#to fall apart and be remade with gold threaded through your veins and your skin burning to the bone

[astrangertomykin]

I truly honestly understand what the hell Ashton was thinking in that moment and cannot find myself to be mad at them. When you spend your life in pain already, there is no threat or fear of more. It's all the same, really. Especially when this way you could use it to help the people you love and, finally, make that pain worthwhile.

#ashton greymoore #critical role spoilers #critical role #bells hells #CHRONIC PAIN FEELERS HOW WE DOING #BECAUSE FUCK #it's being given the chance to weaponise that pain that has hurt you your whole life #to take it and to grasp it and to gain strength from it to protect those you love #to do some fucking good #to fall apart and be remade with gold threaded through your veins and your skin burning to the bone #to wield that fire to let it ground you so you can forge a brighter future #fuck hey ashton if ya wanna talk after your friends stop beating your ass I'm here bestie #i get you