#I SWEAR I AM AN ADULT BUT

[kazzeshini]

Me, an adult with an adult life: *looks at this smile* *immediately creates a Ain in ElsRift* SIGH

#I SWEAR I AM AN ADULT BUT #LOOK AT THIS SMILE #LOOK AT IT #Elsword

[qqueenofhades]

I miss the boops already.

#i am an adult i swear

[kaitykatt]

I cosplayed a fem version of Astarion from Baldur’s Gate 3 👀

#astarion #bg3 #cosplay #bg3 astarion #astarion cosplay #cosplayer #baldurs gate 3 #baldurs gate #baldur’s gate 3 cosplay #careful i bite #astarion approves #astarion disapproves #I’ve never posted a cosplay on tumblr before and I’m really nervous so please be nice 😭 #I am an adult I swear

[itsame-ariana]

Im actually dead rn my mom accidentally-on-purpose called me out about hermitcraft 💀😭✋🏼

She was explaining a 5 minutes on 5 minutes off strategy for homework and chores and how it can help you get more work done

“Lets say you have an impulse to draw *explains some interesting brain stuff for a while* or umm… so you’re doing homework but you really want to watch Grian”

HELLO?! IT HAS GOTTEN TO THE POINT WHERE I TALK ABOUT THIS ENOUGH FOR MY MOM TO APPARENTLY KNOW THE NAMES OF LIKE 8 OF THE SILLIES

#I am a near adult #I swear #grian #hermitcraft #mcyt life series #empires smp

[kheyys-worms]

2023 is almost over and, oh my goodness--

Well, how about that new book huh?

#the return of a tumblr sexyman #WE ARE SO BACK BABEY!!! #I'm gonna have to unearth my old theory notes from way back in middle school-- #if only my 13 year old self could see this. that kid would not shut up for days #wait. i am that kid. I“M not gonna shut up for days about it DGDHJDKDKSKS #anyway. WHAT DID THEY MEAN THAT THIS BOOK IS FOR ADULTS??? #IS IT MORE GOREY?? MORE HORRIFIC??? IS BILL GONNA SWEAR??? #I NEED THIS CURSED OBJECT IN MY HANDS #July can't come soon enough hhhhhhh #bill cipher #gravity falls

[bowtiepastabitch]

On Religious Trauma

I grew up in a high control religion, and on a fundamental level, I can see myself in both Crowley and Aziraphale, ESPECIALLY at the end of season two. Let me explain. (TW for religious abuse)

Within the church I grew up in, there was a very strong expectation that you build your identity exclusively within your religion; that you see Christ as the only source of good in yourself. It's one of the things that made coming to terms with my queerness and transness so intensely complicated. I had built my entire self image on being a good perfect Christian. Even after being forced from the closet at 16, I clung desperately to that identity because it was all I'd had my entire childhood. Even in the face of direct abuse pulled straight from that belief, I still couldn't let go of the only 'good' I'd ever seen in myself. I thought I could change my dad's mind if I could just prove that I was a good Christian and prove that the Bible didn't justify his hate. He didn't listen.

It took another year and a half for me to separate myself completely from Christianity. I'd been questioning my faith since 14 and it was an enormous source of guilt and shame, so letting go of that was a long healing process. The people I grew up with now go to religious unis and volunteer at the summer camps we went to as kids. It's surreal every time it comes up on my insta, and I feel like I'm the one who escaped, who saw through the sham to what was really going on. More than that, I know in my heart that my family (father aside) are also victims in their own right. I grew up watching my mother struggle, and I watch my younger sisters grow up wrestling with these same ideas. Perhaps even more strongly, having watched my fall from grace. But I can't DO anything, because I can see the fear in my mom's eyes when I reminder her why I'm not comfortable going to church with her; she was raised, just as I was, in desperate fear of seeing the damnation of those you love. She's terrified of being responsible for my eternal torture in hell. So we don't talk about it at all, because it hurts both of us.

I remember the overwhelming pressure to evangelize and convert, even as a literal child, because it was our responsibility to save them from hell. Aziraphale isn't CHOOSING angel Crowley over the one in front of him. He still hopes he can save the one person he loves more than anything in the universe. I've been there. It fucking hurts. But now I'm here, and that hurts too. Because I can see the people I love looking at me the same way and I have to say no.

Aziraphale never had a choice. Even in the face of cruelty, he sees heaven as the good in himself. It's the only identity he has. And he's scared out of his mind.

#good omens #good omens 2 #good omens season 2 #aziraphale #crowley #ineffable husbands #good omens angst #neil gaiman #good omens 2 ending #no nightingales #ineffable divorce #religious trauma #religious abuse #growing up christian is a special kind of hell #not everyone but for a lot of people #no love like christian hate #I promise I am doing better now being an adult is awesome #it gets better i swear

[cinnamon-phrog]

I feel too sick to sleep right now, everything's' too cold or too hot and I can't even breathe without thinking I'm gonna throw up

#it's because i've been drinking diluted juice #i swear the shit they put in that makes me delirious with fever #ughhhh so sick wish a nice big strong mechanoid could help me rn :( real shame #gonna drink water till the middle of the night. there goes my plans for a better nights' sleep :< #i do genuinely feel awful and i have been feeling so for a while and it's all my own doing. not eating healthy. stressing out and barely- #-sleeping. i have stretch marks from losing weight and circles under my eyes. everything's fuzzy. i keep forgetting basic things. #i'm worried about my future. i'm too disabled to function with a job but not disabled 'enough' just because i can speak 'clearly' #i've got no irl friends or family to fall back on. i can only travel so far and i get meltdowns far easier now #months ago i was treated like a pet. now i'm an adult before i ever got to be a child. #i want to be held. be loved without even having to say a word to each other. not even by an f//o but by someone who'll be willing to love m #but all i am now is sick and hungry and hot and cold and tired and awake. #i can't imagine how much worse it is for other people though. i've seen awful images and they're not even a taste of how terrible it is #i worry i won't be able to afford food in the future. or have a stable flat or apartment. that social services will let me down again #this year was meant to be a break but i'm constantly worrying about the time i become 18. my autism and lack of any social life- #will impact me and i'll be fucked over easier than ever. and that happens often #college brought me panic attacks where i'd physically harm myself till i got migraines in front of people and they didn't bat an eye #i could be kicking and screaming and begging for help but they'll just ignore me or infantilise me

[icomefromthemountains]

Midnight Burger is the first “comedy” audio drama I’ve come across thats actually funny like I’m in hysterics this is so fucking awesome

#it helps that the voice acting and writing is actually good lmao #it’s also great that the characters are allowed to swear #when adult characters say ‘heck’ or ‘freaking’ at any point I am completely taken out of the experience #also well written female characters my beloved… #midnight burger #podcasts #listen I love wolf359 but comedy was not it’s strong suit unfortunately #and most other ‘comedies’ I give up halfway through cause it ends up being boring and the comedy is cringe #echo watches stuff

[disappearancecore]

Finals week is coming. Finals week is scary. Homework does not enter the blanket fort.

#I swear I am a real adult #but one big thing I've learned in college is thst curating my environment really helps me #I generally don't study in my room much because I want it to be my relaxing space and there's plenty of communal space all hours #but finals are coming and it's kind of unavoidable #and also my room looks like a depression pit rn #hence the blanket fort. for my mental health. #cozycore #cozy #disappearancecore #academia aesthetic #dark academia #dorm life #minecraft #cozy gaming

[romantichore]

my partner convinced me to give Palworld a try and I can't believe I'm saying this but it's such a good game? like, I'm shocked.

I was not a Pokémon kid and never even tried playing the games, so when I read that it was like a copycat I thought I'd hate it.

here we are 35 levels and lots of hours later and I have explored like maybe 25% of the map, I'm still having a blast, and I legit can't believe it's still in early access. it has features, already well implemented, that some AAA games had to have modders create.

oh yeah, and you can customize your experience at any time by just changing the settings to your world. want to make things more difficult? sure. want to have everything spawn on you at once? go ahead. play it as a farming simulator or min max the shit out of it, you can do either or both. like👌 ggs devs

plus, you know. I can give my sheep a machine gun and use my fox as a flamethrower. 10/10 for that alone

#virgil chats #virgil plays palworld #palworld #my partner i must say is not dealing well #because i am not mature enough not to make dick jokes #if you missed the last pt-br lesson #'pal' sounds like pau which means ding dong #i swear i'm an adult

[ineffably-splendid]

When you’re like “I’mma go to bed early today. I have to wake up extra early tomorrow, put on fancy shit and do some adulting. So it’s really important I am reasonably well rested”.

… then you accidentally click on that 20 minute Jack Harkness tribute video again.

#well at least coffee is still a thing #there’s also that fanfiction I still really wanna read TODAY #I am an adult I swear #why am I like this #Jack Harkness #torchwood #doctor who #Dw #berethil

[my-insanity-is-an-artform]

Personally my favourite is Fuckwit.

#favourite english swear word #Tumblr has given us access to public opinion and I use it for this #I am a mature responsible adult

[motherhenna]

wanted to share an almost full-body pic for the first time in probably almost a decade because for once I'm actually proud of how I'm progressing and think that the changes I'm making will end up being permanent bc I'm genuinely enjoying them. Plus, the few selfies I have shared over the last five years have been very photoshopped and at flattering angles, so I feel like most of y'all don't know what I actually look like. So this is me in my children's theater teacher fit last monday!

I'm 17 lbs down from my highest ever weight, but my trainer thinks I'm probably up at least ten to fifteen lbs in muscle. I'm cooking my own food, eating more reasonable portions, and going to the gym at least five times a week because I want to, not because I feel shame or guilt. And now that I'm working as hard as I am, I'm a lot less triggered by looking at new pictures of myself because I know I'm doing my best. I'm still obese, and probably will be for awhile more, but I'm starting to appreciate what I look like and feel like. And hopefully it'll just get better from here!

#weight loss cw #sorry if this sounds super corny lmao #I probably sound so neurotypical rn but I swear I'm being totally honest #I'm obviously not turning this into a weight loss blog or anything but expect a lot more documentation of my journey going forward! #and if you don't like seeing this stuff I recommend blocking my 'personal' tag because I'm going to be talking about this a lot #I've struggled with my weight since premature puberty hit me like a truck in 4th grade so this is a big deal for me #I just wish my pediatrician hadn't treated me like shit for it because maybe if she'd approached me with compassion #I wouldn't have spun off the rails as much as I did #but either way I'm a grown ass adult and I did this to myself #so I'm the only one who can get me out of it #if you're also fat or fatter than I am please dont take it personally #but for me fatness is a physical manifestation of my long term neglect for my health and struggle w mental illness #and I want to get better #personal

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

I really want Christmas season to feel like Christmas season again this year. it hasn't for a couple years, I've kinda breezed right through it, but I want to try and focus on it this year.

#and if that person who's like 'holidays don't feel special when you're an adult #because you're supposed to have kids to watch experience the wonder of it all but instead you just have a dog and a sad void'' #shows up on this post I swear to God I'm blocking them #that post made me so angry? like what the heck man I #I am single and happy. I don't have a dog and a sad void I have a dog and am full of joy #and I can be intentional about enjoying a season whether or not I have kids (which I never want to btw)??? #I know that post is kinda old and some of you probably know the person who made that comment #nothing against them tbh it was just phrased really confrontationally and kinda frustrated me #there's not only one right way to live a life.... if I don't ever have kids I can still enjoy holidays as an adult??? hello?? #ok sorry hater moment over I'm gonna be joyful now #Lu rambles

[shotinsarajevo]

sorry for all the doctor who posts lately this 60th anniversary got me like I'm 16 again and obsessed with David Tennant

#good omens is also not helping #i am an adult i swear #its just that david tennant is actually a very attractive weirdo

[basofy]

rambling time

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ive encountered many points of view that imply that the player's feelings over the garth jack scene do not matter, but i can't distract my brain from the possibility that yes, it does

one of these that haunt me severely and i made a doodle reminiscent of this is, the fact that brad does not get to know of this happening. he only checks the mags after but we don't know his impression of them, he might've not thought much about them. this is between garth, jack, and the only other person watching (the player)

the fact that there isn't any mention of the events of this scene after this. this is what initially infuriated me, i didnt know if the intention was to make it matter to us or not, it felt like not. there's no more mention of it, no changes to the characters save for, maybe, your perception of them after this. but that's the thing, and maybe, leaving some stuff up to you is the way to make it connect with you, (this takes me back to there being so much about lisa that was either unexplained or not too developed, and how this served as a way for fans to connect with her more). rather than it being the game distancing from you it's putting this scene in your hands as in 'here, i trust you with this'. it's not going to tell you to care, it's trusting that you will

i keep thinking about how one of the motivating factors for the definitive edition were lisa and buddy, for austin realized the fandom was unsatisfied with how their characters were handled, and he himself admitted to not be proud either. so he knew how much these 2 girls and their circumstances mattered to lisa fans, and a big part of the new content went into humanizing them (better done wit lisa than buddy imo but anyway) part of it also went into expanding brad's character more as well. so i'm thinking, if with this scene austin decided to create another victim, it feels like he's handling us this scene and trusting us with it

that and his words about finding something worthwhile in all the tragedy. finding something worth pointing out, worth caring about in a very uncomfortable 3 minutes scene that's got no more mention of it after it happens.

if this doesnt end up being the case, and he wrote it very carelessly, well it ends up being hilarious that the scene turned out deep on accident. but i've talked about it with friends multiple times, and some of them have commented on the way it's written, it being 'carefully crafted' and after finding the other stuff in the games (stuff that's always been there) that ties perfectly to this interaction i can't get the thought out of my mind that this thang can't be just a joke, that the player is supposed to care at least a little

#i didnt intend for this to be long #its 2 am augggggagaaaa dont pay me too much attnetion #if u need my posts abt this ting tagged pls tell me i just love talking #lisa ramblings #this was going to be a draft but uhhh no post it miguel whatever #going back to point of the post buuuut well i mean its lisa #it's the game about how memories and abuse haunt you your whole life and etc etc #so why not #years ago i noticed jack's most hated thing when i'd see ppl on the wiki putting him in the same place as the grown ass adults #that were going after buddy and i thought #this is a kid whos possibly been wrongly influenced and wants closure of sorts #and then this scene happened and AUUUUUUGGH #i swear i noticed that little detail at like the third day of this thing existing