velvtcollarbones

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I love how because I have a high sw everyone is complimenting my disordered behaviors.

"OH, you're eating smaller portions. Good job."

One meal a day of 500 call or less is not normal.

"OH, you're exercising more, good job."

Feeling my skin crawl when I'm sitting still and know I could be burning is not normal.

"OH, you've lost weight. Good job"

How much until you notice somethings wrong?

#tw ana diary #ed relapse #tw ana shit #@na trigger #ana trigger #tw disordered eating #ed behaviour tw #tw mia #tw restriction #tw ed but not sheeran #anorexcya #an0rec1a #an0r3c1a #ana bllog #ana and mia #Mia

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When my wife ignores me the urge to ☆ve is so real. Like why are your friends taking precedence over our relationship and time together?

#tw ana diary #tw disordered eating #ed relapse #tw ana shit #ana trigger #tw ed but not sheeran #ed behaviour tw #@na trigger #ed bullshit #tw restrictive ed #ed disorder #ed bllog #ed vent #tw ed rant

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REBLOG IF ITS OKAY TO TALK TO YOU.

Please.

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“I am both worse and better than you thought.”

— Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals Of Sylvia Plath

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It’s slow progress but it’s progress. I’m gonna do this. You’re gonna do this. We got this!

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🦇halloween thingz🦇

#tw ana shit #tw ed but not sheeran #ana trigger #tw restriction #@na trigger #ed relapse #tw disordered eating #tw ana diary #ed behaviour tw #tw mia #ana and mia #an0r3c1a #ana bllog #thin$p0 #thinspø #thin$po #goth ana

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My ed after I break my fast by eating the most fattening dinner I could ever eat in this whole universe.

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Tips for hiding your ★

Always have your drinks handy! Be sipping on something

Have a snack /fruit you can take out the door but replace when no one is around

Smear leftovers on dishes and leave them in the sink for a bit to make it seem like you ate.

Smoothies for a "cleanse"

Opt for activities instead of restaurants when going out

Metabolism days on day you do go out to eat with frends/family/ect

Most importantly, be safe. Don't over do it when it comes to fasting. Take your vitamins, snack if you're dizzy ♥︎

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Lol what if I said I don't want to be small and dainty but like small and mighty 😂 idk I'm stoned

#tw ana diary #tw ana shit #ed relapse #tw restriction #high thoughts

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I deserve it

I deserve to feel comfortable in my skin

I deserve to feel happy

I deserve to be my best self

#ana trigger #tw ed but not sheeran #tw ana diary #tw ana shit #tw disordered eating #ed relapse #tw restriction #@na trigger #ed behaviour tw #ed disorder #ed bullshit #tw ed rant #tw restrictive ed

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I'm doing this to be me again

#ana trigger #ed relapse #tw ed but not sheeran #tw ana diary #@na trigger #tw ana shit #tw disordered eating #ed behaviour tw #tw restriction #tw mia

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about me

Velvet // 20s // disordered since 10 // 5'8

High sw, working down from high cal

Recovery tried (turned into binge eating)

into horror, macabre anything, books, makeup, etc

Hw 290 // cw 270

Goals

270 - 9.15.23 // 250 // 220 // 200 // 170 // 150 // 130 // 120

Rewards

270 // makeup

250 // books

220 // hair

200 // nails

170 // shoes

150 // books

130 // makeup

120 // new wardrobe

#tw ana diary #tw ana shit #tw disordered eating #ed relapse #ana trigger #tw ed but not sheeran #tw mia #tw restriction #ed behaviour tw #@na trigger #tw eating issues #ana and mia #an0rec1a #ana bllog #anorex14 #anorexcya #tw ana trigger #goth ana #ed bullshit #ed bllog

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question...

does anyone have problems with dissasociation? That would be willing to talk? I'm scared to talk to my therapist and feel crazy

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Wish I was them

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Little PSA to eat your goddam protein. It takes more energy to digest and is a must unless you wanna end up skinny fat.

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Reblog if you’re active on 3dblr October 2023