#I can’t remember if I ever said that

[s4sharkteeth]

time skip all the way to senior year anyone?

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#i realized they were still freshman and was like whoa #we’re on like chapter twenty eight or something #we gotta speed it up #don’t worry part two is NOT over yet #thecassidystory #part two: high school #not a chapter #OH also Adriana Alysha and Lola are older than them #I can’t remember if I ever said that #Ellie Ramirez #Journey Cassidy #Pierce Cassidy #Caiphus Penn #Hayley Rocker #Emma Delaney #Haylee Delaney

[decaffeinatedpartymuggoop]

“If you want more representation” okay but what if they did a better job than all the other actors???

Like, with PJO Rick didn’t go “only black people can audition for Annabeth!! Grover has to be Indian! Zeus has to be black!”

No, the actors auditioned, did a good job, and got the gig.

Like instead of crying cause all these white actors didn’t get it, ask yourself if they even deserved the position.

Everything isn’t some “woke” propaganda or “more representation.” They just deserved the job.

#I’m gonna spend the next week emptying my drafts #I can’t even remember why I didn’t post this #i stand by what i said #no one ever considers that they just out acted the other actors #and since we’re talking abt pjo you can look at a clip of the series and see why they were picked #it’s cause they did a good job #better than who you thought deserved it #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo series #pjo hoo toa #heroes of olympus #pjo #pjo tv show #percy jackson #annabeth chase #grover underwood #acting #movies #representation

[atopvisenyashill]

i was thinking more about characters Performing Gender, but not necessarily Transgressing Gender. I wound up focusing on Ned and Sansa bc I feel like I understand them the most but-

Sansa as a hostage is imo the most obvious (bc it’s so well done) moment of someone clearly Performing Gender but not being transgressive in that performance. Which isn’t to say it’s not a complicated performance; it’s a fine line Sansa walks between weaponizing her gender to protect herself without seeming too fake. She’s trying to placate the Lannisters by playing the perfect, dedicated, air headed betrothed because it’s the only defense she has - if she outwardly rebels, she will be punished in a likely violent and/or sexual way (which isn’t even conjecture - when she says “or maybe he’ll give me yours” Joffrey has her struck with an armored hand). She’s not quite successful in being convincing but that’s because it’s a rather extreme situation; despite no one believing her, she does make herself seem meek and stupid enough that no one suspects she’s plotting to escape with Dontos until she’s well away from KL. The fact that she even has Dontos to confide in is because of Sansa’s relationship with gender! When she saves him, she covers her rebellious slip by playing up Joffrey’s intelligence & his role as King; she reaches for “tools” of her gender AND of ~proper manhood~ to save a life and herself from another beating. Her retreats into the godswood and silence are very much Sansa attempting to recharge from these draining interactions, the same way a knight would need to stop and eat and rest after a fight. She is fighting, constantly, by forcing herself to stay within the narrow confines of a specific type of gender performance as a way of shielding herself from harm.

Ned yelling at Cat is another big one, and I’ve seen the scene referred to as Ned using his patriarchal power to scare Cat, which is a great description. It feels like a Performance because Ned is putting on this terrifying Lord Stark mask in an attempt to get Catelyn to stop asking about Jon (and Lyanna). This is not how he usually acts with those he loves! When Ned is with His People, he is welcoming of questions, curiosity, emotion, even transgressive thought (to a point! the idea that Ned is a feminist because he lets Arya learn to fight is Not accurate but you can’t deny he allows significantly more flexibility wrt gender expression than most of the fathers we meet in this series. the bar is in hell tho). Yet when Cat asks him about Jon’s mother, Ned scares her so well she stops asking & still remembers the moment bitterly over a decade later. And if that snippet we see through Bran’s eyes of Ned praying that Cat will forgive him does come after she asks (like it’s suspected), it’s clear not only that this is a performance he’s putting on & weaponizing against Cat, it’s one he does not like using as a weapon against someone he is close to. After using the power his gender gives him to cause harm, he retreats to the godswood and silence to pray and rest, much like Sansa. A spiritual cleanse, the way a soldier may pray after battle, to reset and reconnect Being A Proper Man to Being A Kind Man.

I think there’s something interesting in that two of the characters most widely defined by how well they adhere to Westerosi gender norms both dislike feeling like they had to weaponize their gender. They are exhausted by the performance, because it’s a performance. This isn’t Sansa getting excited over tourneys, or Ned teaching his sons to fight; it’s toxic masculinity, it’s structural misogyny. It’s something they’re good at, excel at, and connected to something they enjoy but when it’s paired with violence, whether done by Ned or done to Sansa, it crosses over in their minds from an innate part of themselves (The Gender) to a performance necessary due to survival (The Gender Role). And that after these performances, both retreat to nature & god as a way of resting and cleansing from the experience.

#valyrianscrolls #ned stark #sansa stark #getting on my soap box #there’s something here too about romanticism. like shelley and coleridge and whitman. the need to return to nature to undo society’s harm. #especially with the way various romance movements and romantic tropes are played with by their characters. #i can’t even remember who said it which just shows u how shitty an english major i am aksjd but about how. #like society is necessary but just as necessary is the ability to escape into nature. i *think* it was coleridge i’m probably wrong. #the gender war makes corpses of us all #gender politics in asoiaf #obviously you can point to several moments for both of them. sansa calling petyr father. ned’s relationship with theon. wherein they both #are clearly performing something for an audience. #there’s like 12 other branches of this in my head. jaime’s romanticism. being knighted bloody & the sacrilegious nature of the sept sex. #and his inability to escape his gender performance the way ned & sansa do. ned being willing to cry in front of others but robb only ever #crying in the dark with his baby brother after he loses ned. cat’s tower stuff & finding solace in sewing. #i’m gonna try to write up something about loras & renly here too. tomorrow. #also i wrote this at the train station after work so if there’s errors or it makes no sense just pretend u never saw it skskdj

[the-bi-space-ace]

Remember when Echo’s overarching story said no man left behind and I’m stronger than what tried to break me and I’ll do what I believe in even if no one else will stand with me and get back up always get back up and fuck you for trying to squash people who have less power than you

#the bad batch #tbb echo #arc trooper echo #remember when echo made me full on sob bc ✨Him✨ #you can’t tell me that he’s not one of the best characters there is ever before ever no one compares #I simply do not hear u #he is beautiful #he is such a wonderful person #a great character #remember when echo said fuck the empire #remember when echo said I will fight for the clones #remember when echo said I'll stand with you when no one else will #FUCKING ECHO MAN

[seraphicalsuccubus]

omg guys I just found my beautiful, hardcover, illustrated, deluxe 30th anniversary edition of The Princess Bride and I forgot how fucking stunning this fucking book is 😭😭😭

I thought it was so gorgeous when it was gifted to me for Christmas several years ago from my mother that I never even opened it up long enough to read any of it because I fucking cherished this copy of one of my all time favorite book and film adaptions so so so much, I didn’t want to mar the book at all by reading it because it’s just so beautiful that I packed it away, in a separate box, cushioned by my own shirts since I don’t have a bookcase anymore, and just kept it safe there and, UGH !!! it still looks pristine now that I’ve taken it back out !!! 🥺🥺🥺

but now I have the urge to actually open it and read it, because I haven’t read the book in like 20 years now and it was one of my favorites the first time my mom let me borrow her copy when I was 7-8 years old. and then when I bought my own hand me down falling apart ass paperback version I found at the library for like $2 during one of their like book sale things when I was 10, and read it over and over again until it was missing pages. like, that’s how much I love this book. I read it to DEATH. like. that book was so loved that I read it until it couldn’t be pieced back together anymore. and even though it was in rough shape when I got it, I didn’t care. I loved it because it was finally MY copy. and now I have this just absolutely gorgeous copy to replace that old falling apart book I had lost ages ago and was devastated about, and it’s one of my most prized possessions.

I’m going to be much more careful when reading this version, seeing as it is a deluxe anniversary edition that was gifted to me, and has quite a lot of beautifully illustrated pages and even some extra chapters. and because, eventually, I want to pass it down to my kids so they can read their mother’s favorite book, from her own copy of it (if I ever have any kids, that is), like my mother did by letting me read her copy and just fall in love with the story. which is a big part what instilled my love for this book/film at a very young age, that connection over it that I had with my mother, because her and I have never really connected on much so this book holds a lot of sentimental value to me. and I want to one day pass that down to my children for them to read (not keep, just read and decide if they want their own copy so I can go buy them an edition of it, like my mother did by gifting me this edition when it released even though it was years and years after I’d first read the book and fell in love with it, she just remembered how enamored I was with the story and the characters that she wanted to surprise me with a brand new, beautiful copy of my own). so I’ve def gotta keep it in really good condition. that’s my drive to not ruin this book and read it to death like my poor old paperback version I had, lol 🥺🖤

#yeah the book was only like 35-40 bucks but shut up I love this thing and I literally hold it dear to me because it is my all time favorite #she got herself and both my sisters the same edition as well in case they ever wanted to read it or showed an interest in it #I was the most excited when I opened mine lol the girls were like ‘oh a book okay’ and I was like ‘HOLD UP WAIT A FKN MINUTE’ and cried lol #because she remembered. she remembered how much I loved it enough to find wait many years until they released a deluxe anniversary copy #so she could get it for me and I could have my own beautiful copy of my favorite book #honestly one of the most thoughtful things she’s ever done bc she said ‘I could’ve got you your own ages ago but like I knew the anniversary #edition would be worth the wait and I wanted to surprise you with that. even if it was over after you first read it. because I knew you’d #genuinely appreciate it more than anything. so I really do hope you love it.’ and I fucking BAWLED #over a decade since you first read it* #full on fucking SOBBED while everyone was opening Christmas presents dude like #I can’t believe she remembered that … and it just … I felt less forgotten as a child of hers than I usually do at that Christmas at least #mine

[seepingfrommyskin]

Celes

+Closeups as always

#remember when I said I was going through the worst art block ever earlier. something changed AND IM BACK #got this idea in the middle of doing an English test I can’t make this up #final fantasy 6 #final fantasy vi #final fantasy #sketch #ffvi #ff6 #celes chere #girl stop you’re slaying too hard #FIRST TIME DRAWING HER LIKE *DRAWING HER* #was a lot of fun #and yes I did draw the rose(s) #copy and paste tool in procreate is my best friend.

[starfall-isle]

I’m just a ten cent copy

Of people far more advanced than me

#Stej #spark the electric jester #spark the electric jester spoilers #float #Clarity #flint #spark #art tag #Float is so so much 2 think about. Even before she died there was still this acknowledgement of like. #She does not know who she was before she just knows she was discarded and literally buried alive and everything just gets worse for her :( #character who deserves some kind of resolution the most I think/ #I can’t fully wrap my mind around how Clarity’s replica works (ignoring what was said about her and Astra #solely being extensions of clarity bc I think that kind of sucks and doesn't fully make sense 2 me anyway) #like she is not the original ofc and float was already dead before assimilation but she is still clearly enough of a copy #that she has her feelings and (assumedly) resembles her formie body from before she was experimented on #Something even she didn’t remember‚ & I'm just curious how exactly clarity made her so faithfully 2 float and how much she has that #same kind of cognition and emotional independence that Astra did‚ even if she is only trying to achieve clarity’s goals. #I know WHY float was used 2 trick spark into reaching the Fark force the point was that shes just. Still so real and it’s so sad #The original float is gone but she is still here and she still remembers her life and feelings it’s soo fucked up #The only autonomy she has ever had over herself was when she and flint met each other. She just has been used so much even after death!! #I don’t want to make assumptions about something that isn’t out but like. If floats just gone now after doing so much to reintroduce her as #an agent of clarity I think it would be such a disservice 2 her Character like how interesting could it be to have float but she is not the #same as float she has this girls face and memories but she has been so fractured and manipulated that like. Who could she be now #that clarity isn't in control and she no longer has a purpose. if she ever got to reunite with flint would he be willing to trust her? #Would she want to reconnect with these emotions and memories that she knows she’s been programmed from? How would it feel to know #that everyone else has this idea of you and a history that for you technically isn’t real but it still FEELS real. AUGH #Anyway. segmented like a bug get it #ask to tag #Taphophobia #Blood

[deus-ex-mona]

i just think it’s really cute when the canon couples match with each other~

#these are just the instances of matching i can think of off the top of my head… #the narumi sisters dont count bc they’re not a couple. though has sena ever matched with midori? i can’t remember~~~~~~~~~~ #and yes ariken’s kumapan keychains totally count guys (source: i said so) #and y e s i know minakuru matched for a staged pv but it still counts bc i said so #t h o u g h if we count lxl’s stage outfits they’d have matched more often than all the other couples have combined so. there’s that ig. #l o r d . i need to get better. soon. aaaaaaaaaaa

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

Wasnt it already revealed his last words were something along the lines of "you were my bestfriend, my one and only" or did i just make that up lmao

the words still haven’t been confirmed!!! the only hints we have are that 1) they appear somewhere else in volume 0, 2) they had never been spoken between the two before, 3) they were ”embarrassing” from geto’s pov, and 4) when translated to english they form three words. hint 4) debunks the theory you mentioned, so it can’t be that. that would be my second option after ”i love you”, though !! the reason that theory in particular is popular is just because gojo says those words when he’s talking to yuuta in the epilogue :3

but i’m team i love you. it feels way too blatantly fitting to be anything else … (”at least curse me a little at the end” vs ”love is the most twisted curse of all”…. not to mention the fact that ”this is pure love” plays during their final moment together) yuuta says i love you to rika right before the scene between gojo and geto, which seems like an obvious parallel to me too!!!

there was also a big stir back when s2 was airing where some people thought gojo’s last words to geto were ”we’ll meet again, won’t we?” but that was a misunderstanding caused by the op!! the lyrics paired with the jjk 0 light novel basically confirms that those words were the ones that gojo wanted to say to geto, but chose not to because he knew they would have turned into a curse…. though ironically enough they still ended up meeting again. in shibuya. rip gojo you will always be punished by the universe for your most loving acts 🙏🙏

#sniffle #i love the jjk 0 stsg scene #it always makes me cry :’3 #i can’t remember his exact words but when asked abt the mysterious blanked out line i think gojo’s japanese va said something like #”it really cuts deep”………. #or something #no matter what it was i think it’s safe to say the overall message was gojo’s love for geto #:’3 #i hope this cleared it up anon!! tho obviously you’re allowed to think what you’d like when it comes to that scene #i doubt it’ll ever be confirmed so . yk!! #ask tag ✩

[the-casbah-way]

i never ever cry in front of anyone ever but there was this boy i was OBSESSED with in primary school when i was like seven years old because he was the fastest boy in the class and he had cool spiky hair and i always thought it was a crush until i came out and realised it was gender envy of some form and today my friend out of the blue told me that i look like him and we looked at his instagram together and i actually do. i look almost exactly like him. and i cried like an absolute wanker because i’ve been so miserable my whole life being perceived entirely the wrong way and i went home today and looked at myself and realised i look like the boy i always wanted to be when i was a kid. and whenever i feel bad about myself i get to remind myself that i look like him so i shouldn’t feel bad because back then i couldn’t have ever dreamed of getting to look like this. and t will only make it better and even though the idea of starting it is still so scary to me i keep having moments like this that make me realise how good it’s going to be even if some of it will suck. i always focus on all of the ways my transition has gone and will go wrong and i forget that it’s going to go right in a lot of ways too

#i remember what this boy looked like when he started getting spots and what he sounded like when his voice started breaking #and it makes me so excited even for the parts of t that everyone says are ‘bad’ #my identity is so much more binary than i tell myself it is. i play it down because being a fully binary Guy who wants to be purely masc is #a lot harder to break to my mother who is devastated even at the thought of me being a masculine woman #i’ve been pretending for a while that i’m more ‘in the middle’ than i really am because of that #but moments like this always remind me that i know exactly what i want to be and what i want to look like #and it’s the exact opposite of everything my mother wants me to be #this shit is going to be Hard. and i don’t expect my mother will stick around the further into my transition i get #which is so unbearable to me that i try not to think about it. i just can’t go back into the closet even for her #i was trying to force myself to do that before xmas and that’s what made me attempt and end up coming out to her #but i didn’t tell the full truth i just said i hate being feminine and i hate being a girl #i couldn’t bring myself to say the rest and i don’t know if i’ll ever say any of it to her #i wish i had a therapist so i could talk about all this as i’m working through the beginning of transition but. oh well

[demiboy-wonder]

Bad Idea Right? by Olivia Rodrigo is the best Hoffstrahm anthem out there and, unfortunately, you cannot change my mind

#“and I know I’ve seen much hotter men but I really can’t remember when #“I only see him as a friend #the biggest lie I ever said #IT WRITES ITSELF #hoffstrahm #coffinshipping #saw #saw franchise #sawposting #mark hoffman #peter strahm

[polarsirens]

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#delete later #the ravening war spoilers #oh i’m surprisingly not okay #i thought i got ahold of myself and then suddenly #i remember how anjali said amangeaux talks to karna in the mornings and then at night #and suddenly i’m stood at a random street corner with tears streaming #everyone’s end was so heartbreaking but man amangeaux. will she ever be able to see her baby—emperor’s ward—without thinking of karna? #she’ll always be mourning. all three of them will be mourning #they’ve all died in the cave #it was a tpk after all. you can’t live the same #and the little ghost pepper that haunts them #it’s the way brennan said—dnd campaigns are adventures where your life before and after it is entirely the same #when i expected prequel characters to end in ways that don’t interfere with the original campaign this was not what i thought about

[pebblezone]

🦭

#hellsing #hellsing ultimate #seras victoria #integra hellsing #sertegra #a #yay guns!!!!!!! murder.!!!! intimidation tactics!!!!!!!! #happy Saturday!! ‼️‼️🧍‍♂️🫶‼️‼️❤️‼️‼️ #so sorry for the sertegra shortage I spent all week trying to lip sync things then remembered I had actual work to do #but I finally finished it!!! albeit I got a bit lazy but I did it! yay yippee!!!!!!!!!!! #beach boys hellsing power point going bonkers ‘every sentence has been said at some point in time’ #I can prove that shit false using the power of horrible horrible connections that no one else would ever feel the need to make #anyway you guys should listen to Sunflower she’s warm and fluffy and has a lot of whole band collaboration #like you have Dennis And Bruce contributing songs that’s crazy you have two Bruce songs that never happens! also cool cool water is fun #yay scrapped smile tracks! and unlike the other smile scrapped ones that they put on studio albums she’s like a unique lil lad #like the whole first part isn’t at all on the like 2011 recreation unlike say vegetables which gets remashed or our prayer which is iden #okay well actually maybe it is more like vegetables in that sense it’s more it’s cutting something instead of adding #which a lot of the 2011 versions were adding things back that were cut like the cantina part of heroes and villains #actually okay now that I’m thinking about it shit would require a lot of explaining I can’t just drop the Charles Manson lore #or some shit like that and just move on… sorry beach boys 💔

[quietwingsinthesky]

the amount of time i spend thinking about Even carrying the metacrisis doctor’s fob watch is really quite disproportionate to how much ive fleshed out that part of the story in my head

#i still find myself not caring if the metacrisis doctor couldnt use one. he can because i said so and because donna shouldn’t get amnesiaed #alone. #but anyway. even. its just something about like. #here is your best friend. the man who showed you how big the universe could be. its still him human or not. its still the doctor. #can’t call him that. have to watch your tongue always because no matter how familiar their faces are. these two people do not remember #everything you did together and never can. at least they still love each other. nothing could change that. that’s what matters. you steer #them into each other’s lives so carefully and watch to see if they’re going to get hurt. but they don’t. it’s okay. #and still. and still. you carry your best friend’s life. everything that he is. you can hold it in the palm of your hand. he gave it to you. #he entrusted it to you. well. that’s not entirely true. technically you volunteered. but how else could you say thank you. #you made your world so so small again. for him. larger than you would’ve been used to once but you know what galaxies feel like to fly #across. and now you’re stuck in time and space. this is for love too. this is for the life you hold in your hands. #or wear around your neck on a chain. and because you chose this. you can never see him again. or you see him every day and he doesn’t #recognize all of you. #that would make anyone desperate wouldn’t it? make you do something stupid. make you turn to someone you shouldn’t. #even makes bad choices when they are cornered. i think. #dw oc #the important bit is of course that the only way they can ever get rid of it is by their own choice. which they never would choose to do. #(because tentoo won’t take it back. he’s his own person. impressions of the doctor influencing him. but the part of him that is donna doing #so as well. a whole new person. who does not want her memories back and to be unmade.) #but the point is that the moment even takes it. they will never let it go. they will lose it. on painful occasion. but it always finds its #way back. depending on the context this presence and responsibility is either comforting in its constancy. #or. in a less kind world. a horrifying reminder of how far they have fallen from who they tried to be for him.

[jimmyspades]

psycho type of question to ask i'm sorry but do you know if anyone knows what kind of cologne james wears? i don't know why anyone would know this actually except if he made some brief mention of it in an interview somewhere along the way... okay i'm changing my question to something better: what do you imagine each of james' characters might smell like? :)

Omg no ur not crazy I think about the same things… Ok so I did a deep dive into everything I could find and there’s not MUCH info—Hisham Tawfiq said they’re not allowed to wear colognes and perfumes on the TBL set so he didn’t know about James and Karina Arroyave (actress who played Mierce) said the same thing, if he wore anything it was never noticeable to her

BUT according to my sources (a few fan forums and twitter lol) multiple people who’ve met him said he smells like Irish Spring soap 🥹😮‍💨 I’d imagine for a long time he smelled like cigarettes too but as far as I know it’s been about six years since he quit, unless he picked it up again

EACH of his characters oh man we’d be here all day… yk @robertcaliforniagf and I were just talking about this Willow made a list!!! I think it’s very accurate a lot of cigar smells and masculine woody warm notes… Also the internet rocks and I found this website that identifies colognes and other scents in movies—Max in White Palace uses Polo by Ralph Lauren and Graham in slv shaves with Barbasol… a very light classic creamy barbershop smell yeah I can picture that for him

#another fan said they can’t remember what he smelled like but his hands were soft. I’m chewing my arm off #red wears something nice and expensive. maybe he’s got a signature scent maybe he has different ones for different suits… #steff wears too much of something kind of obnoxious but once you get used to it it’s very sweet. his lips taste like buttercream frosting #sorry I say that every day but it’s true he’s like sweet vanilla icing to me #alan wears something very expensive but he doesn’t put too much thought in it. he found it after law school when he started making money and #liked it so it’s just what he buys now. but if a gf got him something else (expensive) he’d probably wear that too he doesn’t really care #something clean but not clinical at all. very warm actually and just subtle enough you want to get closer to smell him better #jack pozzi music of chance smells like the cheapest cologne you’ve ever heard of. and he’s kind of damp #ask #anonymous

[therealnotta]

I’m just on a Howl obsession kick rn. I love the little things he does wrong in the book, because he’s from Wales and forgets that Ingary is this magical other world sometimes. Sophie sees him writing notes on a spell with a ballpoint pen and thinks it’s a magic quill that doesn’t need an inkwell. He catches a cold and starts conjuring Kleenexes and no one can figure out why he’s using random sheets of thin paper to blow his nose instead of a handkerchief. They go for a ride in a car and he forgets that going faster than five miles an hour would be terrifying to someone who’s fastest mode of transportations is a speedy horse. His name is Howell but he has an accent and everyone misheard him (and Howl is sick as heck, he’s not correcting them!) Man found Narnia and he’s having to explain skinny jeans to people in a medieval fantasy world (they do not understand and find them incredibly uncomfortable and restrictive.) What a life he has led

#howls moving castle #I just think he’s neat #I literally can’t remember if he ever said when he found Ingary tho?? #I thought it was while writing his thesis but he’d be older by now then