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soundlessbymidnight · 5 days

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Overthinking doesn't just mess with your head; it messes with your heart, your vibe, your joy, your spark, and your love. It's sneaky but deadly self-sabotage.

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soundlessbymidnight · 1 month

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It’s getting harder and harder to force myself to breathe, lately I’ve been flirting with death and the idea of suffocating doesn’t sound that bad.

#quotes #spirituality #aesthetic #positivity #poetry #sad boi poetry #short poem

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soundlessbymidnight · 2 months

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Dear past me,

Though it’s only been a few days, I just want to let you know that the grass got greener. Way greener. So green that you don’t even remember why you were feeling so much pain. You have a lot of unresolved trauma and no amount of outside reassurance can help you heal from that, it’s something that we have to work on ourselves. I’ve taken some steps towards healing for us, it’s going to be a roller coaster, it won’t come easy, but we are getting there.

My sweet girl, you are so fearful of letting anyone in, and knowing what we have been through I can completely understand why you feel that way, but it’s okay this time. You got so used to people abandoning you that you became the person who abandons others, but we aren’t doing that this time. We chose to stay and we chose to better our communication, we aren’t holding in our feelings and drowning ourself in liquor when we feel insecure anymore. We are processing and addressing our feelings, for the first time you have someone who listens and doesn’t invalidate your feelings and concerns, don’t take him for advantage and don’t push him away, he means well.

Past us will never heal, but future us can, don’t let go of that hope and realization. I’m proud of you for fighting, it wasn’t for nothing! It was for growth and in just a few short days we have accomplished so much growth, you wouldn’t even believe it. Eventually you will understand that you should never leave your happiness in the hands of one person, nobody can control your feelings for you, those walls that you keep putting up need to come down and stay down, we don’t need to keep cementing gravel together, you use that as an excuse because you don’t realize that your fears and paranoias are the real reason why your walls always break, not because of somebody else, but because you psych yourself out and fail to realize that your happiness is your own and it’s your choice to allow yourself to be happy or to allow yourself to hide. Please stop hiding, you’re too much of a spitfire to hide from the world, let them see you in all of your craziness. The world can be ugly, so can we, but you don’t need to hide it or be ashamed, you have the beauty and the ugly just like everybody else does. Keep fighting baby girl, don’t give up, we will better ourself everyday, never give up!

- Future you. Xoxo.

Dear future me,

When you look back on this post you’re going to say “I shouldn’t have listened to you.” And believe me.. I know. We aren’t smart right now, we are blinded by love, we are shallow, and practically mentally comatose and I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. We hurt right now but we still want to believe. Past us would be ashamed, rolling in their graves if they knew how stupid we were being right now. Past us would say “Even with evidence you still believe? We’ve been through this already so why are you willing to ignore the truth right in front of you.. you know better. We know better.” Believe me.. I know..

So when you do look back on this post, future me, tell me that we didn’t make a mistake. Please. Tell me that the grass was greener on the other side and we were able to trust someone without it coming back like a bullet to the chest. Tell me I didn’t lead us on the wrong path yet again, I don’t know how much more we can take honestly. I don’t have anything to believe in right now so I’m really counting on this working out, if this doesn’t work out then everything crumbles right back down and we can’t afford to keep breaking down. Our walls aren’t walls anymore, just bits and pieces taped together, holding on by a thread. So please, tell me we did good and we healed and the sun really shines. Because right now it’s dark.

#aesthetic #positivity #sad boi poetry #new poets society #short poem #letter to myself #don’t give up

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soundlessbymidnight · 2 months

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Dear future me,

When you look back on this post you’re going to say “I shouldn’t have listened to you.” And believe me.. I know. We aren’t smart right now, we are blinded by love, we are shallow, and practically mentally comatose and I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. We hurt right now but we still want to believe. Past us would be ashamed, rolling in their graves if they knew how stupid we were being right now. Past us would say “Even with evidence you still believe? We’ve been through this already so why are you willing to ignore the truth right in front of you.. you know better. We know better.” Believe me.. I know..

So when you do look back on this post, future me, tell me that we didn’t make a mistake. Please. Tell me that the grass was greener on the other side and we were able to trust someone without it coming back like a bullet to the chest. Tell me I didn’t lead us on the wrong path yet again, I don’t know how much more we can take honestly. I don’t have anything to believe in right now so I’m really counting on this working out, if this doesn’t work out then everything crumbles right back down and we can’t afford to keep breaking down. Our walls aren’t walls anymore, just bits and pieces taped together, holding on by a thread. So please, tell me we did good and we healed and the sun really shines. Because right now it’s dark.

#quotes #spirituality #sad boi poetry #poetry #darkness #dear future me #i’m so tired #holding on by a thread

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soundlessbymidnight · 4 months

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I wish I would stop assuming people are going to return the same kindness that I give to them, I break my own heart with these expectations.

#quotes #spirituality #aesthetic #positivity #poetry #onlyf4n #illustration #travel #photography #nature

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soundlessbymidnight · 4 months

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They say you’re either a cup half full, or a cup half empty. Today I’m just a cup, I am not full or empty, I’m just here.

#quotes #spirituality #aesthetic #positivity #poetry #onlyf4n #illustration #travel #photography #nature

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soundlessbymidnight · 7 months

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It feels like I’m just constantly drowning and it’s just getting so old.

Im always in my head, doubting, judging and beating myself up.

Im so tired of hearing myself pick at every little insecurity. Grow up.

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soundlessbymidnight · 1 year

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I just can’t stop thinking,

You told me you loved me and you told me I’m not good enough.

All within the same breathe leaving your lips.

I waited a lifetime to hear you say those words, I just never thought they would be followed by the silence that comes with unrequited, one-sided love.

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soundlessbymidnight · 1 year

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The truth is, life is like a game of cat and mouse. Eventually the cat will win, or the mouse will get away.

The cat in life is represented by death, and the mouse by love.

You’ll either chase love until you die trying to consume it, or love will simply slip away from your grasp of its own accord.

Either way, it’s a loss.

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soundlessbymidnight · 2 years

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I’m on the verge of letting my boat sink because I am so tired of swimming.

I got a call from my dad today after talking to my mom about my feelings.

I kid you not, this man told me, and I quote;

‘When you told me you had depression issues when you were younger I kind of just brushed it off, because you are always too happy.’

When I tell you my mind instantly went to the quote by Robin Williams,

“I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy. Because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless and they don’t want anybody else to feel like that.”

My entire soul left. It’s shift was over. The bitch clocked out. I’m done.

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soundlessbymidnight · 2 years

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Thread where we all

✨ Yeetus ✨

Ourselves?

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soundlessbymidnight · 2 years

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If you hate it here and you know it, clap your hands.

👏🏻👏🏻

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soundlessbymidnight · 2 years

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The dumbest part about my depression is that it’s 100% self inflicted.

I can’t blame this shit on anyone or anything because it’s all me.

I’m not depressed because someone broke my heart or because nobody loves me.

I’m depressed because I just can’t fucking stand myself.

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soundlessbymidnight · 2 years

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I’m tired of existing.

You hear that god?

You here that Lucifer?

One of y’all gotta take me home now because this just ain’t it.

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soundlessbymidnight · 2 years

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Anyone else ever lay there, holding their breath until their brain begs for a single gasp of air.. Just to imagine what it would be like if the world was still?

Just me?

#i’m dead #i’m gonna fucking cry #fuck me up #yeetus deletus #yeets this into the void #why am i like this #whyyyy #who knows #just a thought #sad boi poetry

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soundlessbymidnight · 2 years

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My lips still crave the taste of your breath.

My body still craves the touch of your skin.

My heart still craves the way that you loved me.

#unrequited poem #i crave affection #love me #whyyyy #why am i like this

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soundlessbymidnight · 2 years

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Beware of those you’ve burned bridges with, the past always has a way of crawling back.

#im so tired #why am i like this #idk why #i feel like it’s fine #i’m gonna fucking cry #whyyyy #it is what it is #sorry for being depressing #yeetus deletus #eat it or yeet it #so yeet

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