A year ago today, I got my heart broken. During the first few weeks, my life was a living hell. I wouldn't sleep, I wouldn't eat. I lost weight, developed eating disorder, and body dysmorphia. I hated the image I saw in the mirror. I barely even bathed myself. I cried nonstop for 2 weeks. Dreamed and daydreamed of him, a whole month. I stopped talking to my friends, and I distanced myself from my family. It was a dark place. A very dark one. Thoughts of unaliving myself even visited me at night. I wasn't living, I was barely surviving. The pit of depression was deep. I didn't tell a soul about it..
but now..
I am healed. I have fully recovered. It doesn't hurt anymore. Not a bit. Actually, I'm very happy right now. I'm living the peaceful life. A good family and one good bestfriend. I'm surrounded with precious people. I'm starting my small business and I have a lot of plans for this year! I'm so excited!! I don't pressure myself tho, I'm just enjoying things the way they are.
to my future self, if ever u get your heart broken again, and to anyone reading this..
Hold on. Even if you're on the verge of fading away. Time truly does heal. Trust the process and be extra patient with yourself. I promise, you'll be in a better place, a month, a year later. So please, hold on to dear life. It'll be okay. You'll be okay <3
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My life here in the island is peaceful. A calm mind and a heart at ease. My soul overflows with gratitude. I appreciate this so much, it's lowkey and comfortable. There is indeed, no place like home🤍
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Love yourself enough to walk away from from someone who doesn't know your worth.
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You didn't even ask how I was doing, how fool of me to think that you still care :(
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If someone writes me a song, I would simply ✨marry him✨.
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I need to scan my old poems to remind myself that I was able to get over from someone I used to love. I did it before, I can and I will do it too from now on, no matter how long it will take me.
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I guess I fell inlove with that someone I met 2 years ago.
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What do I do with this excruciating pain?
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Music makes me feel alive and dead at the same time.
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Sometimes, I can't help but to look at my pictures and wonder "is this really me?"
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I wish I was the moon
To guide you in your darkest hour..
I wish I was the lune
To always watch you over..
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Sleeping with a heavy heart, again.
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Why is it so exhausting to love me?
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