#would go w you :) and the cowboy was like you’re too effeminate for me and it crushed ray’s ego sm hr asked savannah to go home and let him

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i want to be gnc while being perceived as a woman im literally throwing up crying now that i read it back it sounds v trivial but it feels impossible to achieve aaaa

#and ​my friends tell me i am girl coded lol but still! #read a bit of ray davies’ memoirs and there was this story abt a fling he had with this girl savannah who was an exotic dancer and #she was really tall and used to dress in men’s suits when they went out and they’d enrage the local rednecks by making out on the dancedloor #and at one point this cowboy dude came up and asked if he could suck savannahs d*ck outside and ray was like well she’s a girl but i #would go w you :) and the cowboy was like you’re too effeminate for me and it crushed ray’s ego sm hr asked savannah to go home and let him #f her in her men’s suit DSKFLSLS savannah you own my entire heart i want to be you so badly #like i read this several weeks ago and I think abt it on a daily basis #once i move to berlin it’s over for everyone!! was there over the weekend and god..citee of my dreamz #me #i think a big part of this definitely has to do w wanting to allow only certified ppl to sexually objectify me?