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#yk i mean i take things very deeply very personally im sure some people remember may '21 lol
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#i still feel so sad
#yk i mean i take things very deeply very personally im sure some people remember may '21 lol
#but this is just very hard for me because im so confused
#why would you let resentment build towards someone about something they dont even know theyre doing to bother you
#to the point that youre hurting the other person and they dont even know why for the longest time
#it hurts a lot it wasnt even addressed at all until i brought it up bcs i couldn't stand not knowing and yet feeling so hurt and confused
#i needed to know it wasn't in my head and i was right
#but now im second guessing everything they talked to me so normally said they care about me all the way up until the day before
#but ive felt the distance for a while so do they love me like they said or was that not true
#if they dont then im such an idiot i really care about them i really respect them and love them
#idk im really hurting very badly
#really stupid for a 25 yr old to feel so hurt because they annoyed someone
#but i just wish it was addressed sooner and for someone who prides themselves on being open and honest and direct..
#it feels like they maybe just didnt care enough to talk to me about it.
#so yk maybe they dont care about me.
#which also feels like an offensive conclusion to come to about them when they dont lie and value honesty and openness so much
#i dont want to think they dont love me bcs i do think i know them pretty well i do think theyd never lie about that
#but maybe ive only convinced myself of that because it would hurt far worse if they didnt
#whatever anyways im so stupid and i know i must have fucked things up by being too much again.
#ill leave them alone and the hurt will ease up eventually
#their friendship has meant a lot to me theyve done a lot for me i dont want to lose it completely i really dont
#i just dont regulate well how much i care for my friends and its too much sometimes its one of the worst things about me
#but i genuinely want my friends to know theyre loved and thought of and cared about and i mean it
#and i cant always tell when i hit overbearing so i fuck things up.
#anyways i am sorry i made someone i care about feel overwhelmed and i regret that i made them uncomfortable for i dont even know how long
#im hurt but thats the worst thing i couldve done
#okay ill shut up now stop talking about it its just still fresh to me obviously cant talk abt it on twt and they dont follow me here
#i needed to vent without my irl friends 'fuck them' attitude bcs theyre a good person and friend and it does feel like its only my fault
#for the most part anyways minus yk the communication bit
#but we'll circle back to the do they even count us friends doubts and we dont need that ill move on now needed to get it off my chest
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