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After reading nowis callout i have some opinions i have thought long and hard on before posting this so bear with me. i first off want to single handedly apologize for taking advantage of the drama that happened and making it into a ~funny meme~ with several other people i invited to this blog who were all effected by ninas crap. before you read this any further, i am not taking nina or nowis side writing this in fact i am still very opposed to what they did, how they both handled things, and how both of them act(ed, in ninas case). nina has apologized to several people to my knowledge and has been trying to change. nowi, from what i saw on the sidelines, has been manipulative and guilt trippy. i believed that it might have actually tried to commit due to the posts it was making and i remember posting something to this blog along the lines of “i feel sorry for nowi boo hoo dont send threats.” this, while i dont have screenshots of its post, was a prime example of public guilt tripping/manipulation of it threatening killing itself. now, while i still firmly believe that sending death/r*pe threats to EITHER of them was super immature of some of you motherfuckers and you are in fact worse than nina or nowi will ever be, im not down for the other shit nowi has done. the fact some of you, even myself and friends of mine, waited until she was 18 to pull a trump card on nina was inexcusable. additionally, i feel like there COULDNT have been another way due to the fact that nina didnt get the wake up call when several anons said “hey take down post/1234567 its lolicon.” (anons who did this, im sorry she exposed you to this and you didnt unfollow her there.. you didnt have to be as kind as to do that)

additionally, im able to form my own opinions about this, and all i ask is for you to listen to this: dont call them pedophiles. i know media effects real life, but to call survivors pedophiles who didnt know better bc they were groomed that way.. it just bugs me. if i were in their shoes id feel fucking horrible, as im sure both of them had felt upon being called those things. you (i could get into “you” but im not even gunna try with love live as ur sidebar) could have made the callout “manipulative, guilt tripper, rbs lolicon”

td;dr--im sorry for taking the yaxawa drama and turning it into a funny meme. i feel its inappropriate to call them both pedophiles, however. 

if you need clarification/want to fix anything ive said, message @pokemonz​. im only getting myself “involved” this time around simply as a realization and an apology. im specifically posting to this blog bc i want the apology on here, as this is where we made the jokes

#sorry i dont know how coherent this is i didnt really get toomuch sleep for the past two days

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i would sever my limbs for shiro 

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is this florian

Ey fuck the rest of the mods

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Ey fuck the rest of the mods

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do yall think theres someone out there whose gonna stare at the sun today so they can kin visually impaired characters

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anyone in this thread smoke pussy?

You make me feel a little less tired.

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Just a side note

While no one is at fault, literally none of this is funny. We can make jokes all we want but please remember Nina is an incredibly toxic person. Her coming back to tumblr (with a reputation yes) basically makes her face no repercussions for her actions. There is so much more Nina has done wrong past lolicon and many people have brought this up. This is not funny. This is not a meme. This is completely unfair and disgusting that Nina gets to go back on her shit like this. Please do not attack everyone on this blog, this is just the thoughts of one mod. All this drama has been fucking me up so bad my emotions are out of fucking control. This is all awful, and should not just be joked about.

#yaxawa

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This made me laugh way too much

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also side note shiro i know it’s you is a personal thing to me because I was accused of hawassing Yaxawa while I was at my cousin’s, who died of cancer recently, funeral. I had to find out after I gave a speech about my cousin.

#death mention

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clive i dont have eyes why does she keep pushing the blame away from her

miso soup

#fe4lachesis

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is it just me or is the asuka fanart on ninas new kin page lolicon (or at the very least its uncomfortably sexualized art of a 14 yr old girl)

i wouldnt go so far as to call it lolicon, especially as its not even the worst asuka art she’s shared and nge has a bad habit of dressing its characters in easy-to-sexualize clothes, but it is kind of uncomfortable given nina’s track record with this kind of thing

(of course this could all be avoided if she didnt use unsourced fanart but thats a minor offense on a very long list)

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does nina rly think "well its my abuse i didnt kno even tho 3894732894723 people told me the same thing over and over" will be taken full heartedly.

While I do agree people are taking things pretty far in this drama compared to other drama, she’s still blaming other parties/factors for her actions in that apology which is very :///

#anonymous #mail

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Apology Post

To start, I would like to say that I am sorry for not posting an apology when everything blew up. I had intended to wake up and clear things up, but due to the amount of people who had gotten involved, I knew that any apology I made at the time would be driven by anger and spite, rather than a genuine apology, and that isn’t what I wanted. I know it wasn’t right, and that a lot of people were hurt that I left without saying anything, but I didn’t want the situation to escalate any further. I have taken a few days, and am posting an apology now that things have calmed down a bit.

I constantly tried to push blame away from myself when rbing sexualized pictures of minors, on the grounds of me being a csa survivor, being groomed into not being able to recognize what is and isn’t sexual. Regardless of if you choose to believe that or not, it was still inexcusable of me. My own experiences and trauma gives me no right to speak over others, especially minors, regarding this, now that I’m an adult. I will be much more mindful of what I reblog, and if I do continue to fuck up, I want you to get angry at me, I want aggression, because otherwise, I’ll never learn. This was a good experience for me, and I’m ready to seriously start working towards fixing myself. Tumblr has been, and still very much is, the only place I feel safe to run to as a trans girl, and as an abuse survivor, and I would never want to compromise the safety of that for younger people again.

With that said, I can’t imagine an uproar on this scale would have happened to just anybody. Even when it comes to other infamous users who were abusers, or racists, or sexual abusers, the harassment directed towards them was much more minimal, with arguably a lot more going against them. I think this needs to be a learning opportunity for all of us. Some people, even some who don’t like me, have been able to look at this situation, and say that, beyond the reblogged posts, it was mostly fueled by petty hatred and transmisogyny. I’ve seen many white people, non trans girls, who have similar temperaments, and reblog stuff of the same caliber, who get away with it. I don’t want to say that this happened solely because I’m a trans girl, because I know my critics hate the “transmisogyny” explanation, but all I ask is that you think of this situation critically, and think about why people were so much vitriolic and hateful towards me, when other people do the same thing and face minimal consequence. This is not me trying to excuse myself, or say that what I did was less than what people make it out to be, I just hope that this can hopefully teach others. I don’t want to downplay what I did, or try to use this as an excuse to get out of it, I just want it to be an example.

 I had seen a lot of people bring up my thoughts towards trans boys, acting like I’m hateful and vitriolic towards them, just because they’re trans boys, along with people saying I’ve claimed that “trans boys have cis male privilege”. This is far from the truth. The most I’ve ever said is that I think a lot of people excuse trans boys being misogynistic and transmisogynistic, just because they’re trans. I merely think that trans boys have male privilege in these online spaces, where everyones identity is respected for the most part, not even delving into real life situations, because that gets a lot more complicated. Someone had also told me there was an anon saying that I’ve claimed to be Native and Latina, or Native and Black. I’ve never said anything of the sort, and with zero evidence or elaboration on it, I think it’s just someone who saw an opportunity to start more drama, so they took it.

At the same time most of the stuff was going on, somebody also got into drama with my girlfriend over it “cheating” on it’s ex. At the time, Nowi was 17, and it’s partner was 20. Ignoring the predatory age gap, Kat would also pressure Nowi into sending nudes, despite Nowi still being underage. They had broken up by the time Nowi and I got together, and there is very little basis to get mad at Nowi over this.

In short, I’m prepared to, and am owning up to my actions. I had made minors feel unsafe in an environment composed of people mostly younger than them, and there is no excusing that. I do not expect, or demand, that people forgive me, this is solely for anyone who trusted me, and felt betrayed, so that they can have some peace of mind. I will be remaking to @icecavechant, and I don’t expect you to follow if you were uncomfortable with this whole situation, but the option is there. If you wish to actually talk about what happened, or there was something you were upset about that I didn’t address, you’re free to message me. But, if it’s obvious you’re just there to continue to harass, I’ll ignore it. I intend to better myself, and I want people to continue to keep a close eye on me to make sure I don’t make the same mistakes again. 

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WAIT IS THAT REALLY HER

YEAH

#Anonymous

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leave tumblr for reddit

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leave tumblr for reddit

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I know nothing about rwby but why do they look like that

#shramp -_-