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*groans in boy kiss deficiency*

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TW!!! Sh

I just want to punch the boxing bags till my hands bleed and I want to be able to do archery again I miss it so bad

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Hoping some people relate to this but I’ve had my hair short for a while now but I wanted to start going to a queer barbers but I can’t afford any around so I have to stick with my grandmas cheap salon, which just sucks because I’m scared to ask them not to cut my hair feminine when I get trims because people always do and It doesn’t look right until it’s grown out a bit

#ftm problems #really this is just complaining #trans ftm #ftm #transmasc #trans man #lgbtq

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Valentine be like :

#incorrect shadowhunters quotes #shadowhunters #valentine morgenstern #clary fairchild #clary fray #jace whatever #jace wayland #jace lightwood herondale #jace morgenstern #sebastian verlac #aka crispy boy #Johnathan morgansten #aka rumple stiltskin

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Okay this is a bit long but I really really need help

Okay so I have this relatively new friend and she and I are very huggy touchy feely people and so we both express that with eachother. We have this essentially big long game of house cause we’re like the parents of the group so we’re ’husband’ and ‘wife’. My teacher asked if we were dating and we said no and I told my best friend about it and they said be careful I think she definitely likes you ( my best friend has been friends with her for ten years) and now I’m panicking because she thinks I’m a cis bi girl and she’s a lesbian but I’m a trans gay man whose only out to my best friend and I don’t know what to do. I really don’t want to lose our friendship, I’m just a super affectionate person but I don’t want to hurt her.

#hep me #please help #i need advice #advice #send help #lgbtq community #lgbtq #trans mlm #trans masc #trans man

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Vent sorta, I just needed to get it out

My friends are having a really hard time and I’m trying to take care of them but I’m drowning and I don’t know how much longer I can keep being their life boat. But I’m their best friend and it’s my job.

#ventish #friends #i can’t do this #it’s too much #i still don’t know how to tag

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Y’all ever hit send and then immediately mute responses because you were barely ready to send the text let alone see the response

#coming out things #i actually hate this #coming out is hard #help me #trans mlm #trans man #lgbtq community #lgbtq #lgbtq positivity

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I wanna come out to someone but I also really don’t y’know

#coming out is hard #trans mlm #trans masc #trans man #lgbtq community #lgbtq #coming out

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Hey y’all I just sorta came out to my best friend somebody be proud of me

#trans man #trans masc #ftm #mlm thoughts #lgbtq community #lgbtq #coming out is hard

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Actually? You know what? Let's fucking TALK about being a csa survivor and trans. Because there are so many specific issues we face.

Any other trans survivors absolutely t e r r i f i e d to their core of doctors? Any trans survivors who's skin crawls off their body and sits in a corner at the thought of being put under anesthesia and then having their body touched with no control of what's happening during any of it? And it being your fault because you literally actually seeked it out and consented. Any other survivors who will probably just have to deal with their Dysphoria because of this and then get told by gatekeepers we cannot be trans because we don't have and won't get surgeries?

Any other trans survivors who try opening up for the first time in their life in therapy and being honest and vulnerable just to be told that if you are a survivor they can't let you transition because you'll regret it, because you can't possibly know who you are. You can't possibly have feelings about your body that aren't due to trauma. And it just feels like another person in power talking away your bodily autonomy. Another person in power punishing you for daring to speak about what was done to you. Acting like they know better what's good for you than you do.

This is about us as survivors who get used in arguments as pawns all the time, yes by TERFs but honestly even by people who are our allies and siblings. They will disagree with everything a TERF says until she talks about how poor traumatized women will transition because of trauma. Oh we're all about bodily autonomy until someone is too Damaged™ to deserve it.

This is about my fucking parents who only acknowledge that i am mentally ill and struggling when it conveniently means i can't be trusted. Neither about the CSA nor about the being trans.

This is about how no one speaks about this. No one speaks about US. No one speaks about SURVIVORS until we become convenient to their narrative. Or the one point that has to be conceded on when talking about TERF rethoric.

I'm sick and tired of having to either be a CSA survivor or a trans person because being both is just too unbelievable. I'm sick and tired of being the sad and shameful part of the community that is just more convenient to ignore.

I understand this is a heavy post but God I'm speaking in order to be heard so please don't. Ignore this again. Especially if you consider yourself an ally to survivors. You are encouraged to reblog.

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I’m watching moxie on Netflix. I don’t know what space I stand in, how can I as man take up a female space. I’ve dealt with sexism and misogyny for 16 years of my life. I mean as a 15 year old I stopped wearing my denim shorts because I couldn’t without an 18yr old commenting on my ass and then when my friend tells them off other guys stand up and defend him. I’ve had to sit quiet and bite my tongue while a guy gropes me with my friends lying nexts to me because I’m rude, insensitive, a bitch, a prude, whiny, too sensitive, crazy if I don’t. But now I’m out ( to myself at least) I feel like it isn’t my place, it’s my place to support women fighting and fight with them it’s everyone’s but I feel like it’s not my place to stand on the frontlines with them.

#feminism #trans man #feminist #i still don’t know how to tag #moxie film #moxiegirlsfightback #moxie movie

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transmascs b like "this outfit is so euphoric" "this outfit is so gender" and then the outfit is baggy cargo pants and a t shirt

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Hi, I don’t know if anyone will ever see this but I’ve never told anyone this so I’m gonna say it on here;

My name is Alec ( Alexander ) and I am a gay trans man.

This is my first time coming out so the homophobes and transphobes can fuck off

#I don’t know how to tag #trans mlm #trans man #trans pride #trans rights #coming out #gay men #mlm positivity #mlm blog #lgbtq #lgbtq community