#when i was in high school i wore shapewear to school because i was self conscious about my body

[afro-elf]

oh it's getting real bad lmaooooooo

#me #i haven't talked about like my body image here on my digital diary in a while #i used to weigh myself often like... once a week #when i was in high school i wore shapewear to school because i was self conscious about my body #for the past like... six or seven years i've mostly achieved some level of body neutrality if you want to call it that #but lately i've started body checking again #and i didn't notice i was doing it until like this morning #and i feel like shit #just ate dinner and i feel like shit #don't worry! i already sent a message to my therapist about it #i told her my body image issues were starting to mimic the ones i had in middle school n everything #but holy shit this feels so.... bleak #i hate hating myself but i'm so used to it #everything just feels like shit i feel so bad about myself i don't wanna leave the house #idk #whatever