hazeleyedbutterfly

[hazeleyedbutterfly]

- See you -

You know that feeling when you're staring at a blank page, and the words just refuse to come? Or the anxiety creeping in, while reading the few words you managed to enter, that it might just be shit and you shouldn't even be trying?

Yeah, that's been my constant companion lately. Feeling a bit overwhelmed and defeated lately. It's like hitting a brick wall every time I sit down to write. They call it writer's block, but honestly, it feels more like a creative drought to me. I've been wrestling with lots of different emotions lately, and I thought it might be helpful to put them into words here.

I've been trying to stay active on social media, posting trying to reach people and sharing snippets of my thoughts or just interact with the few people in the fandom. But lately, even that has felt like pulling teeth. Nothing personal. It's not that I don't want to connect or share—it's just that well things don't always go as you hope they would.

So, after some internal debate, I've made a decision. I'm going to take a step back from actively posting here and on any other social media platforms. Instead, I'll be focusing my energy keeping up on AO3 and Wattpad, once I manage to keep on writing. May it be MCL related or not

I can't say when or IF I'll be back to posting content on social media at all. All I know is that I'm not giving up on writing—I'm just giving myself the time and space to find my voice again and hope to find some of you on the other side (Ao3 or Wattpad)

For whoever read this to the very end. Thank you! I appreciate the time you took to get through my little vent. And that's it, goodbye for now.

#writblr #fanfic writing #wattpad #ao3 #alternateuniverse #mycandylove #amoursucre #sweetamoris #corazondemelon #nathaniel #mclnathaniel

[hazeleyedbutterfly]

The Carello's - Live Action

This is simply a live action fancast of how I picture them for my fanfic Serendipity. The choice of the face claim are my opinion.

📖: Serendipity

🖋️: hazeleyedbutterfly

🌍: My Candy Love Universe

💻: Wattpad / AO3

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♡✎🌸 ᴍᴄʟ ꜰᴀɴᴅᴏᴍ ❤️‍🔥👄

★彡[ᴇᴅɪᴛꜱ ʙʏ: ME]彡★

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#beemoov #mycandylove #mcl nathaniel #fanfic #wattpad #nathaniel mcl #campuslife #faceclaims #sweet amoris #ao3 #amoursucre #alternate universe #mcl amber

[hazeleyedbutterfly]

My Candy Love - Live Action

This is simply a live action fancast of how I picture the OG boys for my fanfic Serendipity. The choice of the face claim are my opinion.

Nathaniel Carello

Castiel Veilmont

Armin Keenan

Kentin Lerhay

Lysander Ainsworth

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♡✎🌸 ᴍᴄʟ ꜰᴀɴᴅᴏᴍ ❤️‍🔥👄

★彡[ᴇᴅɪᴛꜱ ʙʏ: ME]彡★

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#beemoov #mycandylove #mcl nathaniel #fanfic #wattpad #nathaniel mcl #campuslife #castiel mcl #sweet amoris #corazon de melon #armin cdm #armin mcl #kentin lerhay #cdm kentin #mcl kentin #mcl lysander

[hazeleyedbutterfly]

Sono un italiano🤌🏻

Headcanon - In my head as well as in my fanfic ...

Nathaniel & Amber are

ITALIANS ... at least half italians.

And yes, they are bilingual

I mean come on...CARELLO?!

When they announced Nathaniel's last name, it was my first and only thought.

Yup, I'll die on that hill 🇮🇹

#beemoov #mycandylove #mcl nathaniel #nathaniel mcl #campuslife #amour sucre #corazon de melon #nathaniel cdm #nathaniel carello

[hazeleyedbutterfly]

why is writing fanfic so hard. i just want to be able to sit down, think my idea, and have it magically show up in my doc exactly how i see it.

[hazeleyedbutterfly]

Am I replaying My Candy Love HSL?

Yes

Am I being whiplashed by "blue" Nath again?

Absolutely

Do I still love him?

Yes, sir!

#beemoov #mycandylove #mcl nathaniel #nathaniel mcl #replaying mcl #high school life #my candy love hsl

[hazeleyedbutterfly]

feeling called out today

credit: _ADWills

[hazeleyedbutterfly]

my babies 😭🤧🥰

Nath x Marie (my OC)

props to the beautiful @linory1 for this amazing artwork! almost forgot to share it. this comission was requested and done a while ago but i have kept it save until now ❤️‍🔥

Thank you once again 🥰

#beemoov #mycandylove #mcl nathaniel #fanfic #wattpad #campuslife #nathaniel mcl #nathaniel cdm #female oc #alternate universe #writblr

[hazeleyedbutterfly]

“why would you write fics for small, unpopular fandoms? you’re not gonna reach that many hits in fandoms not many people know about” ?? because I’m not writing fics for hits or kudos, I’m writing them for me because these characters are my blorbos and I have so many ideas, so much thoughts about them that my brain might explode if I don’t write them out.

[hazeleyedbutterfly]

"𝖲𝖾𝗋𝖾𝗇𝖽𝗂𝗉𝗂𝗍𝗒 " is finally beginning on Wattpad & AO3 🥲🫰🏻❤️

Apologies it may take me a while to update and post but at least finally I managed to sit down and get it going!

#wattpad #fanfic #mycandylove #mcl nathaniel #nathaniel mcl #beemoov #nathaniel cdm #corazon de melon #sweet amoris #writblr #amoursucre #mcl #cdm #writeblr #fanfic writing #nathaniel #nathaniel carello

[hazeleyedbutterfly]

this is sooooooo sbbddbhdhshahdhdhd IM SOBBING ITS GIVING ME BUTTERFLIES

[hazeleyedbutterfly]

The moment you check Tumbler to find....THIS.

*SCREAAAAAAAAAAAMS*

Bless Chino for sharing this 🤣

Now my guesses are the following:

1. Castiel

2. Nathaniel 🥵

3. Rayan

4. Hyun

5. Kentin?

6. Lysander

7. Armin 🫠🫢

8. ....Eric 😒🙄

LMAO the names kinda gave it away but LOVE IT. However, this makes my fantasy go wild and wish the OG MCL era would continue 🙈🙃

Xo~

Hi Tetra I saw you posted a creation by Chino a few hours ago but I can't see the post anymore Was it banned? :[

It was banned the MOMENT I posted it 😭😭

Chino drew canon penises for the MCL crushes and I wanted to share, but Tumblr is a killjoy.

Wait wait let's try with an external upload, hopefully with a link the post won't be banned. Beware nsfw.

And please no one goes ranting in her DMs, she drew them for fun and to practice anatomy. I won't share anything else extra if she gets harassed.

Can you guess which one belongs to whom?

[hazeleyedbutterfly]

What IF ... TW: Violence

So after fighting my anxiety and self doubts for a few days, I am finally creating a post in which I will share with you a WHAT IF scenario for Nathaniel's route in MyCandyLove.

As we all know our beloved blondie sometimes gets the worst of it in his storyline, suffering through a lot. The drama!

Since we got some angst in Campus Life, yup I am referring to the time he was stabbed by the gang members. I believe there could have been much more depth into that storyline OR the fact that he becomes a police officer later on. Beemoov could have done so much more with the storyline in Love Life.

I am sure I am not the only one on here that has been wondering about a scenario where Candy gets hurt either by the gang members or finds herself in the middle of a mass shooting, since when it comes to Nathaniel she always jumps in to save him. At least during High School and Campus Life she did. I wish we had that in Love Life a little more as well, in my opinion we had too little of it. And instead had a lot of other drama going on. (I will wholeheartedly disregard the whole "cheating" plot because...NOPE)

So here goes nothing. A little warning, I am not an English native speaker so there might be some grammar errors. Please have mercy with me. This little scene just popped into my head as an idea or inspiration while writing my Fanfiction.

Enjoy! Feel free to share your own thoughts on scenarios like this.

Xo Haz~

TW: Violence

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I can taste the metallic tang of blood in my mouth as my knees buckle, and I collapse to the floor. The stabbing pain courses through my body, leaving me gasping for air. 

“NO!” Nathaniel's agonizing scream jolts me back to reality. As I look down at myself, I notice how my shirt is already smeared with blood. 

I had been shot. Holy fuck, I had been shot!? 

The commotion in the room fades into the background as strong arms wrap around my waist, lifting me off the ground. The faint scent of cologne briefly masking the smell of blood. I gaze up and meet Nathaniel's amber eyes, I wish I hadn't. The pain in his expression overwhelms me. He looks at me as if his life depends on it, as if he might die if I do. His face is bruised, and my blood stains his clothes. 

"Nath...", I croak. 

"You'll be okay. I promise. I've got you," he whispers. 

He carries me away from the ongoing shooting, and I close my eyes, resting my cheek against his chest. He's breathing heavily.

Seconds later, I feel the cool breeze on my face as I open my eyes and gaze up at the night sky, filled with countless stars. It's a beautiful sight. 

“Keep your eyes open. I need you to stay with me, baby," Nath pleads, the desperation in his voice tearing at my heart. 

I touch his cheek, and he takes a tight breath, conveying so much with his eyes that I have to look away. Feeling hot, cold, and unsteady, I find solace in his embrace. He holds me tightly, one arm around my back, rubbing it to warm my skin. Then he kisses me and whispers, "I love you." Over and over, his lips trail across my temples, cheeks, and jaw as he repeats those three words. 

"I love you too. Always" I say, gripping his back as if to freeze this moment in time. The thought of possibly dying in his arms, with my last words being "I love you," feels oddly serene. 

Sirens approach, and unfamiliar faces gather around us. Nath barks orders to them while I gaze at his beautiful features one last time. With all the strength I can muster, I brush my fingers gently along his jawline, trying to etch this image into my memory forever. The stars in the sky seem to surround him like a halo. Then everything goes pitch black. 

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#fake scenarios #fanfics #beemoov #mycandylove #nathaniel mcl #mcl nathaniel #nathaniel cdm #corazon de melon #sweet amoris #angsty scenario #gunshot #writblr

[hazeleyedbutterfly]

My crush back in the days ....

#mcl nathaniel #mycandylove #amoursucre #sweet amoris #i am getting old #nathanielcarello