#winchester brother chosen platonic life partners v important to me. if you can't tell.)

[quietwingsinthesky]

Thinking about the two drabbles I did yesterday where Dean was a bit of an asshole, and I do hope that it doesn't come across in those, or in any fic, that I'm making Dean needlessly antagonistic just because I'm more of a Samgirl. Esp when it comes to him reacting to samifer.

It feels realistic to me, whether due to actual logical reasoning or due to his Various Assorted Issues™️, that Dean's obviously not going to accept his little brother having a relationship with the devil with open arms. You know, it's a combination of Dean's canonical Sam-Abandonment-Complex and also, it's Lucifer, on the heels of Ruby, and what's going to present outwardly as "Sam is making a bad choice and trusting the wrong person. Again. So I need to fight back against that," is really covering up the more self-loathing, "I couldn't protect Sam from Ruby, and if he gets hurt/used/etc again, it'll be my fault for letting it happen a second time."

In one drabble, that showed up as 'separate Sam from the reminder of his trauma that he's keeping for reasons I don't understand', which is! hey that's wrong of him to do! even if Sam is only being hurt by keeping it, what gives Dean the right to make that choice? But he is Dean, he is Sam's older brother, and he is going to make that choice to try and protect him, and I love him for that. Overprotective brother who's making choices without knowing the full story. That's the Supernatural way.

Just some of the behind-the-scenes that goes into writing, I suppose. tl;dr Dean is an asshole and I love him so much.

#he really is trying his best! his best is just. not perfect. #which it shouldn't be! he's dean! he has. All The Issues. #god if i wrote ducifer and turned this around and wrote antagonistic sam #actually that would probably be more full-on angst than mostly humor #god the betrayal there. because dean's thing is abandonment yeah but sam's is betrayal. #dean siding against him. dean choosing for him. dean not being in his corner 100% #like wow these idiots are both so codependent. good for them. bad for everyone else. but good for them. #i mean the obvious solution here is that lucifer just fucks everyone because he's a slut- #ooooooooooooo no see now im thinking about ducifer + sam reactions #depending on the time frame it just gets worse and worse #(i'm not reneging on my hc on sam not being tortured in hell for this angst btw. i wouldn't do that. #and dean wouldn't fuck someone who hurt sam like that so moot point. #but post-cage is a fascinating time for ducifer. because of how much sam & lucifer know each other. #for lucifer to go to dean instead? oh. painful. fascinating. but painful. #eventually could be resolved by sam realizing he's still so very important to luci because he always will be. #the boys disentangling the hierarchy of romance with the devil's help. good for them. #it's the same as sam & dean Both realizing that no matter what other relationships they have. they will always put each other first. #winchester brother chosen platonic life partners v important to me. if you can't tell.) #dean winchester #spn #sam winchester #lucifer spn #samifer #lucifer/sam winchester