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[thissickmf]

bye guys

i‘m going to force myself into recovery because i‘m sick of being afraid of eating the food i love and loosing my energy day for day

i‘m not sure if i‘ll ever use tumblr again we‘ll see

stay safe <3

04/03/21

#ana #ed #eating disorder #recovery

[thissickmf]

i just ate 150g rice with sauce and meat and i feel really guilty but it tasted way too good to not finish it wellllllp and now i feel like exploding

send help ————-////—-2:€1@-!1!18191!:—-„“1-

it had so many calories (;´༎ຶٹ༎ຶ`) (ᗒᗣᗕ)՞

#ana #ed #eating disorder #eating disoder things #tw

[thissickmf]

02/03/21

breakfast: 198 calories

½ multi wheat wrap (100cals)

2 scrambled eggwhite(29cals)

64g zucchini (15cals)

10g cheese (36cals)

½ slice cooked ham (18 cals)

lunch: 135 calories

about 50g spaghetti aglia e olio (135cals?)

dinner: 136 cals

2 crispbread (40 cals)

13g cooked meat? (maybe 36cals)

cottage cheese (18 cals)

1 carrot (21 cals)

5 mini tomatoes (11 cals)

snacks/drinks:

2 espresso (2 cals)

1 apple (88 cals)

1 maxi king (188 cals)

green tea with nettle? (3cals)

water: about 2,4 litres

calories burned: 256

total: 744-256 = 488 cals

#ana #ed #eating disorder #tw

[thissickmf]

the fact that i have to force myself to eat at least 800 cals 🤌🏻

#ana #ed #eating disorder #tw #eating disoder things

[thissickmf]

does someone know how 50g of cooked spaghetti look like?

#ana #ed #eating disorder

[thissickmf]

i need help

so i‘m taking vitamins and this shit now but i‘m not sure if there are more i need to take and i don’t want to ask my parents

i take vitamin c, b vitamins, iron, magnesium and calcium

?

#ana #ed #eating disorder

[thissickmf]

i‘m sorry

i‘m sorry that i‘m not the daughter you wanted

i‘m sorry that i can’t be like other girls

i‘m sorry that i can’t eat much

i‘m sorry for fearing to gain weight

i‘m sorry for being a disappointment

i‘m sorry for eating slow

i‘m sorry for the way i am

i‘m sorry for not doing what you want

i‘m sorry for being such trouble

i‘m sorry for being numb

i‘m sorry for doing the opposite of what you want

i‘m sorry for being such a failure

i‘m sorry i‘m sorry i‘m sorry i‘m sorry

#tw

[thissickmf]

some rules for myself 🪨

drink at least 2l water a day

try to walk 8-10 thousand steps

workout 5 days a week (try more)

drink a cup of green tea before going to bed

try to eat 800 cals on weekdays and 1000 cals on weekends (you don’t want to ruin your metabolism)

sleep +7 hours never less

don’t snack after dinner

count those mf calories

don’t weight yourself in the evening

if youre eating out try to eat the healthiest

#ana #ed #eating disorder #tw

[thissickmf]

28/02/21

breakfast: 127 cals

½ spelt bread roll (68 cals)

cottage cheese (18 cals)

2 slices ham (36 cals)

4 slices cucumber (4 cals)

lunch: 220 cals

1 big ass bowl (2 portions) of banana cookies & pb protein nicecream (180 cals)

10 blueberries (6 cals)

10g granola (44 cals) tf never gonna eat that again

dinner: ———

potato meat gratin (idkkkkkk)

salad (about 30 cals)

snack/drinks:

2 espresso (2 cals)

450ml green tea matcha (2 cals)

about 100ml carrot juice (24 cals)

water: 2,3 litres

calories: ————

calories burned: 175

total: ———

i‘m too lazy to do sport today sjiwkw

pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain

carrot juice is the most disgusting thing i’ve ever drank. i rather take vitamins

i also ate nuts but i didn’t want to count the calories because they’re healthy and i would make myself crazy searching for the calories for those 100000 differents

#ana #tw #ed #eating disorder

[thissickmf]

i am now in love with banana cookie & pb protein nicecream “fluff”

this has susprisingly not that much calories and is reaally filling

i love it *insert mc donalds ad*

#ana #ed #eating disorder #tw?

[thissickmf]

27/02/21

breakfast: 142 cals

baked oats with dark chocolate (133 cals)

apple (9 cals)

lunch: 95 cals

2 crispbread with cottage cheese and cooked ham (?)

dinner: 161 cals

1 piece of pizza with tuna, onions, corns? and 1 mushroom (136 cals)

salad (about 25 cals)

snack/drinks: 292 cals

espresso (1 cal)

ginger shot (60 cals)

½ piece of apple cake (86 cals)

300ml earl grey tea (3 cals)

⅓ of this big ass gummybear (20 cals)

protein cherry yogurt (120 cals)

450ml green tea matcha (2 cals)

water: 2,3 litres / 77,7 oz

calories burned: 404

total: 287 cals

i’m actually forcing myself to eat because i don’t want to completely destroy my metabolism

and it wasn’t me who said they wanted to eat atleast 1000 calories a day nopee

#ana #ed #tw #eating disorder

[thissickmf]

I JUST REACHED MY GW

and damn i’ve never thought i would get this “far” but when i’ve weighed 35-36kg / 77,1 - 79,3 lbs i always thought that i’m not able lose weight because i was already underweight and i still can’t really believe it buuuut my scale says otherwise

jhgjhguyfyyftfinjinibbiahbdihwgwgiudgqiuhdiquhwiuqhwudiw

#ana #tw #ed #eating disorder

[thissickmf]

26/02/21

breakfast: 266 cals

3 oat pancakes with cottage cheese and maple syrup (213 cals)

3 raspberries (13 cals)

lunch: 135 cals

spätzle with tomato sauce, kohlrabi and feta

dinner: 77 cals

2 crisp bread with cottage cheese

snack/drink: 341 cals

ginger shot (60 cals)

espresso(1 cal)

fruit salad (154 cals)

450ml earl grey tea (5 cals)

1 hanuta (119 cals)

450ml green tee match (2 cals)

water: 2,15 litres

calories burned: 189 cals

total: 630 cals

pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain pain

i can’t believe it the hanuta just flew right into my mouth i didn’t even touch it 😾

#ana #ed #food log #tw #eating disorder

[thissickmf]

it’s hard my mom is sitting next to me on the coach, she has her period and is eating a lot of chocolate and chips....

#ed #eating disoder things #ana #tw?

[thissickmf]

can someone please stop me from eating this mf fruit salad right now instead of eating it at dinner

shit my desire won 🧍🏻

#ana #ed #eating disorder #eating disoder things

[thissickmf]

25/02/21

breakfast: 142 cals

oatmeal with ½ apple (142 cals)

lunch: 184 cals

½ ramen with a carrot (156 cals)

½ apple (29 cals)

dinner: 223 cals

spaetzle with tomato sauce, feta and kohlrabi (223 cals)

snacks/drinks: 311 cals

2 espresso (2 cals)

2 waffles with applesauce and cream (277 cals)

earl grey (0 cals)

1 crisp bread (20 cals)

1,5 salted cashews (?) (9 cals) surprisingly

450ml green tea matcha (2 cals)

water: 2,15 litres

calories burned: 409

total: 452 cals

[thissickmf]

i don’t want to do this but i’m going try to eat at least 1000 calories a day because i want to get a little taller so my legs will no longer look like two little fat sausages 🧍🏻

#ana #ed #eating disorder #tw #eating disoder things