#this is why im not invited to parties

[cemeterything]

why is it that i love socializing on my own terms and go out of my way to talk to strangers (when my paranoia isn't seriously acting up at least) and get excited when my friends message me or ask to arrange to hang out and love dressing in weird outfits that i personally think look nice even if everyone else finds them weird and judges me but the second i get invited to a party my brain goes full carrie white about it

#🐉 #i guess its probably because being invited to a party means i owe it to the organizer and the person its for #not to make them feel uncomfortable or draw attention away from them by being weird and strange and myself #whereas in public people have the option to ignore me if they dont like my deal and my friends of course accept me and love me for who i am #but still. ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #like i dont need social approval but i DO need to make sure i dont 'cause a scene' at someone elses special event #ALSO!!! i hate the concept of overdressing why the fuck is that a thing im gonna kill you just let me wear my little outfits

[ftm-megamind]

me and my boyfriend are sooo javid (he invited me over for a family dinner)

#jokes aside i am so fucking NERVOUS ABOUT THAT LIKE ??? #it's not like i don't know his parents/family. i do. i saw them plenty. still. oh my god #it's his father's birthday dinner too #i think im going to die actually #which is irrational because like #he went to a family party with me and it wasn't a big deal. i mean i was delighted that he was there. but nobody made it a big deal #so i'll probably be fine #still. you get why im nervous about this #while i adore him more than life itself we're still at a point where like. im not fully comfortable around his parents #because like. obviously. i have no idea if they even like me #i mean they probably asked him to invite me so they must like me at least a little #still...... #fuck. why am i even going off about this in my tumblr tags. whatever man #delete later #vent but like don't take this too seriously!!! just going bonkers #also can you tell i love talking about him

[grey-has-rusted]

^me when i am a sensitive person

#ramblings #i hate feeling lonely #it literally hurts my heart #i have such a hard time forming connections both irl and online #idk how many times ive cried just this past month bc i felt lonely #and even when i am included in things im always an after thought #its been months but im still thinking about stupid christmas #i know the whole point isn't to get gifts #but i got one present. while i spent hundreds of dollars getting my family gifts #they even asked me what i wanted too #helped my cousin decorate for her christmas party and last minute i found out it was a secret santa #i got invited but was the only one not included in that #so yeah.... #i dont have anyone to celebrate holidays with #my birthday was sad #i cried then too #not looking forward to tomorrow either #and i try to make friends and talk to people #but i feel as though i always initiate #and nobody seems interested in talking to me #which... i dont expect everyone to like me #but it really does hurt and it makes wonder what's wrong with me #also why cant my brain focus on something else #like doing something productive #its been ages since ive drawn anything #ive just been sad. that's the whole post. #bye now

[yourcalamity]

i dont think anyone should have to put themselves through it but it is interesting to me how some other “disabled” people just decide they cannot work before even actually trying because its uncomfortable or makes them anxious and its an active choice they are actually able to make which they see zero privilege in when talking to those of us who will always have to work no matter what… and then theyll talk to you like “oh you dont understand i just cant” while you literally experience the exact same shit or more 😭

#best example is shitty cali roommate who had three separate jobs including one i helped them get hired at and then they just decided they #couldnt handle it so it was fine to let everything fall on me and their wife with a heart condition while they sat on their ass playing #jewelry on etsy. and then theyd have the gall to be like well im mentally ill and disabled as if we werent too #also it was so obvious thats why they upcharged my rent when my only other option was homelessness they saw a situation they could take #advantage of parasitic ass person. the wife was not great either but after seeing how their wife treated her i really hope they divorce(d) #also jobless roommate was constantly making comments on what i did with my money too like they literally were mad at me for buying a $5 #t shirt from walmart once #and then theyd act surprised they had no irl friends after shit talking every single person they invited to their wedding party #this isnt about them tho this is about random posts i see on here and think. you can actually get yourself out of this one man. just try

[paint-music-with-me]

for fic reasons, is the Halloween party held at the hostel or at ray's house??? I want to say it's ray's house cuz the inside looks more "lived in"??? But idk maybe the hostel has changed up since they replaced Top's designs...

#cuz depending on which will determine how I write why and how top came to the party? #like obvi he did not get a clear invitation right??? #But then sand is there too.... #and im just tryna understand how I wanna write this ugh #if it's the hostel then it's a bit more loose to how ppl get invited - more word of mouth and friend of a friend tbh #but if it's someone's house - idk I think that hits a bit different #yk ??? #am I over thinking it??? #probs.... #anywayyy 👁👄👁 #blabber time #only friends #only friends the series #topmew #sandray #bostonnick

[tornoaserjo]

Me pot que les meues amigues s'enfaden perquè no els done la raó cegament als seus novios

#im sorry your stupid ugly bf is in the wrong #but wasnt i the one that rented a vacation house? the one who gave a copy of my id. the one who paid the deposit #(that all of you have yet to pay me back) #ARENT WE USING MY 50% GOVERNMENT DISCOUNT #no. i dont want your stupid ugly boyfriend to invite 2 of his friends to the house we rented. that can accomodate only 8 people #because we ARE already 8. and they come we will be 10!!! and not only we wont have enough bed. we will be breaking the contract i signed #*I* SIGNED IT. I WILL BE THE ONE TO ANSWER FOR ALL OF US IF ANYTHING HAPPEN. so no. 2 more people that your bf unilaterally decided #to invite can't come #also. one of those guys hates me. he doesnt even greets me if we see each other on the street. nope #this was supposed to be a girls weekend. and somehow the stupid fucking boyfriends are coming along. okay. and now they are inviting people #over to sleep and party? no way. because i know you. and since there's not enough beds that means you will simply party until 5am #and not let us sleep #fuck you all. and specially my girl friend that got angry at me for answering the “can they come” question with an explanation #of why i didnt think it was such a great idea. specially since i had already accepted the conditions of the contract and payed #the price of the house and the diposit #deposit* #original meu

[ialwaysknewyouwerepunk]

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#bday party tomorrowwwwwww #biggest party ive ever organised #i invited so many fucking people #i am...... SO NERVOUS NOW WHY #BODY YOU SUCK #anyway im beyond excited obviously so these nerves are just. me being impatient #and annoying and overwhelmed #going to sleep a lot tonight just to arrive to tomorrow evening quicker

[slutcore-starships]

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#why do i always have my best introspects too early in the morning #anyways . i just figured out why im never comfortable in discord servers #its like . ive been invited to a party by a friend #but as soon as we get there they leave me to hang out with their other friends #so im just left in the corner holding a red cup #(that i dumped out and refilled with water) #theyre never spaces made with me in mind . the party would go on completely the same without me #so all i can do is try to butt my way into a space that doesnt need me #anyways i dont know where im going with this . im just tired

[gutterxdollie]

idc if other girls wanna fuck u why tell me that its just so disrespectful

#like what am i supposed to do with that information?? haha good job buddy #im so fucking over it #like my feelings have never been cared for in this relationship #i want a guy whos obsessed with me #editing so i can keep complaining about this #like either give me more or give me less. #i hang outt with ur family we go on domestic lil shopping trips i stay for days at a time #im always bussing to see u where the effort back #u never even considered inviting me to that party i barely know ur friends u say u care about me #but im starting to feel like a dirty little secret #so if thats the case why dont we just meet up in an airbnb every few weeks instead of making me fall in love with u and ur fam

[lith-myathar]

proposing at someone elses wedding makes the day entirely about You and Your Love instead of the people getting married. the bouquet thing doesnt even come close to the same

I mean maybe I'm weird but it wouldn't really bother me personally. Like I said, it would depend on context, like if someone's deliberately doing it to upstage you, that's shitty, or if they do it prior to the ceremony and make a big deal out of it that's also super rude. But if they keep it on the DL or if it's done with sincerity then like.... what's the big deal? Presumably I love these people or they wouldn't be there.

#tbf though im also not the sort of person who a) would spend a huge amount on a wedding with lots of pomp and circumstance #b) invite people who would purposefully or carelessly do something like that. like id want to be asked if it was fine #but like shit another excuse to open more champagne afaic #idk i have very little attachment to a lot of the traditional wedding shit we do in america #a wedding for me would probably just be a trip to the courthouse and then a party in the backyard ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯ #like i can see why people balk at the idea it just wouldn't really bother ME as long as it was done with consideration

[diabetesnscoliosis]

Jesus fucking Christ. Can I have irl friends that aren't flakey

#I have just one #ny new years plans got fucked around bc my friend who invited me as a plus one along w another friend rhe other friend oulled out #and im not stayinf ocer the other side of the city w mt reliable friend bc its his friends party idk her and i dont want to assert myself #esp when idk them #evrryone else flakey as fuck hut get pissed when other people flake out like stfu thats you #also why tf am i checking in on you all the time you dgaf sbout my personal shit #dont ask abojt my mum or my house or ask if i need gelp woth moving #fucken left on my own #then i rot in loneliness and i dong fucken deserve it bc i check in on evrryone BUT WHERE IS A HEY DIABETESNSCOLIOSIS #using my url bc im not using my actual name #sad points of having a unique name

[savage-rhi]

📣📣✨️BUTTERSCOTCH PIE TIME!!✨️📣📣

#ignore the cinnamon powder all over the counter #i went nuts cooking like my great uncle Richard recounting the time he hunted a nazi in WW2 #and just laughing maniacally throughout the story #the same energy went into making these pies #per usual when i make desserts #lots of cackling like a hyena finding a carcass #rip great uncle “Unk” Richard #butterscotch pies #butterscotch #pie #see this is why people should invite me to holiday parties i make delicious shit #yes i know im a cyptid with fibromyalgia and im weird as shit that's beside the point #*hands everyone on tumblr a slice*

[axemetaphor]

grad school isnt actually that hard but there sure is a fuckton of reading

#i am This Close to just giving up on doing the reading at all. tbqh #why are you assigning so many chapters per week dont you know i have no executive function these days #rambles.txt #delete later #doodles #anyways i have CSP for 4 more days so im going to scramble to make Something. justify in my mind Buying Item #still trying to get adobe shit thru my colleg if only for my actual like college work but jesus christ this place's infrastructure SUCKS #but i am getting invited to many social events. maybe i can get a shitty job drop out and just keep partying with these people lmao