#{/this is honestly a lot better tbh}

[kenmaiii]

after two years i finally draw the favorite

#my art #still learning honestly. idk how to explain it but some medias youre so fixated on and obsessed with u instantly want to draw everyone #for me dunmeshi has always been the opposite. series and characters i enjoy sm i cannot bring myself to pick up a pencil #for some reason. it got a lot worse once the anime started airing idk. simply forcing myself to get some of my energy out. in a way #dunmeshi #dungeon meshi #thistle #dunmeshi thistle #thistle dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #>_< series i was into since late 2021. yet u wouldnt know that unless u follow my side twitter account. sowwy ig #i do this with a lot of franchises honestly. cannot bring myself to draw even if i think abt the characters constantly. ie skip to loafer #u will nvr catch me calling this guy sissel sorry. save that name for Mr. Ghost Trick. another thing i. also. dnt talk abt. which i adore #i need to get better at talking abt and expressing myself for the things that i enjoy. ive been wanting to draw laios for a good #while too but im scared. for some reason. u-u should nvr let a white man do that to me honestly. #for now i'll thistle tho. maybe we will get kabru namari or mithrun next from me >_< i have to talk myself into it #i think the closest way i can explain why i cannot bring myself to draw for some series is that i dnt want to mess up somehow #like 'ilu so much [character] what if i cnt draw u the way u deserve even tho i love u sm what if its not enough.' <- leaves it to sm1 else #tbh [scratches head] i prefer the version with less coloring ^-^ but i realize the one thats more colored would get more eyes on it... hm

[cathalbravecog]

scenecore misty back at it again!! + a speedpaint! :D

it wasn't meant to be a youtube link, but uploading the video file itself won't work, so apologies about that i know youtube links are annoying on tumblr please don't kill me </3

#it's very hard to label this design honestly - it is not exactly scene ESPECIALLY NOT the hair. however i consider scenecore different from #it and more like an aesthetic based on scene that may or may not include the culture like the music and raves and such more #leaning on internet nostalgia if anything #so id say that fits better so the adopted scenecore misty title does fit. i originally didnt wanna use that myself believe it or not #anyways hope you like this it took longer than intented as always. whoopsies #and enjoy the music in the speedpaint heehee #i didnt check it while it was rendering so if theres goofy stuff or missed recordings/skips then whoopsie @_@ #flashing #bright colors #rainmaker #misty moonsoon #scenecore #toontown corporate clash #ttcc #guz art #video_guz.mp4 #abt what i said earlier tbh genuinely how i made this design i just slapped stuff i like together #i loooove putting rainbows and stars on stuff... and lots of purples #also i gotta like make a pinned post on my main so i can credit back the textures i use #if i dont forget... its like 4 am though so! yeah no not rn . also sry more tags than usual i do want ppl to see this + my usual sortin tag #Youtube

[8bit-mau5]

This has been such a tough week and it’s not even the weekend yet 🥲

Can I get some love n positivity? Some pet pics (no rats or snakes)? Or hear what drew y’all in to my art? Asks? Honestly anything rn could help get my mind off things 💙💙 q v q

#with almost having to call the cops several times and waking up unable to breathe yesterday scared me so bad i almost called 911 but like #what was i even gonna say. if i couldnt breathe. acid reflux started choking me in my sleep and I think im p lucky to wake up from it #tbh #im exhausted and honestly still pretty shaky from everything going on so I’m taking a break from working on owed art for at least a week #and try to take things easy.. forcing myself through more and more work i think would only exacerbate the health issues ive been dealing #with as a Result of stress #anyways. ty all for reading this far if u did. im sorry i havent been around much lately but home has been hell for months #i have a few asks from a few nights ago but!! i still have a pinned w/all the trolls i would want more for #if anyones interested in sending things for my characters #or even art suggestions/requests (pertaining to my own OCs) #8bit beeps #on thbe bright side: i have a PCP now! i have health insurance! my first therapists appointment is next week and it's only //FIVE DOLLARS// #a session! #so things are getting better but theres still a lot to deal with

[thedreadvampy]

My housemate is moving out in January

She told us this a week or two ago, when she sat down and, after sitting with us watching TV for over an hour, said "hey so I bought a house and I'm moving out. We agreed on 2 months notice so I won't move until the end of January."

The last time she talked in the immediate terms about buying a house was in 2021, when the sale she was working on fell though and she was unemployed so it was a "when I'm back in a position to look I'll start looking again." Since then I've occasionally asked her how she's doing on the house buying front and she's been like "oh I'm getting there financially" but hasn't mentioned anything concrete.

She didn't tell us she was looking at places. She didn't tell us she had put in an offer. She told us when the offer was finalised. A week AFTER she emailed the letting agent about getting out of her part of the lease. And, it increasingly feels like, only because the letting agent's response was that we had to agree to change the lease.

The letting agent's response (which our housemate obviously didn't copy us into; we had to follow up separately and they copied us into the email chain) also includes that when we change the lease, they're empowered to change the rent, quote, "no cap". Rent was already going up in January - there's no possibility of Sam and I paying her share of the rent.

The really fucking upsetting thing is we're not strangers. This isn't a casual "housemate we found on flatshare" thing. She and Sam have lived together literally their entire adult lives. Me and her have known each other well over a decade. I lived in her and Sam's flat when I was homeless. We were the first people she came out to as trans. We're not super close but I thought we were fucking friends. And she's literally gone out of her way to not talk to us about this for what must have been months while the sale completed - which means she's lied to my face at least once cause I've asked her about her finances in that time (cause she's in a job she hates that she only took to get the house money, so it's like. when we've been commiserating about work stuff I'm often asking 'are you almost free?'). she literally went out of her way to talk to the letting agents before talking to us about putting us in a situation where we could lose our fucking home.

And she keeps. trying. to pretend nothing's happened. Every time I've seen her since then she's not mentioned anything or apologised or anything, she just keeps chatting away and offering hugs and fistbumps like nothing's happened. Like we're still fucking friends.

All it would take for us to still be friends and to be happy for her would have been one fucking sentence in the groupchat like "hey, just put an offer in on a house" or "I'm looking at properties, just so you know, that might happen in the next few months". Like nobody begrudges her for buying a house! It's very cool for her! She's 31 she's worked really hard to get the money I would love to be happy for her! Unfortunately she decided avoiding conflict is more important than giving the people she fucking LIVES WITH (who btw fronted her a month on the rent here while she was unemployed and agreed to take on a larger proportion of the move-in cost back in 2021, if we're still holding ourselves to shit we said 2.5 years ago), so no, you are not entitled to our friendship or to going back to normal.

like if she'd been honest with us it would have been something to process but we'd have had time to figure out our next steps. instead she's left us in a position where we have to find a new roommate before she gives her one month notice, which means finding someone by the end of December, which oh look that's the middle of the fucking Christmas holidays. and she didn't tell us anything until the START of December, or copy us into her conversation with the letting agent, meaning we still don't know what the rent on that space will be so we aren't yet in a position to advertise it. Has she offered to help find a roommate? Has she fuck. Has she offered to help out by moving her move-out date? Nah, she's moving as soon as she gets the keys because, quote, "that means her finances won't have to change". SOUNDS LOVELY. NOT HAVING YOUR FINANCES SUDDENLY CHANGE. I THINK THAT SOUNDS LIKE A REALLY REASONABLE FUCKING GOAL.

Thirteen fucking years she's lived with Sam. Four fucking weeks over Christmas she's left us to figure out a way to not turbofuck our living situation. And she's got the fucking nerve to try and pretend we should be interacting like nothing's changed. Jesus Christ. What a fucking unhinged way to treat...anybody, honestly. never mind the friends-your-entire-adult-life part. literally cannot imagine a scenario in which I would buy a house without telling the people I lived with.

(haha actually this is what my parents divorced over so apparently it's not unusual. although at least my dad had the decency to tell the woman he shared finances with at the point he put in an offer not the point the fucking sale went through.)

Like we'll be fine. It's a huge city centre flat with decent rent and queer housemates, hopefully even when the rent goes up it'll be an easy sell in a city with a huge housing shortage and big queer community. We've got a couple of people interested already, sight unseen - worst case scenario we have to live with someone we don't get on with. And it's given Sam and me a push to look at our own finances and as of today, we've got a mortgage decision in principle and can start looking at flats in the area - mind, we'll be transparent upfront and tell any prospective housemates that yeah, we're looking to buy and move out in the next 6-12 months, and we'll tell them if we put an offer in, because we're decent fucking people who aren't going to spring that on someone out of the blue.

But it's been I think 2 weeks and I'm so fucking angry I could spit. It's such a fucking betrayal. And frankly you know selfishly like. I just had a breakup a couple of months ago, I'm in the middle of moving jobs, both me and Sam have a history of housing instability and this has been the first decent, stable, safe, not-mouldy not-freezing home I think any of us have had, and this is so fucking triggering and upscuttling I could just start biting. like I was talking to my friend about it last week and it's just like. Can I have One Fucking Thing of the three main tentpoles of survival - home, work, relationships - that are fucking stable right now? because shit has been In Flux lately. and at least the work and relationship stuff has changed because of my decisions. going through all that work to make myself short-term unstable to gain long-term stability has been really hard and draining and then just as I was reaching the crisis point with work stuff BOOM, IT'S HOUSING INSTABILITY WITH A STEEL CHAIR. fuck. seriously fuck this and fuck her. we're going to make something good come of it but what a deeply, unbelievably shitty thing to do.

#red said #the other thing that bugs me about it is. ok and again this is old shit dredged back to 2021 when we moved in together #but i had my housemate. and Sam had her. and each of us were really close pairs who'd lived together a long time #and we tried looking for flats as a four but a) a flat with 4 good sized bedrooms in Edinburgh is hens teeth #and b) my housemate was pretty happy to live with me and Sam but increasingly felt like a 4 man flat was going to be a lot for him #and so in the end we talked about it. and through a combination of that and same housemate being in a pretty #unfavorable position housing wise. cause she was unemployed and had shit credit at that moment. #we agreed she'd move with us and Joe went and found a one bed #and in the end that's been really great for him tbh he's a lot happier and more confident and we were pretty sick of each other by then #and so we get on much better now #but at the time it was a real heartache i felt like I'd let Joe down i felt like our friendship was over #and honestly I have never been a huge fan of living with our current housemate. even before we lived here #like when i was staying with her and Sam too. she's incredibly messy and takes up a lot of space in conversations #I've always liked her as a person but she's exhausting and often unpleasant to share space with #and there's a bit of me that's like. we bent over backwards to accommodate you when you were precarious. #like it would have been WAY easier for us to look for a 2-bed during 2021. and if it was a 3-bed I'd have rather stayed with Joe. #but we moved with her for her sake. and she left Sam to clean up their old place (and there were Literal Rats) #and she got really pissy about driving the moving van even though a) that was her idea and b) she's the only person with a license #and c) i walked all MY shit over by hand anyway and the only reason she hired the van was to move her tv #me and Sam found all the core furniture. me and Sam sorted out all the viewings. me and Sam did all the planning. Sam set up all the bills. #we spotted her for rent!we took a bigger share of the costs! because we fucking cared about her and wanted her to have a fucking home! #and she can't even do us the courtesy you'd offer a fucking lodger you found on fucking gumtree

[vamprnce]

shoving my two interests together bc I'm unhinged ehehehehe this happened bc my hyperfixation of rdr came back full force then all the sudden me and some friends are talking abt a hackett quarry western au 🤠✨

these are some of my hc's plus designs I have of trio atm! imma try to draw out the rest of the gang too, prob Emma and Abi is next :) (some notes from discord under the cut lol)

these are a lil bit unorganized adsgs but some general ideas ig also Dyl still has his kitty, I can't separate them 💕

#text #my art #the quarry #western au #ryan erzahler #dylan lenivy #kaitlyn ka #rylan #radioheads #it still counts lol #western quarry au #ive risen from the grave aka an art block shehdjdb what better thing to draw than my silly faves as silly cowboys 💖 #tysm to my friends who made me so unhinged abt this au/concept especially percy hehe #i have a lot of thoughts/hcs abt it honestly #also i was going back and forth w listening to the rdr2 ost and orville peck while drawing this lol gotta set the mood yknow #tbh im really content w how these guy's outfits came out wahh cant wait to draw out everyone else! 🤗 got lots of ideas

[ultfreakme]

Hidden Inventory's opening is the SatoSugu song but also, Specialz in Shibuya Arc and the MV especially also gives such SatoSugu vibes. How dare they have the line "you are my special" playing right at the scene in the OP which is meant to depict Gojo seeing 'Geto' again as he's about to be sealed and he's thinking about all the time they spent together. Also obviously the "you are my special" at the very beginning showing the rift between Gojo and Geto as they walk away from one another.

#jjk #jujutsu kaisen #satosugu #i get it now i so so get it #i didn't like gojo's character in s1 that much I didn't understand the hype #until s2 which is when he felt the most human- and that happened because geto was around #i didn't get a lot of the meta saying geto let gojo be human- he saw the human in him #i thought shoko yaga nanami haibara treated gojo as just some guy #but i think geto definitely had an impact on the viewer's interpretation of gojo- he's a person who has a best friend #gojo's kindness became a lot more obvious after seeing hidden inventory #he has an odd way of showing it but he does care a lot tbh #he seems to think it's not enough and so does the narrative but honestly i don't think anyone can do better than gojo given the circumstanc #absolute power corrupts absolutely & all that- but gojo didn't get corrupted

[alithetiredartist]

The dramatic irony of everything happening with Jojo Siwa is so fucking hilarious

First she exploits a disabled child -not hilarious- repeats the cycle of abuse that she was subjected to on dance moms with her own show, allegedly cheats on her girlfriend, etc, etc. then she goes through her “switch” and goes through her 14 year old emo phase at 20.

Tell me why this kid has the audacity to sing a song called Karma.

She tries so hard. She’s trying so hard to make it seem like she’s making the most dramatic change of her generation, she’s completely changed, no more rainbow glitter dance moms now we have emo sparkle darkness revenge fairy. She wants people to think she wrote Karma. She talks about her writing process, and she says how brilliant she is for thinking it up, but she also says that it was pitched to her a few times so we can’t accuse her of lying.

I think on paper this plan was probably a great idea, a chance to break out of her reputation for bows and glitter, but the execution is nothing but a disappointment. I think instead of going emo and taking inspiration from things she doesn't understand and being genuine, the switch honestly could've been welcomed with open arms but she's not genuine and she doesn't want to make a natural switch. She wants to be risky because she thinks it'll make her look cool or someone higher up decided for her and she went along with it because that's what'd make more money or maybe her mom made her.

Once it came out that Jojo didn't only not write the song herself, she wasn't even the first one to record it, that's when the irony of the situation kicks in. I know absolutely nothing about Brit Smith but she's and icon and I love her with my whole heart.

Brit Smith releasing her version of Karma and it doing better than Jojos is my favorite form of dramatic irony because of course this all happened to a song named Karma.

#I honestly do feel bad for Jojo to an extent because of what happened on Dance Moms but everything that's happening is happening #because instead of going to therapy or doing something else to heal she decided to repeat the cycle #her mom reminds me a bit of the Kardashian mom I forgot her name tbh #but I don't think that Jojo herself came up with the transformation #she might've but it seems more likely to me that she was told to do this #I also see her get a lot of completely justified hate toward her for being friends with groomers like James Charles but I think to an extent #she doesn't really get that part because she is still a kid I mean she's only like twenty and when you were raised up around groomers #chances are they do what they do best and groom you #it's not the best excuse because if she came out of her bubble for ten seconds she could see why it was bad but still #idk #karma #jojo siwa #brit smith #karmas a bitch #also i'm staying dramatic irony because I wnst it be clear i'M tla lo ng about the writing technique and not #and not sarcasm irony #god how is the world real #karmas a bitch I should've known better #if i had a wish i would’ve never effed around

[socksandbuttons]

I forgot a detail but regardless!! HIS COOL THUMBNAIL DESIGN IS NOW IN THE SHOWS VR CHAT EPISODES!!! Which im super happy about if you’ve not heard me yell about it yet. HES BACK TO TOL BOY... TO AN AVERAGE PERSON!

Anyway, the OG take from the thumbnails, the one just revealed in the show (i assume limitations of like. removing some things from a moon model BUT HES HERE!!!!) and a bit of my interpretation if i wanted to use those details more. I love that his hat has lil moons on it (and the stripe on his pants do too. But i forgot to add that so. there we go!)

#literally just went the epiosde to see full body and color and stuff really but yeah TINY MOONS ITS SO CUTE <33 #sun and moon show lunar #sams lunar #fnaf lunar #sun and moon show spoilers #IS IT?? BECAUSE GENUINELY HOW HE WAS SUPPOSE TO LOOK IN THE REDESIGN SO #I WIN THIS ROUND!!! #honestly love this one better than the chibi lunar anyway so #it may not have a tail but i live for this tall boy in his one piece suit tbh #AND AND AND CANONLY WAS SUPPOSE TO BE SPARKLY!!!! #SOOO!!! #can u tell i love this design a lot and was so excited to see it in the vrchat models when they first said theyd give lunar a body #im so happy about it #myart

[aho-dapa]

This fandom is honestly...

Like, there is something to be said about fandoms in general and how they've changed as a whole generally but

There's also something about how the acotar fandom is especially toxic like

The idea that a post is surprised a murder hasn't happened yet and I found myself agreeing??? Is honestly telling

Like, also. A massive part of this is shipping and maybe it's because I have my corner of this fandom, but even then shipping the "wrong" thing in general has become something I honestly have to take in consideration when thinking of my mental health and if I can personally be prepared for any backlash??

This fandom at large doesn't feel safe and that's majorly concerning tbh

Maybe instead of saying shippers as a group are doing harm, we should just disavow harmful actions in general and not be complicit in it idk???

#anyway #just having thoughts #anti sjm #like I'm also pro Tamlin? and that doesn't help #i had to stop making intensive tamlin posts because my mental health honestly couldn't handle the constant discourse #which is sad when people genuinely come with the intent to discuss but since its all horrible in general I end up not having a lot of #emotional space to have a good conversation most of the time sighhhh #i also just end up blocking people in general when my timeline messes up my interests but #i have yet to block main ship tags because I still want to interact with my side of fandom on it but I'm sooooooo close to blocking #main tags because some people are vile on here #don't even get me started on gwyn because people end up saying shit they shouldn't be just because of shipping #and I don't have any personal feelings about gwyn but the way people say she's not important as a character gives me the ick tbh #like I get it from a sjm is a terrible writer standpoint #but gwyn did have narrative importance in acosf despite however I feel about how it coulf have been better written #and also as a character that is very explicitly a SA survivor some people here need to THINK about how they talk about her

[anghraine]

I’ve been thinking about the development of Elizabeth’s feelings for Darcy in P&P, and one of the things I find really intriguing is how incredibly careful Austen is in her handling of their physical attraction to each other.

A lot of takes on Darcy’s initial attraction to Elizabeth focus entirely on the physical element, but Austen’s description of it folds together his attraction to her intelligence, her expression, her body, and the “easy playfulness” of her manner. Of these, the earliest mentioned is his realization that her face is “rendered uncommonly intelligent by the beautiful expression of her dark eyes” and her eyes are the physical feature that he seems to dwell on the most.

At any rate, Darcy’s attraction to Elizabeth is established early on (Ch 6) and continues as a thread from that point on. And—I mean, even in 1813, it’s one thing to show a man in his twenties being attracted to the pretty heroine. Austen is a lot cagier about Elizabeth’s feelings.

The narrative is structured so that we know Darcy is physically attractive from his entrance in Ch 3, when the narrator refers to “his fine, tall person, handsome features, noble mien” along with his wealth. But we’re not in Elizabeth’s head at that point, and iirc, she isn’t shown as saying or thinking anything about his physical attractiveness until she blushingly agrees that he is very handsome forty chapters later.

Even there, Austen leaves the dialogue to stand on its own and tells us nothing of what Elizabeth actually feels about it. The conversation moves to Darcy’s personal virtues, which reveal the critical fact that Darcy is consistently kind and good-natured in the domestic sphere. So Elizabeth’s concession that Darcy is physically attractive is narratively linked to the suggestion that he would make a safe husband, emotionally speaking (although her concession comes first, which may be significant).

Between the initial, omniscient narrator-type description of him and Elizabeth agreeing in Ch 43, we do get references to his looks a few times, but during the period of Elizabeth’s dislike, it’s always either through implication or through someone around Elizabeth rather than Elizabeth herself. So Bingley, for instance, jokes about how Darcy is so much taller than he is, but the narrator only remarks on Elizabeth’s assumption that Darcy is offended by this.

We know that Elizabeth looks for a resemblance to Darcy when she first sees Lady Catherine, and finds it, but this isn’t explicitly linked to her conclusion that Lady Catherine might have been handsome in her youth.

Then there’s the introduction of Colonel Fitzwilliam, when he arrives with Darcy, as “about thirty, not handsome, but in person and address most truly the gentleman.” Obviously the contrast is with Darcy, who is handsome but has less gentlemanly manners, but this isn’t explicitly spelled out. Austen simply says that Darcy “looked just as he had been used to look in Hertfordshire” and moves to the manner of his compliments to Charlotte.

We do get an explicit contrast later, when Darcy, Georgiana, and Bingley come to Lambton (so, after the critical revelations):

Miss Darcy was tall, and on a larger scale than Elizabeth; and, though little more than sixteen, her figure was formed, and her appearance womanly and graceful. She was less handsome than her brother; but there was sense and good humour in her face

Austen breezes past this to Georgiana’s manners and Bingley’s arrival. There are a couple of discussions of Darcy’s appearance earlier at Pemberley, but entirely held between Mr and Mrs Gardiner, who admire his figure while Elizabeth is consumed by embarrassment. She mentions that it was obvious that he had only just arrived via horse or carriage, but not how she knows this or what she feels about it beyond repeatedly blushing.

Then they meet again, he interacts with the Gardiners for awhile, and Elizabeth and the Gardiners leave. The Gardiners discuss the encounter including Darcy’s appearance, and Mrs Gardiner—who at this point, still thinks Darcy has mistreated Wickham—first concludes that Wickham is handsomer, then immediately re-considers and decides that Darcy has perfect features, but not Wickham’s angelic countenance. She (Mrs Gardiner) goes on, “He[Darcy] has not an ill-natured look. On the contrary, there is something pleasing about his mouth when he speaks.”

Elizabeth does not opine on Darcy’s mouth, lol, and instead defends Darcy’s moral character as far as his financial dealings with Wickham are concerned. We don’t hear much more of it apart from that, and in general, we see Elizabeth’s reactions to Darcy more than we hear about them:

Their eyes instantly met, and the cheeks of both were overspread with the deepest blush.

She blushed again and again over the perverseness of the meeting.

The colour which had been driven from her face, returned for half a minute with an additional glow, and a smile of delight added lustre to her eyes, as she thought for that space of time that his affection and wishes must still be unshaken.

Darcy had walked away to another part of the room. She followed him with her eyes, envied everyone to whom he spoke, had scarcely patience enough to help anybody to coffee; and then was enraged against herself for being so silly!

The colour now rushed into Elizabeth’s cheeks in the instantaneous conviction of its being a letter from the nephew, instead of the aunt

She had only to say in reply, that they had wandered about, till she was beyond her own knowledge. She coloured as she spoke

I do not personally think there can be much reasonable doubt about whether Elizabeth is attracted to Darcy during this phase of the book. But the narrative does dance around it enough (for understandable 1813 reasons, I suspect, given that Elizabeth either dislikes or hates Darcy for a significant portion of the book) that it’s not at all clear when she begins to finds him attractive, especially given that she does not actually see him between receiving the letter and acknowledging his attractiveness at Pemberley. So I think there are multiple valid interpretations or headcanons one could come up with for that.

#fun fact: i started writing this bc i was like 'i want to make a post about something trivial i can be concise about' #rip me i guess #but tbh my personal headcanon is that elizabeth /is/ attracted to darcy for a lot of the book but NOT remotely 'secretly in love' or w/e #people will be like 'if the attraction is mutual then what about her dislike are you saying-' #nope! she hates him. in fact she only hates him more bc he's smart and hot and complicated. #in addition to her conviction that he's a terrible person morally #and then she finds out he's actually okay and then that he's actually GOOD and then that he's made himself even better #elizabeth: i tried infatuation at first sight with wickham. now i shall try grown-up feelings like respect and gratitude #three days later: alas... i could have loved him... #some indeterminate amount of time without actually seeing him later: ...oh. fuck. #(i paraphrase. but honestly while elizabeth's realization that half her sleepless nights are darcy's fault is sad it is also very funny) #but yeah i think elizabeth is extremely wary of where attraction to emotionally unsuitable people goes and just buries all that #but once hte brakes go off she falls FAST #also she's genuinely attracted to three different men over the course of one pretty short novel and i love that for her #anghraine babbles #anghraine's meta #austen blogging #elizabeth bennet #fitzwilliam darcy #otp of otps #pride and prejudice #jane austen #long post

[mel-loly]

-“Don't take your anger out on others”

I instantly:

#you guys can call me selfish all you want. I admit that I am. I was never a saint or anything like that.. #anyone who knows me well knows that my head works like this. I'm like this for a long time. it's a very common feature of mine tbh- #I honestly don't know very well why I'm like this but... yeah. being selfish or very stressed is with myself! <3.. #(it may not be something normal and even considered a great sin. but at least that's just in my head that works. #I don't do “this” every time I'm stressed! I keep much more than you think.. it's rare for me to do something like that- #even if I wanted to do a lot of times just to feel “a bit better” Ik that I can't. and that's why I keep this to myself..) #so anyways-- this is just a art vent.. hope you have a wonderful day/night </3 #i'm mel and this is my blog✌️ #my art blog #art #my art #my art <3 #art mel #my art style #mel creator #mel loly #my oc character #vent art #personal vent #tw: anger thoughts #tw: vent #also- happy father's day.. hope all the fathers have a amazing day💛 #scheduled post #aaa idk why I made this- kahsjdbd

[falmerbrook]

I made a post on my twitter a year ago that I'm still in the same feeling about:

"Whenever I see posts like "Don't feel bad about your art! Younger you would be so excited about how it looks now" I feel really awkward because younger me would be disappointed AS HELL over how my art looks. Those posts do not make me feel better lol

"Like, little me had the basic understanding that I'd improve as I got older, she would not be impressed that I'm simply not as bad as she was now. She grew up seeing all this fantastic art from 18 year olds online and desperately wanting that. She'd be so upset I'm still not even close to achieving that at 21" (now 22, going on 23 in a few months)

#i know i have 6 months but i need artfight NOW. it always makes me feel better about my art (and therefore myself) #theres a certain look to my art i really want but i dont think ill ever achieve it #tbh i dont think ill ever actually be good (in a proper way) at art and thats making me pretty sad rn #mine #vent #specifying this is from twitter so its clear i didnt just steal someones post lol #honestly a lot of 'positivity' artist posts quickly turn into really good/professional artists flaunting their work #and either way dont make me feel better about my self

[essektheylyss]

@smallerthanzer0 reminded me of my love for Lie To Me as a teenager which is a good part of the reason why anytime I encounter the concept that lying will inevitably lead to a tangled web that spirals beyond your control and come back to bite you in the ass, I'm just like, lol. skill issue.

#the other part of the reason was growing up in a large catholic family as a deep intrinsic nonbeliever. but bygones etc #anyway this does apply to essek but I forgive him cuz he was mostly just outmatched. #he was playing against a better more experienced liar so. I'll let it go. #honestly overall? very skillful lying. few could've actually gotten off as well as he did in his place. #tbh people put a lot of emphasis on the nein being ~just as morally grey~ as essek which I do not believe but #the real camaraderie there was not in the moral greyness but the fact that the nein are also a pack of fucking liars. i love them. #anyway brb while I yell from the rooftop 'LYING AS AN ACTION IS MORALLY NEUTRAL YOU'RE ALL JUST SHIT AT IT AND BITTER ABOUT IT' #this is why the coast is the best. they are a society that would turn lying into an artform. #case in point: fjord. vandran. jester. #this is also the thesis of the tiefling fic. which is why it's fun. you don't need to become a kinder person if you become a better liar.

[cyber444angel]

i think i haven’t purged for a whole week now damnnnnnn

#tw // ed #honestly kinda based i feel a lot better??? #((probably also bc the only meal i have in a day is like…soup & that’s basically just going back to restricting but heyyyyyyyy)) #((but tbh who cares as long as i’m not throwing up all the time it’s a success for me ngl))

[roaring-at-the-sky]

thinking abt how rudy only had wally cause a cult told him that his kid would be powerful.

he never cared about his son or his wife- his family was just another one of his schemes.

the panels before the scene that he tells wally that is literally him complaining that the kid he tried to mold and control wouldn't obey him as he wanted him to, and then siccing a group of people on him to beat his ass and abduct him.

a lot of fanon things interpret rudy as this stupid bumbling alchoholic who beats his wife and his kid when he's drunk, but he's FAR from that. he's cruel and cold to pursue his own goals and has never once loved the family he wants to control.

#dc #wally west #rudy west #tbh im shitting on rudy here a lot (which he deserves) #but honestly mary isnt that much better. just worse in different ways #anyway tune in next time where i explain why iris west was the first person to unconditionally love wally

[harumscarumcos]

I’m just happy to know no Disney/Disney adjacent films won for the sole fact they are Disney/Disney adjacent

Congrats to The Boy and the Heron on the Oscar win, still proud of each movie that ended up nominated in the section

#like I would’ve cried big tears for ATSV or Nimona to have won #but still proud of them being nominated yknow? #oscars #oscars 2024 #also no shade to elemental I do think it’s a nice film #I just know when it comes to the academy’s history #if not for the years of prior backlash they definitely would’ve chosen it because of that leg up of being a disney/pixar feature #and I still think a lot of the movies in the category this year just had more weight to their stories than elemental did tbh #I really liked the themes of the boy and the heron on creating a better world with your own hands #a vision of optimism that’s so desperately needed while still acknowledging like the unfortunate/bleak status of the world #I was really hopeful for nimona cause of the message served there too #of how history/empires can so greatly twist a narrative #of spurning the world around because of treatment received so long ago and finding acceptance in the unlikeliest place #of coming up from the mud to become something greate spiting all those who spoke down on you #and I don’t think yall need to hear me gas up atsv again for the narrative #but you know imma stand on the fact of not walking in the path others think you’re supposed to and writing your own story #in spite of all your nay sayers #I think honestly there were a lot of great picks this year