#(and trauma reminders lol)

[yellowtrinity]

building my case for why edgeworth should have adopted polly the parrot after... you know

#on the one hand - living with a loud reminder of one's trauma that one must learn to nurture #on the other - funny bird lol #ace attorney #miles edgeworth #aa #my art #the fact that i've drawn this parrot more than any other aa character.....

[bruciemilf]

"Bruce was so violent and irrational and dangerous after Jason died" Yeah that happens when someone murders your kid, Jessica

#some of yall are dr phil with longer hair #like look -- just a reminder that bruce's trauma is horribly mishandled by both canon AND fandom #i just think that if you're gonna get mad that bruce mourned jason like a soldier -- thats fair #but to ignore how his depression played a huge part in why 'he didn't do anything ' after jason's death is like. not ideal #bruce didn't lose a sidekick he lost a SON. and if you're not acknowledging that because its not interesting or vital to you thats fine #but dont come into my inbox bitching about it lol #bruce wayne

[yardsards]

this website is going to fucking explode when the dunmeshi anime watchers on here meet mithrun, the most sopping wet cat in all of fiction

#eliot posts #dunme #dungeon meshi #dm spoilers #dungeon meshi spoilers #mithrun #i was just reminded of that bonus comic where he willingly ate out of a dog bowl #he's gonna be babygirlified to hell and vack i can just see it #idk if that's a good thing or a bad thing but it will be entertaining to watch i think. at least at first lol. #it'll prolly get annoying pretty fast though #bc he's more than JUST a sopping wet cat he's also a is a painfully accurate representation of living after trauma #but also. there's ants on him.

[kusukeslab]

where have i heard this before..

#this showed up on my pinterest feed lol #is this a sign?? #everything reminds me of him 😔 #kuusuke has so many complexes is hilarious #im trying to claw my way out of the kuusuke saiki hyperfixation but it keeps pulling me back in #i spam more on this account than i do on any other social #SOMEBODY has to populate the kuusuke saiki hashtag #i swear i need to start a google doc to keep track of every complex and trauma response kuusuke has smh #kusuke saiki #kuusuke saiki #saiki kuusuke #saiki kusuke

[gxlden-angels]

On today's episode of Holy Shit My Childhood Was Not Normal:

Kurtis Conner being thrown off by the girls'/boys' bibles with the random "Dream Girl" and "Grossology" passages and shit like that in them

#I didn't have that exact one but I had a girls' bible with the lil dream girl passages in them #mine was purple and green #There was a specific one I read over and over because it was about thinking about your best friend #and I thought about my best friend that way #except it wasn't actually in a friend way I flat out just had a crush on them lol #I later went on to id as a lesbian and that specific story made helped me realize it #so maybe that bible was good for something #I'm now a lil bi boy who might be ace but still #Im 21 now actually Im a Man in the U.S. /j #it's just #always so funny watching people remind me that I grew up Not Normally #like I genuinely got so into reading those lil bible dream girl passages #but I also preferred the gross out shit of the boys' one #cause I was one of those cartoon network poop fart joke funny tweenagers #I loved gaming stunts and all things gross or whatever #I wasn't allowed to actually do that because I was a lil lady so I enjoy it now #I tell people I'm going to shit their pants if they don't leave me alone and think I'm the funniest human alive #anyways go watch kurtis's new video about gendered products it's good #ex christian #religious trauma

[good-beanswrites]

hi! may i request some mikoto + amane (platonic obvs) … anything? they are very dear to me 😭

Yes!!! Thank you so much for the request -- they really are such a good pair ;-; (The thing is, I had so many nice scenes in mind about how they parallel each other, but they wouldn't know or reveal that about each other so I kept restarting...) Anyway, here's something right after Mikoto's first trial/verdict!

Mikoto could pick up on someone’s bad mood from a mile away, though the skill was unnecessary when the other party very clearly and calmly informed him, “I’m in a bad mood.”

After refusing his offer, Amane turned back to a thick textbook she’d been taking notes on. Didn’t kids usually complain that school was already a prison? She must have wanted the full experience. He'd worked nonstop at his studies as well, but this was a new level. Amane often reminded him of his little sister, though she always took the extra step like this. His sister would have jumped at this opportunity to play a few rounds of their favorite card game.

“It’ll be fun!”

He flashed a smile, but it had no effect on her severe expression. “I know you’re just trying to comfort me about our verdicts. I refuse to be pitied.”

“Comfort and pity are two very different things. But anyway, it wasn’t either of those things.” He gave an easy shrug “To be honest, I’m just a little bored. It’s weird not having any work to do during the day.” 

Mikoto couldn’t remember the last time in his life he’d had so many hours to himself. A lot of the others were fun to play games with. A few of the sportier prisoners helped him stay active. He enjoyed smoking breaks with the other men. Still, he was left to his own devices for the majority of his time. It was maddening. He’d recently requested some more art supplies, having used up the last batch, but they had yet to come in. Now with the verdict announcement, he wasn’t sure they’d ever arrive.

“That is your own problem. I already have something to do.” Her eyes lingered on the cards for the briefest of moments before returning to the book. “I told you, I’m not in the mood for it.”

Regardless of her hostility, he took a seat beside her. He leaned his arms out on the table. “We don’t have to play the same game.” The last time they'd played as a big group, several prisoners pulling the tables together to fit everyone. Amane had kept very quiet, eyes darting around at the cards as she tried to keep up with the rules. Not many of the others noticed the frustration clear in her face. Mikoto wasn’t the type to let her win out of pity, though he had begun to mutter the rules and strategies to himself a bit more as the night went on… 

“Is there a game you liked to play at home?”

 “No. There was no time for games in the house.” 

“All work and no play… hah… I know what that’s like.” He slumped his cheek onto his arm, lazily shuffling the cards around. He felt bad for bothering the girl if she truly was upset. He thought it was the bad experience that made her reject him, he hadn’t realized there were also family issues attached. Usually he could read people well; maybe he was losing his touch. He seemed to be losing touch with a lot of things, these days.

He readied a game of solitaire. 

“Mikoto?” Amane kept her face turned away. “There was… one game.”

“Yeah?” Mikoto shuffled the cards back together. He slid them over to her. “You should teach me!” 

She didn’t touch them. “You probably already know it.”

“Nah, I only know a few games. I’m better with tarot cards, though those aren’t really the gaming type. Come on, what is it?”

She told him the name of the game, insisting it wouldn’t be worth playing. She kept her attention on the textbook, but her eyes weren’t reading any of it. 

“Ahh, I’ve heard of that one! We start with four cards, right?” He started dealing them out.

“No, five –” she pointed to the deck, urging him to add two more. 

“Right, right.” He laughed lightly. “And the goal is to get pairs, and put them in a pile, uhh, here.”

Amane shook her head. She shifted her body slightly towards him. “You must be thinking of a different game. There’s actually three piles for pairs. One here, one here, and when it’s your opponent’s turn…” 

Her eyes gleamed as she explained the rules. She pointed to various cards, telling him exact moves and point values. “And to win, you need to –” Her expression shifted. “You… you already knew all this.”

“Of course not!” He put on his most convincing smile. 

She deflated. “You’re not a very good liar.”

“Tch, tell that to the warden.”

His shoulders sagged along with her. If Amane could see right through him, why was the rest of Milgram still coming up with stories about what he did and didn’t do? “Well, I might already know the rules, but it’s been a long time since I’ve played. You can still give me a hand. Plus, if you really are in such a bad mood, it’ll be good to take a break from your studies. You should always take a break when things get too overwhelming, yeah?”

She gave him a withering stare.

“Eh? What’s that face for?”

“Alright, let’s play. You can go first.”

“I mean it, what was that look? Aw, come on…”

#milgram #mikoto kayano #amane momose #see - the thing is they both had crimes about 'protecting themself' but both would deny it was for that reason #they both seem to have some family trauma but would never admit it #theyre both used to putting on their best behavior and being 'good' for others but hardly realize that themselves #they are both in denial all the time !!!!! #so i tried to show them getting along for their own perceived reasons -- mikoto thinks he likes her because she reminds him of his sister #and amane thinks she likes him because hes being kind about their verdicts #and while both are right theyre Also drawn to each other because they are very similar at their core #and both have skills with reading people/picking up on cues making it tough to lie to one another #that forced honesty makes for a solid friendship haha! #i also remember a comment from yamanaka that amane would be the worst at card games because shed have trouble with the rules #she seems old enough to handle complex games but she probably never got to play a lot at home ;---; and mikoto probably learns a lot of #types of games (and tarot) so can connect with even more people #i thought long and hard on whether mikoto would let someone else win but he doesnt seem the type (plus amane would notice) #once again i know amane starts speaking in the plural but this comes a bit before that #yaay thank you so much for the request! this was really fun to do - i hope you enjoy! #ive thought a lot about amane and john but less on her and mikoto lol so this was nice :D #drabbles

[themissingnumbers]

[not to talk randomly for a second but sometime i could really go on an essay style rant about my beliefs in pokepastas as a perfect childhood trauma metaphor and that would immediately explain like 90% of every narrative decision made for our parts of this blog. it would be an awesome essay i feel very strongly about this]

#not MN #its something i think about very frequently and yeah its largely bc i grew up on pokemon #so i associate it heavily with my own childhood. but still i promise this is interesting #and its why i call missing numbers a tragedy. because childhood trauma and its impact is tragic. heart emoji #this is random ik i just had a like. moment of self doubt abt the direction we're taking our stuff in #and had to remind myself 'IT'S ALL METAPHOOOOORS' and now i feel better :) #and i like sharing my thought process sometimes lol

[howtotrainyouragents]

So tonight I was like, let's rewatch AOS's "Inescapable" ep, which was a bad (read: hilarious) idea bc it's LITERALLY a speed-run of all the most absolute batshit insanity that's happened on this show

#reminder: it's the S6 episode where FS go through all their memories and trauma in the mind prison #FANTASTIC episode. even better on rewatch. the ending is the funniest thing I've ever seen #i remember back in the day being like aos makes sense compared to other tv scifi/fantasy serials! #lol NO this show has the most batshit insane plotlines ever #AND I EAT IT UP WITHOUT QUESTION #WATCHING THIS IS LIKE GIVING CANDY TO A TODDLER #THE SUGAR RUSH IS REAL #I'm watching the episode where fitz has the mental schism now booo #but then I also have to watch the LMD takeover episode #and we'll see from there #s1 perhaps #aos #aos s6 #fitzsimmons #god I love this show

[alma-amentet]

Relmyna Verenim makes me want to make something bad to her. Like, expose her to the same torture she performs on others... Or even better, returning her to Cyrodiil and making sure she's jailed for a lifetime.

No really, she's triggering and annoying. I was shamed for angsty stories with some torture porn, more than once in my life, but my stories are usually hurt/comfort with emphasis on 'comfort' and recovery, with author's 100% dissaprove of violence and abuse. Not like this.

#will it be possible to kill her with no consequences when I finish the quest? #Yeah I'm finally playing Shivering Isles #That's some fun Wonderland at times #Always thought Sheogorath reminded me of the Mad Hatter #And I even got a blue dress at some point lol #But it's disturbing at times #like with Relmyna #Maybe I became too soft with age and weight of my own traumas... #the elder scrolls #tesblr #tes #oblivion #alma.txt

[angelnumber27]

I’ve been so much more just.. idk happy I guess in general lately and I am so beyond thankful

#ive been making sure I do things throughout my days that I enjoy. things that make me feel good and make me smile #I’ve been working on changing my mindset- ie when I automatically think smth negative about myself out of habit I make myself aware of that #and then change the narrative. by reminding myself those things are not true. #I’ve grown to see I have so much more control than I realized. I think that’s the way it is for lots of us #I get to choose when I wake up if I’ll let the awful trauma nightmares consume me for my whole day and ruin it #or if I will say hey they’re just nightmares. I’m okay. I’m here I’m breathing and it’s another day #i could go on forever about this so I will stop lol #I’m just very very very very thankful #and working my ass off to create a better happier life for myself

[themyscirah]

Could theoretically make a Vanessa wall in my dorm next year.....

#bc local comic shop had the pérez run suicide issue (rip lucy spears) so i bought that yesterday #which has vanessa on the cover. and they also had the WML run guest writer vanessa interlude where we learn shes still being mind tortured #(which still hasnt been resolved 50 issues later btw. although they remind us abt it every 30 issues or so) #anyways didnt get it bc i remember not liking that issue much but it has my girl on the cover and also was early on in the run so i may #still have been in denial about the overall quality drop #and then i would need to track down ww 201 to finish the wall. bc its her most iconic cover appearance ofc #out of like 4 total lmao #anyways love how these are all some of the worst moments of my girls life lol. TRAUMA!!!!!!!!!!!! #i like her for her issues though. they do compel me #blah #tw suicide mention

[belladonna-and-the-sweetpeas]

List 10 comfort shows and tag 10 people

I was tagged by @twig-tea (thank you!). This is really difficult because I don't tend to re-watch shows. When I'm obsessed I read fanfic, find FMV's on youtube, and search the tag on Tumblr for gifs and meta lol. I tend to go to books and music for comfort in preference to other media. That being said, here are a few shows that have brought me comfort, that I have re-watched at least once, and that made me cry when I needed that catharsis.

Bad Buddy. Nobody needs me to do a shout out for this show, but I knew I was going to love it from the first teaser trailer, I watched it live from episode one, and I re-watched all episodes released before each new episode dropped. It is also the first BL that I ever shared with an IRL person. It's the perfect mix of fantasy, romance, reality, and comedy.

Until We Meet Again. The heartbreak, the healing, the pain, the inevitability, the love. It gets me every time. I'm a sucker for anything that rips my heart out and then shoves it back in.

Triage. Time loops and time travel and changing ones fate because of love and friendship and light in the darkness and nobody being perfect, but also being able to change and how our lives are made of connections and past circumstances and our choices are influenced by the opportunities we have and what support we get.

It's OK to not be OK. There's a theme here, I know hahaha. Intergenerational trauma and healing, how damaged people can help each other, and the importance of family. I binged this show and there are many scenes that I go back to watch when I'm feeling a certain way. I think this show reminds me a lot of one of my all time favourite stories ever. If you love intergenerational trauma and healing and feeling like a monster and grief and love and family, then please, I beg you, go and find and read Fruits Basket.

Bromance. One of the first Taiwanese dramas I ever watched. I know it can be controversial, but I've enjoyed stories that deal with gender identity since I was a teenager. I've never felt particularly connected to societal expectations for the presentation of my own femininity and I have always felt that gender is unimportant for my personal attraction to people. Having people in stories who are unashamedly loved for themselves, no matter the gender people think they are, or the expectations placed on them because of their gender or gender presentation feel so comforting to me. I really love Coffee Prince for the same reasons. There are also several books and manga that I revisit regularly that have this theme.

Eien no kinou. Yes, it is heartbreaking, but it is so soft and gentle about it. The idea that the universe would conspire to give you time to say goodbye to someone you love is so beautiful.

Old Fashion Cupcake. The unknown influences we have on people, the romance of learning to live not merely exist after losing that for ourselves, people who aren't teenager or young adults having a beautiful love story and finding happiness with each other. It's just very comforting to me.

Leverage. The found family, and making the world a little bit better, and how evil people hurt others not because they care, but because they don't care, how grief colours everything. I think this show is a masterpiece and the way that the episodes mostly follow a heist of the week is also very comforting because I can watch just one episode and not feel like I have to keep watching.

Avatar: The Last Airbender. Oh would you look at that, more trauma! But for all the pain, there is love, and laughter, and healing, and "That's rough, buddy".

Full Metal Alchemist. Yes, Brotherhood is objectively better, but I watched the original anime with my best friends in high school and it has been on my list of forever faves since then. Nothing has ever hit the same emotional devastation as the reveal of what happens to Nina (iykyk). But the love and devotion in this story always wraps me up like a warm hug.

I did not realise I had that much to say about TV shows or how many themes my favourite media have in common XD

If you haven't been tagged and want to do this, please jump in and take this as your invite! I'm not sure who has done this, so I'm going to tag a few people, but no pressure if you don't want to or already have :) @axolola, @chalkrevelations, @fatgumsurpremacy-remastered, @vera9, @neoncoloredglasses, @theflagscene, @omarandjohnny

#tag game #comfort shows #trauma and love and healing #this makes me want to go back and watch all of these again #plus read everything they remind me of #and a few that didn't make it on the list lol

[tehzeldamaster]

For a future AU I have where the crew are all in their 30s

It's an AU where their crew stays together and live as bounty hunters/vigilantes. And ofc its a big 4 AU, so Steinbell, Remura, Wivry and Krisguna are all a thing.

Most of it is just an expansion of the dilf stbl AU I came up with so I dont have much for the others yet lol

For this AU their ages are

Shiki 30

Weisz 32

Homura 31

Rebecca 30

Kleene 29

Jinn 33

Laguna 34

(Shining Stars n/a since they don't age obvs)

#edens zero #shiki granbell #weisz steiner #rebecca bluegarden #homura kogetsu #kleene rutherford #jinn rutherford #laguna husert #witch regret #sister ivry #hermit mio #my art #my AU #there are more headcanons on twitter tbh #i went ham with them last night lol #anyways idk i just love when characters keep scars injuries etc as a permanent reminder of the things they persevered through #rather than just going back to #thus why most of them have battle scars/scars from EG overuse and missing limbs and shit #the crew here has actually properly dealt with their trauma and struggled to make choices in this universe #EZ is severely lacking when it comes to inner conflict so #anyways-

[treeshrine]

gonna be real bud if your fic relies so heavily on intense triggering themes and shock value that you're averse to putting warnings on it to "maintain surprise" and "avoid spoilers", then you act like you did nothing wrong when people are upset that you didn't make any effort to turn them away and allow them to protect themselves, while also telling them it's their fault that they read something that upset them when they could have never known it contained specific things that will upset them, i think you are a tar pit

#'warnings are a courtesy!!' yes so why are you apparently averse to being courteous #saying omg fanfiction never used to warn people and print books never warn people so it's not a bad thing if i don't warn you! #that's some 'no one protected me so why should i protect you' type shit #sorry i got recommended this dumb ass post and i had to say something so i'm saying it here #why are you telling people to curate their own experiences while actively making it more difficult to curate their experiences LMFAO #if i read a scene with intensely triggering content without knowing it was there before. 'just closing the book' or 'hitting the back butto #is not protecting myself. how do i protect myself from something I've already read??? #diary #like dude it's possible to protect people from spoilers while also protecting people from seeing things that will distress them #i also honestly take issue with people who do a content warning but just say “this gets into some shit” or something of the like. #you might as well have just not said anything because now i'm confused and on edge #instead of able to protect myself properly i have to try and gauge my personal sensitivity against the unknowable factor of #what your idea of “some shit” is #also telling someone to 'just close the book lol' is an incredibly dismissive approach to people being affected by something triggering #you know these things do happen to people in real life. right. but of course who would have empathy for someone who doesn't want to be #reminded of trauma

[biblicallyangry]

You tell me I act insane, again, for even the littlest of things and I want to say, in a voice like the Furies: if I am acting insane, it’s because you are driving me insane. You are the one who gave me a life and then chose to break it in two, before my black eyes, again and again and again. If I seem like I don’t know what to expect from life, that would be because you never gave me any information I could trust. If I seem lost, it’s because you didn’t do your job to build me a world worth trusting. If I am acting angry, it’s because I am. I am so, so fucking angry. And I would be - and I am entirely in the right for it.

#biblicallyangry.posts #the inner child talks back #surviving abuse #trauma survival #abuse vent #sorry for using ‘insane’ as a derogatory sort of term here — I don’t mean it in the historically harmful sense #that’s the term that’s being used against me and I am mentally ill (ofc #after all this abuse lol) #abusive parents #abusive household #angry rant #gaslighting #reminders #parental abuse #trauma #emotional abuse #psychological abuse #toxic parents #narcissistic parents

[baelavelaryon]

got reminded of something that really upset me ten years ago

#cytherea.txt #desperately trying not to cry lmao i'm so pathetic #my mum absently reminded me of something that i'd repressed and now I'm trying not to sob lol #doesn't help that i'm watching gilmore girls bracebridge dinner so the divorced kid trauma is really jumping out #when you didn't handle your parents custody arrangement perfectly because you were a kid going through a tough time #so you have to beat yourself up about it forever and ever