yannfredericks

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were you sent by someone who wanted me dead? did you sleep with a gun underneath our bed? were you writing a book? were you a sleeper-cell spy? in fifty years will all this be declassified? and you'll confess why you did it… and i'll say good riddance ’cause it wasn't sexy once it wasn't forbidden…. I WOULD’VE DIED FOR YOUR SINS INSTEAD I JUST DIED INSIDE!!!!!!!!! AND YOU DESERVE PRISON BUT YOU WON’T GET TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU’LL SLIDE INTO INBOXES AND SLIP THROUGH THE BARS YOU CRASHED MY PARTY IN YOUR RENTAL CAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU SAID NORMAL GIRLS WERE BORING BUT YOU WERE GONE BY THE MORNING!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU KICKED OUT THE STAGE LIGHTS BUT YOU’RE STILL PERFORMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!…………. and in the plain sight you hid……. and you are what you did…… and i’ll forget you but i’ll never forgive…. the smallest man who ever lived.

#she’s insane #her and I…we understand eachother

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the soft little smiles they save for each other 😭😭😭

#I can’t believe this is a real thing that happens on stage I’m obsessed with them #honestly when I think about how we’d have reacted in 2016/2017 #it’s insane #the way I’d have lost my entire mind and yet now I can just be like omg cast 6 mems #anyway rambling nonsense #I love them I miss them I need them back so bad #silly little teenagers!!!! #they are in love just look at them in their own little world #hpcc #scorbus

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self recognition through alarming pieces of media

#reading these violent delights tbh

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untitled scorbus wip snippet

aka i'm bored and trying to ease back into writing so I can finally finish life after so heres a bit of my dumb annoyances to lovers scorbus fic based somewhat loosely on shadow and bone verse wesper where scorpius works with cbj at a bubble tea shop and may or may not have had reason to be rude to albus (who has definitely never met him before!!!!) <3

“He was just so rude! He was completely arrogant, he had a problem with me almost the moment I walked in the door— I’m fucked if I know why—and he was so—” “Rude?” Polly sighs, both exasperated and amused at once. “You have repeated this about six times now, Albus.” “Because I still can’t believe it! I’m in shock, I’m actually in shock. You owe me four pounds by the way.” “We both know I’m not giving you four pounds.” “We do,” Albus concedes, his shoulders dropping, “but you could at least pretend.” “I would, buttercup, but you know I have a real thing about honesty,” Polly hums. She takes another sip of her coconut tea and pauses, both for effect and to chew a couple of pearls. “Which is why I’m also going to tell you it sounds like you kind of want to fuck this barista.” Albus splutters. “Excuse me?!” “You spent a little too long describing his hair at the start there,” Polly says, “and using the word freakishly when talking about his blue eyes actually does nothing but tell me that you were paying attention.” “I was painting you a picture!” “You were writing me the beginning of an erotic novel.”

#albus potter #polly chapman #scorpius malfoy #scorbus #scorbus fic #hpcc #ccsquad #my writing #me i guess #albus and scorpius #albus x scorpius

[yannfredericks]

bitches will hear a song and be like 'this makes me feel like i have a gaping hole in my chest' and then they put it on repeat. its me im bitches

#I hate it here and the black dog genuinely had me crying on and off for four hours #AND THEN I WAS STILL CRYING OVER THEM THE NEXT DAY #one thing about me is if I’ve got a bruise I’m going to push on it!

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being online rn is such a fucking nightmare oh my god!!!

#everyone purposefully misinterpreting the new ts album and taking lyrics out of context #and pretending they can’t tell when she’s making a joke or writing something tongue in cheek #I am being so good and so normal trying to ignore and not engage with the people spouting this shit but good lord! #people are 100% allowed to like and dislike what they like #but when all I’m seeing is massive threads about Why they hate something or why the lyrics are bad #I’m like don’t you have anything better to do #me personally when I don’t like something I’m not making huge threads about all the ways I hate it #where are the normal people!!! #people who don’t like taylor swift are being utterly deranged but then a lot of the fans aren’t being much better #it’s all fine I just wish I could exist online without being subjected to The Discourse #especially bc these albums came at the exact time I needed them and so much of them speak to me so personally #I’d rather see fucking nothing than everyone fighting over it #and I’m not engaging at all I just wish there was an option to be online to talk about the silly little characters without inevitably #seeing twenty eight think pieces and people screaming #no one in this situation is being normal !!!! #I wish the people saying the whole world is sick and tired of her and that she’s overrated were right #bc then it might actually stop being impossible to get tickets to her shows! #please amen bc I’d like to go in london 🙏

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Some of you have never shipped a rare pair and it shows.

#and then several years later watch it take off a bit #as much as it can in a fandom of probably like 50 people lmao #yolly #yann and polly #I DID THAT!!!!!!!! #adding scorbus to any yolly fic I want out in the world otherwise no one will read it is a very niche experience

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don’t think i can call it a hyperfixation anymore fam im afraid im just long term insane about this piece of media

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ok im about to think about the Character!! im so Excited 😊😊

#me trying to write these days #also thinking about scorbus and the gang

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every so often I remember the month or so leading up to cc being released in 2016 and just. get so fucking nostalgic :’) watching every yt video being released of the cast in costume, little interviews they did, people posting spoiler free reviews of the previews, waking up early to buy the script and just about crying in the shopping centre bc I couldn’t stop myself from reading it straight away and seeing albus sorted into slytherin and meeting scorpius!!!! and they were so fucking gay!!!!! just like me!!!! working out the soundtrack to the show and listening to half life (staircase ballet) for the first time….the sheer joy and excitement I was running on was fr like being high

#2016 cc fandom was utterly insane but also….have I ever been happier or more obsessed #and ofc this was all soundtracked by my hamilton obsession too #A MOMENT IN TIME!!! #cursed child

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“what’s this? i thought we didn’t hug.”

#GRRRRRRRR #I miss them so much sorry everyone making it all of your problem!!! #scorbus #albus and scorpius #cursed child #honest to god tommyg’s albus changed my life #his scorbus slytherin dorm scene literally made my stomach flip I think about it all the time

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umm… hi😁

#waaaaahhhhhhh I love them so much #scorbus #cursed child #albus and scorpius

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not funny didn’t laugh + miss scorbus so much it hurts to breathe

#how it’s going btw #scorbus #albus and scorpius #me I guess #thought about gorpius drunmjng his fingers down benbus’s front and then holding his hands like a lovesick IDIOT 😭😭😭😭 #GET A ROOM!!!!!!!! #I miss you benbus my first gay little albus potter

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scorbus doodle for scorbus is canon two year anniversary🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍🌈

#oh I miss them so bad :((( #scorbus #cursed child #miss you pookie bear oh lord

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yannfredericks please i have to know

will life after ever be updated again or is it dead in the ground i need to know to sleep peacefully again

i’m ur biggest fan i just need to know

this made me laugh :'))) rest assured it's definitely not dead in the ground!!! and it's been plaguing me for over a year now about updating it, but unfortunately the 30k+ words that I currently have sitting in the doc are nowhere near up to scratch for posting and, tbh, are not very good/from when I first started writing it and aren't particularly true to the fic or where it's headed anymore, so i have A Lot of work to do.

I just moved home last week after a year of living interstate (which, frankly, did an unexpected number on my mental health and put a complete stop to any mental energy I had for creative tasks such as writing) and so I'm in the process of settling back in atm. The good news is that even a week being back at home has already reignited the writing itch and i've managed a thousand or so words so I'm hopeful my inspo and ability will come back now that I'm in a better space!!!! AND THEN!!! I hope to be able to update and finish this beast of a thing <3

I hope you can sleep now!!! thanks so much for caring and not pressuring me <33 here's a little snippet of what I've been working on if you were interested:

“I really didn’t mean to upset you. I promise I haven’t told Alexa anything, I mean, she wouldn’t judge you even if I did—”

Gobsmacked, Albus hisses, “It’s not about her judging me, it’s my private business!”

James goes wide eyed and hurriedly steps inside and closes the door behind him.

“Sorry, of course, I know that.” He tries to placate. “Of course it’s your business, but you do know everyone’s seen you guys hooking up at parties, right? You don’t really do much to hide it.”

“Is that supposed to make me feel better?” Albus spits, the heat of embarrassment engulfing him. As well as the remembered heat of Scorpius’s mouth, his breath against Albus’s face, his roaming hands. The way he hadn’t been able to stop laughing the last time they’d kissed. “That’s not—that’s not even anything—”

“No, no, sorry,” James attempts to backtrack. It’s the most Albus has ever heard him apologise to him—to anyone. “I’m really, really bad at this. I guess I just meant that even though I haven’t said anything, she might still have guessed. Or seen. And that’s not a bad thing. It’s really not a big deal.”

Albus chews on his lip. Tries to breathe. Slowly. How is he supposed to…

“It is a big deal to me.” He says after thinking for a moment. “It’s… it’s a really big thing for me.”

James’s pained face shatters further. Albus rubs a tired hand across his own. This is exhausting. Still, he knows what it’s like to constantly make things worse. Merlin, does he know what that’s like.

“Fuck,” James sighs, pinching the bridge of his nose, “of course it is, Albus, I didn’t mean it like that. Can I just—can I give you a hug?”

#life after #anon #my writing #scorbus #scorbus fic #I've also been trying to get back into writing by working on a silly little scorbus au where I wesper-fy them #aka misunderstandings lowkey enemies to lovers but its more annoyances to lovers bc theyre idiots #scorpius and cbj work in a bubble tea shop #albus and scorpius have a meet-cute that quickly turns meet-ugly #but is this really the first time theyve met......hm! #its a lot lighter than LA (and shorter lmao) which i certainly need atm after The Year I Had #but rest assure LA is being worked on!!!! #ty for being so nice <333

[yannfredericks]

spare life after update…… pls………………

oh anon I wish I could give it to you!!! <///3 I never thought I'd leave it so long but I never could have predicted the way the past year went for me and my mental health and sadly any form of creativity took a back seat :( rest assured I still think about it all the time (and have recently made some progress on a very tricky scene!!!!) and its still very much alive to me! (just like cbj!!)

I don't want to say soon but it's definitely not never!!

means so much that you still care <333 hope you are well!!!

#life after #me i guess #truly i feel so awful about this that when I get ao3 emails with kudos or comments on it now i just feel sick w guilt #but it really does mean so much that there are still people who care!!!! i am going to try my best for you!

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it’s been brought to my attention that maybe it’s not common knowledge that in many of the hpcc casts yolly (yann fredericks + polly chapman) are considered canon so I’m here to fix that

they’re everything to me and if I ever stop posting about them I’ve died

#longtime followers will know how long and obnoxiously I campaigned for this 😭😭😭 #worth it for canon yolly!!!!!!! #I am using canon somewhat loosely bc it depends on the cast and the actors but I will also see yolly and if I can’t see it I’ll create it #but for a solid two years at least they were holding hands onstage every night in London #and probably longer in germany tbh #yann and polly #yann fredericks #polly chapman #hpcc #cursed child #harry potter and the cursed child #hp next gen #ccsquad #yolly #also THEYRE BOTH BI #MANY CASTS AGREE ON TAHT TOO #best part about canon bi yolly is that they defy gender #no matter who is playing the characters they hold hands #the day I saw lesbian yolly holding hands for the first time I fully ascended #and gay yolly too that was such a treat #I choose to believe this was my influence bc it lowkey was sorry!!!! at least in the beginning #there’s more btw I just can’t find it bc my photo albums are deeply unorganised #looking at the fucking. CRUMBS!!! of yolly content I have saved from 2018 compared to now though is wild in the very best way 🥹