#Final vent post

[nevaehdavis5675]

Vent #3 ( final one I promise)

Vent music my actual feeling rn :

#Tw vent #anna blue #youtube music #I'm actually not ok #depressing shit #sorry for being depressing #I'm a disappointment to everyone #nobody loves me #Nobody cares about how I feel #Final vent post #Youtube

[hai-nae]

meant to post these sketches a few days ago? a week? but, well, life.

#red dead redemption 2 #my art #my fics #arthur morgan #rdr #rdr2 #rdr2 fanart #young arthur morgan #and a wee little hs of wolf!arthur #today is the first day of the last 3 ive gotten to eat more than a single meal a day #my bp dropped at work n since it was a vision black out i had to post up in the friggin stall like batman on a ceiling so i didnt fall #which sucks since i have a manual labor job but luckily i didnt reach the shakin stage just kept gettin the dots n focus static #been sleepin n readin to avoid attention on hunger pains since i had no energy for drawin #finally got to have dinner last night since we got some money and i gotta say i dont miss the feelin of chokin on food i wanted so bad #man i love tags most ppl dont read em n i get some catharsis to vent in em

[dreampearls]

three of them

#genshin impact #tighnari #cyno #collei #m #my art #i was going to like.. extremely fully render this but then i got tired . Sorry collei that you got the brunt end of my burnout #anyways :-] glad to finally be posting this. im a tighnari hair vent truther for life now #ignore that i drew him flipped. Okay. his design was always like that . Okay

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

the artblock be hitteth Harder than normal, for tis not normal artblock. woe. Wally be upon ye

#im still So Inconsistent when scribbling him #he never comes out the same way twice #but then again. do any of us? #anyway i think the Misfortune of the past week finally killed my brain #its a tiny smoking poppy seed resting in the middle of my skull floor #too much all at once. cant art anymore #i keep pulling out my tablet and setting up to draw #and then i stare at the screen feeling mild to intense discomfort #i try to scribble. it comes out Horrible. #i put my tablet away and go stand in the middle of the kitchen #i come back to scroll on tumblr #i feel Despair. rinse and repeat #scribble salad #is it distressing? yes! one more to add to the ever-growing pile! #i need to start pre-packing for my inevitable move #sigh... dont wanna go.... #but its not like i have a choice! i quite literally have a single option which is to say! no option at all! #apparently if im in a constant state of severe stress for long enough my creativity completely breaks. shattered right down the middle #too exhausted. the Despair is too strong #and once again i am accidentally venting on a scribble post! sorry! please ignore this im just Saying Shit

[getvalentined]

Friendly reminder that the only reason Genesis is the antagonist of Crisis Core is because Zack is with Shinra. Literally.

Once he's on the run, once Genesis knows that Zack can't help him, he literally brings Hollander to Gongaga for Zack to kill—he tells Zack what Hollander is planning under the guise of it being a joint effort, but once Hollander runs off, Genesis then tells Zack what he intends to do. He talks to him about Loveless and the Lifestream, he shoves a Banora White into his hands when Zack charges at him, and then he leaves. Hollander is left behind—in Zack's hometown, his own turf, so there's nowhere to run and nowhere to hide—allowing Zack to enact poetic justice at last by striking down Angeal's birth father with the very sword that the man who actually raised Angeal died to earn, the sword that honorless Gillian said represented all the honor the Hewleys had left.

And then, finally realizing what's actually going on, Zack sets out to to Banora to save Genesis from dying.

There's no point after Modeoheim that Genesis outright attacks Zack until he's cured at the Light of Doom; there, he calls Zack First Class SOLDIER even though he's not anymore, because Genesis isn't trying to strike down Zack, he's trying to reclaim the right to the only title he's ever had that felt worth anything, and he's trying to take the burden of that title from Zack.

If he wins, Genesis takes the guilt of killing both Angeal and Sephiroth—because he doesn't know Cloud's role, he doesn't know that Zack wasn't the one to strike Sephiroth down, he doesn't even know Cloud's name. Conversely, if he loses, then it's confirmation that Zack is the hero of the story, truly and completely, and that's all right too. If that's how the story ends, that's how it ends. (Minerva intervenes, pulls Genesis from the duel, and he never gets to see the ending. The final act, as in his beloved ancient poem, remains a mystery.)

Genesis is the main antagonist of Crisis Core, but he's never been the bad guy. The entirety of Final Fantasy VII has a single monolith of villainy, and that's always been—and will always be—Shinra. Shinra made the Reactors and dug up Jenova. Shinra made Genesis, Sephiroth, Angeal, and DeepGround. Shinra burned Kalm, Banora, and (partially) Nibelheim. Shinra used any corpse they found or made as research fodder. Shinra killed the last fullblooded Cetra and drove her only daughter to a place where the only way to save the people she loved was through her death. Shinra is the bad guy.

Zack is with Shinra for the majority of the game, and thus the story behaves accordingly. Shinra's enemies are Zack's enemies, because that's the side he's on. Shinra sees Avalanche as enemies, too, but no one ever refers to Barret or Elfe as "irredeemably evil" the way they do Genesis. Barret dresses up his quest for revenge in the guise of saving the planet, but all that matters to him is that anyone even remotely connected to the company suffers the way he's suffered. Elfe allowed Fuhito to experiment on people, to take the corpses of SOLDIER and make undead weapons out of them, violating the sanctity of their final rest and denying them entry to the Lifestream altogether.

"Genesis experimented on his men!" It was a desertion, not an abduction. People who become Copies when they aren't properly enhanced don't get the same enhanced abilities as a First and they degrade very quickly, we see that in Hollander and Lazard—meaning that every single Genesis Copy was one of those SOLDIER Seconds or Thirds that defected with Genesis of their own free will in Wutai after he grew a wing and the world turned upside-down. Genesis' men loved him and they went along willingly.

When Genesis locks himself up in the Light of Doom, his last hope for a cure, he has one last Copy in there with him. When Zack unlocks the gate, he's attacked by one last Copy, even though Genesis has been waiting for him, he's not antagonistic toward him anymore, he hasn't been for a long time.

Genesis took that last Copy, a man with a horrible disease who is definitely too far gone to save, and brought him along to the Light of Doom in the hopes that maybe, maybe things could be set right. When Zack unlocks the gate, that man throws himself at him to protect Genesis, because this is his last chance and Genesis' men love him.

When Zack fights Genesis' Weapon avatar and is attacked by incomplete and twisted ghosts of Genesis Copies, magical inhuman wisps that hold him back while Genesis heals—they're in the Lifestream then, the Light of Doom pulled them both in. Those Copies are literally the ghosts of Genesis' men, unable to diffuse into the Lifestream because of their Jenova infection, fighting to protect him from beyond the grave. Genesis' men love him. They want to save him. They went with him willingly.

"Genesis killed his parents!" The parents who lied to him his entire life in order to keep getting a paycheck from Shinra? The parents that funded his fanclub as a form of marketing for a company that literally wouldn't exist without Genesis' world-changing contribution to food processing as a teenager? Those parents?

Genesis has a little shrine in the Banora Underground where he keeps all his awards and achievements—a little desk with a lantern in an unfinished stone tunnel. They survived the bombing of Banora because they weren't in the house; the chalkboard has sketches of what would clearly become the Banora brand logo, which was presumably made about a decade prior to the Nibelheim Incident, not long after Genesis figured out how to make Banora White juice shelf stable, not long before he left for Midgar to enlist.

Having all the proof of every good thing Genesis has ever done shoved into a tunnel under his hometown, hidden from the public, while his family raked in huge amounts of wealth based on those achievements, indicates quite clearly that Genesis' parents were the exact opposite of good and loving.

But he buried them anyway, didn't he?

Genesis may not be a particularly good person, but he's never been evil, he's never been the bad guy. Genesis was right—more than that, he was justified. His methods were not. He did terrible things. He hurt and killed a lot of people.

But he was only ever the enemy because Shinra said he was. Genesis doesn't need a redemption arc because he already had one, and Minerva herself said he could serve the planet forever to prove it.

#long post #fandom ramble #genesis rhapsodos #crisis core #crisis core reunion #CCFF7R #final fantasy 7 #FF7 #fandom vent #I am so frustrated #characters fandom says are not beyond redemption: #sephiroth and angeal #and barret and elfe #and tseng and reno and rude and elena #and rufus and reeve and gast and lucrecia #characters fandom says are completely beyond redemption: #genesis specifically for some fucking reason

[blitzwhore]

It's always fun experiencing severe mental illness symptoms because of fiction, eh?

#helluva boss #Stolitz #helluva boss spoilers #helluva spoilers #I feel like I've finally managed to stabilise myself #Which is impressive. It's taken less than 24h. Thank you therapy #Last time a fandom left me emotionally in shambles (the last of us 2) it took me days to overcome the anxiety #Anyway the reason I'm talking about this is to hopefully give some visibility to the fact that this kind of thing can happen #When you struggle with mental illness #I'm not posting to vent or because I need help or anything! I'm fine! #But I do want others to know that it's okay if you're not fine because of something fictional you really care about and you're not alone #This is your reminder to think back to techniques that have helped you handle anxiety before if you're feeling shaken or on edge now #You got this!!!

[basementstalker]

Art is from the mobile game Saiko no sutoka. The edit is by @saintvampy

#saiko no sutoka #lovesick #yandere vent #yandere thoughts #actually yandere #basementstalker posts #possessive love #obsessive love #stalker #yancore #yandere core #finally figured out who made the post yay #reblogging this so people can see the proper credit

[ace-geographer]

Well Questies a lot has happened this week, and I finally have free time, so please enjoy these long overdue Willow text post memes

Part 18/?

Credit to cap-that.com for the images (it's only just occurring to me that I haven't included a credit tag whoops)

#i love that a month ago i was like “yeah it'll just be another week before i post again” #and then just straight up didn't post anything #but im sorry for the long wait #finals was just paper after paper after exam after exam because i was taking six fucking classes #but its over now! no more all-nighters! #anyways #im not taking the news about willow too well #the emotional rollercoaster this has been is insane #i think ive vented and ranted and moped enough through tags and reblogs for now #willow 2022 #willow series #willow disney+ #willow #tanthamore #roguereaver #graylora #kit tanthalos #jade claymore #graydon hastur #thraxus boorman #venoma scorpia #elora danan #kenneth the mudmander #ruby cruz #erin kellyman #tony revolori #amar chadha patel #adwoa aboah #ellie bamber #save willow

[demodraws0606]

I don't talk about serious stuff like this usually but I do wanna say something since I primarly watch cc!BBH's POV on the QSMP.

His entire response to the grooming allegations while disappointing and definitely stressful, is not something that will stop me from engaging in his content (of course unless the situation escalates to a certain level).

As much as I wish Dream would just shut his trap and people would just turn his back on him already, it's not fair or realistic to expect people who have been friends with him for years to just stop believing him.

It's just an unfortunate shitty situation but I'd rather target my frustration towards the groomer rather than the potential friends he lied to.

It also is made infinitly worse by the fact that people like BBH and others (Sapnap, Skeppy, etc...) have been hit with actual fake allegations which ends up muddying the waters even more.

#discourse #dream situation #badboyhalo #bbh #i hope this doesn't come off as too inapropriate #i just kinda wanted to vent about this because it's just an overall unpleasant situation #but it also kinda serves as like a post to warn people about my stance on this in case the situation blows up #i wish the best for the victims and for the situation to finally reach a conclusion #also i hope my post doesn't end up being insensitive in some way #i tried to make my thoughts as clear as possible #but yeah this just massively sucks

[zzoupz]

a.

#vent art #usually dont post vent art but. sorry theres just a lot of stuff going on and I have zero ways to escape from any of it #(not going to talk about it though) #at least I'm finally crying after weeks. at midnight. with rain. how god damn poetic #anyways.

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

me desperately trying to outrun my writer’s block for the fiftieth time this week

#i know i vent about my writing struggles a lot on here #but god i really am struggling with this chapter of four walls so much #i feel disconnected and overly critical and lacking motivation and UGH #why can’t life be simple and just let me enjoy the things i enjoy #maybe i’m struggling so much because actually this is the longest story i’ve written in literal years and it’s kind of a daunting #i don’t want to mess it up #and i’m kind of scared i’m losing the thread #i know i just need to trust the process but sometimes it’s really hard #okay rant over #i’m going to gather snacks and return to my laptop and see if i can finally get in the zone #lulu posts

[smolstarthief]

I swear seeing takes that are like, "Maruki only helped Sumi because she looked like Rumi/Rumi 2.0" or, "He kept invalidating her progress because he's a horrible abuser" just leave me with an aneurysm or something... Like have you all looked up the term, "Psychological Projection" and what it entails? Because I feel some of you all need to and come back later 'cause... Fucking hell...

Also I kinda wanna HC him having BPD now:

Articles: https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/projection-in-psychology#mental-health

https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/9670

#persona 5 #p5 #persona 5 royal #p5r #p5r spoilers #starchild rambles #tw rant #vent post #tw vent #tw sui ideation #(mentioned) #like good lord! #he's hardly showcased any signs of viewing her as his ex-fiance! he saw HIMSELF in her! #it helps explain his desperation to help her and then trying to say she could potentially relapse despite her strong progress #he was projecting HARD so if he's already viewing himself as not getting better then chances are she'll end up the same #it also explains why he finally started reconsidering when she tells him how she really felt #and why she's done running away from her problems like what he's doing #that illusion finally broke she's not him and it's not fair of him to act like how he did towards her #he genuinely cares but at the same time said care got warped immensely

[r0za1k4]

tw sh

omg these blades are soo good, i hit styros so easily!!!!

#tw self destruction #tw sh in tags #tw sh implied #tw self destructive behavior #tw self destructive thoughts #tw sh destructive behaviour #tw sh related #tw sh ideation #tw self h4rm #self h@rm #tw s3lf harm #$h tumblr #tw depressing stuff #kinda depressing #depressing shit #tw depressing thoughts #tw vent #vent post #depressiv #shitpost #cvtaddict #i want to cvt #sh cvt #cvtt!ng #i wanna cvt #hitting styro #tw styro #so happy i finally hit styro #styroblr #depressing life

[raspberryvents]

I am Schrödinger’s cat. And until he opens the box and I see his face or the broken vial, I do not know if I am alive or dead. As scary as death may be, the dark box is scarier. Friend, or foe, please open the box.

#i texted my middle school best friend for hours today #two hours ago i decided to finally tell her i’m nonbinary #she hasn’t responded #i don’t know if she’s ghosting me #but if she hates me i wish she’d at least have the decency to tell me #nonbinary #trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #lgbtqia #lgbtqiia+ #coming out #vent post #shitty poetry?

[welcometogrouchland]

[ID: a sketch page of various drawings of Willow Park from the owl house. From left to right the drawings are: timeskip willow playing flyer derby, Willow in her season 1 casual outfit next to her in her season 3 Halloween costume, Willow as Anne in an amphibia au, young willow doing pottery with her dad Gilbert, young willow and amity holding hands/hugging and smiling, and willow looking at clover, who's perched on her finger and wearing a dress and wig made of yarn so as to resemble Willow. Willow is trying to hold back laughter while clover looks unamused. In the center is a drawing of Willow drawing a large spell circle with her staff, and the title of the sketch page reads "willow week 2023", with each drawing labeled as a specific day/prompt, such as day 3: flyer derby/fav on-screen outfit, day 1: crossover, day 2: childhood/father-daughter, or day 1: palismen bonding. Drawings 2, 6, and 7 are coloured while the rest are uncoloured. The background is a scribbly green. End ID]

hi I’m only a month or so late to it BUT! Nearly out of the mines (finals) and that means i can post the sketch page i worked on for Willow Week! Hosted by @agrebel18

#the owl house #toh #willow park #willow week 2023 #gilbert park #amity blight #eh yeah. They’re there too #anyway i had. So many issues regarding the quality of this drawing man #I MADE THE CANVAS TOO GOTDANG BIG!!! #im gonna draft this first and then do a quality review #anyway i wanted to do willow week back when it was actually running but like i said. Ihave been in the mines #almost out though! Just gotta get through Wednesday #still kinda going insane in my enclosure though. Idk if its a period mood swing or if imjust drinking internet pond water #and thats why I’m starting to think evil thoughts #ive just been watching jerma play simpsons hit and run #fr though I’m being digitally waterboarded i need to go to a social excursion so bad #god. I missed posting art just to vent in the tags. Exhilarating. This is my therapy #anyway hope you enjoy this aggie and all other willow enjoyers #also i missed posting abt the 2 month anniversary of the finale #im not coping <3