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vs-redemption · 4 years

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Hello, i love your writing so much. Could you some angst in wich Eraserhead has and S/O with a past of abusive relationships but he doesn't know that, so one day he kind of raises his voice in a discussion and she has the worst reaction? I don't know if this is too specific, but you can feel free to choose what to do haha

Hey! Thanks for the compliment and the request! It took me a little longer to get to this request than I would’ve liked, but it took me a minute to get into the mindset I needed. I’m not sure if I followed your prompt exactly the way you wanted me to, but this is the idea my mind latched onto. I hope it’s okay!

You can find Not Again:Part Two HERE

Not Again:Part One (Aizawa x Abuse Victim!Reader)

⚠️ I’m putting a trigger warning for the theme of abuse.

Letting out a shaky breath, you glance over at the man walking next to you. He was standing closer than you were comfortable with, but there wasn’t much to be done about it at the moment. A light rain had begun to fall just moments after he’d met you at the train station, and there was only one umbrella to share between the two of you. You still couldn’t believe you were really going through with this. Your friends had assured you that you were being extremely brave, but it had taken nearly a year of constant support and encouragement for you to find the courage to actually agree to date someone again.

Your previous relationships, though few and far between, had all turned out horribly for you. And even that was putting it lightly. You constantly wondered how people could seem so kind and charming as they lured you in, only to turn on you the second they sank their predatory claws into your heart. You felt guilty when you thought about all the wasted time spent isolated from your family and friends, fearing that every word and action you made would trigger a storm that ended with you feeling broken and terrified. Could you have prevented any of that? Had there been any red flags that you’d overlooked? Even in hindsight you couldn’t be sure. After being manipulated and controlled to the extent that you had, there wasn’t much you felt confident about anymore.

“Sorry about the rain,” your boyfriend sighs glumly. “At least it won’t take too long to get to the museum.”

“Yeah, it’s okay,” you say meekly. “It’s not your fault.”

It still felt strange to think of the man as your boyfriend. It was probably because the relationship was still so new and you were extremely apprehensive about committing yourself to someone after experiencing so much pain and heartbreak. The only reason you were even giving him a chance was because he was the pro-hero, Eraserhead. Surely someone who had dedicated their lives to protecting innocent people and getting villains off the streets wouldn’t turn out to be like the other monsters you had dated.

Your first few outings with the hero, who insisted you call him by his first name, had seemed to support your logic. You had gotten the impression that he wasn’t one for loud crowded places, but he hadn’t once objected to having your dates out in public. You had not told him as much, but the idea of being alone with him frightened you. It was always behind closed doors that the wolves tended to show their teeth. Aizawa did not seem too concerned with getting you alone though, so you took that as a good sign for now.

“If you’re hungry after the exhibit, there’s a nice café we can have lunch at nearby,” Aizawa mentions. The rain continued to gently pitter patter onto the umbrella as if tempting you into lowering your guard.

“Okay,” you agree. “I’m fine with that.”

You continue walking for a bit longer when the sound of a commotion catches your attention. Aizawa grabs you by the back of the shirt and yanks you behind him just as a couple of villains come flying down onto the street from above you. Their faces were hidden behind masks and they each had a black duffle bag slung over their shoulders.

“Hide,” Aizawa tells you quickly, “And call the police if you can.” He doesn’t wait for you to reply before jumping into action. He didn’t have his scarf with him since he was off duty, so you were a little concerned about how he would handle the two criminals. He called out to them to get their attention and then activated his quirk, making his hair float up off his shoulders as he canceled out whatever abilities the villains possessed.

“Oh great,” one of the villains sneers, “it’s a hero.”

“I’ll handle it,” the second one smirks before lunging at Aizawa with incredible speed. He must have been forced to blink because suddenly the first villain was growing long thin spikes out of the tops of his arms. You gasp in shock as the spikes shoot from his skin towards your boyfriend. He manages to dodge them as he wrestles with the first guy. The spike villain turns from the fight to run away and a man standing nearby runs to intercept him. You watch the villain aim his spikes and prepare to shoot at the human roadblock. Fearing for his life, you move to go and try to help him. A strong grip around your arm stops you and you turn around to see your boyfriend holding you back. His eyes were bloodshot from using his quirk and his hair still hovered over his head, making him look extremely intimidating. Behind him, some other local heroes had shown up to take over the situation, allowing Aizawa to come to you.

“Are you okay?” He asks a little louder than necessary, “What were you thinking going towards that guy!? I told you to hide!” Your brain doesn’t even register the first question he’d asked because the sheer volume of his voice brought back memories of other looming figures with similar angry eyes. Aizawa let go of your arm and let his hair fall back into place but the damage was already done.

“I’m sorry,” you say out of sheer instinct. “I’ll listen next time, I swear.” The terror on your face makes Aizawa frown. He had to assume that the encounter with the villains was to blame for the shake in your voice. He takes a step forward and reaches out to pull you close. Unfortunately, you misunderstood his actions which triggered another wave of panic in you. You stumble backwards, tripping on the curb and falling back onto the sidewalk.

“Hey, careful now.” He was at a loss, not knowing how to help or why you were reacting so strongly. He tries to take another cautious step toward you but stops when you throw your arms around your head defensively.

“Please,” your voice trembles as tears spring to your eyes. “I’m sorry. Just don’t be angry.”

The two criminals had been taken into custody now and the people nearby were starting to notice the little scene you were causing. Aizawa didn’t want people getting the wrong idea, so he had to do something to deescalate the situation.

“I’m not angry,” he promises. You had backed as far away from him as you could and now your back was against the building behind you. You lower your trembling arms and wrap them around yourself. “Let’s go somewhere with less gawkers and get you calmed down.” You flinch at the words and shake your head. You didn’t want to be anywhere with him by yourself.

“No!” You plead with him, “Just leave me alone!” Your words attract more attention, making things more difficult and awkward for Aizawa. He lets out a sigh and rubs a hand over his face.

“Do you want to just go home?” he asks in defeat, “We can forget about the museum for today.” You jump at the chance to escape. You nod your head eagerly and Aizawa waves for a taxi. You eye him distrustfully and only climb into the car once he promises to get a different cab for himself. You let out a sigh of relief once you’re tucked into the backseat and the taxi pulls away. With shaking hands, you pull out your cell phone to call you friends and tell them what a mistake trying to date again turned out to be.

Not Again:Part Two

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desertgourd · 6 years

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you say you're picky about who you follow, can you explain more? sorry if I'm bothering you!

You aren’t bothering me. I started answering by explaining what makes me decide not to follow, but it came out pretty negative. Instead, this is what makes me want to follow, or to take emphasis off of what is honestly just a number, what makes me want to write with you. Under a readmore for length and unpopular opinions and a healthy amount of venting, probably.

Quick disclaimer - not everyone’s blog is for everyone. It’s okay for people to have different preferences and styles, and my preferring ‘x’ doesn’t make ‘x’ any better than ‘y’ or vice versa. I’m not plenty of people’s cup of tea either. Please keep in mind that we’re all just here to have fun.

I follow people who write genuinely. Any sort of purple prose, even constantly saying “the female” instead of a muse’s name, or “(gemstone) (synonym for eyes)”, is a turn-off. I like people whose posts aren’t composed by playing pin-the-tail-on-the-thesaurus, and who don’t bold/italicize/underline every other word, use weird spacing, or use strange glow fonts or scripts. This detracts from the emotional punch that a reply should be because now I have to decipher whatever the heck it is you are trying to say. I like people with themes that are easy to navigate and easy to read. Links that are easy to find and colors that contrast (light text on dark background or vice versa) are wonderful. I love when people focus on the content of their writing rather than trying to shoehorn in headache-inducing effects or “fancy” words that only serve to make their writing stiff and robotic.

I write a lot of dark content, but I’m aware of a subset of roleplay culture that believes writing about a subject automatically equates to condoning that subject in real life. I appreciate people who recognize that exploring a subject in a fictional, harmless avenue with consensual partners in properly tagged and read-more’d posts is a perfectly normal and appropriate way to process feelings or past experiences with these dark subjects in a safe and controlled manner. Otherwise, all of us Naruto fandom folks would be advocates for child soldiers, child abuse, torture, murder, and so on. If I see anything in someone’s rules along the lines of “I won’t talk to you/interact with you if you roleplay x subject”, I’m not interested.

I like roleplay blogs that write! I like seeing a person’s writing on the first page or two without having to click through dozens upon dozens of pictures, gifsets, or other ooc posts. I don’t like seeing whitewashing (a white faceclaim for an obviously non-white muse), or lots of negativity/drama. There are a couple other red flags for muns but they are quite specific and I won’t get into them here.

I like characters that are fleshed-out and well-developed. Some ooc-ness is not a big deal to me, it’s more about the effort you put into your portrayal. An in-depth about and/or verses page is very appealing. OCs with consistent, plausible histories are very appealing. I often see histories with huge gaps or information that doesn’t make sense. If your OC shinobi absconded from their home village, they are a missing-nin - a criminal - and cannot simply immigrate to another hidden village and be accepted with open arms. Stacking a plethora of disorders onto your muse then being unable to adequately explain how these issues affect them shows me you don’t really understand your character or the seriousness of psychological disorders (one example - fears =/= phobias). I love OCs with muns who genuinely think about all the ins and outs of their characters and develop a valid and credible background for them. If you’re an OC who follows me and suddenly gets a couple of anons asking nitpicky questions about their history, that’s probably me!

I tend to prefer blogs with a single character over a multi-muse. I usually only follow multi-muses if I know the mun personally beforehand or if your muses are particularly intriguing.

I prefer writing with characters I know! I love AUs so I am one hundred percent happy to roleplay with an unfamiliar character provided they have verses I can latch on to. It can be a struggle if you’re an anime blog without much of an about page. Or you might also be an awesome Naruto blog, but if Gaara has no chance of interacting with you except in an AU (which is the case for many characters from the Founders Era, or various minor non-Suna characters), I’m hesitant to approach unless you have some kind of verses page or approach me with an idea.

Here are some things that don’t matter to me - whether or not you use icons, whether you use regular vs. small text, who else you roleplay with, what genres you like to write, how long you’ve been writing, what pairings you like, and most details about you as a mun, in general. I’m here to write with other people who are here to write, and want to do that in the most enjoyable, fulfilling way possible.

This all might paint me as an unfriendly dick, but when it comes down to it, it’s a nice feeling being able to recognize every single person on your dash and have an idea in mind for how to roleplay with them. At the end of the day, it’s all just numbers. I’m still happy to roleplay with folks I’m not mutuals with in a more casual manner, and sometimes those small interactions can lead to long-lasting relationships. As always, folks are free to message me for whatever reason, either through asks or IMs.

#I may regret posting this tomorrow because it's a bit venty #but anon you ended up opening a can of worms & I didn't expect to write all this #anon #ooc #psa #important

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