#I don't want to sound negative

[moni-harmonia]

It's been a while since I last posted something... I just don't have anything to talk about.

Lately I've only been logging to do the events but nothing more. I don't want to explore right now. It's just too much content for me at the moment.

I guess I finally got tired, but more than that it's just there's nothing really that motivates me right now: no cool character that I wanna have or new story or events with characters that I care about.

I hope this changes in the next few months. I want to have a new character that motivates me to farm again, and a new Archon Quest that puts me in the mood to share my thoughts again.

I still love Genshin, but the formula has become repetitive and the fact that they still don't give us better rewards is disappointing.

#I don't want to sound negative #It's just how I feel #The content is still good #But it's not enough for me #Genshin Impact #mine

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Turtle Takedown Teamwork.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #tulu xuanwu #Something about changing the action sequence to something gentle is hilarious to me. #The lesson here is “Be nice to turtles. They are gentle creatures. And many are very endangered.” #don't get me wrong here; I love this scene a lot. LWJ's string technique is one of my favoyrite things. #We do get a fair amount of LWJ fighting but I always loved how the theme of strings comes into play. #There is actually a lot to unpack with LWJ being associate with 'strings'. #The musicianship: Of dedication and rigor in one's practice. #The tension between following along a path or composing your own way forwards (playing what has been written vs composing) #A string is a tightly coiled/taunt entity; The same tension that makes it sing so beautifully can be it's downfall if pushed too hard. #And as a non-musical string - something that binds. Be it to his sect and family or how he binds his fate to WWX - #LWJ cannot exist without his binds. It is not something which ties him down though. It keeps him together. #And he himself *is* a bind. He 'ties wwx down' in ways that are initially negatively viewed ('come to gusu' - feels like: come be trapped) #But later it is shown how (despite being introduced as a free spirit) WWX truly wants to be bound to something and someone. #Marriage is a bind he wants. He wants to be tied and grounded by LWJ. #It's starting to sound like innuendo. Let's call his fondness for being literally tied up smart thematic writing. #Finally. Sex scenes that are important to the plot and characters

[nelkcats]

Parent's Day

Ghosts didn't have a father's or mother's day as such, but they did have a day where they combined both. A day to celebrate your guardians. Humans, Yetis, Amazons or Gods, it was a quiet day to thank them for your ghost adoption.

Dan and Ellie had spent a few years under the halfa's care but at the end of the day they considered him their guardian (although Dan did it reluctantly), so when they heard about Parent's Day they panicked.

They wanted to show Danny that they really appreciated him but a mug or coupons were not enough. In the end after some brainstorming they decided to give him the closest thing to a mug that was in the Realms: Constantine's complete soul.

John Contantine was a very annoying human, they knew this because they heard Danny complain about his paperwork many times. Apparently their father had 99% of his soul but couldn't do anything until he had 100%, and what better gift than to help him get rid of the paperwork? He hated paperwork! It was perfect!

With some help from Clockwork they traveled to DC's dimension, determined to take the last of the hellblazer's soul. Dan wondered if he should steal a star from the dimension while they were there (Danny liked space didn't he?), as an extra gift.

John Constantine was in the middle of explaining the holes in reality to the Justice League when a shiver ran through his body. He had an instant bad feeling.

#dpxdc #Parent's Day #ghosts are not distinguished by gender and half of them are not human so they have a day to celebrate their guardians in general #ghosts like to adopt younger ghosts to guide them #they usually don't have children of their own #The idea of ​​Dan and Ellie sounds weird but you have to remember that they are children #Regardless of their outward appearance #they are both young #and they only want to take away from Danny what bothers him as a gift #I like to think that Dan was “born” by combining both cores #he's not Danny but he retained most of his negative emotions and memories #dp x dc #dc x dp #Constantine will have a long day #but he asked for it after selling his soul 50 times #Dan and Ellie googled “best gift” but only mugs coupons and flowers came up #Dan doesn't know if it's possible to steal stars but he will make it possible #ghost king danny

[buggachat]

I know I've said this and many variations countless times before, but just a reminder:

responding to fandom analysis posts of a show with "haha or it's just bad writing 🤣", "wow the writers must have written this by accident because they're bad 😛", or "wow one interesting thing managed to happen despite how bad the writing is 😆" is... grating.

I get it. You don't like the show, and no matter what happens in it, you'll never change your opinion of that. So why are you even interacting with analysis posts? What do you get out of it if you think literally everything in this show is written by accident? Why do you think the OPs of these posts want to hear about how much you don't care and don't want to even try to engage with it at all?

Make your own post. And tag it with the appropriate salt tags so I can blacklist.

#''it's bad writing'' as a knee-jerk reaction reply to literally any post ever discussing literally anything that happens in the show at all #is just...... i don't get it. do you think you sound analytical? that it makes you sound smart to be so negative? #that by completely refusing to analyze or engage w the text at all it makes you better than it? #it's nothing. you're saying nothing. you're making no points at all. just watch something else. engage in a different fandom. #get Fs on your lit essays. leave me out of it. lol #ml fandom salt #like you can criticize the writing all you want on your OWN POST but... c'mon... this isn't even criticism... #it's just an echo chamber of Nothing

[northern-passage]

one thing i find really difficult about navigating the IF space is the direct line of contact between readers and authors. we share the same space, and i think that plays a big part in this weird blurred line we have in this community and overall lack of boundaries.

for a lot of people this is a fun hobby and while i personally try to keep it... semi-professional most of the time, it's easy to get wrapped up in having fun on tumblr (or the forums, or reddit, wherever it is that you mainly post/interact) and have a lot of personal interactions with both readers and authors alike - which is fun! i like it more often than not, but i also think that's why a lot of comments in this space can end up being really entitled, over-familiar, and inappropriate.

it's no secret that most authors get really weird messages on here, and while this is also a problem on social media at large and not just specific to IF tumblr, it is still definitely a big problem in this community.

and to be clear i'm not saying that you can't be friendly with authors or readers (i've become friends with a handful of readers myself) and i definitely don't mean to imply that there needs to be a huge divide between us; that's silly - again, most authors are readers, most readers are authors, we’re just people on the internet sharing the same space. but all of us deserve to have our boundaries respected. this is my story, and we are strangers. as a general rule of thumb: if you wouldn't say it out loud to someone you just met, you probably shouldn't be saying it to a stranger online. especially anonymously.

#i also think this is why some criticisms get so messy in this space as well #authors should not always be in the same space as the readers/reviewers #and readers shouldnt be able to directly @ authors with their extremely negative reviews esp when it's subjective #(‘’i hate this’’ as opposed to pointing out genuinely harmful content or other criticism) #for everyone's sake #& on a kinda related note: speaking as someone who has been receiving targeted harassment for *checks watch* over two years now #some people really need to reevaluate the way they interact with certain media #i think IF feels very personal due to the interactivity and the customization of the mc #but not everything is written for you. and it's fine to just not like something #without sending weird harassing anonymous messages for 2 years straight to a stranger on the internet. lol #honestly criticism is another can of worms and that's not really what i'm talking about here #but i do think that's also part of the entitlement and overfamiliarity as well #so imo it's connected a little bit. something to think about #at the end of the day my advice to other authors about this is to know your limits and know when you need to extract yourself #and know that you don't have to respond to every ask #especially if it makes you uncomfortable #and im definitely not trying to sound like the authority here this is something i've struggled with as well #like i said it is hard to navigate #and authors can be guilty of this too. wanting to defend yourself or insert yourself into conversations where you shouldn't #i've done that myself #and i've also had other authors i dont know be way overly familiar with me in the past #all of this is just an unfortunate part of online community i think. but im trying to be more mindful about it #anyways. this post brought to you by the weird messages in my and my friends' inboxes lately #i just think you should not be telling authors about pesonal bodily functions in anonymous asks #as an example. lol #personal

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

anyone else ever get struck with a sudden feeling of distaste or being tired of someone who you usually really like/are friends with for literally no reason whatsoever? or is that just me

#like this has been happening with various people all summer #I'll be like... the thought of this person causes negative emotions that are literally directed at nothing #it isn't anything the person has done I just. feel like I don't care and don't really want to put in the effort with whatever friend #which is really weird bc I KNOW if I DO just put in the effort and ignore that random feeling I'll have fun and enjoy myself!! #bc I DO still like my friends actually!!! I just sometimes feel like I Don't and idk why #Lu rambles #this is especially odd when it's the sound guy bc like. not only have I been massively crushing on him all summer #but he's also one of the few people I genuinely have clicked with here. like we get along. it's cool. I've been slightly in love with him #so why do I now have this weird feeling like I want nothing to do with him/don't care #actually I feel extremely ambivalent about just about everyone right now but for some reason especially him #wait maybe it's PMS actually.... the Leave Me Alone Don't Talk To Me Don't Look At Me Don't Make Me Show Up hormones have hit :/ #...that would actually explain several things from the last couple days. I should start tracking it #ok sorry I'm done externally processing my emotions on Tumblr dot com. bye

[gingerbreadmonsters]

6k in and my head is about to explode. STILL not allowed to say what i want :(

#this fic is going to get negative notes i can already tell lmao #the scope of appeal is so stupidly narrow #but That Does Not Matter #i have to believe that #its for ME #its what i want to see and its what makes me happy #i will never put this in a real post because i would be immediately dragged into the square and burned for hypocrisy #but i think its worth saying #this is rasmr specific i dont know about any other fandoms so dont take this as a universal rule #if you go into your favourite tag variant (e.g. 'redacted [x character name]' or 'redacted [genre]') #and sort by 'top' rather than 'latest' #i would like you to scroll down until you find fic #by which i specifically mean PROSE - not bulletpoints or hcs or matchups or those sorts of things #(this is not to say that those things aren't good or worthy of respect - they ARE - but that's not what i'm talking about here) #i would like you to just think about how long it takes you to find a fic in there #because surprise! it's almost certainly longer than you would hope or indeed expect #now........ i wonder why that is? #i don't mean to sound egotistical or selfish or self-aggrandising through all this #but.... you know. fic writers - during their one life on this earth - put in an AWFUL lot of their real time and energy and love into this #into writing things for other people who they will never know or meet to enjoy for FREE on the internet #i don't think you can be surprised that it's a bit disheartening to do all that and then be met with basically silence #it's like cooking for people yk? #some fics are more complex/longer/time-intensive than others - in the way that making a five-course meal is more work than making a sandwic #but if someone made that food for you - whether it was a cookie or an entire christmas dinner - you'd still say thank you...... right? #you wouldn't just take it from them and leave the room - then eat it in total silence where they can't see - and then not say anything...? #if you liked it - or even if you didn't! - wouldn't you still say thank you? wouldn't you tell them that it was nice and you enjoyed it? #that you liked the ingredients they chose or the way they cooked it or the toppings they chose to put on it? #for the sake of everyone whose ever cooked you a meal i hope you would #because i'll tell you something for free - you will be scrolling on that tag for an uncomfortably long time. why is that? #because reblogs/comments/kudos/likes are to fic writers what 'thank you' is to a cook

[kkujo]

something i don't see people talking about is the way hyperfixations come in like stages and cycles like it's not just "i'm obsessed with this thing" it's like. euphoria from finding something new and it brings you so much joy and then as that initial dopamine rush wears off you start to get more and more down and feel isolated as you start to realise that no one else cares about it as much as you do and you feel silly for being so into it and the thoughts become repetitive and boring so you get more and more depressed and lonely and then you inevitably lose the hyperfix which leaves you drifting feeling miserable and hopeless until you start the cycle again. idk if i explained this well or if other people will understand but it brings genuine phases of euphoria and straight up depression and this is why i get annoyed when neurotypicals use words like hyperfixation to describe like, an interest. bc it's not. just an interest it becomes who you are and when you lose it it's like losing yourself and you spend so much energy thinking about it that it interrupts your daily life and it's so fucking draining 👍

#like if i see one more nt being like hyperfixation this hyperfixation that SHUT UP!! YOU HAVE AN INTEREST #talk to me when you stay up until 6am every night bc you can't fucking sleep bc ur thinking about it. #talk to me when you can't process emotions in a normal healthy way because you can only relate it back to your hyperfix #paired w madd especially it's IMPOSSIBLE to be normal about shit i swear 2 god because the second i'm upset or lonely it's straight back to #immersing myself in another world and being someone else and not facing my emotions instead letting 'someone else' deal with them #not just negative emotions yk it's anything it's fully immersive to the point i end up not knowing exactly who i am myself bc i'm rarely #myself in my head yk #and it's so isolating #and this is why i get mad when people use these terms lightly bc they don't fucking get it #oh you're hyperfixated? oh you're delusional? you're delulu? watch this #< guy who has delusions that all of his friends secretly hate him bc he's too insane abt xyz media and who feels alone bc no one else is as #into it even though it wouldn't be reasonable to expect them to be #like i'm constantly questioning whether all my friends are secretly against me & finding me annoying anytime i talk about it but it's fine #it's so fucking isolating #i'm not losing my hyperfix yet thank god but i am in the stage of like realisation where the initial euphoria has worn off and i'm like #fuck no one else gets it. no one else is thinking about it like i am. and it's so lonely #< like not to sound like 'i'm 14 and no one gets me' or i'm not like other girls or whatever 😭 #it's not me being dramatic i genuinely. know that no one else is spending every waking moment thinking about the things i am the way i do #and it's so incredibly depressing i can't even explain it in a way that will make sense #because i want to talk about it so fucking bad and i can't. even to my friends and gf who always listen i end up feeling annoying #and then i get genuinely delusional not like tiktok girl voice delulu like i genuinely start questioning my entire reality #just if i talk about something a little too much #bc i'm convinced i'm fucking annoying and no one gets it and they're thinking bad things about me #but i know they wouldn't. but it feels like they are #idk #anyways !

[nek0mancies]

Being an OW roleplayer is so difficult bc the community isn't very active and it's so hard to find ppl to vibe with bc it's rampant with drama and that makes me so sad bc I love writing Sigma and even made my own unique interpretation of him

#vent #shut up cricket #negative #sad 4am thoughts #me desperately wanting to show ppl him but it's so hard to keep my muse when the fandom you write for is mostly stagnant #and most of the rp accs on Twit are either gimmicky crack accs or ran by absolute gooners #I really hope I don't sound entitled or bitchy I'm just frustrated

[songbirdstew]

It's the first day of Winter Break, and Royal has a cough and a 100* fever

#they can be 14 years old and twice as tall as you but still all you can think is #I don't want my baby to be sick. I hate this #they say they feel okay but that cough really sounds awful #I haven't put them through a covid test yet. They've had to do it a LOT over the years. #always negative so far but. I'm going to wait until we absolutely have to know

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: May 3

"Life Less Frightening" by Rise Against

#song of the day #'I don't ask for much / truth be told I'd settle / for a life less frightening' #another song that when I sing it alone it doesn't sound much like the original but I do so like to sing it #check me stirring my roux humming 'these lives we live test negative for happiness' sweetly to myself #today was Friday and I'm still trying to decide if I'm satisfied with the amount of work I got done this week #I suppose I'll have to be #I had my weekly report meeting and again the updates my boss asked for in the meeting were not the ones she asked me to prepare #so I split-screened her and delivered the prepared updates as I frantically opened and updated the new request #and then when she finished making politely falsely interested sounds (I'm not bitter I'm not I'm not) she asked again for the new update #and by then I had it ready! saved it as I brought up the share-screen and showed it to her #too frustrated in the moment to be properly proud of myself but now it's hours later and I'm feeling a little smug about it #little back-pats for me #I have something like a project timeline worked out for the idiot project #and I did some good work in the garden (nasturtium growing up the post under the bird feeder. very pleased it took the transplant so well) #and I sooooort of sorted the freezer stuff. kind of. mostly we ate the things I wanted to rearrange but I've got a plan for moving forward #the last non-work thing I'd really wanted to accomplish this week was getting my queue set up again here #I've gone through my drafts and done some prep but as you can see the queue isn't actually running again yet #hopefully I'll do that tomorrow. we'll see how it goes #the queue may have to wait until Sunday because I must confess if I can accomplish only one single solitary thing tomorrow #I would like it to be six hours of uninterrupted sleep. may it please the gods I shall rest tomorrow. blessed weekend #edit: wait wait I'm a fool I'm a fool I just typed 'May 3' and still I am a fool #it's May the Fourth!! #happy star wars day my loves if I don't get the queue up today after all #it's because I'm reshuffling everything because I've got a new influx of SW posts to distribute!!

[gxlden-angels]

Hello! I apologize if this is a nosy question, but what is the silly feelings wheel app you were talking about in a previous post? My therapist and I have been working on identifying feelings but I still very much rely on a list of feeling words to have any idea what I’m feeling, so it could be a helpful resource. No worries if you don’t want to share, just thought I would ask :)

It's called How We Feel! I'm not sure if it's available on all devices yet, but it's on ios and the google play store for sure.

I've been using it for about a year. It's more of a chart than a wheel but people usually recognize the wheel better so that's what I call it. When you first start it has a 10-part tutorial about emotional acceptance and regulation, then it has suggestions for each category of emotion. You can access both at any time tho after those first 10 days.

It has a share option so you can have friends, which has been great for me cause it prompts me to check on friends and them to do the same for me. It allows you to just respond with a little emoji in like a "I'm here for you" little notification to your friend, or you can reach out to your friend on your own. Its really helped me cause I'm bad at reaching out when I need support so to me and I'm bad about taking on other's problems even when I can't handle it so being able to send a little emoji instead to make sure my friends know I'm there if they need me and them doing the same has been great

#I know I sound like I'm a being sponsored by this app but it's genuinely been incredible for my mental health #whenever I get frustrated in therapy now about not being able to describe a feeling my therapist asks me to think about the chart #he'll ask me what color I feel and go 'good! do you want to narrow it down from there or continue with just that?' and it's so helpful #I have such terrible alexithymia from both cptsd and autism #it took a year of working with him to even recognize when I felt angry or hungry or sick #my friends and I check in on each other regularly now but it feels less intrusive #cause it feels like indirectly reaching out so it's less pressure to directly respond #and it might not feel the same for everyone since it could be jarring to get a notification saying friend feels miserable #but now that I've gotten used to it I don't feel like I need to solve their problems and make them feel better #Like they might be miserable because they're sick! So I check in and they say they're sick but okay and I don't feel the impulse to solve #like I would if I just didn't see them then saw them in person and saw they looked miserable #I don't blame myself or feel like I personally need to fix everything because I know they felt like that from an outside source I can't #control but I can certainly help them if they want! It's their choice tho and I don't feel bad if they don't/I can't #I feel less need to control my emotions/force them to be positive like I used to cause nobody feels positive 24/7 and I can see it #I don't feel the need to be politely content like I did in church because no one can be 24/7. I've attempted to get my family to start but #they're still stuck in needing to not be openly negative. It also helps me accept that negative feelings don't last forever #Someone feeling miserable because they're sick eventually puts they feel tired. Then chill and I know they feel better and I feel better too #Anyways thanks for listening to me ramble about my silly little feelings wheel app I hope it helps you like it helped me anon <3

[utilitycaster]

One of several things I left out of that long Imogen and Laudna post, tbh, because it was long enough already, is that since the characters, will continue to do things (or, through inaction, still cause things to happen) that cause problems, if you take all the lesser flaws off the table like Imogen being somewhat selfish or insensitive or having a skewed idea of hypocrisy? If you always rule out explanations reliant on fallibility or stupidity? You really only leave the door open for interpretations of outright deliberate malice.

#people really are out here like OBVIOUSLY laudna is imogen's only source of morality everyone else can die in her eyes #and then when you're like uh that sounds ungenerous they're like wow can't believe you see imogen in such a negative light #this happened with beau last campaign tbh. i made a joke about beau not calling out the right damage types #and this absolutely insane person was like um actually beau is perfect and the smartest #and i was like well if she's the smartest and molly died bc of incomplete information that would make her really malicious actually #and they got SO MAD #like. more generally. if you attack every discussion of a female character that doesn't exactly match your ideals #you know what happens? people who don't want drama will just stop talking about them altogether and focus on other characters #and people who don't mind a little mess will take the gloves off #cr tag

[gcldfanged]

🐇 ⇢ do you prefer writing original characters, reader inserts, or a mix of both? 

Original characters. All my muses, even canon muses, have some aspect that may overlap with my personality, outlook on life, or even past/background, but I have never really been comfortable with the idea of writing myself. I can't even tolerate writing privately in a journal about my feelings, because I want to tear it up or burn it out of sheer embarrassment. But that's what I have a psychiatrist for, I can talk about my issues to him and work things out verbally/face to face. Writing about myself is too difficult emotionally, too.

I don't judge others who write self-inserts since you can def do that through video games like Dragon Age or FFXIV, but I also don't think it's healthy to come at writers/roleplayers like they're just another version of some fictional character they personally want to bang. Like there's plenty of fanfic with what it says on the tin if you really need that kind of material, so it's insulting to treat writers that way? Not all self-inserts do that, but an alarming number of 'y/n' fics exist on tumblr (and I only know this because they use EVERY single gen tag in a fandom which is extra obnoxious), so I can OBVIOUSLY tell when someone is approaching one of my canons and just wants to use their muse to vicariously live through. It just isn't a good feeling, it's kind insulting and creepy at the same time.

#◈ ooc #strykingshot #sorry if this sounds super negative about self inserts but I rarely see any that don't pull this behavior #like my life also sucks hard enough that I'd never want to write myself in a fictional setting LMAO like I have had enough thanks #why would I want to write myself when I can write literally anyone else

[paperhats-and-evil-schemes]

Hope you're doing ok 🙏

Obligatory "Sorry for vanishing again", thought I might be somewhat functional this past winter, but unfortunately I'm still prone to sudden depression spirals around certain holidays.

Given that it's February, I'm probably going to be AWOL for a little while longer, but I'll live. Will probably be feeling a little more back to normal by March, so see you then, maybe. 👍

#Don't want to be sounding like a negative nellie holidays are just hard for me to power through sometimes #and the advertisements everywhere both online and irl don't help lol #OP #Figured I'd pop in while I had a moment of somewhat decent mental stability to reassure any worried folk and also clear out some #asks and also some of the MANY posts I have saved from all these beautiful beautiful artists out here good lord my drafts are overflowing

[inkblackorchid]

Feeling such an urge to go back and finally clean up the duel in Mirror these days. You have a Mirror, but do you see Yourself really is my ugly duckling in terms of fics somehow. I still love the premise, writing Sherry and Aki interacting was a delight, but with the large timeskip between To Bloom and Mirror, the slightly botched duel, and the fact that it really only works in tandem with the other stories, I'm not surprised it's getting the least attention. Really needed it for setup, though....

#I don't mean to sound negative here btw #I don't hate the fic or anything I'm just genuinely not surprised that it's the least popular #also the errors in the duel botherrrr meeeeeeee #I REALLY want to go back and fix that #because I'll probably call back to the story in the current WIP fic too #but also. the WIP fic is looming. it wants me to write. ceaselessly. #might sneak in time to fix it anyway #the next fic really needs to stick the landing and that requires good setup #anyway #fic writing updates #I guess? #work: you have a mirror