#Deluded Hearts

[lotus-pear]

regret

#literally excuse the shitty anatomy and cell shading i was thinking abt chuuyas reaction to what he'd done and i decided to make it skk #bc skk copium :') #the way i've hated dazai so fucking much but i still cried like a bitch when he died #he's not dead the bsd fandom has this phase like the elevator chapter where we're like ''dazai's not gonna make it he's done for!!'' #and then he comes back next chapter like surprise bitches yall thought i was dead lmao #this chapter fucking HURT for skk shippers tho like we rly lost this time around huh #deluding myself into thinking that chuuya used gravity manipulation to slow the bullet #bc we didn't see a bullet hole behind dazais head like when chuuya shot his shoulder even though the bullet to his skull was fired at close #the reason theres a wound is bc the compressed air that was still fired was enough to wound him #and the shock wave that followed caused him to pass out bc of the sudden tension to his head intermingled with the blood loss and poison #we also know dazai can control his heart rate at will so maybe he can drop his pulse to zero for like thirty secs #enough to make fyodor believe he's dead #in the event that all of this is untrue and dazai rly does die the way my entire being will go numb and cold and dead #knowing that fyodor will most likely use dazai's death as a weapon against chuuya effectively chaining him to his side #like bffr chuuya may dislike dazai but that's his partner his reflection the boy that makes him desperately want to be human #dazai is the embodiment of chuuyas humanity and once chuuya loses that tether to his human side he will snap and the facade will shatter #and we will truly see chuuya unhinged with nothing more keeping him bound to his mortal shell #this wasn't the skk reunion we wanted asigiri what the fuck :( #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #nakahara chuuya #chuuya nakahara #osamu dazai #dazai osamu #skk #soukoku #lotus draws

[theskeletonsinourclosets]

telling someone the plots of books is so funny cause what do i mean my favourite book is a romeo and juliet retelling with a headlice epidemic

#these violent delights #secret shanghai #our violent ends #foul lady fortune #foul heart huntsman #last violent call #books #favourite book #i must sound so deluded lol

[aznpew]

tw: violence 'acquiesce'

#golden kamuy #golden kamuy fanart #tsukishima hajime #tsurumi tokushirou #gk #yes i love tsutsu being tender and vanilla but also they deserve to [redacted] and [redacted] each other <3 #they're terrible *smiling emoji with hearts* #their dynamic is just so much to think about. esp from tsukis pov #sir youre so deluded

[fandom-trash-goblin]

Alicent Hightower, Queen to King Viserys I Targaryen

for @boundlessfantasy (my only hotd moot currently, hi ma'am i survived geography! hope you like this one it's based on your blog background)

credits: icons of alicent hightower: pinterest user linberlyy, random images: pinterest, quote in first three rows: me, and last quote: tumblr user ojibwa

#god i love emily carey she broke my heart being alicent hightower #idk how people can look at her and say oh look she manipulated viserys #viserys was the adult in the situation. some of y'all are so deluded in that glorifying targs like viserys and daemon mood #idkidc baby alicent was a saint and a martyr and nobody gets to act as if she deserves it #also symbolism. dull red something something never fitting in with “pureblooded” targs #queen to king viserys: little to no agency for herself she is literally just a childbride broodmare no need for sugarcoating #baby alicent my love my sweetheart i want to wrap you in three blankets and give you a warm glass of tea. and then i want to #give you some glass bowls and tell you shatter them pretending they're viserys #it aint fixing much but atleast we know where to begin #anyways #alicent hightower #alicent my beloved #hotd #hotd aesthetic #hotd moodboard #*mine: aesthetics #pinterest #emily carey

[applejongho]

just now realizing san screamed "ok captain!" right before guerrilla at coachella and u can only imagine the stress I am under 🫶

#san literally i 1) cannot 2) will not be deluded #(i am so deluded) #apple lady words #there is a very special place in my heart that's filled with extremely comfy pillows designed with anarchy symbols #that's where guerrilla hong resides

[yoroshiu]

Do you ever think of how hardcore it is that Xehanort killed Eraqus? Terra might have weakened him but it was Xehanort, by choice, who did the final blow. It already says a lot since we knew that they were classmates and friends in BBS, but when you have the full context of Dark Road, it hits in a eerily haunting way.

Imagine that younger Xehanort, who killed Baldr and lost his friends, learning that he will kill his best friend (legit, according to Baldr, his light). Considering that KH3/Re:Mind have it where Young Xehanort is the one that was going to take his Mark of Mastery (hence, after Dark Road events), I wonder what would have been his reaction to Eraqus being killed by his own hand. Realistically, I could imagine that he’d feel conflicted about it, maybe end up looking at his future self in a different way. But because he wouldn’t remember that when travelling back in time, nothing would change. There’s something so...brutal and a bit heart wrenching about that idea. 

#kingdom hearts #kh #kh dark road #xehanort #eraqus #angst #the symbolism in xehanort killing his light by his own volition #imagine young xehanort hating his older self for that but eventually deluding himself into thinking that it's for the best or something #brainrot hours #yoroshiu rambles

[witheredoffherwitch]

Cregan is quite a character. He's the type to stroll in fashionably late, take charge like he owns the place, and completely miss the fact that everyone is rolling their eyes at his presence.

#bless his clueless heart though 🫶 #cregan stark #he is the epitome of goofiness and tardiness #with a dash of deluded self importance #hotd #house stark

[gameboyhamazing]

one of the most horrifyingly existential things about kingdom hearts to me is the fact that nobody leaves anything behind when they die

#yes i know keyblades are left behind and belongings and etc etc #but also like. have we ever seen a dead body in kingdom hearts that was legit AND permanent #that didn't just fade into sparkles or darkness or whatever #and by that logic #have we ever been able to confirm a death that nobody actually witnessed themselves? #technically there could have always been a chance that every death nobody was sure of just...didnt actually happen #but also there's always a chance that every death that wasn't certain was in fact a death #and that ambiguity is weirdly terrifying to me #how can anyone know if you're okay if nothing would be left behind when you weren't? #if you want to hope against hope when one person claims to have killed another #all you have to do is claim that the proof is wrong #that the belongings are stolen or that there's no evidence the other person is dead #and you have successfully deluded yourself in a way that can't easily be disproved afaik #it's just kinda scary to me man #kingdom hearts

[chirpsythismorning]

I thought you guys were joking about the heart eyes but HOLY SHIT!

#byler #stranger things #heart eyes motherfucker #the sun ships byler #but also this scene took a whole day to film… #and with the whole YOURE THE HEART focus i can’t help but delude myself into thinking this was 100% intentional… #stranger things spoilers #will byers #mike wheeler #stranger things theory #byler proof #byler evidence

[greenishness]

i could never live in the us or generally a place where warm friendliness is the default treatment of strangers i would keep falling in love with medical receptionists if they didn't make it clear that they want me dead

#every time i'm in the us i get deluded about my own sex appeal sooo bad i always think i'm the hottest woman in the country #simply bc every1 is so nice to me.. like omg you want me so bad 🤣 but three minutes later they've forgotten about me #keep getting my heart broken by random strangers over there!!! don't be nice to me if you dont mean it i'm sensitive #BUT. it is my conviction that i am hotter by us standards than central european standards.

[frays-monster-yuri]

Okay but sending my partners the incredibly horny scene where Jill presses fingers to Marigold's lips in order to teach her how to seal wounds and extract blood for the purposes of wielding it as a weapon is the best fucking thing.

I am incredibly horny about Jill's blood control and I will not stop.

#deluded hearts: inheritance #deluded hearts

[mimiatmidnight]

Will you be commenting on the Taylor drama?

I love the way this was worded, like I'm one of the siblings on Succession and the press has cornered me outside my penthouse to ask if I'll be releasing a statement on my family's latest scandal. Hehehe anyways.

Sorry but I just don't understand how anyone is shocked. Truly what has that woman ever done to successfully convince people that this is out of character for her. Like I don't want to diminish anyone's pain or anything but I see all these stans on here and over on Twitter in all this distress, having their very first epiphanies like "Hold on . . . does Taylor . . . suck??" And I kinda just have to chuckle at them cause like bless your hearts babes, but omg catch UP 😭

Lol because 1) she is a severely emotionally stunted person who thinks edgy British "bad boys" are hot like she's 12 years old, 2) she has no true deeply-held moral principles outside of issues that directly affect herself, and 3) truthfully, she seems to be suffering from a serious crisis of identity after the end of the longest and most significant romantic relationship of her life, and in my opinion is pretty clearly desperate to prove something to the world/her ex/herself.

The first reason is cringe but not news to longtime viewers, the second reason is pathetic but also not news (to those who can be honest with themselves), and the third is . . . understandable in some sense, but not pitiable enough to make me willing to humor this insufferable little episode she's having. I wish her luck on this humiliating rebound journey, but she is gonna have to walk that road on her own.

Normally, I always roll my eyes when people make these kinds of jokes, but given the circumstances I feel justified in saying: I can't wait to hear the breakup song about him, sis 🤡

#the great thing about disliking your own fave is that they simply do not have the power to disappoint you lol #like her stans (at least those who arent complete sycophants—which sadly is not most) are breaking down over Babys 1st Cognitive Dissonance #meanwhile im just over here chilling lol #ive also just NEVER been particularly invested in her personal life anyways so im gucci on that front too #i didnt even realize specific songs were about specific celebrity exes until *several* years into listening to her music #thats how unplugged i am lol #she is unusually extremely visible in the collective conscious right now cause of the tour and this insufferable PR blitz #but the absolute best thing for me is when she disappears and i dont have to perceive her -- the actual person -- outside of her music #and then it can just be me and my lifelong companion the fictional character “taylor swift” (c)(r)(tm) #so personally the only real threat this hangs over my head is the thought she might put him on an album #like that does strike real terror in my heart im ngl #ESPECIALLY any of the rerecords oh my god #and given the way hes been tailing her in and out of that damn studio . . . its not looking good for me kids 🥴 #i cant believe she would be that dumb after making the same mistake with joe on folklore #cause even tho now she has to suffer the indignity of sharing a grammy with her ex (LMAO) #at least we can understand that at the time she thought they were in it for life #but if she pulls that shit again with a REBOUND??? just to like stick it to joe or further delude herself or whatever? #idk im gonna need interpol or somebody to step in and do something drastic like this is a cry for help #did you guys see that euphoria meme someone made about her deranged “ive never been happier!!!!” speech the other day? #it was SO funny ill go find it

[minteaspoon]

The Bastards of Waters

a/n: this is inspired by a fic called watch the world burn by mylordstrong on ao3:)

Summary: Lucerys is bastardized by a king Aemond Targaryen to become Lucerys Waters, who births him bastard sons. Those sons are forced to journey to the Red Keep, away from their beloved mother and homely manse after the King demands them brought to him, as his Stag Queen has only ever birthed him girls in their 15 years of marriage. Luke, humiliated and angry, warns and prepares his children of the dangers they’ll be facing once they step foot within their hateful father’s castle.

a/n 2: uh, luke’s in his “alicent era with a hint of rhaenyra losing her mind era” is all I’m saying for this :)

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“Keep your brothers in line, Daemon, never let them out of your sight, never let them be alone with anyone in the Keep,” Luke whispers to his eldest, as he clutches the teen’s face harshly. It was the first time Daemon had ever felt pain in his mother’s hold - it was always soft, warm and maternal. He couldn’t blame his faultless mother, he was worried for his children going into unknown and hostile territory after all.

Daemon’s hands shot up to grip his loving mother’s fingers gently, prying them from his face to hold within his own, “I will ensure my brothers never know pain in the Keep, and I promise they’ll be safe and protected as long as I’m still around, mother.”

He can feel his kind mother’s hands shaking, as his eyes stared back into his soft mother’s dark milky hues.

“…All right, I’ll be holding you to that promise,” Luke rasps out, as he frees himself from his son’s tight grip. He cups Daemon’s cheeks, gently this time, with enough warmth he could see his son physically melt in his palms. “Bring you brothers here, I need you all here to tell you of what to expect in that viper’s den.”

“Yes, mother.”

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After getting his brothers into the manse’s main room, all sitting on the sofa, Luke rants and warns his sons of the Red Keep’s dangers.

“You mustn’t be alone nor trust anyone in the Keep, everyone there’s no better than the people in Flea Bottom. They lie, kill, cheat, steal and brag - they will cause you harm and death and suffering. Trusting a person in the Keep, and being vulnerable with any of them is a death sentence in that wretched place,” he starts, pacing back and forth while biting his nails red. “You mustn’t make any mistake, if you do, they will pounce on you for it, humiliate you for it - be as perfect as you can be, and watch and protect each other’s backs. The only ones you can trust in the Keep are yourselves and each other, never forget that.”

Luke can see the fear and hate erupting in the eyes of his children. “Good,” he thought, “that hatred and fear shall keep them alive and protected within the Cursed King’s grasp.”

He knows what he’s doing is wrong, that installing more hate and fear to fester within his own sons might lead to drastic consequences, but he couldn’t careless.

He birthed his sons alone, he taught his sons alone, he entertained his sons alone, he raised his sons alone. If anyone had any problems with how he raised them, full of nothing but spiteful, bitter and frightful contempt for nearly everyone in Westeros - then they should’ve never left him alone to raise his own children as he sees fit.

Luke was quite glad. While he had few friends and loyal followers, he still had allies he knew he could trust.

The many former gold cloaks loyal to his step-father, Daemon Targaryen, trained his sons and vowed to protect both Luke and them - and to join their rebellion when the time comes to fruition. Two of his mother’s handmaidens, who were there for all of her births - and her death - had vowed to ardently stay beside Luke for when the Greens fall, and he or one of his sons takes the throne.

The White Worm - Lady Mysaria - and the whores of Westeros, whom never achieved the peace and equality they were promised by the Black Queen as a result of her death from the traitorous Greens. Nettles, whom seeks revenge for the death of Daemon Targaryen, vows to see the dragon Vhagar and her rider fall in disgrace and dishonor.

Rhaena and Baela, whom quietly gathered allies within the Free Cities, and raised Morning in secrecy away from prying eyes and ears. And the Starks and Arryns, disgraced Houses for their loyalty to the true Queen, Rhaenyra Targaryen, had vowed to see and support Lucerys Waters, the last living son of the rightful heir, sit on the Iron Throne - even if their devotion and fealty were done in secret codes and whispers.

Luke sighs as he halts his rants. Cupping his hands together, he raises them to his face to cover his vicious expression from his beloved sons. Turning his eyes to them, he gently brings his children together, and grips the hands of his youngest, staring in the eyes of all his sons. He finally lets out a final warning in a pale and muted voice; “When the King’s stag wife births the son of the blood of the dragon that he wants, flee as fast and as far away as you can - He will not hesitate to kill all of you, and he will not hesitate to kill me, your mother, either. That man is our family’s ruin and cause of suffering. Do you understand, my loves?”

#lucemond #unhinged lucerys velaryon #lucerys velaryon #aemond targaryen #hotd au #luke becoming alicent is smth I hold near and dear in my heart #and also him doing a rhaenyra and going bonkers for his sons #aemond made a mistake messing with this version of luke:) #does luke care for his sons? yes #did he raise them to unleash hell when aem’s involved? y e s #don’t delude yourself #the sons hate their half sisters #luke raised them to hate them after all so no incest pairing there #cause they deadass would rather slit their own throats than develop positive feelings for their abhorrent sisters #alicent’s gonna feel real weird if she ever knows how similar luke raised his sons like she did with her kids #he just did it better than she did #you bet your ass the sons of luke are gonna rub their bastard blood in their dad’s face #aemond wants to legitimize them? too bad their mother’s still a bastard so they’re still the blood of a bastard and proud #aem’s gonna be losing his mind with his bastard sons:)

[melloneah]

why isnt the concept of ‘friend crushes’ more widely talked about??? everyone i mention it to is like ‘OHHHHHH YEA I HAVE THAT HAPPEN ALL THE TIME!!!!’ >:(((( dude!!!! it should be as normalised as regular crushes. there r people i feel an intense platonic admiration towards but it’s so weird to say ‘hey u wanna be besties???’. IT SHOULDNT THO. why can u say ‘im in love with you i wanna date u’ but not ‘i admire u so much i so badly wanna be one of your best friends and get to know u from the inside out’ ?????!??!?!!?

#i carry too much love my heart is too full……💔 #where can i purchase a bestie??? one bestie please #this is also an especially big problem for me #because im incapable of getting past that initial acquaintance phase 💀 #it was easier when i was a kid bc i just. SAID THAT #hey i wanna be besties actually do u???? #n we BECAME BESTIES. #that easy fr #not anymore tho #stuck living a lonely life………jus me n my blorbos #hanging out in my head #hey guys does anyone wanna join the blorbo event in my mind???? #there will be bonding and fun activities :3 #personal post #it should be illegal being lonely when ur this cool fr #brb gonna delude myself that everyone’s just feels threatened by the raw drip #their loss tho…………</33333 #uhm. wow. i promise im not a loser with no friends #(<- a loser with no friends) #shoulda appreciated high school……….uni is brutal #hhuhhhhnnmmm. ahhhhghmmm yuh #u kno what ignore all that #who said that????????? #i didnt hear anything #SAYONARA BEFORE I REALLY BEGIN THE OVERSHARING #someone gag me fr

[azurexsnake]

Hawnestly, there’s a million-and-one points that I’d love to punch Knives in the face over, but I can’t get over, “What are you talking about, Vash? Kni is dead. You killed him.”

I’ll never not get furious over it ever time how Knives uses his hurt to hurt Vash, even in his “dying” moments. How he holds onto his resentment that Vash didn’t choose him. Didn’t pick his side. How Vash didn’t deny himself- his hopes, his wants, his ideals, his beliefs, and his LOVE- to help him, and treats that refusal to abandon himself as betrayal.

I get that to Knives, it is. It feels like it. But he equally as much betrayed Vash. Drove him to hurt and act in ways he never would have otherwise. Gave him an impossible mission to take on alone- the same ways Knives took his on in solitude. But Knives acted first. He started it. Which sounds deeply ironic and trivial since he is the elder sibling (I am one myself, I’m allowed to say this). But, truly, Vash was only reacting to Knives pushing forwards towards a future he didn’t want. That he was uniquely capable of correcting when given the chance. And it benefitted plants and humans both.

Vash would have helped Knives. He wanted to save him- to find a way that they could move forward towards happiness together. But it would always include a happiness with humans that Knives couldn’t abide by because he never wanted to see past his own hurt. He took his trauma, made it his reality, and took measure to force it onto the rest of the world as well, his brother included.

To say that Vash killed him is ludicrous projection. Kni killed his own connection with the baby brother he cared so much about. It wasn’t Vash’s lack of want. It wasn’t humanity’s mistakes/misdeeds. Kni chose to do that himself and “killed” himself for his own dedication to a self-serving future.

And I’m not going to sit here and act like he wasn’t justified to an extent, in seeing what became of Tesla and the plants undergoing a Last Run. But it’s for those same reasons that I wish he had done things differently when Vash could have helped. Even in their dying moments, the plants still cried and reached out, hoping to be heard. Understood. Connected with. Saved. They wanted to be saved. Just like Knives. And Vash could have done it. Maybe not in the Last Run scene, but if Knives had just given him a chance to prove what could be when you don’t hold on so tight to the pain of yesterday… doomed by the narrative fr 🫠

#nightow really knows how to tear your heart out with what could have been huh? #MAN #but why’d he have to bring the mfing bible into it???? #catholic/christian themes are cool and all yea #but I can’t take half of what kni says or does serious knowing how he views humanity through a religious lense #like it makes his character even MORE unreasonable to me #but maybe that’s the point #like how he also referenced fictitious westerns #maybe it’s supposed to show how deluded he is #IDK #trigun stampede #tristamp #vash the stampede #millions knives

[emeraldtimethief]

Me: im only doing little doodles between breaks in this blog, nothing too fancy.

Me at 1 am: a fully colored comic page it is.

#im trying to delude myself into thinking this is just practice (?) #but im just following my heart tbh #.... why am i like this. #im going to fucking bed xD