#Either way I’m proud of myself

[cheese-water]

Me when I watch Spiderman and become a better gem because of it

My take on a Gemcyt Roier, a yellow pearl whose very loyal to his diamond ;)

Gemcyt AU created by @chrisrin

First outfit design inspired by @mertensia this gem Roier specifically it’s so good tysm

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So, Roier is a yellow pearl assigned to yellow diamond. He’s loyal, protective, but is known to gossip. Basically he’s similar to yellow pearl in the show but with more roier-isms. Yellow diamond is someone other than stampy in this concept, because I thought of someone who would be really funny and I’m sticking with it. I tried to make the third outfit reflect the diamond like in the show but I’m not sure how obvious it comes across. Either way I’m drawing him next so just wait and see ;)

For relationships other than his diamond, Roier trusts a certain Lapis Lazuli with his life and are always seen together whenever he isn’t working. After a few days on Earth, she’s already referring to herself as Jaiden. He also does not care for Joel, mainly because he’s an off color pearl. Lots of I’m perfect and therefore superior behavior which Joel also doesn’t care for. Other than that, they’re more like colleagues than acquaintances. Far far in the future, when Roier does chill out on Earth, their interactions are awkward to say the least (very “oh yeah we used to work together thousands of years ago and did not like each other”) but they cope eventually.

I’d imagine Roier comes to Earth long after the shattering of Pink Diamond and the great gem war. He’s still loyal to the diamonds during the rise of rebels and runaways, as seen in the life crew. Though eventually, he has to make a tough decision, perhaps involving said Lapis and a certain Tiger’s Eye and escapes to Earth. He does not like it and behaves similarly to Peridot early. However, much like Peridot and Camp Pininghearts, what really sells him on Earth is the media, specifically Spiderman. He’s just enthralled and begins to love Earth for it.

Why? Because it’s funny :D

qsmp-ers this au is so fun please join

#notes app art #gemcyt #qsmp #roier #su #mcyt #GOD PEOPLE ARE HARD TO DRAW #gems whatever #yes it’s the same base for all three outfits #no I don’t know how I did this with my finger #Either way I’m proud of myself #:D

[cylaranth]

So side order yea?

#I finished side order with every weapon including the no hacks octo shot #ok so truth be told i used one whole hack and that was for drone items #but either way I’m proud of myself #so yea! octosona time #Splatoon #splatoon 3 #splatoon 3 side order #fanart #digitalart #digital arwork #digital art #abominations from the canvas

[smilesrobotlover]

Phantom hourglass posting :’)

#the ‘somehow it makes me happy’ makes me wanna cry like Aw #idk who’s speaking but it seems that Link is the one saying that #which I’ve never seen the text go first person like that #either way it’s adorable af #Linebeck #phantom hourglass #also I’m proud of myself for catching that fish #a big ol honker

[itspileofgoodthings]

in the most concrete way yet I feel like I’m getting a handle on what my flaws and weaknesses actually are lol.

#self-absorption poor impulse control an addictive personality #fiercely independent/sensitive/proud past the point of reason #anyway it feels like a real breakthrough honestly #because I’ve always known that there was stuff wrong but only in a dim sense #and this is a slow-gathering clearer picture #because the problem is that flaws don’t feel like flaws at first (so obvious I know) #my impulse can feel like inspiration! a wave of emotion always feels good! I have a rich internal life there’s a lot to think about #with regards to myself #but actually those all can be such negative and hurtful traits. #also it kills my pride to know that the people who love me already know these Lol #because they’re the ones who have to live with them!! And who are affected by them! #anyway the self-absorption one especially. I feel like there’s been so much to work through and figure out this past year #that made me turn inward more #and some of it was necessary #but I’m so aware of how much I want to get out of that space. and truly be open to other people and experiences and the world #in a way that is not just filtered through my internal journey #anyway anyway (a final thought) the pattern of my 20’s has been either self-absorption or complete absorption into the one or two things #that I/my anxiety allowed into the space of my heart and mind #as a kind of counter to the teenage state which was just information pouring in from all sides #but I would like to be able to reopen some of those informational floodgates so to speak. and let stuff in in a real and balanced way #because I don’t think I’m going to drown or be swept away in it (I am so scared of losing my identity in a sea of information) #one of my root fears! but it’s like. No. Bones not made of glass etc. etc. so you can start to think about yourself less #you SHOULD #anyway thank you for listening. there have been some very good (self) revelations lately <3 #painful ones! but good

[yellobb]

I’m not gonna be able to finish inktober before the month ends because I’m crazy busy tomorrow, but I’m determined to finish it by the end of the week

#m rambles #inktober #I had hoped I’d have more time to get everything done #but I’ve been hella busy cleaning my place up for guests tomorrow #plus work is actually engaging and not just meetings again lol #only four more prompts though!!!!!! #I think I made it to day 8 or something last year #so I’m very proud of myself either way :)

[beaconfeels]

Chapters: 11/11

Fandom: Teen Wolf (TV)

Rating: Mature

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Relationships: Peter Hale/Stiles Stilinski

Additional Tags: Magical Stiles Stilinski, PTSD, Healing, Friends to Lovers, Falling In Love, Oblivious Stiles Stilinski, Sexual Content, But only a little, Fluff, Good Peter Hale, Vernon Boyd & Erica Reyes Live, Stiles and Derek are besties

Summary:

In which Stiles stumbles into friendship with Peter, and everything changes for the better...eventually.

You guyssss it’s here at last! So excited to finally be posting this baby for the @steter-bang ! Thank you, thank you to the wonderful mods of this event. You made my first venture into a fandom event a true joy ❤️

#steter mini bang 2022 #steter fics #steter #my fic #fanfic #gah! I’m so nervous #i honestly have no idea how this one will be received #but I’m still proud of myself for finishing it and doing something new #so either way I’m winning

[crossbackpoke-check]

i C u moyle

captured in 4k

#i REFUSE to admit defeat at the hands of the umich boys #except i did verbatim send a text to my roommate that said ‘bro stop he’s disgusting i’m so in love with him’ #after fully watching a trail of spit come out of his mouth while he was bent over to take a face off. i am Down Bad #also nolan never keeps his tongue in his mouth my dude is just out there full 👅 all the time i can’t stand him close ur mouth or i’ll kiss u #nolan moyle #ethan edwards #philippe lapointe #relatedly duker skates EXACTLY the way he runs in the monday videos which is how i identify him at all times & i almost started wheezing #if i knew how to make gifs there would be gifs of nolan stickhandling however i don’t Know how to make live videos gifs ☺️ #deep cuts from the draft dumpster dives #is this from two different games? the world may never know (yeah. do i remember exact dates for either of them? no of course not) #we’re just getting close to the end of the season & i am succumbing to my desire to post Him #also inCREDIBLE nemcklance content in the second picture (not of nolan) 🫠 #nemcklance #things i am not proud of: my reaction 2 this. everyone shhh i’m allowed one breakdown about a dirtbag per quarter & i haven’t seen mo enough #like most days i do not want to be a puck bunny but sometimes u lock eyes with a man & go ohhh the hoggles are glued on for you ✊😔 buffooner #trying 2 undo my internalized misogyny! by allowing myself 2 say i can be a valid sports fan who likes players! sorry about it! idk why him! #it is 1000% because of la’s umich fic & all the lore though. most likely. also apparently i’m a crustasche lover 😪 the struggle is real #if u loved me u would have stopped at the tag about nolan drooling on the ice & we will never speak of this again (said by someone who will)

[hoeforcheol]

Long story short, she had a fight with rebound and home girl wasn’t letting her leave so she stayed the night. But she no longer wants anything to do with her and I feel like that came with the undertone of “I don’t wanna see her again because our fights were easier.” That might just be me tho.

#she cried and I felt bad #but she did it to herself #I made it clear i won’t be tolerating that again #but that I love and care still #because I can’t just throw 3 1/2 years down the drain like she tried to #but I kept a firm tone and made it abundantly clear that she’s overstepping too many boundaries #and she’s lucky to be burning bridges with very forgiving people who love unconditionally #and this is getting ridiculous #but I’m sticking to the 3 week rule for myself #if she tries to get back with me #she has to wait and think ALONE if that’s really what she wants after next week passes #I don’t know what my answer will be #but it’s either no. definitely not rn #or yes and she’ll be working at my pace on my time #I have a list of hard boundaries that will not change until I say so #and I have high expectations #and I might still move out when I have the money for it #I’m proud of the way I handled everything #cuz I wanna go to her job and give her a big bear hug #but I know she’s coming to the realization that she really fucked around and found out this time #and it’s a rude awakening but 🤷🏽 #you played yourself babe #today is gonna be interesting if I’m home when she gets home #but on the bright side I actually have an interview at that kpop store now #I’m really excitedddd #anyways #my ringer is on if she needs me #today is about me tho

[inkykeiji]

i wonder how long it’s gonna take for dabi to drag me out of my final fantasy hyperfixation by my hair this time (^q^)

TO BE FAIR i loved noctis several years before i even knew who dabi was sooo,,, i think he’s allowed some of my attention hehehe (*/ω＼*)

#dabi is greedy n he doesn’t like to share #i’m also making a ff side blog #will i use it??????? who knows #but i’m making it either way #alsooooo i have still been churning out bnha content even while neck deep in ff which i’m really proud of myself for! #balance!!!!!!!!! awesome!!!!!! #i’m so torn on if i want to like;;;; potentially post ff writing on a side blog or if i should just keep it all here in one place #assuming i even write for ff in the first place #we’ll see #a decision doesn’t need to be made immediately~ #hope tuesday was good to you everyone!! <3 #the night has been rough to me but the day went well! #clari chatters

[crybaby-bkg]

so glad that Tuesday is my last day of classes for the semester. I just hope my stats final doesn’t absolutely demolish me bc I can’t TAKE IT!!!!!!!!

#I just need 20 out of 100 points to get a B as an overall grade #which I’m sure I can achieve lmfao #still kinda pissy tho bc I’ve had all As for almost three years straight and this class is gonna fuck that up >:-0 #but a B in stats is still a really great feat so I’m proud of myself either way #hopefully next semester will be kind to me #WISH ME LUCK!!! #—in store chit chat! 🍫

[cinewhore]

Got another rejection that wasn’t a rejection really cause i was never notified but still very much so a rejection lol

#i fucked around and found out #but it’s all good #another day another slay #but either way I’m proud for putting myself out there constantly

[ziracona]

I am finding that the more I learn about and understand and even like myself, the less palatable I become.

It’s very hard. To know what to do.

I am making sense to myself for the first time in years. I am proud of who I am finding out I am. I am relieved to be making peace and headway. But even when I find relief in acceptance of something I was ashamed of before, I cannot un-hide it from the world. It was buried for a reason.

I am not afraid of the other parts of me, or ashamed of them. I’m glad they’re with me. I am not ashamed of being them, but I am afraid of what other people will think and do if they know. I cannot make them feel the way I do.

I like the parts of me I am discovering and making peace with, healing.

But they were broken for a reason.

The more of them I fix and find, the less of myself I can share with anyone.

It’s hard.

To be more okay and more awake. To dig up parts you buried. And then brick them up in the walls.

#I think you can’t understand this if it’s not what you are. and it’s not always the same. sexuality and romance were not as hard for me #because they weren’t something at play every second of every day of my life. they’re part of me. big parts. but they aren’t /me/. #I think trans people do get it. certain mental illnesses. personality disorders. things that are never gone. always you always there always #screaming to be known and acknowledged and let out. you can’t imagine how hard that is #how it is not to want to hide something or be ashamed of it. to want it to be known and grown and loved. and have to hide it in the walls of #your head so it doesn’t discomfort the people you love. so they’re not sad. or too worried. or disappointed. or because you’re scared. of #all the new ways people from laws to loved ones could and would hurt you as soon as they caught wind #for every choice to talk even a little to be a balancing act potentially with the rest of your life. #you cannot begin to know the rage and the pain and the hopelessness of that and knowing the situation will /never/ change #it’s not sometimes it’s always. always you want you you like and know to be known and loved and supported and helped to heal and grow. to #get to just /be/ at all. to get to be alive instead of always hiding in the shadows jumping at noise #and having no hope you will ever get there at all. even with just ten people for the rest of your life #to have pieces click into place for the first time in decades and the machine starts and you are proud and relieved and joyful #but you have to hide it for the rest of your life because it would be too painful for people who love you and it’s selfish to cause pain #why? it’s not fair. it shouldn’t cause pain. I’m not ashamed or scared. people who love me shouldn’t be either. why is it wrong to openly #be who I am to people who love me? why is it right to brick myself up again? why doesn’t anyone say ‘no you’re wrong #don’t brick it up.’ why can’t I either? I know the situation. I know you have to put survival first #that does not. make it fair #poetry #痛い痛い痛い痛い痛い #don’t ask me what this is about. if I can’t talk to my own family I sure as hell am not going to talk to a stranger about it

[hobisexually]

x

#I was at a fair all week #I don’t know how to talk about this really #but I met like 80 new people in the span of 72 hours #and I don’t have social anxiety #but I do have anxiety in general #and this entire week. just took so much out of me and I was confronted with myself So Much #I can do more than I think I can! true! but it requires complete compartmentalisation #and I’ve been shutting myself off from everyone since . #well since July basically after I got covid because my life got insanely hectic from that point on #and I’ve grown a lot. I have. I’m proud of the things I’ve done #but idk I find it hard to balance everything #and I find living just hard in general and even when I do these things like this fair #which was 2939:9;993 steps out of my comfort zone and I did WELL so yes I’m proud #but also I’m. frustrated with myself #and how difficult my brain decides to make things #and how disconnected I feel from everyone but how I don’t have the energy to do something about it #you know? #ah either way. #sometimes I wish I picked an easier job because no one seems to get how insane it is sometimes #and how it isn’t just reading #if it was that! it’d be fine #but every aspect that comes with it…… woof #idk the me from six years ago couldn’t have done any of this. she really couldn’t have #I was rereading conversations this morning and the me that I see there. holy hell I just want to wrap her in a hug #so I’m proud of what I’ve done in the mean time. I showed up for myself I really did #but sometimes I’m afraid I changed so much that I’ll lose everyone in the process #idk man post lockdown life is difficult #and my fear of covid is not gone by any means (not even after having had it) but we’re meant to continue on as before #and I can’t rhyme those two things together #ah. this is nonsensical and doesn’t even touch on 1% of what I was trying to say but WHATEVER

[plugnuts]

Huh. I guess what got me actually writing my fic was 1. Be really tired and 2. Be really bored

#bits of banter #wip: zero one #I rewrote the start of zero one #I have. 510 words right now but that’s better than what I had before- and I’m writing it whilst allowing myself more freedom #I’m not sticking to what I had planned and what I wanted to do exactly so it feels better #and it’s come out better imo #I have a long ways to go bc it’s gonna be around 20 chapters but it’s a start! and I’m proud of myself for that #but will I be able to write more today? unlikely. maybe. idk #either way I’m happy with myself! I wanted to rewrite what I had for a while and now that I have I feel like I can move on :)

[doyouknowhoyouare]

didn’t completely bomb my interview success

#i feel generally good about it.. #might’ve been a few meh answers but overall don’t feel too bad about myself so we count this as a win #also i can feel myself getting better (?) at this? #and by that i mean i’m def not as nervous and shaky when i interview #don’t stutter/mess up as much either #like overalls felt pretty calm throughout tried not to panick when they threw weird questions my way #and also there were a few times where i was pretty proud about my answers so 🤓 #anyways we shall hear back soon so we shall see but for now not feeling to shitty so

[everhearts]

so, a guy i used to work with years ago and had a thing for popped up on bumble and i decided that instead of waiting to see if we matched, messaged on facebook instead. i’m an awkward and shy person and that was so out of character for me, but i stepped out of my comfort zone ! he saw the message and didn’t say anything back but like, yay me for trying ?

#{ — ooc. #maybe he still will and is just busy #but either way i’m proud of myself!