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Heres a reminder for you that being dissociated isn't limited to the common misconception where you are frozen in place, incapable of doing anything or even thinking, or experiencing a significant time gap,, those things.

And while its hard to spot the milder signs when you're dissociating, don't worry i got you covered by bringing awareness, im showing what those signs could look like:

Dazing/blanking out several times

Hands looking weird (depersonalization)

Surroundings also looking weird (derealization)

Feeling detached emotionally, physically, or both

Light-headedness

Less reactive in responding

Forget things more often

Unable to focus or keep concentration straight

When you have multiple of those signs at once, then chances are you are dissociating (extra note that it can also co-occur with derealization/depersonalization). While it can be caused by various factors, i would like to add that it may or may not get worse as time passes and no one wants that thing to snowball until it got too bad (remember, preventing now is better than dealing later) so having a few tips would help:

Grounding (sensory): listening to music, feeling different textures, paying attention to things in your surroundings, trying different fragrant or scents, have some snacks to occupy your senses

Grounding (physically): feel your chest as you breathe, get your body moving to redirect focus, splash some cold water, hold something you can squeeze (such as a stress ball)

Practice being mindful. As it can help you re-anchor back to reality faster, regulate better, building more resilience, increasing awareness of oneself's state

Sometimes we go do our day without giving a thought that were detached from reality, usually by going autopilot and scrolling through social medias without being aware (well, atleast for me) and forget lots of things while being dysregulated at the end. So by being aware of the mild signs and incorporating grounding skills im sure memory gaps and those funny aftermath stuffs won't be a problem anymore, have a good day peeps.

EDIT: I forgot to mention that another sign is your hearing feels muffled, that you can hear sounds feel more distant despite close, i thought it could be grouped with the “less reactive” before.

- j

#did #did alter #actually mentally ill #endos dni #endo dni

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he smells like garbage

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gonna hit the bed in a bit have quick finger doodle of a silly :3

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dump of a bunch of drawings i did of these two freaks like forever ago

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don't think I ever got over this guy :/

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Cast pics🤭🤭

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the dickriding is craaazyy😭 (i’m the dickrider in question)

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✨Romie✨

It's a bit crooked 🥺😂

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I know everyone thinks Jerome would dress up as a clown on Halloween but come on guys. Broaden your minds. He'd totally be a Teletubby.

Probably lala. He seems like a lala type of dude.

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Jerome does in fact paint his nails at least once a month [ he likes the sparkly nail polish, and if he is able to convince Jeremiah to paint his nail Jeremiah chooses the iridescent ]

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what do you think the gotham characters acted like as kids?

i feel like ed was obsessed with bugs to the point where he'd cry if someone tried to kill one

oswald was totally a little shit on the playground

oh my god i love this ask

edward was 100% a bug hunter. probably told other children fun facts about which species of bugs eat their mate while they listened in horror.

oswald cobblepot was the WORST. its canon that he was bullied as a child, but i mean, he probably shoved them down flights of stairs afterwards. he was probably expelled from so many schools for violence, but gertrude never believed he did anything wrong.

jerome acted super innocent in the circus. so kind. such a good boy. only being a complete MENACE to his father and his brother. feel like he would collect crabs, just so at night, he could clack their claws in jeremiahs ears and whisper 'gonna clack ya.'

ivy and jonathan would have both been really quiet kids, wouldnt have had much interaction with other kids.

jervis called himself the magic man and got beat up.

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He really would have

this fandom has so little jerome content to go off of about his backstory/personality so we just have to post headcanons like “jerome would have loved the vine boom sound effect” and if it’s something everyone generally feels is right then we all just mutually decide it’s canon to his personality

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I believe that the Tetch Virus was in the insanity gas built for Jeremiah

It would make so much sense. Since Jere was was a kid he showed some serious capabilities for evil. But I believe that deep down (Tetch Virus type deep down) Jeremiah is so desperate to prove he isn't Jerome.

And even deeper down, he knows Jerome is right, they're identical even in their insanity, just that Jeremiah was able to hide it.

My long explanation of why and how below:

The pieces

Jeremiah and Jerome are identical twins.

Jeremiah said Jerome was born bad.

Jerome says that Jere is just as crazy as him right befire telling him to try his best to stab him, Jere actually tries.

Jeremiah tries

The bigger picture

I think that Jeremiah was "born bad" in the same way as Jerome, (however you interpret that, genetic mental illness or any other idea) because it's impossible that it only happened to one. They are identical twins, they have the same dna, they were born the same, bad or not.

I think that they ended up interpreting the reactions to their actions differently.

Jerome enjoying the thrill.

Jeremiah fearing it instead.

And from that point on, Jeremiah realized he can't ever be like Jerome. That if he's like Jerome, bad things happen. Which is why he threw himself into mazes and maths. Organization. He made himself into Jerome's opposite. It lead to him being the favorite, further feeding into his belief. There's a chance that Jeremiah doesn't even need glasses, that he just wore them to be different. Afterall, he took them off with no issues at all.

It's why his house is a maze, why he wanted Gotham to be a maze, this fixation on organization ended up saving him and making him safe. Not being like Jerome made him safe. His career is architecture, structure and math, so it makes him feel safe. He plans everything over and over until he has thought of everything possible. Its how he copes. Jerome manages to solve the maze bunker in mere hours and that scares Jeremiah, not just because it's an infiltration of his safe space but because it proves that the thing he thought made him different, his intelligence, is just another mirror of Jerome. (Plus Jerome managed to manipulate an entire prison, similar to Jeremiah manipulating their mother. Which further proves they are the same)

Jeremiah telling Jerome he was "born bad", everything he says about Jerome's sanity is both a projection of himself and a self reassurance that he isn't like Jerome.

And there lies why the Tetch virus is important

Jeremiah's core truths are

1) I am just as crazy as Jerome.

2) If I act like Jerome, I will be in trouble.

That's what the Tetch virus brings out in him.

The killing, destruction, and chaos is from him being like Jerome.

The badmouthing and continuous emphasis on them being different is the fear that Jeremiah never told anyone. His insistence on being sane too. Because Jerome's insanity is what caused whatever happened to cause his fear.

But the same way that Jere knows how acting like Jerome ends badly, Jerome knows that Jere is just as crazy because he saw Jere before he was scared to ever be like him. It's why he knows Jere would try to stab him.

And it's why he knows to put the Tetch virus into the gas.

He put it there to bring out the Jerome in Jeremiah that he always knew was there.

So Jeremiah would continue his legacy.

#gotham #jeremiah valeska #jerome valeska #valeska twins

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Thinking about my blorbos: shaking with excitement, vomiting, screaming and biting. Complete internally but it’s present, it’s there…

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“Lipstick”

Jeremiah Valeska x Male Reader

Word count: 1565

Warnings: Miah, plotless smut cuz yes, Miah being a big tease, lipstick kink thingy(?)XD, I know his make up is not make up but his face but he was wearing actual lipstick in this particular situation •-•, wall sex, Miah being a sweetie afterwards

Song recommendation: BONES ft. Juicy J - ‘’Timberlake’’ (Tommy Braun Remix)    ((cuz I was listening to it while writing this, I feel like the beat is very fitting 👀))

Jeremiah pushed you against the wall, hand wrapped around your neck and his body pushed close against yours. His pale green gaze filled with lust trailing all over your face, taking it in, before settling onto your lips. He didn’t waste time, he smacked his lips against yours getting his lipstick all over your lips as his grip gently tightened on your neck, just strong enough to tease and lead you where he wanted you to go.

You gladly returned the kiss, one hand gently holding his that’s wrapped around your neck and the other one on his shoulder, pulling him closer to yourself. He smiled gently at your eagerness, leaving your lips to start trailing kisses all over your jaw and then to your neck and collarbone, leaving a deep red trail of his lipstick across your skin, his hand finally releasing your neck as both of them went to grab your thighs and yank them upwards, lifting you against him off the ground and against the wall, as he pressed further into you. Your hard-ons now practically rubbing together.

You moaned at the sudden movement and extra friction you were getting, and started thrusting your hips, as much as you could, against his own, trying to increase that friction even more.

He seemed to like the idea as he started thrusting his hips against yours as well, helping you, as well as himself, out as he now bit and sucked at your neck, leaving marks all over. You moaned out, eyes fluttering shut as he found the spot and his thrusts picked up.

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Hcs for Jerome Valeska's

Jerome Valeska x GN / Male Reader

First tbh is that you'd have to be up to do what he likes to do. Tired of seeing shit about reader being against it all and shit lmfao💀

Anyways, you’d definitely never get bored hanging out with him.

Robbery and stealing a car is like going out and getting coffee for you two

Like you could be craving some cereal and he just takes you to go rob some grocery store for some

You’d probably have to be a bit introverted ig just something that balances you two out

You’d also have had to known him for a while like since back in the circus

But you do have to have some sorta showmanship like he does

like sun and moon and your both really fucking dumb and really fucking smart at the same time

Hed do good with a friend that acts like a smart ass and is sarcastic a lot and shit💀

But you guys still match each others energy and have the same humor and everything

Probably has you match outfits with him in some way when going out and doing something

Listens intently if you go on about a hyperfixation or something you're really interested in. He's a good listener and nods along adding a few jokes and comments in here and then.

Occasionally, you go do what's considered normal stuff like getting ice cream or going shopping but you guys always have to way disguises and he chooses the weirdest shit but it always looks weirdly convincing

Also his favorite flavor of ice cream is definitely either strawberry or whatever flavor they have that kids usually get like cotton candy, etc

He probably never got to experience certain holidays/etc like Halloween or Christmas so he goes all out and crazy about them

On Halloween he tries his best to scare so many kids and makes it a contest between you two

Or on Christmas he tries making a bunch of ginger bread houses but makes all the ginger men murdered so there's like shiny red icing everywhere and it's all very detailed and crazy

You better indulge in his the shit he pulls on holidays bro deserves it

You also better take him and do some crazy ass shit for his birthday

Never got to play video games before so sometimes you end up playing horror games or just something violent together for hours he fucking loves it

But if you let him play animal crossing he'd just beat the villagers with a net and make a bunch of murder scenes on the island along with some festival in the middle or smth

I bet he probably carries around candy in his pockets. Stuff like jolly ranchers. Smarties, suckers, or some gum

Gets really mad when the candy melts and sticks to the clothes tho😭

He loves music but specifically metal yk he probably really loves 80s music too

He probably likes rap too and rock music in general

Blasts music in the car, house wherever because he hates silence so if neither of you are talking to each other and it's quiet then be ready for some really loud heavy metal or smth

I don't see him ever getting his own pet like a cat or something but if you had one oh god

Hed treat the poor thing like it was some secret Russian spy and would be accusing it of doing shit

Called you up one time while you were out and he was at home and started going off about how “the damn thing stood up and started counting down help me” “HES ALWAYS WATCHING”

He probably fucking loves hamsters though but with what he does he doesn't think it's the best to get one maybe rabbits too he strikes me as a rodent loving man

Loves your laugh like especially if it's some loud ass cackling type of shit he loves it

Anytime he sees you too even if you only left to buy groceries he comes up to you and gives you a huge bear hug like he hasn't seen you in years

clingy asshole

Likes keeping his arm around your shoulder when together and stuff

No matter your height he's gonna find a way to make fun of it

If you have sorta long hair he'd have little bows and shit and make your hair all pretty and play with it

When people see you alone they are already scared but together? Holy fucking cow

You guys thrive off each other

Lots of bickering for no reason other than the fact you guys find it fun to fight and pretend to hate each other

But also lots of sexual jokes and flirting

Trys to make out with you or smth on a daily basis

You guys come up with the most dastardly horrendous petnames to mock and call each other

schmoopy😱

The point is to disgust each other the most its like a challenge to get the worse one

If Jerome had an actually decent childhood he'd be one of those Pokemon or bayblade kids tbh

You try and help him take better care of his face. After it getting sliced off, it gets dry and needs taken care off

You both play out each others jokes and bits

Lots of inside jokes

Always having to save each others asses from death and getting hurt so much😭

Don't ever let him cook

I might have said he did real good with decorating the gingerbread houses and men but oh my god💀

He'll try to switch up the recipe or add stuff in, leave stuff on for either too long or too short

He probably tried making pancakes with his blood before

At least he knows how to make popcorn or a bowl of cereal right?

He finds taxidermy animals hilarious like the stuff people do with them and shit and overall just the concept of it funny💀💀

Was in the circus so he never went to school and only knows very little on how to read and math

Even after you teaching him everything he still has a few problems with reading and writing

He's probably dyslexic

But it's alright he's still good with it

There's no Zoo in Gotham and he's never gotten to visit one while in other cities so I feel like he probably really wanted to go to one when he was younger

Specifically to see like the monkeys and giraffes idk I feel like he likes giraffes

He would love it even more if like the animals come up to the glass and are like messing with him and copying him yk those videos you see online😭😭

When he was younger he probably had a strange obsession over Orcas

If your like in a depressive state or not doing well he would probably try to do things with you to enterain you and stuff