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[thisdamnsociety]

If any of you didn’t know, I’m a high school student. So I have to deal with homework.

And as of today, I’m scared about my grades. I forgot to turn a few things in because I was burned out from work. So I took naps and breaks but sometimes am forgetful to turn things in. I’m trying my best to stay on top of my classes but man, it’s hard and tough.

I’m scared about failing, I’m scared about many factors. And I am trying my best to try to stay on top of my classes. I don’t want my grades to drop, and I am scared about that. I know it’s my fault, and I’ll try my best to improve but I have the worrying feeling of failing and when I do homework, I usually remember things from the past that I despise. Mostly because my mind is always connecting things related or unrelated to the topic I’m doing homework on. I’m so fucked. And I’m trying to “unfuck” myself from this mess I’m in.

[thisdamnsociety]

October 2, 2021: Damn Intro and Patriarchism

Well, this is it, a place where I can let all my stuff out. A place where I can be me, and not be pushed by society to do shit that I have to do. And I'm talking about that redpilled shit. I don't want to deal with anyone (including my parents) about shit that I can easily disagree on because simply, there's no logical explanation. Simply, you're a pseudo-intellectual if you come up to me talking about the most redpilled shit you can ever say.

But I've gone on a rant now, I haven't introduced myself. I'm Via. I'm currently a 16-year-old sophomore in high school. My hobbies include deep thinking, art, video games, reading, listening to music, and other teenage things other people do. I like to analyze people the most, so yes, I actually do love Myers Briggs and enneagram. I like to analyze the hell out of them. And yes, I prefer to use cognitive functions over letter dichotomies.

Now, for a diary part,

There's this one kid that tends to be a dick to me and use my deadname all because I'm "different." He has long hair, and is in the same grade as me, but there was one thing I noticed with him. He doesn't act like his true self in classes. Last year, he gave a spanish presentation without being an annoying little shit. Of course he had flaws, I had flaws too. We were freshmen. But I'm not being nitpicky on his presentation, I'm being nitpicky on the way he acts. He's a manipulative little douchebag that I despise. When he's around teachers, he tries to act as obedient as possible. But around friends, he's a total douchebag.

Sometimes, I feel that there's a reason why he acts this way. In society, since primitive boys learned how to stick their shlong in a hynie, boys have tried to slow talk their way to getting to a woman. And when the woman is pregnant, the man leaves as the woman is there to weep as the man with no integrity grins to find another woman to have sex with and leave. Kind of like Ted Bundy but not killing people. What I'm trying to say is that men have always had the floor for millions of years. And the fact that they have had that floor means that in their puny little mind, they have the authority to do anything they want. Like attack planned parenthood when they can't grow a baby themselves.

People (specifically cishet men) like these are the reason for queerphobia, sexism, islamophobia, and other shit that the redpilled community claims that "it's the truth" or "FREE SPEECH BITCH YOU CAN'T CENSOR MY SHIT!" No kidding, I was actually called the f slur for being fruity. Bruh, everyone loves fruits. You sucking on Dum Dum lollipops is fruity. You basically call someone out all because you follow a fucking bible from the 1940s? Have you ever considered legal euthanization before? Grow the hell up.

The Patriarchy we've known is corrupt as hell. And here's the thing, I can't change the damn minds of old immature little shits because they have this philosophy that they're right because apparently old = smart. Guess what, Elon? The maximum we can live in this world is 125 years. And the earth is 4.5 billion years old. And sure, you've probably passed high school global, and US history. However, you're so damn stupid to think that things haven't changed and that you know everything by then. The thing is, we don't. Conspiracy theories from Facebook won't expand your knowledge, they're just there to entertain. Adding on, those theories use evidence that is old as hell. The only evidence that your redpilled mind would listen to is evidence you want to hear. But like Leigh Allyn Baker, you don't know shit about the world if you stick to facts from 1972. You won't know anything if you don't look at both sides (or rather all sides) of the spectrum. If the world was a human, the world would be around 22-25 years old. You only lived a second of that time. And learning facts that we know so far won't help. Mostly because our world is changing. So grow the hell up, and stop being a huge dick.

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