#02/24

[spookylightwhispers]

On Inclusiveness

About a week ago, something happened while I was on the train. Halfway through my journey, at one stop, a man came into the train screaming. Then he sat at the one empty seat opposite me and apologized to the lady sitting beside him. I'm not sure if he did something, but after some minutes, the lady actually got up and stood near the door. And that made him mad. He starting screaming again, saying he didn't do anything, why did she get up. He went on screaming and screaming, about how society is not inclusive. He said his psychiatrist said he is getting better, and that the meds and manifesting in him. And at some point he screamed at the kid opposite him, telling the kid he should become either a lawyer, a doctor, or a psychiatrist and that he should be open-minded and make society more inclusive than it is now.

Eventually he stopped screaming. But periodically, he would randomly start screaming again. One of the things he said was that he's not stupid. And that he watches CNA (Channel News Asia), not Suria.

Twice too, he got up and went to this man standing near the door and apologized to him. The man was like "oh it's okay, no problem". Each time after apologizing he would go back to his seat. When there were empty seats beside him he called on the man to sit but he declined.

And at some point during the journey he called out to me. He called out "puan, puan". I knew he was calling me because he was speaking in Malay like he did with the man earlier. So I looked up and looked at him. And once again he started apologizing to me even though he didn't do anything to me, but I guess he was apologizing for shouting and screaming. He went on talking and explaining himself and the whole time I just kept smiling and nodding my head. Several times he mentioned his psychiatrist said he's getting better. He said he couldn't help but to let some things out, hence the screaming, but he's getting better, he's getting better. I would've given him a thumbs up but didn't want to risk coming across as being sarcastic so I didn't.

He also said you wear the hijab, you are a Muslim, I respect you. If I needed directions to somewhere I wouldn't approach others but I'd approach you because you wear hijab and I respect you. (I guess I should mention he is also a Muslim and hence why the people he chose to spoke to were also Muslim/Malay because he was probably more comfortable. and less likely to get judged. maybe, maybe...)

Finally he stopped talking. And I could feel myself tearing up, I was just focusing on not crying. I don't know why I felt sad. I felt sad.

It's so easy to parrot on about being an inclusive society. That was the exact topic I had discussed in class earlier in the morning. Yet, when you actually come across and meet the people who are being excluded, all you can do is just look down, avoid eye contact and pretend they don't exist. That's what everyone on the cabin was doing. They ignored him, ignored his screaming, did not look at him. Like as if he was invisible. I would have striked up a conversation except I haven't reached that level yet.

I'm not sure if he's schizophrenic, or what his condition was exactly but he seemed to be hallucinating. One of the things he said to me was that despite his behaviour, whatever he says is not offensive, and that he doesn't insult anyone. Which is true. He wasn't violent either. The most violent he got was during one of his screaming episodes while he was seemingly hallucinating. By that point the cabin had gotten pretty empty because the train was just a couple stops away from the last stop. So when he started screaming and pointing I knew he was definitely hallucinating because he was pointing at an empty seat, no one was there but he screamed to some invisible figure i couldn't see. And this was about as violent as he got — he stood up and moved like as if he was about to punch this non-existent person but stopped short of punching the air. He pointed and screamed "You break my soul, I break your face."

I can't forget this man and I don't think I ever will. Despite his somewhat "disruptive" behaviour, he actually seemed like a nice guy. Thoughtful, reflective, sentimental, smart. When he screamed earlier about not being stupid and that he watches the news, it might've sounded kind of funny. But it's true, he isn't stupid. His words were a bit slurred and kind of hard to make out at some parts because it felt like he couldn't get the words out fast enough, but he really isn't stupid. Towards the end of the journey when the cabin was empty and he was talking to himself or to some unknown figure, he spoke about how he wants to be a better man. But there's an entity in him, and his heart and his mind don't always align. He wants to be a better person, but it's hard. He struggles.

#essay 02 #my tumblr essays #2024-essays #02/24 #thoughts opinions and feels #writing and reading this over and over again is making me tear up again lol #i've been wanting to write this since it happened last friday #but i don't know it felt a bit hard #kind of heavy #some details are probably gone now #it's sad #some people are genuinely nice and are so good but because of this one thing they struggle with they get stigmatized #society ignores them

[vanimeiy]

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#guan xiaotong #230224 #02/24 #white dress short

[stilnox-turne]

Karma really hit me hard with this one

#dfwys #¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #02/24

[autoneurotic]

#ALL U DO IS SUBTRACT 12 FROM THE CURRENT HOUR BABES BTW #14:55-12:00=02:55 #because we use 12 hour so that’s why u subtract 12 u see #i feel like almost everywhere other than american is hip with 24 hr time which is why i specified it like this #i’m american and i understand and use (and prefer) 24 hr #most people i know get it but hate it #wait did you know also they make twenty four hour ANALOGUE clocks #need one

[almahiphop]

Joeseph Hill & Crezn - Ursuppe

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Joeseph Hill & Crezn – Ursuppe – Prod. Claymore Beats – Cuts by DJ Ceeriouz El grupo LabOhr es un conglomerado de artistas alemanes que han trabajado con el Rap Underground y conciencia durante mas de 15 años, está conformado por TheBeatljuice, GNUIZ22, JohnEkwest, perFiktion, Shitmunk, Joeseph Hill, Crezn, Colt Seevaz, Ab&Zu, Lazer Pi y se siguen sumando más. Joeseph Hill es MC, productor de…

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#02/24 #2020&039;s Hip-Hop #2023 #Crezn #Hip Hop Videos #Joeseph Hill #LabOhr #Rap Alemán #Rap de Alemania #Rap Videos #Videos de Rap

[qtubbo]

Pac & Ramon’s reaction to Empanada’s 100th Day Birthday outfit, ain’t she the cutest little pancake baby? Bagi and Pac just gushing over how cute she is, and Ramon giving his little sister a big hug. Both Pac and Bagi asking if she can be like this forever 🥹

#qsmp #Qsmp bagi #qsmp pac #qsmp empanada #qsmp ramon #qsmp clips #qsmp video #Pac POV - REDDIT. MUSEU QSMP e EXPLORAÇÃO - 3:08:00 - 02/29/24

[k-looking-glass-house]

Happy (fanon) Birthday Chenya'!

Yes....it's happening, ...Did I gave fanon birthday to the twiwon's cast leftover.....Yes!

And what better than the only day which can appear or disappear every 4 years for our dear chescha'cat!

Yes ....it means Riddle tells everyone that Chenya is only 4/5 because it's true.... Ruuuuuuullllleeeeeee *p&s ref*

I didn't have enough time to finish this one... sorry Alchemi Alchemivinch Pinka... sketch...only sketch colo

Pat pat it's like a Disneyland's GRWM outfit!

ALCHEMI ALCHEMIVICH PINKA~ SSR We're all mad here

Summon Line: “Nyaachulululuuu, aren't we all mad here? If you're looking for a rabbit you got it wrong~” Groooovy!!: "We're all mad here! I'm mad, you're mad! *grinning*" Home: "Alchemi Alchemivich Pinka!! Say it ONCE again!" Home Idle 1: "Can you stand on your head? *disappearing*" Home Idle 2: "My birthday is a mystery, isn't it great, dealing with a desk and nyot a crow?" Home Idle 3:" In the Queendom of Roses, unyhappy birthday are great, but happy birthday are even better!" Home Idle - Login: "I'm stranger, you're stranger...Together we are.... strangers! Nyahihihihi" Home Idle - Groovy: "I wannya meet Riddle and Trey, hihihihi let's surprise them together!" Home Tap 1: "*humming* *floating head*" Home Tap 2: "It's always tea time, but right now I want a pinkitty drinkitty! Nya~" Home tap 3: "My age? Hnnn hihihi I'm 5! You don't believe me?? Ask Riddle~" Home Tap 4: "Oh... how was.... I able to enter Nyaght Raven College? Actually your headmaster is very "yashashii"! It's true! I told him he had a sweet hat goodbye!" Home Tap 5: "My grandpa is so excited every 4 years to celebrate this special day with me! How great, how great! *purring* (kill this headcanon of my brain now)" Home Tap - Groovy: "*appearing* Boo!!! Nyahahaha did I startled you? Ahhwww sorry sorry, let me headpat you! *humming*"

Bonus: MAGIC DUO

Chenya': This way, that way? Nyakufufu~ Yuu(sona): Happy birthday Chenya'!

#twisted wonderland #twst #alchemi alchemivich pinka #twst chenya #twst fanon birthday #29/02/24 isn't it great a bonus day #see you in march #take care of yourself #k imeart

[felixs-voice-makes-me-wanna]

almost seven minutes of sleepy san answering questions.

#san #choi san #ateez #toktoq #pop live #02/29/24

[goldenpinof]

a moment of truth

#dan and phil #leg #daniel howell #amazingphil #phil lester #dan and phil games #danandphilgames #gamingmas 2023 #forever home #my edits #Roasting our own Red Carpet Fashion #24:02

[vanimeiy]

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#02/24

[emozionidinchiostro]

IL CAOS ASSOLUTO DI QUESTO MOMENTO - I ricchi e poveri che cantano in mezzo alla strada AL FORO ITALICO il semaforo che scatta quelli che cercano in tutti i modi di tirarli via e non farli investire “CIAO MACCHINE” LEI CHE SCAPPA IN MOTO CON UN TIZIO A CASOOO

E nel mentre Fiorello basito da tutto ciò consapevole che domani si ritrova tutti i legali della Rai appiccicati al culo

#the sheer caos #viva rai 2 #fiorello #sanremo #sanremo 2024 #puntata del #16/02/24 #Rosario Fiorello

[starlightkun]

➠ college au (and after), hockey captain!sungchan, chronically ill!reader (migraines)

➠ series word count: 61,624 (posted; series is ongoing)

KEY

f - fluff a - angst and/or hurt/comfort m - mature and/or heavy themes (i do not write smut, but not everything here will be appropriate for all ages, proceed with caution and read all warnings provided at the beginning of fics)

the beginning ; read these first

buzzer beater (f) ── 22.0k | 27JSC (f) ── 21.3k

the little things ; slice-of-life shortfics, pick at random or skip them entirely

on needlesticks and other metaphors (f, a) ── 4.6k | garbage goal (a, f) ── 3.9k | between two palms (a, f, m) ── 2.4k | saltwater smiles & aloe vera kisses (f) ── 2.6k | freezing the puck (f) ── 4.5k

the happiest ever after ; the end.

little league ── [WIP...]

#sungchan x reader #riize x reader #s: buzzer beater #bb: masterlist #text #mine #writing #recent: ss&avk 02/24/24 #next: little league TBA #ahh im so excited 🥹👉👈 #*100

[kyouka-supremacy]

She's the only character who can make the fisheye lenses look cute btw

#ichiyō higuchi #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd s3 #mine #q. #24/02/23

[qtubbo]

Pac asking about Sunny’s frog plushie, so cute.

Pac: Oh btw I have this for you Sunny you might like it!

Sunny: ITS FOR ME BC IM A PRINCESS AND ITS A FROG

Pac: Ohhhh, that’s so sweet yeah you’re right. So if you kiss the frog it’s going to become a prince *Sunny nodding* kkkk

Pac: But don’t do it Sunny don’t do it, not now, maybe in 25 years *Sunny nods* you know? From now oh- you know you got it. Oh look I have this for you as a gift!

Sunny: OH THANK YOU TIO PAC

#qsmp #Qsmp sunny #qsmp pac #qsmp clips #qsmp video #Pac POV; QSMP // Dia de Fofoca; 3:45:20; 02/27/24

[dailysudeikis]

Jason Sudeikis and Brendan Hunt at the SAG Awards. - February 24, 2024.

#jason sudeikis #ted lasso #brendan hunt #events #sag awards 2024 #sag awards #24/02/2024

[felixs-voice-makes-me-wanna]

his smirk in that bottom left gif tho.. no clue what he was going on about. all I knew is I had to make gifs about it.

#yunho #jeong yunho #yunho toktoq live #02/08/24 #ateez #it was almost three minutes of this at the end of his live