#And I don't need a soft voice

[curiousorigins]

I hate going to the doctor. So much. I wish people could go for me. But alas, they need my body there, to doctor at.

#I also need a stupid doctor who takes me at my word the first time #Because as it turns out I minimize stuff #And I hate going to the doctor enough that if I'm going they need to listen to me #Plus frankly I've never had enough money to manage going more than once for the same issue #Also could do without the casual condescending #I'm smart enough to understand what's going on #I don't need a lecture #And I don't need a soft voice #And it's weird that male doctors keep like putting me in child zone because I'm injured #Like they're crazy sympathetic about it #I'm not crying so they should chill out #Except that one E.R. doctor who didn't realize that apparently my displaced clavicle fracture hurt somehow I was 7 hours with 0 pain meds #I had adjusted because that's what the brain does #Upon reflection that dude was probably casually sexist like assuming I'd be crying or something #I wish there wasn't pressure on me to make them take me seriously #Like seriously too many prospective doctors paid TOO much attention to HOUSE

[godlytemperance]

anyways as a butch falin truther i think her voice should get deeper after fusing with the dragon

#dungeon meshi #falin touden #the wolf speaks #i love her soft gentle voice don't get me wrong #but i need her to speak in an octave that rattles my bones

[nell0-0]

Too tired to draw, what is this curse. I wanna draw so badly but can't even focus on the screen, augh

#talk tag #rant #i guess? #i feel super bad about complaining in here #but where else would I go with it #I just got a stressful job and keep messing up #not the job itself. but relationships with coworkers #it's so stressful bc I don't wanna come across as mean #it's just my face/voice when I'm not constantly making sure it's soft and nice #I don't wanna be mean #can't just go and say “it's the neurodivergence” #since I don't even know wtf is wrong with me #<- afraid of therapists #bc if I go to even one therapists and disregards my struggles I may just cry. and impostor syndrome again #rambling in the tags #will delete this later #i just needed to get this out #I also keep infodumping to clients and not sure how that's gonna fly with the bosses #...probably not well #english is hard today wtf #tw vent

[beedreamscape]

Thanks for the artist of this (black eyes version here) bc now I can't unsee Sacha Dhawan as John...

#john gaius #listen both him and taika have big brown baby cow eyes and that's all i need #maybe it's bc i got so used to seeing Taika as tumblr sexyman i just don't see john even in his younger pics #also sacha has such a soft voice. reflects well moira's narration #imo he falls perfectly under the book's descriptions though I won't attribute 'urbane' bc I don't know wtf that means #fancast #fan cast #sacha dhawan #tlt #the locked tomb #gifs

[tai-janai]

i put it in my fic but i feel like hunted would (affectionately) bite almost every voice except for cheated because chea has already been through a lot and is one of those who is really avoidant of pain

like the people he would bite wouldnt mind it (stubborn, skeptic, hero, cold) cause of high pain tolerance but then hunt sees all of chea's scars and bandages and restrains himself

#hunt: no .. don't bite the hurt one ... #(so he just licks him) #i dont even think he really needs to #he just feels like he needs to be nicer to him #huntcheat #:3 #they are soft to me #little guys have already been through enough #voice shipping

[sensitivegoblin]

Fuck I'm yearning for soft attention so hard my body physically hurts

#sad ramble #highgoblin #today all I can think about is how I don't think anyone would ever wanna actually be physically close to me #sure people wanna have sex with me but I don't think if they saw me in person they would want to be CLOSE to me #there's a difference between sex and closeness #I don't think I'm the type of guy someone wants to hold and stare at and comfort and love #everytime I imagine someone softly tickling/teasing me or just doing cute things like kisses and hand holds #I just get this dreadful feeling as a voice in my head tells me I'll never get the romance I desire #I dunno how to explain my feelings right #I want sex and rough stuff #but I really NEED soft affection to heal my wounds #and I don't think I'm ever gonna get that

[soul-spoken]

I vent or breakdown so often, I know I get told it's fine and talk when I need to but geez it feels so excessive, like I'm overly sensitive or just really really easily triggered over things that shouldn't even relate to my trauma

We come to solutions or we distract from it, or we cuddle, but it's just always there.

I can almost always feel the dumb anxiety or depression feelings, I don't want to

I wish my brain understood that

#im tired of only feeling safe when im overly babied and small. i know at this current time point certain traumas are still really fresh #and i need to let myself acknowledge that and relax and maybe be taken care of on a higher level but #i feel so clingy and embarrassed #and i really wish i wasn't still reminded of things from the past. i hate getting anxious over things from high school or college #that doesn't matter anymore #i don't wanna be so vulnerable and scared all the time #but i think i need to #i just want to be held. feel skin to skin. get kissed and called sweet names #i wanna feel his nails through my hair. hear that hushed voice he does when being soft. i wanna be closer #i wanna be safe and told its not scary. its not bad. instead of how we've been going about things.. #cant i just feel secluded and loved? feel protected and small #i wanna be told that my ptsd is a normal reaction and that i dont have to be like i was before. i can take a while to gather myself #to mourn and exist. to just.. be #be however my brain is needing to be in order to relax #i wanna be intimate and romantic and loving and gentle #i feel so guilty over these wants and needs #i wish i didn't have them. i wish i understood that its safe to have them. #i wish i was different #i wish i was me. but me before #when i was stable and felt nice and independent but i still had little moments of softness and needing help. i miss my early early twenties #but. i also miss the feeling of being held tight by him and told nothing could hurt me anymore. that he was gonna keep the bad away #like middle school. keeping the mean kids away #i love him. i want to feel loved #i am loved. i don't doubt that. but i wish i could capture every soft second and live in it forever #and i feel so guilty #trav.txt

[witherbythesword]

and I feel the oral fixation being so so strong in this chilli's tonight.

#nsfwtext #wanna be all cuddled up #and have them read something #while I pleasure them #have them read out loud to me #and hear their brain slowly dissolve #shaky breath and sweet sounds an my arms around their thighs to keep them from denying me access #me slowing down so they continue reading #but their voice is all soft and low now and sometimes they just need some seconds to enjoy the moment #just staying like that cuddling and pleasure and reading #me getting so so cotton brained and needy i can't hold back my own moans and desperate little sounds #and them pocking fun of how braindead and gone i sound #so dumb i can probably not even comprehend what they are saying anyway #they put the book aside and tell me to not worry they know I am note cut out to think just a stupid girl #all my brain is good for is serving and whorshipping them #my moans of love and desperation little preyers to them #yeah #eitherway #shaking my head every few seconds to get the picture of me whorshipping someone out of my head #like a dog thats wet and or bothered by a fly #fully not doing well #you know what I'll do? I'll play some stardew valley and make some art and maybr that will calm me down #also music #atmos bloom my beloved #am literally whineing and pouting and withering away because i don't have an outlet for this right now!!!! #no one has it worse than me #:cccccc #(this is just me being silly and pouty) #literally feel homesick for a lap to burry my face into #WHATEVER

[wethecelestial]

love that all doctors across time and space and training have a universal Oh Shit You Are A Walking Biohazard voice for when a patient mentions a symptom offhand as they're walking out the door that actually is a symptom of a wildly infectious public health crisis level disease that u need to be quarantined for

#i don't know how to describe it but it's so distinct. even the most soft spoken people i know Have it #it's the 'oh shit you have TB voice' it's the 'oh shit you have measles' voice u know it's like u are abt to become patient zero of a local #epidemic etc etc #it's only happened to me twice and both times i've just been awkwardly standing in the corner of the room while the doctors do a bunch of #tests i've never heard of while muttering this better not be what i think this is... under their breaths #me like so...can i leave or like do i need to be dunked in lye and pumped full of penicillin before i can go outside #the body exists outside itself

[gregoftom]

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#succession #ugggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #they're so physically affectionate with him :((( #well shiv is as much as she can be and like. i'm so. ugh. she can be maternal. which is. idk. #something about her tone comforts me. and i hope it comforts ken. she speaks to him like a mother rather than a sister. i don't know. #and that makes me.... i'm not really sure how to feel about that. #roman is ofc roman as much as he can be and the more physical of the two lots of back pats and rubs which is what ken needs. #as well as shiv's voice. he needs them both. roman's touch and shiv's soft voice. #they love each other despite how awful they've been to one another this season it makes me. sigh. sigh. sigh. #also can i just say ken is always the base. he's the base of the home triangle and he's the base of tragedy too. #they are forming i guess. a tragedy triangle here. the shape is very triangular. compared to the more relaxed triangle on the boat. #they're so. trifecta of tragedy and home. i'm so. i gotta ogo i can t do it uugheh by #e

[egoludes]

thinking today about going to harvard with lloyd and co and absolutely hating everything about him --- a feeling he shares even when he’s fucking your mouth so hard in the back of a lecture hall you’ve started to cry.

#guys i need you to understand that hate sex fuels me #and if you don't think i'm writing hate sex for a HARVARD ASSHOLE at some point you're dead wrong #and if you think i won't write about what happens 10 years later when lloyd stumbles on you #hotshot lawyer still in boston #ass as tight as he remembers in a pant suit he hates that he likes #you're dead wrong about that too #just think about being in your office late poring over some documents when you hear this 'well look at you sunshine' #and you have no idea how it's possible that he's there (or that your cunt's clenching at the sound of that obnoxious voice after all this #time) #but something about it just Makes Sense #or do we go dark? :) you being lloyd's one that got away after the hookups in college but not anymore #not even with that ring on your finger >:) #THIS MAN HAS ME FUCKED UP #i need to finish this soft andy fic so i can write some lloyd nonsense

[silverselfshippingchaos]

(giggles and kicks legs)

#listen i'm not saying that i support nor like it when e.izen threatens people #but... i'm not saying that i don't like it when he threatens people- #okay in my humble defense. e.izen is very handsome. #i always get a little flustered when he gets all serious sjdhwjshqb #i miss him so much. i know i talk about him a lot but i cannot resist his loserboy charm- #yeah sure he may be a scary and mean and rude pirate that punches things a lot #... but he's also silly and funny and is a really sweet boyfriend and gives soft kisses and head scratches #ash rambles 💚 #e.izen brainrot never ends #he may be a silly and old man Reaper pirate... but he's my silly Reaper pirate. and boy do i like old men #i just wish him a very kiss kiss! i just think he and his arsonist pirate gf should be together forever and kiss lots :) #his s/i is sooooo fun! she's a fire spirit and it shows- he likes having her in his arms since her body is so warm always #... becomes pretty unbearable on hot summer days though ajdhajsh she's a cuddly sleeper #no need for heater when you have ash around! also i think her arc about accepting herself as actually valuable to the crew + accepting and #learning that she can coexist with humans is pretty well written if i do say myself- an intriguing character. who is also an e.izen kisser! #i love you mr. reaper! #also z.aveid's theme is so good ajskahsb e.izen my love i adore your voice but.. good music...

[yana125]

Guess who binged Saint Seiya on Netflix, looked forward to the next season to come out, only to find out that the next season is already out but on a completely different streaming platform 🙃

#it's not like I don't have ways to watch it #but damn this 'everything is on a different platform you need to seperately subscribe to' bullshit #also since saint seiya wasn't part of my childhood/teenage years and only heard about it here and there #I have a great first impression about it #it's also nice to hear morita and oririn 'talking' to 'each other' #I'm always surprised how soft orikasa fumiko's voice can be :D #also they should've kept shun a guy #cowards #(also I looked at the last few chapters of the manga - yes. yes I know - and damn...) #saint seiya

[jaetaimjadore]

oh, wonwoo 😞

#tw: some discussion of death in the following tags pls don't read ahead if uncomfortable with such topics❗️❗️ #didnt listen to this until today because the lord only knew i couldnt handle the emotions sitting in the college library #i dont think ive ever cried so hard to any other kpop song #wonwoo's cover of knees is so beautiful #his voice is so soft and quiet but the emotion in it is so overwhelming #and iu's lyrics are just so heartbreaking :( #and the fan art for it is just so gorgeous and soft #wonwoo has been so strong for us all #i felt the all the pain and sincerity and acceptance he's going through #turning a new page from something so tough must be so scary for him #but i just know that mrs jeon is looking down on him from up in the sky with a proud smile #so #everyone #if you can #go and give your mother a hug #or a call #or some reminder of how much she means to you #because we need to cherish our mums for who they are and everything they've sacrificed for us in life #and make sure they know that we love and appreciate them with all ours hearts #sorry this got really emotional but i just felt the need to say this #my heart goes out to wonwoo and anybody else who may be grieving the loss of a loved one #stay strong #because that's what they would have wanted you to do :) #medzmoodz.☁ #svt.💙

[fatherofmachine]

VERSE TAGS.

#V; WHEN EVERYTHING IS OVER & THE WORST HAS HAPPENED﹐ THERE'S STILL ONE THING LEFT IN PANDORA'S BOX; HOPE. ( main | canon arcs ) #V; WHEN EVERYTHING IS OVER & THE WORST HAS HAPPENED﹐ THERE'S STILL ONE THING LEFT IN PANDORA'S BOX; HOPE. ( vague alternate arcs ) #V; WE ALL HAVE SECRETS. THE ONES WE KEEP & THE ONES THAT ARE KEPT FROM US. ( Marvel comics | MCU AU ) #V; THE BALANCE & HARMONY OF REASON & EMOTION﹐ NOT AT WAR﹐ BUT HAND IN HAND. ( DC comics | DCU | Gotham AUs ) #V; SOMETIMES I WONDER IF WE COULDN’T OF DONE SOMETHING MORE MEANINGFUL ( if the machine never existed AU ) #V; I THOUGHT YOU WOULD WANT ME TO STAY ALIVE. ( pre season 5 everybody lives AU ) #V; I THOUGHT YOU WOULD WANT ME TO STAY ALIVE. ( post season 5 everybody lives AU ) #V; IF YOU REALLY NEED A MYSTERY﹐ I RECOMMEND THE HUMAN HEART. ( pre established relationship AUs ) #V; THE RICH & POWERFUL TAKE WHAT THEY WANT. WE STEAL IT BACK FOR YOU. WE PROVIDE … LEVERAGE. ( leverage AU ) #V; I WOULD’VE STAYED UP WITH YOU ALL NIGHT﹐ HAD I KNOWN HOW TO SAVE A LIFE. ( alternate pilot AU ) #V; NO HAROLD. I CHOSE A VOICE. ( the machine in root's body AU ) #V; WE GO BACK TO LETTING HUMANITY DETERMINE ITS OWN FATE. ( hybrid of the machine & samaritan AU ) #V; THERE IS NO CHARM EQUAL TO TENDERNESS OF HEART. ( the machine in a child's body AU ) #V; REESE & FINCH ARE MARRIED﹐ PASS IT ON. ( married rinch AU ) #V; DILLINGER HADN'T BEEN VERY TRUSTWORTHY EITHER. NONETHELESS﹐ A STRANGE SORT OF SOFT SPOT STILL LINGERED. ( dillinger survives au ) #V; I'M TALKING ABOUT THE CRIMINALS THAT MATTER. THE ONES YOU CAN'T FIND BECAUSE YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW THEY EXIST. ( blacklist AU ) #V; THESE VIOLENT DELIGHTS HAVE VIOLENT ENDS. ( westworld AU ) #V; WHEN YOUR WORLD STOPS﹐ THE WORLD AROUND YOU KEEPS MOVING FORWARD & YOU WILL TOO. ( deaf root AU ) #V; & I REMAIN WORRIED﹐ ABOUT WHAT SOMEONE ELSE MIGHT BUILD. SOMEONE WHO WASN'T WORRIED. ( .exe AU )

[snapbackslide]

Y’all, one of the candidates from the upcoming elections came into the office today to get a graphic done by me, and he lowkey started to flirt?? Sometimes I wonder if this life is real LMAO

#nah i hated this cause he stayed and watched me work and I HATE BEING WATCHED MAN I HAVE ANXIETY #i also hate when people come in for a handshake cause my hands are always cold and they must think i’m dead inside #(i am) #🎶 ​you’re gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul 🎶 #lol anyway #excuse me sir you have white hair i’m not interested #not into older men 🤣🤣 and even less into politics sorry #not to mention i’m deffff not rooting for his party 🫣 #he mentioned a girlfriend i overheard anyway so #i need to change the way i behave cause ppl are always telling me what to do or snatching things from my hands or talking over me #i know i look and sound like i enjoy that but i don't!!!!! i truly don't!!!!!!!! #at least not from most people 🤣🤣🤣 #and by most i mean MOST most #like almost everyone on the planet #just cause i'm a soft human doesn't mean i can't absolutely wreck your world don't test me #it must be the way i dress and the soft spoken voice if we're completely honest in our self-analysis #actually it's everything about me... i need a whole rebrand basically #anyway where was i going with this idek #just another episode in the rambling in the tags series #i'm literally sweating that was so stressful lmfao #i wanna go homeeeeeee #**