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[vivika-ka]

For anyone in the ASPEC community, how did you find out you are in the ASPEC spectrum? I’ve been grappling with my identity for a while now.

Getting super personal for a minute but as someone who grew up in a small town in Brazil where even the concept of being LGBTQ+ was considered a sin/taboo during the time I was a child and teen (I’ve been told it’s somewhat better now!), I’m still trying to understand my own sexuality now that I’m out of there and have the opportunity to even explore how I feel.

And thinking back on my intimate experiences, I never felt anything while engaging in them. I’d enter some sort of limbo, idk. Just complete numbness. And I felt absolutely awful after—I’d be extremely depressed for days.

Like, I know only one instance when the journey of being together with the person and even light activities (that felt genuine) made me feel enjoyment and love. And there were the rare times I’d want to engage in sexual activities, when I felt in love with the person. But when it got to the activity itself, zilch, I felt nothing. Which made me feel guilty.

I still have difficulties knowing what spectrum I fall under. On one hand I’d say I’m panromantic asexual. On the other hand I’d say I’m just pan asexual. But both experiences (romantic and non-romantic) rendered me numb.

The thing that confuses me is, I love romance. I love love, if that makes any sense. But when it comes to me in the equation, it often (but not always) falls flat? So I get to the question of, “Am I aromantic too, then?” And I fall in this rabbit hole of scattered identities. And admittedly I often find myself falling into some sort of traditional line of thinking (thx Protestant and Catholic upbringing 🫠)

Anyway, I’m in a constant state of trying to understand myself and my sexuality, and even feel pressured at times to have a specific answer, given how it seems extremely important for people online.

Most people seem so sure. They know with such certainty, I find myself envious at times. Given that I often find myself at a lost. And that usually makes me feel…incomplete, for a lack of better word. I feel like I don’t belong anywhere. Idk.

#personal post #personal txt #aspec #aspec community #asexual #asexuality #aromantic #arospec #aroace #? #lgbtqia #lgbtq+ #lgbtq+ community #lgbtqia community #sexuality crisis #literally #lol #i’m so lost #will delete this later

[simsimulation]

This isn't terrifying AT ALL!!

#ts4 #sims 4 #ts4 screenshots #the sims 4 #nearly levitated when i saw this #he was swimming and decided to keep swimming i guess #will delete this later

[nell0-0]

Too tired to draw, what is this curse. I wanna draw so badly but can't even focus on the screen, augh

#talk tag #rant #i guess? #i feel super bad about complaining in here #but where else would I go with it #I just got a stressful job and keep messing up #not the job itself. but relationships with coworkers #it's so stressful bc I don't wanna come across as mean #it's just my face/voice when I'm not constantly making sure it's soft and nice #I don't wanna be mean #can't just go and say “it's the neurodivergence” #since I don't even know wtf is wrong with me #<- afraid of therapists #bc if I go to even one therapists and disregards my struggles I may just cry. and impostor syndrome again #rambling in the tags #will delete this later #i just needed to get this out #I also keep infodumping to clients and not sure how that's gonna fly with the bosses #...probably not well #english is hard today wtf #tw vent

[sunny1927]

I forgot to mention, the animatic I’m currently working on right now is actually for a competition (basically a film competition, I won’t get into any details for personal reasons but yeah).

So wish me luck on winning this-

(I’m probably gonna need it)

#I’m okay #just worried I won’t get it done on time #my art #sunny talks #sunny #guess I forgot to mention it #but I’ll still post the animatic ofc! #don’t you all worry #will delete this later

[pezhead]

Apologies to the any tmntaucomp specific asks I didn't answer. I won't be answering those since Age Gap is no longer in the comp, and I'd like to focus my attention on other art/projects/etc~

#will delete this later #i am sorry #i hate not answering asks

[oh-cramity-its-amity]

me omw to boop you.

#will delete this later #this is so crazy WHY AM I ALMOST AT 600 😭

[lovexkitty]

Tumblr needs voice notes

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[rb-sketches]

i didnt know 4yrs ago when i started reading bkdk fanfics that the Pomeranian would literally become my type one day, like yall didnt think to warn me-

#i feel betrayed #jkjk #but why was it that when my bf got mad i literally started blushing like what is wrong with me- #he literally shook his head like i CANT. #boku no hero academia #bakudeku #katsudeku #katsuki bakugō #going insane #bye. #(he wasnt too mad i just told i might leave the country maybe within a year like out of nowhere after not talking to him for a month) #will delete this later

[fiendishfyre]

Current marauders fandom be like taking away traits from Sirius and Severus and giving all to regulus and hating on Snape and what's left of Sirius is this character that's more off and far from anything resembling actual Sirius.

#jegulus exists because snape wanst described as attractive #regulus was a proud de as well #he's not a victim kn the way the fandom wants to portray him #he's not this uwu tortured gith cool guy soul #i could go ln #on* #will delete this later #because I'm bkred and sleepy #i shouldn't post this #oh well #sirius black #regulus black

[enrapture]

My migraine is kicking my ass

#me #self #will delete this later

[boiling-potato]

Me, really excited to draw ship arts, fanarts and practice my animation skill because I have the time:

Me seeing my ask blog:

(don't worry guys I'll try to answer all of them as soon as possible (⁠ーwー,,))

#boiling potato #will delete this later #meme #small update

[simsimulation]

I’VE TRIED TO PLAY MY GAME FOR TWO DAYS NOW AND EVERY TIME I OPEN UP CAS AND EXIT IT EITHER CRASHES OR I GET STUCK ON A LOADING SCREEN…THIS GAME IS SO ANNOYING SOMETIMES! I JUST WANT TO PLAY 😭 I’M GONNA LOSE MY MIND!!!

#simsimmy.txt #ts4 #sims 4 #simblr #will delete this later #this game is such a headache sometimes

[cyliph]

pspspspsps

send in your subnautica / robin x al-an hcs, my hands yearn to draw goobies

#subnautica #sketch #art request #will delete this later

[guard-en]

someone... anyone.... prod me with a fucking cattle prod through the bars of my enclosure MAKE ME FINISH THIS. The minute I finish the lineart cleanup its gonna be so easy to finish but for now I'm fuckig suffering.

#madcom #will delete this later #random eden rants

[pezhead]

In the nicest way possible

Your age gap au Casey jones reminds me of Bo from Superstore.

It’s not even smt hes said or anything I’d just imagine him acting like that

Again- meant in the nicest way possible (I love ur au <3)

In the nicest way possible: I have no idea who that is, so no offence taken~!

Also, thanks :D

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[oh-cramity-its-amity]

mannn idk if im ready to finish reading/listening to the toh pirate au bestie. idk if im mentally prepared for it. like its not sad or anything but i always have this depressed feeling whenever i finish a fic where like "welp. thats it. thats the end" and considering this fic is SO big (350k words long-) oh man the pay off of a buildup is going to be like... damn... bc the effort!! aaa

anyway i will maybe say somethin later if i do finish it but im not sure yet haha.

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