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BUCK-TICK —  世界は闇で満ちている

#<3 #fave #BT #music file

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N159 is 150 light years across

#space

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shoutout to the really anxious people who face the world every day even though it makes their whole bodies freak out

#<3 #feel nauseous and light headed going out to the store today. called my bestie to accompany me. had to lay down and unwind #now I feel extremely tired and exhausted and like a cranky little child

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「MY BLOODY VAMPIRE - 2024.01.17.Club Citta」

➴ Hades

#legGG #toshiya #薰 #dir en grey

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online communities are so strange because people slip away so easily. you can be on here for years, folding people you've never met into the fabric of your daily life, and then they disappear, leaving only ghost posts scattered across tumblr behind. or their blog stays dormant, for weeks, months, years, until you're only still following them because you remember that they love sunflowers or they were kind to you when they didn't have to be or the last thing they posted was sad and raw and you still worry about them sometimes.

and sometimes they come back when you least expect it, years later, even, and there's this sudden rush of relief like there you are, there you are, even though you barely knew each other.

there's a strange kind of love to it. i don't know you and i want to hold your hand across miles and time zones and oceans. i can still see the imprint of you in this community you left. you don't anyone will notice or care when you're gone, but we notice and we care and we wish you well.

i hope you're all okay out there. i hope the sun is shining on your face and you are breathing deeply. i miss you.

#b. #still thinking about her and all the stories we wrote and talked at length about in dms #i hope she's doing well and found some comfort and rest

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#fashion #i guess #pwetty

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Yayoi Kusama: Infinity Mirrored Room (2013) the souls of millions of light years away

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I am a terrible combination of “whatever happens, happens” and “If everything doesn’t go according to plan, I will vaporize”

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rainy funerals have such a Vibe

(vibe = me about to get sick afterwards)

#watch me be ill for 2 weeks now #was standing in the cold rain for 3hrs today

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People think being self aware cancels out mental illness. That when you realise your thoughts or behaviours are irrational you just stop having/doing them

Instead what happens if you're extremely self aware and mentally ill is that you just think in a resigned kind of way "I'm being really fucking crazy right now" while being very loudly mentally ill

Sometimes you are able to tell the people around you "oh, you can ignore me rn. I'm just being extremely mentally ill rn. It will eventually pass" and then continue your erratic behaviour. But mostly it's just privately thinking: "well this is embarrassing but I can't turn it off so just gotta deal with it I guess."

It's infuriating honestly

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© Ophélie Griffin for United Rock Nations

#dir en grey

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「MY BLOODY VAMPIRE - 2024.01.17.Club Citta」

➴ MYAKU

#escuse meee #toshiya #die #dir en grey

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i know the picture i posted from toshiya's photobook is one of the few veeery casual and simple ones and it doesn't have that extravagant lighting and set up and there's less focus and i like that it makes me feel a bit drowsy and balanced (and there's so many high quality shots in the book like omg)

this photo is NOT a proper reference to what is awaiting you in the book.

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Toshiya OFFICIAL PHOTOBOOK 「 泡沫 - overflow - 01 」

#toshiya #dir en grey #btw this is not a worthy photo for a reference. there is sooo much more awaiting you #but i really liked the vibe and warmth it gives off

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I’m bored and nosy. Please reblog this with the book you’re currently reading.

#the lost road and other writings by tolkien #a universe from nothing by lawrence krauss

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#toshiya #dir en grey

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“omg you’re so creative. how do you get your ideas” i hallucinate a single scene in the taco bell drive thru and then spend 13 months trying to write it