianne's castle, so they can't do much at the moment…

Figaro: Got it. Then it's time to start collecting information on these disappearances. But first, Master Sage, can I have a second?

Figaro put his arm around my shoulder and led me away from the group. Once we were a bit of a ways away, he murmured something into my ear.

Figaro: …Master Sage. A lot of people are involved in these incidents.

Akira: The market wizards and the island residents, right?

Figaro: Yes. And there's also the possibility that these disappearances are actually serial murders.

Hearing that startled me. I looked up at him. He shrugged his shoulders with a bitter smile on his face.

Figaro: Wizards turn to stone when they die. Cleaning up the bodies is easy, so it's easy to cover up their deaths. Arthur is Oz's disciple, and Shino's been through a lot of direct combat. Heathcliff's also been taught how to protect his family. Chloe and Rustica have been traveling for years, and I imagine they've seen their fair share of fighting. But, my kids… The Southern brothers, Rutile and Mitile, aren't ready for this kind of thing. I don't think Riquet is, either. For the chance that humans have been killing wizards.

Akira: …How likely do you think the chance of that is?

Figaro: I'm not sure. They did say they're only disappearances, after all. Say you stabbed and killed me right now. All you'd have to do is wrap my stone in my clothes and bury them somewhere, and boom, I'm recorded as missing.

The bright sunlight was making my head spin.

Akira: (That's right. Wizards turn to stone…) (If something happened to any of them, I wouldn't even get to see them resting peacefully afterwards.)

Figaro: So I think it's better if the matter of information gathering is kept away from Rutile, Mitile, and Riquet… Oh, oh dear. Perhaps I should have kept it from you, too. You're looking a little off…

Shylock: Are you okay, Master Sage?

Suddenly Shylock was at my side, supporting my arm. He glared at Figaro, blaming him for my current state. Figaro raised both hands and shook his head.

Figaro: I didn't do anything.

The outline of the sun above glittered with all the colors of the rainbow. Just like the stone of a wizard.

Next Chapter

#.mhyktl #.main story tl #.eventtl #4th anni

[verobatto]

Destiel Chronicles

Vol. LII

It was a love story from the very beginning.

Love Will Save You

(10x03)

Hello my friends! How are you? This is the new release from my Destiel Chronicles.

I will talk entirely about episode 10x03, is a beautiful episode in which we see how Dean is saved by romantic love and family love.

More Humanity

Sam will try to cure Dean, to brin his humanity back. This is reflected by Castiel, who keeps talking about humans, like a recall and a parallel with Dean, who will reach his humanity through love...

But let's check what Cas is saying...

HANNAH:How are you holding up?

CASTIEL:Fine.

HANNAH: You say you’re fine, but you don’t … look fine.

CASTIEL: It’s what the humans do. They say they’re fine. And even if I—I don’t look it, you say I look well, and that way, we avoid talking about something we can do nothing about.

This speech is like that he gave in episode 10x02 and we already talked about it. Castiel is naming human's things, and in the other side of the coin, I Dean and Sam. Sam trying to get back his brother, and Demon!Dean trying to manipulate him, twisting things to make him believe Sam was a monster too.

DEAN: Don’t be so full of yourself, Sammy. ‘Cause, see, from where I’m sitting … There ain’t much difference from what I turned into to what you already are.

SAM: And what exactly is that supposed to mean?

DEAN: I know what you did when you went looking for me. I know how far you went. Crowley told me all about it. So let me ask you … which one of us is really a monster? Hmm? Starting to come back to you now?

Dean is tryin to redirect the situation towards Sam. Trying to make Sam to desist his plans. But just like Hannah is trying too redirect Castiel's mission into her, he will fail.

Bot of them, Sam and Cas, are aiming to bring Dean back, wherever it takes. No one will get in their way.

There's a scene in which Hannah is trying to persuade him, and grabbed his arm, but in that precise moment, Sam is calling. The mission (Dean) comes first.

Castiel's priority

There's another speech Cas gave to Hannah, because he understood she was trying to seduce him, to be involved with him romantically. But Cas was focused on Dean. Dean was his priority.

CASTIEL: Um… We can’t afford to lose our way.

HANNAH: I know that. I’m sorry about the map.

CASTIEL: No detours of any kind.

Castiel is trying to mark the boundaries right there. He needs to save Dean, and nothing else matters to him.

HANNAH: Castiel, if these are metaphors and you’re attempting another human communication … It isn’t working.

Hannah can see how being human or being among humans change the point of view. She will see more in the on coming episodes.

CASTIEL: I’m just trying to say this mission is everything.

Castiel is talking about Dean. Is obvious the other mission, Heaven's mission, is in a second page now. Cas is focused in save Dean.

HANNAH: I know that.

CASTIEL: Getting to Dean and hunting these rogues … I—I’m not at full capacity, so I … we n-need total focus.

He put Dean first in his sentence.

HANNAH: Like a laser. Got it.

CASTIEL: Just … I’ve been around humans for long enough to see how easily distractions occur.

This is very interesting, because he talks from his experience... What distracts Cas from his mission? And... It has to do with the same kind of distractions Hannah is having? (The romantic one?)

HANNAH: “Distractions.”

CASTIEL: Emotions, feelings … They’re dangerous temptations.

Oh Cas... Keep talking... Dean is a temptation to you? I can't imagine other thing than Cas talking for himself, if that is so, he had experienced feelings and dangerous temptations, and we know with who...

HANNAH: How very Biblical, Castiel.

CASTIEL: I don’t mean to be unkind.

HANNAH: You don’t need to be kind.

CASTIEL: I just … I’m trying to keep our priorities clear.

HANNAH: Not to worry, then. I’m very clear on my priorities. And yours.

I like the pause between MY AND YOURS. Because Hannah knows Castiel's priority is Dean, and hers are Heaven's mission. Hannah is aware about what Cas feels for Dean.

Love will save you

Demon!Dean is searching for Sam, to full fill Cain's prophecy. The bunker is in color red, just like Dean's devilish shirt.

Gif credit @fierydeans

Even injecting his own blood on Dean (family love) wasn't enough... Dean needed another kind of love to complete the cure...

Castiel

Gif credit @thejabberwock

Castiel arrives just in time to save them (both).

Is when he arrives and suppressing Demon!Dean's powers into a symbolic embrace, Dean heals.

There's a female outside in the car.

So, when Cas enters Dean's room, he checks Dean out... And as always, he was very honest...

CASTIEL: You look terrible.

[Dean laughs.]

And I'm sure he missed his honest needy angel...

DEAN: You know, it wouldn’t kill you to lie every now and again.

CASTIEL: No, it wouldn’t kill me. I just … You …

Gif credit @inacatastrophicmind

DEAN: Forget it. Well, you, on the other hand, you… Looking good. So… Are you back?

And I love how Dean is always complimenting him. Even when he feels bad, the angel is the sunlight that comes all over his dark room, so he needs to say it.

CASTIEL: At least temporarily. It’s a long story. Crowley, stolen grace. There’s a female outside in the car.

[Dean stares at him, and Cas shakes his head.]

CASTIEL: Another time.

Okay, let's stop just right here... Why is Castiel mentioning *a female* and not her name *Hannah* knowing Sam and Dean know her? Why he chooses to say it in this way... And mostly, why to mention it?

I recall this dialogue always caught my attention, and the only explanation was he was trying to make Dean jealous, why? Remember 9x06 when he tried to make Dean jealous with Nora? Because Dean had kicked him out of the bunker and he was mad at him? Well... Now... Who scaped with Crowley to have their summer of love? Yes... Dean. So... Cas is saying this in this way because he deliberately wants Dean to be jealous.

"So, you left and run away with Crowley? Look how I don't care at all, I have a female waiting for me in my car."

And Dean's face is priceless!!! Is like WTF DID YOU JUST SAID? YOU CHANGED ME FOR SOME RANDOM FEMALE?YOU DIDN'T WAIT DOR MW TO COME BACK?

Yes... All of that in one single expression. Even so, Dean adds some more sugar...

DEAN: I’m glad you’re here, man.

[Cas starts to leave, then turns back.]

There such a huge hearteyes coming from these two but mostly Dean. They're so in love people...

To Conclude:

Castiel melancholically recalling human's behavior, as a reflection of what Sam is trying to rescue from Dean.

Cas is focused in his priority, his mission: Dean Winchester comes first, avoiding Hannah romantic intentions.

When Cas is talking about how distractions (feelings and dangerous temptations) occurs, he is talking from his experience.

Dean was finally healed when Cas arrives, because family live wasn't enough to cure him, he needed Castiel too.

Castiel mentioned a female and not Hannah was waiting for him to make Dean jealous because he abandoned him for Crowley. Such a dummies in love... *Sighs*

I hope you like this meta, see you in the next chronicle!

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