#I am a converse gay myself

[b4kuch1n]

more sk8. I think the cindereki stuff is extremely stupid but I am not immune to trying to conceptualize a princess gown in any setting

#sk8 the infinity #kyan reki #hasegawa langa #renga #if ur wondering yes the first gown I uh. pulled? from the brothers grimm version's idea #which I do prefer to the perrault/disney version. specifically bc there's no fairy #there are three balls happening on three consecutive nights and each night cinderella gets a gown and accessories from a tree #growing on her mom's grave #(the version I grew up with (translated to vietnamese) actually wrote it to be her dad's grave instead I literally dont know why) #and the wording is like. ''rain gold and silver on me'' or something like that? which is why all of the dangly bits in that design #(dont worry about the rest of the brothers grimms version. thats not important. dont think about it its not in the room with us) #also in this post: future!renga bc of fucking course. who do you think I am. who do you think I am #I see a character I love I immediately try to imagine a good future for them it is Simply my ways #ft. the lethal combo of being three kinds of queer + adhd + a teen #may just be bc I myself don't go to college lol. but I can't really imagine reki going to college. he'd get apprenticeship somewhere #like immediately. on sight. some uncle in nago would snatch him up a sentence in #I waffle on langa but him just getting out of the biggest shock of his life + severe depression would Not let go of his loved ones #so tbh I can't imagine him leaving okinawa either. at least right after high school #langa has the advantage of not giving a single shit about ''his potentials'' so he'll be chasing life's pleasures for a hot second thank you #also I believe in reki speaking at least passable conversational english thank you. he's trans and gay in asia #he's just also the kind of guy who has to think for a hot second to remember which way the written number 3 faces #''nailed the logic just plugged the wrong number in several times'' kind of guy #while langa's the ''doesn't understand the fundamental concept of puzzles'' kind of guy #man. this is like having two homunculi implanted in my brain. welcome boys come join leon pokemon #talk to each others while I do my job ok? thank you #that said. the comm queue should be finished up soon #(funny thing to say about three comms I know. but I will say it anyway) #and I'll take a few days break to unclench my brain and then get back into it #every day I learn new things about the dip pen. its great #okay. nap now tho. anything else can wait

[castdowns]

the only half way safe space to be a lesbian is online and literally y’all fucking suck too, i am so depressed

#castdowns.txt #i hate conversion therapy i don’t want to be straight i don’t want to like men i don’t like them i don’t care for them #i am so tired of feeling like the most hideous creature because everything changes when people find out that i’m gay #like i’m either a little boy or a problem and i am so fucking sad #like sorry you can’t fix me but literally i will not be able to function if i concede more ground to men and patriarchy like i am so tired #i wanna lock myself in my room a lot of the time like i don’t feel good ever #and yes my period is coming but god dammit thats not the only thing wrong #its never the only thing wrong unfortunately i just have very strong emotions that i try to suppress all of the time #yes my fawn response is bad i know this i dont know what to do about the fact that there is nothing people organically like about me #everyone has to train themselves to tolerate me and i am not above working to be loved but it doesnt feel like work towards the love i want #it feels like tying a noose tighter and tighter #it feels like smiling while my blood is pooling down the fucking drain again and again #and i love people around me i do it just always feels like i am alone #i sleep under the flag and i sleep in my bed alone every night surrounded by the stuffed animals i buy to feel something #*jo march voice* i’m just so damn lonely

[robojesus-markus]

What an extravagant day today!

#Its hard not to have a conversation with yourself #If I posted every conversation I had with myself I would probably be locked inside of an asylum #am i gay buzz feed quiz. #search. #google.

[yousaytomato]

"noooo Lucy! Don't listen to Arthur! You're not fat you're beautiful!"

shut up shut up shut up

She can be both

Fat is not a bad word. Fat is just a description of the type of body you can have.

If you immediately assume fat is an insult, a descriptor meaning "ugly" please do some re-evaluating

#i understand that reimagining this in a modern context is fun! i enjoy everytime they say something is queer or gay or whatever #but. even in a moderb context. that sentence is not an insult in this context #i cannot believe we are still doing this in 2022?? #like. she probably isnt actually fat. she probably has gained weight. because she was ill. #but my point is. even without that context. fat does not mean bad #there doesn't have to be justifications about 'oh well when stoker wrote it...' #like you're absolutely right! but. regardless! it isn't a bad word! #i am fat and hot and smart #and it makes me mad that so many of you #seem to think i should hate myself. that when i describe my body as fat #that you think that's an insult #it's neutral!! it's just a way of being. goddamn #remind me to never leave my bubble re: body neutrality. again lol #this was really not where i thought I'd be having this conversation lol #woes of emily #Dracula daily #Dracula daily August 30

[chronically-ill-psionipath]

What do you think of Gay people?

:0

THE QUEERS?? I'm dating Alvar- >:D Of course I support LGBTQ+!

#👤: I support LGBTQ+ but I am not a part of it. #I use to be. #Conversion thing happened and yeah. I prefer not to label myself but I support and I love all my friends and mutuals who are a part of the #lgbtq :) #I support you all #its hard to explain it. I feel no love other than platonic to anyone when before I was able to feel at least some crushes. But... HEY! #It doesnt matter anymore! Love you all/plat #Also trans people are safe here too btw #I literally draw gay relationships and trans!alvar guys- #PLSPLSPLS

[j-esbian]

i am once again begging people to learn how to recommend things. i’ve been seeing a couple posts lately about a league of their own that have honestly done a really poor job of selling it, not least because none of them actually say what it’s about

one essentially said “you guys need to watch it because it’s got queer woc, and if you don’t watch it, we’ll never get a season 2” which is coming at it backwards. why do i care about getting another season of a show i haven’t watched yet?

another said “if you liked our flag means death you should watch this, because they’re both gay and about real-life historical figures” which, while technically true, is missing the point of both shows. ofmd is a comedy about pirates in the early 16th century. a league of our own, from what i can tell (i had to google it, because none of those posts mention any of this) seems to be a drama about baseball in the early 20th century. what about those is similar

do we really need to keep having this discussion about not tokenizing stories?? because it does it a disservice to boil it down to “it’s good and you should watch it because it’s Diverse”

it’s like if i said, “hmm, i want to go clothes shopping, my closet feels stale,” and you told me, “i have just the thing,” and tried to give me a blank cardboard box with something inside. “what is it?” i ask, and you tell me, “it’s purple.”

but is it a top? pants? i don’t really wear skirts so i wouldn’t be interested. is it a turtleneck? i like those sometimes, but it’s really hard to pull them off. what material is it? i have sensory issues and i don’t like polyester. what if we’re not the same size and it doesn’t fit?

“it’s purple” you tell me. “you like purple. you’ll like it, trust me.”

#also the fact that everyone says to watch it but no one has said where #which i realize is probably because they have 🏴‍☠️ and expect other people will also #but it’s a bad habit to get into. if you’re recommending something you need to let people know how to get it #spoiler culture definitely contributes to this too. people don’t want to tell you anything that happens in case it Ruins the Surprise #i’m going to be generous and say that maybe these posts were written for a small circle of people and i am not in that conversation #but it’s something i see all the fucking time from like. everyone i know #i don’t taken reccs from my sibling or their gf anymore lol #like. boiling something down to ‘it’s gay so it’s your duty to watch it’ makes it feel like a chore #the last time i listened to that argument was years ago bc everyone was talking about steven universe #which like. was mediocre imo. i don’t think i’d ever have watched it otherwise but i didn’t hate it #i never really felt a spark of ‘oh i like this’ but i kept making myself keep up with it because I Had To #like don’t get me wrong. i will probably watch this show bc i love the 40s aesthetic #but y’all are doing it and yourselves no favors by talking about things in this way #i very much DO like purple but i’m gonna need a little more information first #mine

[anotionoftruth]

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#fandom wank #but it really is not about intent. it's about the intent behind the intent!! #in terms of writing [redacted] with intent from day one like YEAH OFC THEY DID #but WHY #FOR WHAT #it depends on if they were doing it aa an earnest attempt at tellinf a story. or for the jokes. or for enticing rhe crazy baby gays #or sometimes. surprisingly!!! all of the above!!! #ultimately talking about this with [the show] is stupid bc it was too many cooks and also the show was not aboit it for very long #but like yeah. #anyway. being in fandom is so cool people will vague you when you mind your own business and you will lose your shit bc your brain is wrong #also you keep having the same five conversations over and over. which. like. okay not thr worst but im on edge today so whatever #don't @ me this is basically a vent post #i am sad and crying and dehydrated and something on the dash pissed me off so im ranting to myself like a lunatic

[ctl-yuejie]

a bit of a reality check here (and yes, i am going to ask this question in a very biased way anyways), but:

AITA for not wanting another date when the woman you’re meeting doesn’t ask any questions about yourself for like the 5 hours you spend together and approx. talks 1/3 about her ex-girlfriend?

When I told her that I wasn’t really thinking about a second date because of it, she said she was too nervous at first (which is true, she almost 180°ed when I met up with her and was too shy to look into my direction for several minutes) and that she prefers to text people for a long time before meeting, which is where she asks about things she’s interested in (we texted for 1.5 months before meeting which isn’t really my style and I was accordingly bad at texting: she texted me good morning and good night everyday and i was happy when i managed to text her and/or reply to her once a day. I like to think that I tried)

but I still feel it is weird to just talk about yourself and your ex (at hour 4 I gave up on talking about myself without any prompt because whatever I said would be the first and last thing we’d exchange on that topic).

in good (?) news: I know get how Uncle Jim in MLC felt, because she still lives with her ex of 5 years and it did come up very often in conversation. While Wen didn’t tell him, Uncle Jim was 100% right that it makes things really tiring because the other person clearly isn’t in the mindset to start sth new.

If anyone is the type to text a lot before meeting someone: anything where this disconnect can be mitigated?

because I always thought it was standard (and at least my preference) to meet up very early to suss out the vibes. But maybe it’d be better in these cases to not start anything when you’re not texting back as frequently in the first place?

#ctlyuejie writes #don't want to bad mouth my own pride month here but I am not doing the gay agendas work here #also: what is it about hitting 30 and being exhausted after a date #don't know how to describe it but I like to think I am not that full of myself that people need to ask me very personal things but not even #something like general topics both people can give input to were intitiated by her (idk like what made you interested in studying this l #anguage? or: what kinds of holdays do you enjoy #this is obv a one-sided account but if someone tells you that they are going on holiday wouldn't you carry on the conversation by at least #asking where the other person is going or would you directly dive into talking about your last holiday #i know i am getting cranky here

[napping-sapphic]

Sending all my love to the girl who loitered in front of me for a solid three minutes this morning opening and closing her bag and walking between the two benches that were straight across from me all while glancing back and forth at me. Your extremely blatant queues did eventually manage to get noticed by my oblivious ass but i am So Shy™️ you were super cute and i loved your hair, your overalls, and your pride pins and i’ll regret not talking to you for forever now

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #i am SO mad at myself #like normally i never assume people want me to talk to them or anything #but she was practically pacing right in front of me #even though we were in an empty courtyard full of benches #and we kept making eye contact and we both had pride stuff #and i was wearing a choker again which makes me look Extra Gay #so i really think she was trying to prompt a conversation out of me but i chickened out😣 #devastated #never rely on me to make the first move🤦‍♀️ #she was soo pretty and i wanted to talk to her so bad😭😭😭 #im gay and i like sleeping

[mellifloraa]

healthcare get

#my care coordinator is the fucking sweetest and she apparently grew up on the street next to mine??? #we had a v long conversation about health goals and diagnoses she legit wants me to go to gay bars to get involved in the lgbt community #which i was gonna do anyway but it's nice that it's official advice now ig #so long story short she's great and i am glad i made a phone call like that by myself >:3c #time for pepsa to celebrate

[bambirex]

Finally gathered the courage to see a therapist seeking an actual diagnosis, got told to just stop being gay.

#this is your reminder that if a mental health professional refuses to talk about the actual problem and instead keeps circling back to #something you DON'T have a problem with #and they bring their own political beliefs into the conversation #you need to get the fuck out of there #therapists shouldn't have biases and prejudices!!!!!! #therapists in the 21th century shouldn't tell you that you can 'heal' from being gay #like what the fuck!!!! #obviously i'm not going back #like karen just retire if you can't notice the actual and obvious problem and instead keep whining about how i 'chose' this lifestyle #and thus sentenced myself to a painful life #shut the fuck up and do your job properly #how am i supposed to get treated if ms Freud 2022 is my only option #i thought we were over psychiatrists recommending conversion therapy but apparently i was wrong #i didn't even go there with a sexuality crisis! #i went over there to finally get diagnosed with adhd or something!! #'you're distracted and hyperactive because you're anxious due to your sexuality' ok. you can go choke #super traumatic first experience #tw homophobia #bambi says some bullshit

[powerbottomeminem]

I’m excited! Writing's going so well, I’m like two months ahead of schedule 🥳

As a treat, I’ma share a little sneak peak from one of their text messages. As usual, Marshall and Nicolas text a lot behind the scenes, and there’s gonna be a text messages chapter again.

If anyone hates spoilers: Scroll away now!

Revision #93 Text Messages (skit)

Marshall: Alex is your other roommate, right?

Nicolas: yeah, she works at the club too, as a singer

Marshall: oh, I think I saw her perform once!

Nicolas: she goes down well with the patrons for some reason

Marshall: yeah, I can imagine. she got an amazing rack

Nicolas: if you’re into big tits then sure I guess? her ass is nice tho, for a girl's ass at least

Marshall: wow, you really are incredibly gay. how did you manage a girlfriend at all?

Nicolas: she was very flat chested for starters

Marshall: must be or otherwise you wouldn’t even have looked at her, eh

Nicolas: actually, she was flatter than you

Marshall: are you calling my tits fat?

#writerblr #am writing #tales from the draft #spoilers #love is evil fanfiction #eminem #nicolas brown #yes I find myself incredibly funny sometimes #this one conversation is even funnier #🐱 🧲 #the word pussy magnet gets thrown around #even though both dudes are incredibly gay

[palms-upturned]

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#meg talks #god i am so fucking tired lately sksbdjjccj #came home from work today and made myself a quick dinner and after eating i immediately passed out for like an hour 💀 #there’s so much i gotta do in terms of cooking/chores but my body is just so worn out #which is why im late answering messages and stuff lately btw sjsbdjdb im not trying to ignore ppl #just. spoons in the negative. i can drop by and post my gay little thoughts every now and then but conversations i have to take slow #but yeah i am in dire need of a vacation skshdjdj ill have to put in a time off request soon… #just gotta decide how much time i wanna take off and when… #im just like god i hope i don’t have another medical emergency of some kind and regret not saving my pto 💀 #but i need REAL time off u know… time to relax instead of recovering/nursing ppl #at my first job i didn’t take a proper vacation for like two years and whew. there were Mental Consequences #now it’s been a year and a half at this job and the Consequences are hot on my tail #it’s just sad bc of covid u know. i can’t go anywhere nor host any friends for a visit #so ill just spend the whole time at home wishing i could be w my friends and family… 😔 #well. anyway. ill figure smth out #for now i just gotta get into a routine w the chores so im not dying sjbsdjhd #and also go talk to my fibro specialist abt adjusting my treatment to accommodate for lifestyle changes… #third floor apartment and walking to work and etc etc #sigh. im just tired man

[hallastudies]

i really should not be starting to write a Stranger x Beyond Evil crossover fic when the semester is nearly upon us and there is a high likelihood i will be sending out college applications this year but at this point any impulse control i may have had in the past is in the pile along with the rest of my heterosexuality

#° mine. #° tv ／ beyond evil. #° tv ／ stranger. #hallawrites #beyond evil #tvn stranger #secret forest #( ° in all honesty this is a very dumb decision on my part if i do say so myself ) #( ° friends and relatives can it be considered a crossover if said content consists of 1 cameo from a relevant fandom ) #( ° but cameo lasts for a substantial part of the chapter ) #( ° and lays the groundwork for future cameos ) #( ° look y'all i'm just out here trying to push the unfulfilled jwkh agenda ) #( ° along with the superior hwanghan/hwangseohan agenda ) #( ° bc Gay ™ ) #( ° i am sh*tposting on my own feed ) #( ° that should probably have its own tag or something ) #( ° consider this technological advancement an example of me conversing with myself ) #( ° if i post excerpts from this in the next few days understand the hold this has on me ok )

[neonacidtrip]

[image ID: a screenshot of a discord chat with username “wenge (when-gay)’ carrying out a one-sided conversation expressing her reluctance and fears regarding driving at 1:08 a.m. the other person in the conversation’s responses are not shown]

#when your boy politely suggests you move to the next difficulty level in driving #we were both speaking but i was typing my answers because i dont have my voice right now #i think in order he said 'you need to learn to drive faster' & when i asked how fast he said first 25 (wont kill me) then 40 (will kill me) #he then said we move from 40 to 65 to which i hit him with 50 50 50 what happened to 50 #the keysmash happened when he told me to drive to his house #in other words you can see the moment my brain short circuited #i normally feel bad sharing text conversations but i dont feel bad here because its only my responses #the only one being blasted is myself for being a cant drive gay #i get that there arent many 30 zones but 25 to 40 is a lot okay #i went on a 40 road exactly once and it ended quite terribly. scared the driving instructor #why do highways have to exist why do highways have to be 60+ zones why me just why #i said merging because i thought that would be the next difficult skills to tackle and he was like um no #and hit me with the 'you need to learn to make turns at more than 2mph before you worry about merging lanes neo' #25 to 40 is a lot and im not even on 25s yet i am still in 10mph zones. i have to graduate up to 25 still #we started on 25s and he was like hmmmmmmmm maybe i over estimated you lets go to the 10s #like a disappointed teacher discovering the kid who bragged about ice skating actually cant ice skate at all #i cant drive i cant dance i dont know karate.... face it... im never gonna make it #neo rants #photo post #i know i need to drive and not hide behind mcr references but i just really dont like driving #i will get there slowly but surely but that doesnt mean i cant whine and cry about it on the way there #like sailor moon intended #also i took 3d6 psychic damage because after all the fighting about the plans for the car he suggested my own original idea to me #my idea was to leave the car with my mom and now hes presenting this idea the very first idea i suggested as if he came up with it #i cant live in this society

[bylertruther]

am i five light-years behind everyone else on this lol or can you imagine if in season five they actually do go the route of vecna did try to invade will's mind when he was in the upside down but will is "good at hiding" and kept singing the song jonathan showed him that was associated with a good memory at the time and hid in castle byers which was also associated with good memories and so on and so forth and therefore managed to evade vecna's control until the mind flayer finally got him in season two orrrr... 😳

#will byers #stranger things #i mostly wrote this bc i was thinking to myself my fucking GOD....... #jonathan literally saved his little brother's life without even knowing it huh... #bc he showed him should i stay or should i go and thats what little will was singing to himself :( #and what eleven n mike heard on the radio #and one of the ways he communicated with his mom etc etc #and if the upside down is a metaphor for being gay then that EXTRA supports it bc the conversation they had when jon showed him that song #how he shouldn't like things because other ppl tell him to ESPECIALLY not lonnie #and we know tht lonnie would abuse him for being gay and tried to change him #like. GOD THE LOVE THAT THEY HAVE FOR EACH OTHER..... they're platonic familial soulmates #jonathan joyce n will were meant to be a family the love that they have for each other is endless and bigger #and stronger than anything in existence #LITERALLY CANONICALLY stronger than the might of eldritch monsters and evil incarnate #little will protecting himself from an indescribable evil by shrouding himself in the love he and his family have for each other #by hiding in the light that they provided him throughout the darkness of his life #bro i am crying in the club right now there is no other fictional family doing it like THEM !!!!! #byers #BUT GOING BACK TO MY POST IT WOULD MAKE SENSE bc they showed the teens n max doing everything thtb #WILL did first. everything is already there but i get scared tht the duffers won't go there u kno.. ? :( #which is silly bt also. historically? will has always drawn the short stick so.