All this money and you don't even tell your chef I get incredibly sick from lactose. #sufferingfromsuccess . That's a joke.
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i don't want anything to hurt tommy. i don't want anyone to hurt tommy, even buck, and the fact that he's going to because it's inevitable, because he doesn't even have a choice in the matter, because the choice to fall in love with eddie was made long ago before he even realized he was making it, makes me so fucking GRUMPY, man !!!! like. having to choose between my three children, one of whom is completely traumatized but healing, one who needs to be chosen, and the other who's just trying to do and be good to make up for the harm he put into the world (y'know. presumably), all the while KNOWING i will ultimately choose buck/eddie and their happiness makes me completely want to kill a man. i am so serious. like
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I'm making myself re-watch the first season of Loki, before I'll start the second one, and I can't with the cruelty of it.
Mobius: "I want you to be honest about why you do what you do."
Loki: "Liar."
M: "I'm serious. All I seek is a deeper understanding of the fearsome God of Mischief. What makes Loki tick?"
L: "I know what this place is."
M: "What is it?"
L: "It's an illusion. It's a cruel, elaborate trick conjured by the weak to inspire fear. A desperate attempt at control. Now, you all parade about as if you're the divine arbiters of power in the universe."
M: "We are."
L: "You're not. My choices are my own."
This is freshly post-The Avengers Loki. He believed to be always the second best, then learned he's a monster, attempted suicide, got tortured somehow for gods-know-how-long, while being under the influence of one of the infinity stones. He didn't even get a break before learning he's "a mistake" AGAIN, destined for extermination (not to mention that "funny" What-if-I'm-a-robot-and-don't-know moment.), only to be saved in the last moment by Mobius.
Pretty nice of him, right?
Well, aside from the fact he's obviously planning to use Loki somehow, he knows Loki and plays him in the most heartless, personal way. He's flattering Loki, while mocking him with the same breath, telling him he doesn't matter, yet pretending he wants to get to know him. For someone, who isn't nearly over his whole identity being a lie, for someone, who's been recently mentally tortured, who's acting all important, yet obviously hides a whole shitload of insecurity ...
Yeah, I'm not gonna buy their budding friendship. This is a nice set up for traumabonding.
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I threw up so hard the blood vessels around my eyes burst and I look like someone did a really bad job of trying to give me black eyes.
But it’s okay because my favorite Bleach gremlins would really love the look of it.
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Every time Chili ruins something, I have to take a moment to calm down cause I tend to get unreasonably angry very quickly and need to logic my way back to baseline by reminding myself of two things:
A) so far, objects needing to be thrown out/intensely cleaned due to dog have mostly been involuntary ruined due to sickness: her bladder infection when I first got her to just now as she regurgitated all over three (cheap) rugs
B) she has still cost me less money with a couple of wrecked dog beds and rugs than if I had bought a puppy as was my original plan for dog ownership, who would've wrecked way more shit by now along being attached to a potential 2k price tag.
I got a great dog who came mostly pre-trained, who only destroys her stuffies and tennis balls, who never makes any noise save to cry at me when I don't let her sleep in my lap, and who only cost me 100 bucks at the shelter. She can ruin 40 fifty dollar rugs and I'd still come out on top.
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it's the kind of night where i'm wishing i was never born, but not in a suicidal way, rather- now that I've had a taste of existence, if nothing lies beyond, i really don't know what the hell i'm going to do without it
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researching about russia does make you paranoid because they do go to such extreme lengths sometimes to persecute people who do barely anything against the regime.
like, i know they're not trying to poison ME for just some social media posts, i'm not russian or near russia, but that comes to mind when i feel sick (when I haven't been sick since covid in 2022), or if I get some sort of scam online, I think they're targeting me specifically
It's almost 99% unlikely... but you can't put anything past them at this point.
i mean, if i were actually being effective, which would be more likely if i had a wide audience, i can see they might -- might-- try something. but i'm a nobody.
plus i'm really tired rn which makes me irrational (I'm sooo tired that I think i might be sick, which triggered all this. More than even the normal tiredness after running around all weekend - just 4 visits 4 miles away.... but also with some paranoia about them bc I HAVE had incidents before. when you've had something happen it does appear more prominently in your mind)
I do comment and share things I can't help but share... because I can't stay silent. when people are so immune to seeing evil in front of their face
and I don't look at replies to comments on youtube or instagram bc I know a lot are probably negative, perhaps trolls (i've seen some and I don't need that negativity)
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