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[exchangeyourexperience]

#undefined.txt #really good night in the discord server tonight #marathon

[prime-wars]

trying so hard to be normal abt the new mtmte notebooks but ohhhh it feels so good to be VALIDATED

#undefined.txt #pulling up screenshots of me from 2+ years ago talking abt how i felt like rodimus became a substitute for starscream to megatron

[nomaii]

i bought fe3h when it first came out, played it for mayyybe 3 hours? and havent touched it since. but im not gonna lie im really tempted to try it again just for edelgard..... also ive been really missing awakening recently but cant play it cuz i lost my 3ds ages and ages ago :'( and maybe 3h will help stem the heartache 💔

#undefined.txt #sighhh awakening my beloved... i miss that game so so so much. it has its flaws but compared to fates its a masterpiece #been listening to dont speak her name for the past couple days and remembering......

[infiniterowlets-blog]

Hey I Remade

#undefined.txt #im not As paranoid abt giving out my url so its agendersteven lmao

[ghiblivillain]

i should eat

#all i've had today was a granola bar at about 11 am and now it's about dinner time #undefined.txt #summer lifestyle: forgetting to eat

[deadkidzz-blog]

@ whoever has the charamatsu url: Give It To Me

#??? speaks #undefined.txt #blease

[the-violet-prison-blog]

updated my theme + about page!

#undefined.txt #twisting every word they say

[exchangeyourexperience]

yeah me and my friends are exceedingly normal about rain world. why do you ask

#undefined.txt #rain world #inspired by my very good friend venus and our absolutely deranged conversations about five pebbles

[exchangeyourexperience]

teeth clenched fists clenched body shaking i do not want to kill myself i do not want to kill myself i do not want to kill myself

#undefined.txt #JESUS CHRIST. #i need to get the fuck away from this family but i literally cant x33

[exchangeyourexperience]

i know it's stupid to be scared of your friends and that like objectively they wont get mad at you for things outside of your control but also what if its not stupid when its me. what if i am uniquely insufferable and unloveable and my friends are all waiting for me to drop the ball so they can finally be rid of me

#undefined.txt #sigh. i was getting so good at navigating through these thoughts until last year #forever fighting the urge to just become a shut in hermit... it would be so easy

[prime-wars]

[image id: a panel from more than meets the eye depicting the crew of the lost light fighting desperately against overlord, who is grinning as he fights back with ease. a tumblr post is edited over it, which reads, "everybody masc till the roach starts flying 😒." /end id]

#undefined.txt #posting this because i think its actually really funny :) #mtmte #overlord #edited to add an image id !!!!! #sorry ive been trying to get in the habit of adding them to all the photos i post but i still forget #also sorry if the id is worded kind of weird im still trying to get better at writing them !!

[exchangeyourexperience]

once again trapped in the vicious cycle of I cannot kill myself when ive come so far and It would be so easy

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[exchangeyourexperience]

had a conversation with a friend last night abt how plague dbd is actually a really interesting character to examine from a feminist perspective... like while she is kind of Sexified and has the gta v sex worker walk cycle she's also like. the embodiment of the sexualization of "undesirable" traits.

like, her entire aesthetic just kind of Screams sex appeal. the dress with the open hips, the fact her legs are entirely bare, the gold-plated, gemstone embedded nail tips... if she wasnt covered in batches of necrotized skin and leaking abscesses she'd be the covergirl of typical fan service in dbd. but she Is. shes quite literally rotting away. in her lore they describe how she started carrying around her little incense burner because the stench of rotting flesh emanating from her was so strong. half of her teeth have fallen out. in some of her skins you can see pus just oozing out of these gaping wounds taking up the majority of her body. she is probably the closest you can get to Objectively undesirable.

but instead of giving her some kind of "im so ugly and nobody wants me :(" look to her, bhvr Embraced her repulsive traits. her sexuality and disgustingness are intertwined. not only does she walk around in matches like she's going to make everyone her bitch and Knows it, but those same aspects of her outfit that accentuate her eroticism also serve to highlight how far this disease has ravaged her body. her bare hips have spots that look as if her skin has peeled away, leaving exposed muscle behind. her thighs and calves are covered in a mix of slick, shiny muscle tissue peeking out from behind thin strips of coarse, sickly green skin and round lumps of tissue that resemble tumors. and - in one of my absolute favorite aspects of her entirely unapologetic design - the bodice of her dress hangs so loose around her chest that you can see a good chunk of her boob. and if you zoom in, peeking out from underneath the fabric is a circular patch of viscous green flesh, stained with what looks like blood, in a (imo) fucking brilliant play on a nip slip.

yes the plague is disgusting, yes her entire gimmick is about her vomiting on you, yes she smells like rotting flesh and has no teeth -- but she's Still Hot, and Everybody knows it. she's a vile, disgusting version of every single sex idol you'll ever see in modern day society, and entirely unashamed of it.

#undefined.txt #tl;dr i fucking love plague i LOVE plague #even if i didnt main her she would remain one of if not my favorite character in dbd #everything about her is just... dreamy sigh : )

[prime-wars]

there are really like. 0 mtmte/ll artists who can draw women normally huh.

#undefined.txt #looking at a bunch of the roche covers i have and...... :| #jack lawrence draws them the most normal and thats mostly just cuz all his tfs look the same 😭😭😭 #and the thing is roche's women would be FINE if he just didnt draw their lips LIKE THAT.............. LIKE WHATS THE REASON . #so mad cuz there are some covers by him that i really like at first glance and then i look at them again and im like. mmm.... #LIKE THE ONE WITH VELOCITY AND NAUTICA. where nautica is doing the WEIRDEST FUCKING FACE #AUGH idk. men draw women like normal people challenge.

[exchangeyourexperience]

nothing makes me hate tiktok's bastardization of anxiety disorders and the subsequent surge in people making light of anxiety like being caught in a really bad paranoia spiral. every time i see one of those "if you get nervous talking to strangers you probably have an anxiety disorder!" type of videos or one of those "how do you function as an adult in this society if you can't even schedule a doctors appointment" i literally want to tear someone's head off. i have never once in my life felt that i have been truly and completely loved by those around me because i spend the majority of my time terrified that i will annoy/anger/irritate/offend/etc my loved ones into abandoning me, to the point where i spend a substantial chunk of my life overanalyzing literally every word i have said to everyone ive ever spoken to, dragging myself into pits of paranoia so deep and inescapable i have to lie in bed for hours just seething in it until i dont even feel like a real person anymore. but yeah sure no anxiety's just the funny cant talk on the phone disorder that everyone should feel vindicated to mock and laugh at 👍

#undefined.txt #vent #feeling a type of way today . #again i will never understand people who makes those comments about ppl with severe anxiety #struggling to function in modern day society like yeah wow it's almost as if anxiety is #a serious and debilitating mental disorder that genuinely affects someone's ability to live a comfortable life! crazy how that shit works!!!

[exchangeyourexperience]

i have this really REALLY bad habit where i base like. the worth of my interests entirely on how my friends perceive them. like, if my friends enjoy one of my interests and engage with it then its a good interest to have, and if they dont engage/aren't interested in one of my interests then its a bad interest to have and the sooner i drop my fixation with it the better

#undefined.txt #vent #<- kind of? #it has completely destroyedddd my ability to like. engage with shit that *i* enjoy but not many other people do #and im trying really hard to move past it but it is such a difficult concept to uproot once its dug down