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The Work on Self

Today I stood on my balcony watching contractors work on an empty field. since we moved into our apartment that field has always been the empty open space. the snow came covered it up. the rain came and washed the snow away, and the grass below was ugly and there was a lot of mud. when it was snowing it looked like an amazing white filled opened space but now the rain made it an ugly site. as the summer came the grass started to grow with beautiful wild flowers and it was beautiful space, but today that green space was no more, it was being torn up by contractors. At first I was like mein that beautiful green field with flowers is gone. But today as i watch these men work tearing up the field it dawn on me that is how life is. 

We go through seasons some beautiful and white, some seasons are full or rain and mud and its ugly. the snow seasons are great and we live a life that is nice, but when the rain comes it often seems like there is no silver lining. Its in that moment it takes everything in us to stay afloat but sometimes it just feel like we drowning slipping through life never getting a break to breathe or to enjoy the simple things in our life. sometimes that season can take its toll on our minds and bodies but its not the end. 

the truth is we need to be the contractors of our lives. it wont be easy because we got to break habits, routines. we will have to dig up the hard soil of past pains and trauma, break walls we have already built. we may even have to learn new ways but if we work hard enough and long enough we can build something beautiful and worth it out of our life. something that will stand and be beautiful during the snow seasons and when the rain seasons come because of the foundation you did in the summer those rainy days wont make you ugly. you will be able to be beautiful during the rain and in the summer you will shine again.  

So wherever you are and whatever season you are in don’t give up don't give in work. one day at a time digging, breaking, building, and before you know it you will be strong and beautiful and able to shine in any season.

#mentalheathawareness #work #healing #trusttheprocess

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The reason I smile is not because I’m happy behind the smile there is a battle you could not possibly understand, but I smile because no matter how anyone tries to drag my name through the dirt I am still blessed because Jah know mi heart clean and them always paint me as the villain but mi always rise because mi a warrior and me never give up me never back down and me never a surrender to negativity and bad mind 💯 https://www.instagram.com/p/CS6q5GDLW52G5bt87XP421_KZO34FHsk1xdpSs0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Being one with nature. It’s amazing how something could be so beautiful and yet so deadly. https://www.instagram.com/p/CSotW7NL0iFVoRVFz4dSBYlwagQGZlVUQup7eo0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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It’s been 1 year, 365 days, 52 weeks, 8760 hours, 525600 minutes, 31536000 seconds since my life changed forever. Miss you both every day blood. 💔💔 rest easy brothers. https://www.instagram.com/p/CRgg7mNFzFB0ZB5Z19TO9CeEv-hbA6fjoDFjqw0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Everyone needs that one person that they can be them with and baby you mine. https://www.instagram.com/p/CQRjno-FpbPDsQMPQLLxnk6eoEMzV9ny5pXFzg0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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No matter how high the waves 🌊 that comes with the storm ⛈. When it clears I will smile away the pain because it only makes me stronger ❤️‍🔥💯 https://www.instagram.com/p/CQMzfA9lyNJ4HbWT8bFJj2ZhpDKB1hIJTivHio0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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"It is better to fail in originality than to succeed in imitation." -- Herman Melville https://www.instagram.com/p/CPyFYaFFI2kX1TuLcicQXi8SLe2ZfACAsEMU-Y0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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I'm not searching for the meaning of life, but I'm looking for a meaning within my life. David Lowery https://www.instagram.com/p/CPwoy6AlvzY704mDiZzlGjG8lLcOE0-cdDV61E0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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People who do not understand your silence will never understand your words. 💯❤️🗣 https://www.instagram.com/p/CN5EOOnFB-2TiO6ioAhg5RWA4-k3LWFt7USg3w0/?igshid=19f7xq2q7p9g4

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They be praying 🙏🏽 for my downfall... but just like the sun ⛅️ I always rise!!! https://www.instagram.com/p/CNF411vFQap2FdjJ8N-liheX8VcuOcWPdGpqiY0/?igshid=3gkp4z4cf8y2

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Just give me loyalty.... love is overrated 💯 https://www.instagram.com/p/CMwPyFKFUxlKfScm5_esFIAFSt-jPvr6kql_ME0/?igshid=15wwtcsastlii

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The heat sends us to the most comforting place ever. River day with friends. https://www.instagram.com/p/CMHsCpuli8HggCn--MTrYHy1Gao_kS9gpJ88zk0/?igshid=l9xl08we3xit

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It’s the beer of belize #belikinbeer #belikinstout #villagelife https://www.instagram.com/p/CMGZVr6FpTWZ446W_6mKUyr_9QwJh4--IdqexU0/?igshid=zl88ymkgvmro

#belikinbeer #belikinstout #villagelife

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We knew about auto tune before there was an app for it we used the fan 😂😂😂 https://www.instagram.com/p/CEyK0jHFxfMqLK57sv5mWD-nIC5zeNEXuzn24g0/?igshid=1aerubm14562h

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Family time. Celebrate the matriarch of the family at the age of 76. https://www.instagram.com/p/CEiS7UlF2Wd0M0WW1tiCF15372dA2_kvdvaiBY0/?igshid=ewuuhga32e0t

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Wanna say happy girlfriend day to me. I know I’m the bomb ass girlfriend anyone would want because I’m all that they would ever need. Lol. Today I wanna say happy girlfriend day to my baby @limitlesslov3 . She my ride or die we been through some stuff and it ain’t been easy but we making it one day at a time and I love you no matter what and will never stop loving you. Right now I’m in a bad place but it won’t be forever baby. ❤️❤️❤️💯💯💯💪🏽💪🏽💪🏽😘😘😘😘 https://www.instagram.com/p/CDWXQ87lIuTdD9hs11auuSOCRG4j_mSX7Lb5x80/?igshid=1r1qu7u161evs

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Sleep on little bro 💔💔💔💔 mein this hurts and it just don’t seem real. You were taken way too soon Sammy. https://www.instagram.com/p/CC3Xf5plzQ4zD9eiwGPr-RNPrHTJXH30_TRjl40/?igshid=dr1m89up16br