#[ it's the Material I have issues with ]

[possamble]

do you have any particular thoughts regarding marcille being a half-elf? its interesting to me considering the fact that she seems self-conscious about being a half-elf, but denies it when its brought up

i remember marcille looking visibly uncomfortable over laios simply asking her how old she is, which i think the only reason she might feel nervous about this is because it might reveal her as a half-elf to him.

she's never corrected anybody whose called her an elf either.

never mind the circumstances of the reveal, in which thistle goes on about how half-elves are inferior and accusing her of wanting to become full blooded elf, she seemed particularly upset like he struck a nerve-

i wish the half-elf thing was built upon more. also, underrated marcille line:

okay so i revisited this sequence just to make sure I could back myself up and it's just... man. there's a lot going on.

the first reaction we get from Marcille is this huge panel that takes up half of the page

she is viscerally affected. flushing to the tips of her ears with the intensity of it. and we see it again, a few pages later

so it might seem like she's embarrassed about it and lying to herself, but... I really think it's just that Thistle is accidentally hitting sore spots. If you really look at what he says to get these reactions

"you'll live out your entire life [...] and die that way too"

"a hundred years from now, nobody will be there"

Hear me out. I think, if he stuck to harping on about her inferiority without bringing up how terrifyingly long-lived she is, she wouldn't have been as bothered. But right now, Thistle is accidentally hitting all the marks on Marcille's deepest fears-- and this is after the Winged Lion promised her that her dreams could come true in an extremely vulnerable moment, so it also hits her slightly guilty conscience as well.

I do truly believe that Marcille isn't bothered about being a half-elf the way that people assume she'd be bothered by it. To her, the biggest problem with being a half-elf is that it's isolating.

On one hand, it's not hard to imagine why she'd distance herself from elves in the west. A lot of them can clock her as a half-elf on sight, unlike other races, and therefore she's always branded with this weird stigma of being Othered -- I would even say that she considers herself lucky for being born outside of elven culture instead of having to grow up in it. I mean, just... look at the way elves talk about her.

Skipping past the uncomfortable implication of what 'not tolerating the existence' of half-elves would actually entail, this is incredibly fucking annoying. You can see why she wouldn't want to be around elves much. You see a lot of Marcille reacting badly here, but honestly, almost all of it can be attributed to her freaking out that her bluff completely failed. She's honestly more paying attention to Izutsumi's footsteps and trying to coordinate an opportunity to escape.

And in the end, you see her built-up frustration at being asked if she wants to be a full-blooded elf like 2-3 times in a row.

Yeah, yeah, "the lady doth protest too much," and all. But we know Marcille. We know that she's a lot more embarrassed and horrendously unconvincing when she's being prodded about something she's actually self-conscious about.

Moving onto the flipside of things, it might seem weird that she "pretends" to be a full elf around other races, but it's not really that strange if you think about it. Again, people are weird about her being infertile or whatever, and a lots of them don't even know much about what sets half-elves apart from everyone else. I mean, look at how uncomfortable Laios is just asking her about it

and look at how exasperated and resigned she looks

And like... she's right. Where would that come up in normal conversation? Why would she go out of her way to tell them? She's functionally a normal elf to other races anyway -- got the ears, the abnormally long "childhood", and the huge mana capacity. Unless it's directly relevant or important for people to know, I don't think it's all that strange or indicative of insecurity that she prefers not to bother with it.

(This combined with her sense of being an "outsider" to elf culture also explains why she thinks elf superiority is embarrassing. She sees the way elves treat short-lived races from the "outsider" perspective nonetheless, and thinks it's obnoxious; especially more so because she usually has to play the elf around short-lived races and deal with the reputation of arrogance that elves have built up.)

The sad thing is, this all means that... she doesn't actually fit in anywhere. She doesn't like going out West much because of how elves treat her. But she's also an outsider in the continents she was born in, treated like this exotic long-lived alien choosing to live among short-lived races for some reason. She is always an outsider, the Other, no matter where she goes. Add in the fact that she'll live longer than literally anyone she knows, and it's honestly kind of heartbreaking.

And I think that's the crux of it. Marcille really doesn't act like she's at all self-conscious about being a half-elf because of any feelings of inferiority or being half-made or whatever. She considers herself a perfectly legitimate being and might even, in some ways, consider herself superior to normal elves because she's not blind with elf supremacy or whatever. (And whatever "elven biases" she displays, all of them are born more out of the fact that she's kind of bad at conceptualizing how other races age and mature compared to herself, not that she actually considers herself better or more mature simply for being an elf.)

I think that whatever self-consciousness Marcille has about being a half-elf is, instead, related to terror and loneliness. The reminder that it ensures she'll never truly belong anywhere for the rest of her very long life. The reminder that, in truth, even she's not actually sure how old she is by other races' standards (hence the discomfort when asked how old she is). She doesn't want to not be a half elf, or be a full elf or full tall-man-- in her ideal world, she's still a half-elf. She just gets to live out her life at the same pace with the people she loves and doesn't have to say goodbye again and again and again until she dies.

and one last very important panel, right after Mithrun tells her that all her desires would be devoured

In her ideal world, she's still a half-elf and reality magically starts marching at her pace. But failing that, the second best thing is that she's still a half-elf-- but one who is able to accept reality and let go of her fear.

(But the rest of the story pans out the way it does because, to Marcille, taking reality apart and reshaping it was less scary than simply and fully reconciling with it.)

#asks #dungeon meshi manga spoilers #marcille donato #manga panel analysis #this is probably riddled with typos sorry #readmore cut bc it got long lmao #i ended up babbling about it bc it's such an important character detail to me #bc like... wow. she's so normal about it. she's literally just chilling. #the only thing that really bothers her is the material reality of it and how people treat her #the stereotypes the stigma etc. etc. #otherwise it just.. #literally doesn't factor into her criteria for self-worth at all #the basic truth is that marcille likes herself on a fundamental level #she's not plagued by a deep and festering self-loathing the way a lot of characters in her archetype are #she likes herself and is proud of her successes and accomplishments #its just that shes terrified of failure and can have *episodes* of self-loathing when she fucks up #but who doesn't yknow #i know its a very slight nuance that makes very little difference in how her 'overachiever' problems manifest but its there #the sword of abandonment issues that hangs over her head has nothing to do with her self-worth or self-esteem or meeting her own standards #it has to do with the fear of not living up to *other* people's expectations and not being useful enough to be worth keeping around #she's good enough for herself but she's always so so so scared that she's not good enough for other people #i wont say much about what ryoko kui is saying using this as an allegory for real world racial biases but #dungeon meshi's treatment of marcille's relationship with her being half-elf is so incredibly important to me because it gets it so right. #a trauma about inferiority or being a half-being isn't inherent to the experience of being 'of two worlds' at all #that's something that's unfairly drilled into people by their environment #the *inherent* anguish is the loneliness. the constant longing. the fact that you are always homesick no matter where you are #always just a little bit of an outsider and never fully at home #and dungeon meshi gets that. #edit: cleaned it up a little

[kindaorangey]

once again screaming crying throwing up about the fact that infinity train was prematurely cancelled despite being contracted for 5 seasons.

#infinity train #like i really really want all 8 seasons. & i really really want present day!amelia and all that would come with that (e.g. hazel and grace) #but i feel like i would be so much more content with the show's cancellation if we had the bow on top of it all that was the amelia season #because she was the villain from s1 #the fallout of her villanry births the antagonists from s2. #she appears again in s3 having moved on slightly and changed her outlook. thereby creating a somewhat optimistic outlook on the end point of #her story #and s4 shows (in parts) her descent into villany. #she's been the main reocurring presence in the whole show and her train motivation (unbearable grief) and villain arc are the most #complex the show would've handled #i truly believe that if they had been allowed to make it it would have served as a perfect ending to the show #because she's been built up for so long and because the writers would've had so much material to work with AND detail to pay attention to #it wouldve been spectacular.... and everything they wanted to explore in later seasons wouldve been so good too #(older tulip and revenge and acceptance of something as complicated as alzheimer's disease) #(and i also think it wouldve been neat for them to show us a glimpse of 40 y/o rymin cuz those boys have major issues still when they get #off the train #and so id like a snapshot of them in the future that shows they worked things out) #yeah. justice 4 infinity train justice 4 amelia hughes. i want to fuck that 60y/o deeply evil woman so badly and i need her back in my life

[notfarts]

me at the howling eye (extreme) every tuesday at 1 am pdt taking my sweet time with Garuda and hoping she finally dates me and/or abducts me

#final fantasy xiv #garuda #she's insane #and bird brained #perfect waifu material if you ask me #:l also I might have issues yeah how did you know #ff14 #doodles #elpatrixfarts #my art #artists on tumblr #also I'm a lvl 90 summoner of course #which means I can call my wife at any given moment #just need to ask daddy bahamut for permission every time :) #FFXIV #lalapat hahapat

[badolmen]

Actually it really fucking frustrates me as a disabled person how ‘controversial’ video game accessibility is, how contrived it is to find actually useful accessibility mods for even popular games, how abled gamers try to distance themselves from us because we’re the ones without social lives, who don’t leave the house, who can’t work.

#ra speaks #personal #video games #accessibility #not to mention this is part of why elderly people would LOVE video games but the modern market is hostile to ANYONE who might need help #whether that’s better designed controllers/easier remapping of controls #options for low vision/color blind players #or simply implementing easier difficulties #do you know how much it fucking sucks to love horror and gore and ‘adult’ material #while being relegated to fucking Nintendo kids games bc they’re the only people #who makes games that are approachable and forgiving and MADE to be understood? #this isn’t a stab at convoluted plots or even difficult bosses this is to say that a lot of adult games #don’t have good game design when it comes to having accessible controls or ‘tutorial’ levels #like that’s the bare fucking minimum and jfc is it rare to find a #‘skill issue/git gud’ fun fact I do in fact kick ass in doom 64. #because it’s an older game with simple controls and plenty of accessibility mods #I suck at modern shooters bc they have shit tutorial levels too many buttons and terrible modding scenes #it’s not a matter of skill it’s a matter of accessibility for the purpose of improving that skill

[dragonsdendoodles]

Oh good lord are we doing this now (yes. Yes we are)

#hazbin hotel #angel dust #husk #huskerdust #pov you have a ridiculously different art style from your source material #very glad this is a slow burn relationship angel has ISSUES #speaking of. fucking despise valentino #you could not pay me to give a shit about him i hope he gets fucking murdered #make vox cry. he deserves better #dragon’s doodles

[numbuh424]

The facial acting of these two is soooo good. Their "let's work together to catch Kira" handshakes, except one is Light with his memories of being Kira (on the left) and the other is him without (on the right).

There's a silent declaration of war going on between the two on the left. L is grinning. Light's smile doesn't reach his eyes. An unspoken "I know you know that I know" passes between the two of them.

On the left, that undertone of animosity is gone. Light's expression is genuine, and L can clearly tell. L is searching Light's eyes for Kira. He's not smug anymore because he can't find him.

It's the exact same scene shot-for-shot and yet it's totally different in almost every other way.

#death note #death note drama #death note jdrama #l lawliet #death note tv drama #light yagami #yamazaki kento #masataka kubota #guys I love the jdrama soooo much #idk man they just get it #I have my issues with it for sure but it's things like this that make me appreciate just how much they UNDERSTOOD #not just yamaken and masataka whose acting absolutely devoured in the last half but everyone else too like they just GOT IT YKNOW #I am of the opinion that of all the adaptations it's the musical and the jdrama that understand the source material best #the jdrama isn't for everyone yadda yadda but as someone who's been into dn for over a decade now #I just really feel how much it loves and respects the og story while also exploring new things to make it a unique experience #GOD i love the jdrama #it's 4am I grabbed my laptop just to type this all out #I'm so glad I decided to rewatch

[mamawasatesttube]

saw someone being wrong about kon on the internet again (i know. shocking) and you are all so lucky i'm sick and feverish and lazy because i DID just seriously entertain the thought of writing up a small essay complete with issue and panel citations about why it's simply incorrect to say that kon never really seemed to reciprocate any sort of crush on tim before geoff/tt03. this is just not true. you dont have to actually ship them but to downplay their importance to each other even in the earliest days is simply incorrect. i'm too tired and achy to bother digging through comics to pull up all the issues that have the bits i want to point at but like... they were both very mutually important to each other from early on. it was in no way shape or form one-sided, whether you want to read that as platonic or romantic. man.

#rimi talks #id rather put my limited energy towards the tender t4t timkonisms fic but in my heart this is a longass post #kon's sb94 alice in wonderland nightmare sequence. kon's entire Everything @ tim in issue 85. #the entire concept of robin kon?????? hello????? #the way they function as a unit so easily in yj98 even While actively bickering??? #graduation day and judd winick explicitly saying he wanted them to come out of the closet [together]?? #kon going out of his way to not only do bits just to annoy tim but also being protective of him at the same time?? (in yj98 again) #him wanting robin's number in wf3 (and then getting it sometime before rex leech roller coaster issue)?????? #what are you fucking onnnnnnnnn #you dont have to read it as romantic if you dont want to but they were undeniably close and it was undeniably mutual. bro #i just um. i just think that if youre so internet poisoned to hate a ship that you have to deny the characters have mutual importance #to each other in the canon material (but you can't deny it from one side so you have to claim it's mostly one-sided and blame a writer) #then maybe you should um log off and reread canon ? #<- that's petty sorry but im just saying. #anyways. #returning to the timkon mines now. crawls back into my word doc

[heich0e]

liv what are your thoughts on gege saying that gojo's the type to cheat/ fool around 💀

have u ever met a hot guy in his late 20s who comes from generational wealth

#liv got mail #half joking. but only half #also i might be misremembering but i always interpreted what gege said as meaning gojo doesn't have serious relationships #like he doesn't commit and just fools around #which i think links back moreso to his trust/attachment/abandonment issues in the wake of geto #i'm ngl i think there's very compelling canonical evidence in the source material for stsg being interpreted as a romantic relationship #and given gojo's character/background and the TRAUMA of how that relationship ends i think him fucking around checks out #but u didn't come here for media analysis so i will shut up now

[somecunttookmyurl]

Now I'm honestly kind of curious what that "totes real gem stones" jewelry of 300 bucks looks like, lmao

I once saw someone selling mountain crystals, small pieces, for 100 bucks. So many scammers with stones. Wonder if that person is a scammer themselves, just bullshitting, or has the worst supplier ever.

it would have to be the worst supplier ever because in less than 5 min i tracked down a wholesale supplier who will give me twenty five 3mm lab-grown sapphires for £38

that's about £1.50 each. so £3 for a pair of earrings assuming you only used one in each

thing is i could make stirling-silver-and-sapphires earrings and sell them for the price of claire's costume jewellery and still be making a huge profit on it. it's just that nobody would believe it's real at that price.

#i prommy real gold and real silver in the small amounts used for jewellery? pennies also #it would cost MAYBE #MAYBE #REALLY STRETCHING IT. MAYBE. #£5 in materials to make stirling silver earrings with an actual sapphire in them #and it would still only take me about 57.2 seconds to assemble them #selling them for £7 is - for 1 minute worth of labour - still a chuckle-worthy profit #but nobody would believe it's real at £7 probably so you'd have to charge £20 to look legit #which is hilarious and also sad #so truly. if you cannot make a profit on this that is. i mean skill issue doesnt cover it does it #making a loss on it is a skill

[startledpixel]

#like a dragon infinite wealth #hanawa kihei #yakuza #I don't think this is spoilery he's in the marketing materials #anyway between IW and Gaiden this is the second time I've seen his laptop/keyboard glitch away #other npcs do not have this issue

[cordspaghetti]

hey! out of curiosity, when you and discolizardwizard finish deathwish, are you guys thinking of releasing a physical compiled edition of the entire series? would love to buy one if so!!!

yes we are, that’s the goal!! i’m really excited to get to that point it’ll be so satisfying… nice thick Book…. 😍

#thanks for the ask!! #i have to DRAW FASTER. i always wanna post updates on the current issue but there is so much Spoiler Material to navigate lol

[coredrill]

i do think there’s a chance that bravern could get like. Way more meta than i originally expected, between the in-universe tv show(?) + all of the diegetic showy elements + smith knowing the theme song before bravern himself joined the story………..like the whole ED being set on a stage with the militaristic elements Literally being props did make me 🤨 at first but idk if they are actually building to anything like that or if it’s something else…………hmmmmm

#i have been thinking abt this allday #the bravern = smith from the future theory is fun and i feel like there’s a good chance it’s right #however i must say that i think it would be funnier if that wasn’t the case #and isami just woke up one day with two new suitors who think the solution to everything is like. sekiha love love tenkyouken #‘isami i know how to fix our communication issues i think we should try this special attack’ #and i could see this being the case if both bravern and smith had some third source material as reference whether in universe or not……….. #anyways can’t wait for smith to get fucked up on the 29th 👍 #a: bravern #bravern spoilers #t.bbbb

[beevean]

"[NFCV] is the greatest adaptation of all time because games bad. huh" Yeah, sure feels like Everyone Knows Games Have No Story And Video Games Adaptions Are Bad, so let's completely drop any standards we have for adaptions or even just original stories.

All the while treat fans of the games as whiners who can't appreciate Art and should just be happy it got an adaption at all. Or they are fans who Knows Games Sucks, and other fans need to admit the same.

That explanation is the only reason I can understand why even Pro Critic™ who must have seen decent made media in their work, go on about a show which fail so much basic writing and treat it as a masterpiece. I can't imagine NFCV had been an original IP it would have gotten nearly as much praise it got.

Honestly not. Every single praise I've seen about NFCV hinges on the premise that the original games "didn't have much of a story" (of if they did, like CoD, it was bad). I see it in the way criticism like "it could have been more faithful to the source material" gets sneered on like "oh so you wanted Trevor to jump on platforms? You wanted a pixel style?". Like, the idea that maybe the series had lore is completely alien to these fans.

That's why I keep insisting on the genuine writing flaws of the show. Even as its own thing, it has tremendous pacing issues, characterization inconsistencies, blatant narrative favoritism, idiot plots, childish dialogue hidden under a veneer of pretentiousness, shallow themes, and disgusting implications. There's only so many times you can bleat to me that N!Isaac has the best character arc of all time (all while gleefully shitting on game Isaac ofc) before I feel like you deadass watched a different show than I did.

#anti netflixvania #like i already said this but #hazbin hotel was accused of disrespecting SA victims because it depicted nightmarish abuse with a pop song that had depressing lyrics #where was this energy when lenore said to hector that he was having fun so he shouldn't complain? and nothing in the narrative challenged i #why does this show get a pass on so many glaring issues? #how the hell did nocturne manage to be nominated for best adaptation of 2023 when it has almost nothing in common with its source material? #doesn't that come from a place of “well the source material was lacking anyway”?

[phantompages]

Same Age AUs are so fascinating to me, and of the ones I've seen I really like them. In particular if we have Reigen and Shigeo both as middle schoolers because instead of an older mentor figure Shigeo is ending up with another kid. He gets to have a friend his age who gets to drag him around to do stuff and it's nice, really nice to have a friend he can relate to. Meanwhile Reigen has soooo many ✨issues✨ but hey he's great at bullshitting and is getting Shige to open up some more, while on the flip side he's also getting a friend and can go out and do more now that he has someone to do stuff with. Plus they make great business partners so this is going amazingly :D

Another version I like is if this is the result of some time travel shenanigans, mostly because I like seeing a more stark contrast between kid Reigen and adult Reigen, especially through Shigeo's eyes because... this isn't his shishou, not exactly, because kid Reigen doesn't have the years of life experience that helps his words hold more meaning, even if kid Reigen is still a great talker and bullshitter. He can't say everything right that Shige needs to hear and its a bit off putting, especially if kid Reigen has different views on being "special" and whatnot (considering... "I want to be someone"). But there's still elements there that is just so Reigen in the way he talks and the way he moves that its like. Yeah, this is a kid, but it's the same person and everyone can see just how Reigen is, this is how he started. He's not Shigeo's shishou but he's still Reigen.

#mp100 #reigen arataka #kageyama shigeo #just like with ageswap id love to take a crack at a same age au just bc i think its neat #also we dont have enough post canon stuff with the kids all grown up like cmon i wanna see how they develop #if we gonna have ageswap give us more timeline fuckery like same age aus and post canon #alternate meetings are cool too i like seeing diff possibilities #i just think shige and kid reigen would be great friends. just two lil guys doing their best #((no ship though. keep in mind canon material 🔫)) #phantom bunnies #mp100 same age au #i think the other way around if theyre both adults would be neat too #because they got sooo many issues to sort through #seri 🤝 shige #he's just like me fr #reigen gotta help not one but two overpowered psychic shutins #imagine by this point he's not even running s&s anymore he's already moved on to smth else bc he never had that meeting with kid shige #ALSO ALTERNATIVELY. SAME AGE AU BUT BC OF TIME TRAVEL SHENANNIGANS #OLDER SHIGE GOING BACK IN TIME BC SOMETHING HAPPENED IN THE FUTURE #time travel fuckery my beloved

[verflares]

i Wish i had some degree of sewing/plushmaking powers because honestly that might be the only thing between me and diying my own light dragon plushie. if i can be so real

#this has haunted me ever since totk came out btw i need merch of her SO BADDDDD (read: britains aforementioned merch problem) #i HAVE considered making a jacket patch for her or smth that i could stitch on a jacket/beanie. but... marketable plushie.. #not just that. if i could make a good/malleable pattern i could hobble together More Dragons also #maybe i could even make a plushie for my link dragon in the ultimate self-indulgent move. but well. its out of my hands #im Mostly familiar with the building process of plushmaking. but not so much the actual Doing #eg i could probably make a pattern and/or mess with a similar one. but. materials are another issue #also im being pretty loose with size and stuff. id probably make chibi-ish ones but also a Long one would be fun. in my opinion #anywayyyy im having so much fun w my latest wip. hope all is well #personal.txt

[fromtheseventhhell]

It's gonna be so funny when George writes Rhaegar and Lyanna's relationship as romantic

#we're definitely going to be learning a lot about their relationship in twow and if it isn't demonizing Rhaegar people will be pissed #rip to people who think George has an issue with writing a /problematic/ relationship as romantic but also...have you read the books? #It's just funny how much fanon surrounds Rhaegar Lyanna + Elia and people think their personal feelings on the matter should just be canon #not a single claim that can actually be backed up by material in the books just vibes~ #anyways I hope he makes their relationship romantic cause it would piss off very annoying people in fandom and I think that would be funny