#tiny little thing dry heaving every few minutes because theres nothing to throw up

[nonegenderleftpain]

i hate hospitals i hate hospitals i hate hospitals i hate hospitals i hate hospitals i hate hos

#medical tw #my little sister is in the hospital after going back to the ER two days in a row #theyre pretty sure its her gall bladder but theres no stones so theyre doing even more scans #she hasnt eaten in a week hasnt showered or been able to keep down anything including water #on her sixth bag of saline and they still dont know what's wrong with her #and shes so small laying in this hospital bed #shes already underweight and seeing her like this is so scary #tiny little thing dry heaving every few minutes because theres nothing to throw up #i have always hated seeing her sick growing up and she was never a healthy kid #so seeing her and knowing theres nothing i can do except sit and listen to her pain is so upsetting #and my bipolar emotions do not belong in this situation so im trying to keep them on lock #instead of snapping at my stepdad for deciding to go to work instead of come see his daughter #or breaking down into hysterical fear crying #i hate everything about this and i just want to hold her like i used to when we were kids #and i cant #because shes got a fucking IV and every movement hurts #i love her so much and im so scared #do not screenshot or share these tags i am not in the mood for blocking people #you can reblog the post but leave my tags alone #hospital tw #vent post