#I guess they can just say it’s magic

[misc-obeyme]

I don’t understand why they had to block out the eyes on the masks for this event. They’re not like that on the card art and it looks much better.

But the outfits? It freaks me out. Barb and Dia are tolerable because they only have half masks. But everybody else looks creepy. 😭

I’m sorry I’m sure it’s just me but I would’ve preferred if their eyes were visible.

#how do they see #I guess they can just say it’s magic #but why #I like to see their eyes #obey me #obey me nightbringer #late night nonsense posting #this is not the usual hour for late night nonsense posting #but I feel like the tag still applies #misc rambles

[scificrows]

i like to make fun of murderbot for being all "i hate everyone, i don't care about anything or anyone, fuck off" while simultaneously caring very much about the people around it and the situations it finds itself in. i love how it "accidentally" ends up caring quite a lot about the friends it makes along the way. but i think something that i tend to forget is that murderbot actively decides to care - at least at some point in its story.

idk, as a person that struggles with depression, this paragraph from artificial condition really resonates with me. prior to all systems red, murderbot had contracts. it had routine and it had protocols. it knew what it had to do to just get by, how to perform so no one would notice it had disabled its governor module. it was deeply depressed, yes, but it was functioning (for lack of a better word). in artificial condition, murderbot's routine is gone. it cannot go on in that state of numbly going-from-contract-to-contract, putting in as little effort as possible, consuming media to cope. that option is gone because it escaped (and note that escaping the company was not an active choice, it kinda happened to it). murderbot has two options now: it can either gather all its energy; actively do something new and difficult and distressing; change something in its life and try. or it can let the numbness and the emptiness take over and stop trying. if murderbot wants to survive as a rogue secunit, it has to try. no matter how difficult that is. the wording in that paragraph really hits home for me. the way the non-caring sees an opportunity to slip in and to take over. does murderbot even care? does anything really matter? is anything really worth the hassle? wouldn't it be so much easier to just let your mind slip away a little, to go numb, to be passive, to watch media and wait for things to happen to you? wouldn't it be nice to stop thinking and struggling and feeling complicated things? to stop making an effort? you've been dealing with a lot lately and maybe it's time to just shut down. maybe you'll just take a little break. just slip deeper into this chair and start the show. time flies when you're not paying attention. trying is exhausting. who cares if you don't do the things you wanted to do, you were supposed to do. it'll be fine. let's just ignore those things for now. just let the non-caring take over. just stop thinking. you can deal with the aftermath later. just watch your shows. who cares. but murderbot cares. it decides to care. it decides to fight with all it has and i think that is so brave. and i think in the later books caring is less of an active decision for murderbot. once you start caring, it's easier to keep going than to stop; and murderbot, for all its "i'm a grumpy rogue secunit, leave me alone" behavior, knows just how important caring is. so it's not that it doesn't know what's happening; rather, it lets itself care. tl;dr: caring is not the default for murderbot, it's just the more difficult of two options. and it decides not to take the soft option. it decides to struggle. it decides to care. and so it does.

#sorry i'm rambling i'm a little depressed rn (hah) and i've been thinking about murderbot again #at least writing this got me out of the adhd/depression paralysis :) yeah this might be self-indulgent so what #the murderbot diaries #murderbot #𓄿 #i just love martha wells' writing for things like that #and i love murderbot as a character so very much #also i'm pretty sure some of this could be read in a way i did not intend #i'm not trying to say that depressed people have the option to just not be depressed #or that it's as easy as going “okay well i can either care or not care... i guess i should care! done!” #listen i know it's not like that; i know that first hand #but murderbot had just enough energy and fight in it to try and it had people in its life that cared about it and helped it #and it managed to get out of that deep dark hole #and we see it struggling with trauma etc in the later books #things are not magically better #just yeah #okay imma add #tw depression #tw suicide #(this is not about suicide though; this is about sitting on the couch while the dishes and the laundry pile up #and watching netflix because getting up and taking care of yourself and calling a friend or going outside are too difficult) #(but i can see how this might hit a little close to home if that is something someone's struggling with&better safe than sorry) #also sending lots of love to everyone who this resonates with

[pangur-and-grim]

okay releasing another short chapter because I think it’s funny, don’t be mean or I’ll actually cry:

Chapter 25

“And this is – COME ON, MOVE FASTER – this is where the train docks. Don’t EVER go inside the train, it’s nothing but rusted metal. Do you know what tetanus is? Do you know what a train is? A train is like a long car.”

I didn’t know what a car was, but lacked the heart to tell her.

Despite her crooked nose (obviously healed from past violence), her imposing frame, and those muscles, Hydna bounded about with the eager friendliness of an over-large puppy. I’d stopped trying to shape my replies to please her, as anything I said, no matter how foolish or petulant, seemed to bring her delight. Most likely I could thank Merulo for lowering her standards of conversation.

“Moving right along now, this is – CAREFUL!” Hydna lunged at me, and I flinched, closing my eyes in brief cowardice, but she only yanked me back from the sink hole I’d been about to step into. “You’re a delicate little thing, so use your eyes, eh?” was my rebuke, along with a shoulder-shattering clap on the back.

“I’m above the average height for men,” I said, pointlessly, for she’d already moved to the next attraction of Poseidon’s Family Fun Resort. This section of the resort looked a proper horror show, with its crumbling merry facades and sun-bleached pigments, bearing the ghostly afterimages of smiling aquatic creatures. When Merulo and I first arrived via portal, we’d evidentially emerged in the section of the resort used for housing visitors, with all the blocky, tall buildings forming a quasi-neighbourhood that radiated out from the newly designated library plaza.

I found it bewildering that this underwater city had been built solely for transient entertainment, though I didn’t doubt Hydna’s explanation. Mentioning this to the sorcerer proved a mistake, as he simply said “Yes, I can imagine thinking is a great effort for you,” and then banished me to spend time with his sister. Or rather to “provide that creature with whatever form of entertainment you see fit, so that I might be spared its company.”

“Are you and Merulo not close?” I asked, remembering the exchange, then winced. I’d interrupted her explanation of a terrifying plastic wheel that stretched many feet up above us, complete with intermittently spaced chairs into which victims might be locked.

“Close?” She sounded baffled – and thankfully unoffended that I hadn’t been listening. “Of course not!”

I squinted up at the dragon woman. She’d dressed herself in relics for the tour, having wasted God knows how much magic in their restoration: a wide-brimmed hat embroidered with water droplets, crammed onto her massive skull, and a shirt stretched painfully tight over what might be either breasts or prodigious pectorals, its smiling fish illustration distorted into a boggle-eyed monster. Her baggy “pants”, which ended mid-thigh, burned an intense yellow-green that didn’t exist in nature. It felt cruel to ask someone so playfully dressed this question.

“Well, you are family! Shouldn’t there be, you know, some underlying love?”

Rather hypocritical, given that my own father likely fell asleep each night thinking of creative ways to kill me, but she didn’t have to know that.

“He’s a walking knife,” came her growled reply.

“Well, yeah.” I kicked around at loose bits of pavement. Intervening in Glenda’s various moods had gone some way toward thickening my skin, but I still shuddered at the waves of displeasure radiating from Hydna. “He’s a lonely guy, I think.”

“Might be less lonely if he weren’t such a piece of shit.” She met my eyes without blinking, and for a sickening moment I found myself mesmerized by their reptilian scarlet.

“You have to. . .” I clenched my teeth and resumed my kicking, concentrating my attentions on a particularly large and rounded chunk. I reminded myself that I owed the sorcerer my life and then some. “I don’t know. Meet him more than half-way? I think he does want company.”

“But is too much of a bastard for company to want him back.”

“Exactly!” I said, delighted that she’d completed my thought. This faded as I saw her expression. “That’s neat that you can raise one eyebrow like that. Good control of . . . uh, of your facial muscles.”

Hydna pointed to a circle of unicorn-sized crabs, complete with saddles, welded to a roofed platform that looked vaguely capable of motion. No half-shouted explanation followed, though; I’d succeeded in puncturing her enthusiasm.

“Those are cool,” I said lamely. Then, “It’s only because he’s been kind to me, when he didn’t have to be. Merulo, I mean. Not that everything’s been perfect, I didn’t much like the whole ‘torture needle’ thing, but –”

“The what?”

“Hang on, I’m coming to a point. Merulo might make a lot of insulting, degrading remarks, and he is overly obsessed with killing God –”

“This is a defense?”

“Hydna, please! What I mean is that, brushing aside all those little details, he’s always been there when I needed him most. Like when Glenda shot me full of arrows, or slit my throat, or –”

“Who the fuck is Glenda?”

“Hydna, come on, I didn’t ask you what a car was!” I rubbed at my stubble, wishing I could reach into my own head to pull my thoughts into order. “Merulo will be there for you, too, if you ever need him,” – and I hoped that was the truth – “So, it’d be good if you could both . . . try.” At her contorted grimace, I added, “I’ll talk to him too, promise. Same speech!”

The dragon woman exhaled deeply. “You’re an annoying little man, Cameron.”

“Again, above average height.”

#it's after the halfway point of the book where things have started going a bit batshit #it starts off as a bog standard European-medieval high fantasy #and then you learn that the entire civilization was built post an apocalypse event #and that the relics of the old society are all technological #so you start going why is this all medieval then? what's with the magic? #and can I say. the answer at the very end is so much dumber than you'll ever guess #(don't worry it's not a hallucination or a dream or the matrix or whatever. everything is real. its just real for a stupid reason) #book

[anghraine]

I think it's interesting that when Gandalf describes Denethor's ability to "perceive, if he bends his will thither, much of what is passing in the minds of men," he ties it less to his wisdom or general insightfulness (though he possesses both) than to his difference from "other men of this time," his near total Númenóreanness, and as bolded here, the active exercise of his will.

Tolkien also attributes Denethor's resilience against Sauron (by contrast with Saruman) to not only his right to use the Anor-stone, but "great strength of will." He notes that Sauron had no servant with greater mental powers than Saruman or Denethor, and Gandalf remarks that Denethor was "too great" to be subdued to Sauron's will.

Denethor and Gandalf have a strange and unsettling silent confrontation, carried on by their gazes, yet it strikes Pippin as like "a line of smouldering fire" and "as if reading each other's mind." Gandalf afterwards says Pippin was stuck between two "terrible old men," lumping Denethor in with himself. Pippin also sees some kind of kinship between Denethor and Gandalf, as Sam saw between Faramir and Gandalf.

In his letters, Tolkien said that the ancient Númenóreans became barely distinguishable from Elves in appearance and in their powers of mind. In Unfinished Tales, he notes that they loved their horses, and when a Númenórean had a strong bond with a horse, it was said that the horse could be summoned "by thought alone."

In LOTR, Faramir—who has inherited Denethor's Númenóreanness/wizardliness—has a reputation for command over both animals and men. When everyone else is thrown by their horses upon being chased by five Nazgûl, he not only keeps his seat, but mysteriously gets his horse to ride back towards the Nazgûl. And during the retreat across the Pelennor, the soldiers in the city conclude that Faramir must be with the men who are managing to retreat in order, repeating Beregond's remark that he has some undefined command over both men and beasts.

Gandalf suggests that this is a result of Faramir pitting himself against the effects of the Nazgûl in some way, but his abilities (whatever they are) are outmatched. In the event, the effect of Faramir's Aura of Courage commanding abilities remains until he's shot and finally falls to the Black Breath.

Faramir also makes repeated references to perceiving or reading things in Gollum's mind. At one point, he describes Gollum's mind as dark and closed, yet unable to prevent Faramir from detecting that he's holding something back about Cirith Ungol specifically. Noticeably, this only happens when Faramir orders Gollum to look at him (which Gollum does "unwillingly"), and the light drains from his eyes as he meets Faramir's. It seems decidedly reminiscent of the later Gandalf vs Denethor duel-by-eye-contact.

Faramir's exact words about Gollum's secrecy are "That much I perceived clearly in his mind," in reference to his earlier questioning of him. He says that he can "read" previous murders in Gollum and Gollum cries out in pain when he tries to lie to him.

When Faramir gives staves to Frodo and Sam, he says that a "virtue" of finding and returning has been placed on them, with zero explanation of what he means by that. He adds a hope that the virtue will not altogether fail under Sauron's power in Mordor. He describes the people who did the woodwork but not who placed the virtues (it doesn't seem inherent to the wood itself, given his phrasing).

We do know that Dúnedain can potentially embed enchantments into items. The Barrow-daggers carried by Merry and Pippin are specifically enchanted against the Witch-king of Angmar by an unknown Dúnadan of the North, and when Merry stabs the Witch-king, the dagger breaks enough spells for Éowyn's ordinary sword to finish the job.

Meanwhile, Aragorn uses his healing powers to help the city, wishing for the presence of Elrond, because he is their eldest of their kind and more powerful. Aragorn, also, has at least some part of this ability to actively exercise his will and mental powers, perhaps an equal share, though he uses it less often.

In the book, he doesn't physically attack the Mouth of Sauron, but instead holds his gaze (again, eye contact is important!). There's another silent struggle that involves no weaponry or any other contact.

He prevails in some way over the Mouth of Sauron (not a warped creature of Sauron in the book, but a cruel Númenórean who has "learned great sorcery"). The Mouth indignantly says he has diplomatic immunity and can't be attacked like this.

But, I mean, maybe they're all just smart and perceptive, it's really unclear.

#eldritch dúnedain WHEN #because i am very aware that this could be deeply unsettling if presented just a bit differently! #but it is wild to me that tolkien can outright say 'this guy is a númenórean who learned sorcery' #and people are still like 'but can númenóreans use magic. i guess we'll never know.' #or have faramir give his whole speech about what gollum's mind looks like to him and what he can see clearly in it #fandom: idk it's just really unclear #gandalf: denethor can see what happens in other people's minds if he exercises his will #fandom: a great mystery ... maybe he's just very wise and insightful??? #tolkien: the dúnadan who enchanted the daggers would be happy to know his spells worked and helped defeat the witch-king #fandom: númenórean craftmanship is /skilled/ of course but how can we make this about elves #honestly it seems like people don't /want/ númenóreans to have supernatural abilities and i'm not sure why #humans who have elvish-style powers and appearance yet can never escape their humanity is SUCH a concept #(yes i will harp on this until the end of time) #anghraine babbles #legendarium fanwank #legendarium blogging #long post #húrinionath

[theprinceandthewitch]

Hmm... it's interesting how they made Luz wear a witch's cloak in Hunting Palisman - the episode where she introduces Flapjack to Hunter. This is also the episode where Hunter defies Belos by choosing Luz over him. He goes back to his palace empty-handed and he doesn't hand over Flapjack to Belos. Unbeknownst to Hunter, he is following Caleb's footsteps.

But then, in Hollow Mind, they made the choice to have Luz not wear her witches cloak - instead they made Luz wear a jacket with a giant "E" on it. They could have given Luz a completely different outfit like they did in Hunting Palisman. But they don't... they make her wear this specific jacket...

...They also make Hunter wear Caleb's symbol in Hollow Mind... an episode where Luz and Hunter are trapped in Philip's mind... where we can see paintings of the two most important characters in Philip's life - his brother and a witch from another world.

But I'm sure this is all unintentional.

You know, like this is:

oh, nbd, just a painting being paralleled with the scene happening right before our eyes

here's a more high def image of the painting

Oh, hmm, okay, this is a painting of Caleb standing next to a witch with short dark brown hair and who just so happens to be a witch from another world. Both of them are startled by Philip...

Hunter, the Grimwalker who looks the most like Caleb, is standing next to someone who ALSO just so happens to be a witch from another world with short dark brown hair... both are startled by Philip's monster form...

Hmm, must be unintentional I guess.

there's also this:

Mhm, okay, I see... I see, very interesting. Here we have Caleb being lead away from Philip by a witch from another world after the brother's have a fall out. This fall out marks the point of no return for them, as Philip later kills Caleb out of anger.

Hunter and Philip's relationship completely deteriorates because of Luz, which leads to Philip's decision to kill Hunter. She shows Hunter Belos' true nature and she offers Hunter sanctuary at The Owl House right after he finds out Belos has been lying to him his whole life... Luz saves Hunter's life and changes it forever.

Hmmm... very interesting

But I'm sure this is unintentional [I'm being sarcastic]

#lunter #there is literally no way they didn't have a name for Evelyn at this point bc they already had a final design for her character. #Hunter also saves himself using wild magic - the thing he was taught to fear - in this episode. #i like the implication - regardless if it was intentional or not - that wild magic saved Hunter from meeting the same fate of Caleb. #Once In Hollow Mind and the second time in TTT - Flapjack is made of wild magic #hm. interesting. #I also like how Flapjack is the one who brought Hunter back looking like Caleb... in an episode where he asks Luz #-who is dressed like a witch and is #a witch from another world - to help him avenge the physical representation of Caleb and Evelyn's love #interesting. Since TOH was canceled right after TTT i guess we'll know how the ending would play out :( #but yeah TOH has an audacity abt it where it thinks it can just eff around for a full season #without ever letting the protagonist and main antagonistic force intereact UNTIL the end of season 1 #so crazy #speaking of TTT I still can't believe they made Hunter's fav animal wolves knowing Luz's school team is called wolves #then they color coded his wolf shirt and made that one lady say Luz must have been raised by wolves #hm yes. unintentional. whatever helps the antis sleep at night #like how that lunter kiss in SAI was unintentional teehee

[mixed-up-metaphors]

unfortunately i will not be explainign this either

good luck following along, numbering the parts barely helped lol (also my handwriting is a disaster)

#i have a habit of simultaneously taking my art very seriously and not seriously at all #the result is nonsense like this #does. does anyone wanna guess what i had caspar class as ultimately in my second run (and will in my third) #definitely not a class that uses axes/brawling but can also heal #and definitely not for the sole purpose of healing almost exclusively one other certain unit #PRETEND I SPELLED VULNERARIES CORRECTLY LOL #also pretend i remembered the name of healing magic-using classes and didn't just generalize under “healers”... #i do like to think caspar would carry linhardt around like a football #caspar von bergliez #linhardt von hevring #tw blood #cw blood #tw injury #while most of this reflects my second run (AM) #i will say byleth having the all healing items happened more in my first run (CF) #actually that's not quite accurate either - the one who always had healing items was hubert bECAUSE THAT MAN HAS NO HP AND NO DEFENSE. #in all that rambling i nearly forgot to tag the game itself! #fe:3h

[possessable]

Work In Progress EEXTREMELY rough animatic to another uhhhhhhhhhhh epic the musical song becuause my friend showed me more of the songs and I was like "how do i make this about my ocs"

#context to this is that it's the part where oas . threatens to kill lesday if her and vernon don't take off their Magic Necklaces #so she can infect them. except i...didnt want the entire animatic to just be Oas in the Unmoving Statue staring them down for 1:30 minutes #so for the sake of this animatic lets just say Vernon and Oas can communicate with each other on the dream/magic plane and that's what's #going on here i guess. which isn't canon but also in this hypothetical scenario lesday can only see The Actual World so #to her it /does/ just look like oas and vernon are staring at each other for a minute and a half which is really funny to me #video #espialposting #characteroas #characterlesday #charactervernon

[roomy-ghosted]

I think my run's bugged as Gale just hasn't asked for a single artifact at all. Which is great for me ngl, free extra gold when i need to sell stuff.

But god, the angst potential of him feeling the weave underneath his chest strain, fight and claw at him, desperate and hungry like the starved beast it is. Feeling himself on the edge of death constantly but not wanting to burden his companions with the matter. Not wanting to burden you with the matter. So he just continues on, prenteding that there isn't something eating away at him inside, that he isn't a ticking time bomb quite literally waiting to explode.

#i haven't had the cutscene where he says 'yeah bro i dont think magic items can sustain me anymore' #so he just #isn't hungry. at all. ever. #save-time im at 9h (reality of like- fucking 20 because i forgot to save and missed a romance flag; leaving no fun magic at teifling party. #instead i just got him lookin at mystra :penisve:. this was the cool and epic magic you wanted to show me? minor illusion? man.) #anyway actual tags now: #bg3 #gale of waterdeep #gale dekarios #bg3 gale #baldurs gate 3 #act 1 spoilers #baldurs gate 3 spoilers #i guess? its only act 1 though #but yeah no he's just. never asked for one #and im almost done cleaning up act 1. #so like- angst mode activate #yes im romancing him also btw. because. gale :) man sold himself HARD with the kittybird.

[stop-breaking-my-heart-dragonage]

Me, when Sebastian joins my party for the first time: Okay, this time I'm not going to forget about you, Sebastian. I'm going to make an effort to use you a lot this playthrough so I can better understand you.

Also me, immediately forgetting about Sebastian while finishing Act 2 and making it halfway through Act 3 before I finally notice his Faith quest: ......................Oh. Right. My bad.

#da2 #dragon age 2 #sebastian vael #listen in my defense..........i don't like bringing sebastian anywhere sksksks #okay look i seriously tried but every time i bring him somewhere i always think man i wish i had brought someone else #and also i do just forget about him! i finally added him to my party at one point and he had 24 points to spend... #that's how long i neglected him after i promised myself i was gonna use him more and then i didn't #it's not that i don't like sebastian as a character though i do tend to side eye him A LOT... it's just that i like everyone else more #even aveline like i'd take aveline over sebastian any day and that's saying something... or is it? i have a lot of feelings about aveline #whereas my feelings about sebastian could maybe fill a thimble...it doesn't help that in my canon run as a mage hawke #i romance anders and well... sebastian wants me to kill anders and my hawke is like 'do i approve of blowing up the chantry? complicated.' #'am i breaking up with anders for this? absolutely. do i still love him? mmhmmm. am i going to kill him sebby? i'd sooner set varric aflame #then sebastian threatens to bring an army to kirkwall and leaves so i can't say i have the greatest opinion on him #even the time where i did kill anders and he stayed in my party he was just... there #and then he glitched out and started t posing while asking if ed ever found out what anders wanted to do in the chantry so..... yeah #but even this playthrough where i'm playing as a lady warrior with a different personality and everything... i'd just rather use anyone els #also keep him away from bethany i do not approve sksksks she's too good for him #i want to understand and see the different angles of him like with the other companions but i've yet to convince myself to do it #also sebastian romancers out there can you like... explain? genuinely can you explain the appeal? i'm curious #because of all the love interests in da2 i look at sebastian and you'd think i'd maybe be more interested? but it's like... #i know about the chaste marriage and everything like that's fine i don't need sex to be a thing in the relationship but it feels less like #an asexual romance and more like... y'know... being with a priest and i guess that's just not one of my kinks? sksksks #i guess there's also the prince angle but i romanced alistair in dao and kept him a grey warden i don't really care about royalty power #and i don't have issues with him being a part of the chantry [well i do but yknow what i mean] since i romanced cullen in dai #and his whole deal with the chantry and magic and shit makes his romance interesting to me but sebastian is just.... a bit too much i think #i don't know i'd like to understand because i really don't but i also keep forgetting about him

[ducktracy]

A VERY HAPPY 110TH BIRTHDAY TO FRANK TASHLIN! i genuinely went into a cold sweat at the prospect of forgetting—one of my all time favorite directors, cartoon or live action, as well as creative influences as a whole. every time i see his work i’m left thinking “you can DO THAT?” like above.

he’s one director where i genuinely struggle to think about any duds in his filmography (outside of some select pieces aging poorly, but even those often are tight on a wholly technical aspect .)

whether it be cartoons, stop motion, live action, or illustration, he has a transcendent tone that consistently leaves me spellbound. so much energy, so much ingenuity, so much boldness, and none of it ever feels pompous or stuffy. as an influence, i’m seriously indebted to him.

#i think his influence follows me most in my day to day as not only how i draw cartoons but how i interpret them #live action as well. #like i’m always thinking of his silhouettes and strong line of action when working on SpongeBob which is a show with a heavy emphasis on #those principles #as well as studying consciousness behind motives in cartoons and films whether from a filmmaker or my own motives in my own cartoons #like he is just. 100% inspiration #a director like Bob Clampett is too but i feel like i understand his work more. not that i don’t understand Tashlin’s but my sensibilities #along a lot with Clampett’s so i can sort of understand his line of thinking in certain shorts. i wouldn’t say i’m equal with him because #that is horribly egotistical of me to every imply that i’m as good as him but i do have a. i guess familiarity with his approach #whereas Tashlin while my sensibilities also align with his a lot i’m always asking HOW. how did he do this. how. how did he think of doing #this. his work is genuine magic to me #happy birthday Tish Tash! #lt #porky pig’s feat #tashlin #vid

[suddencolds]

.

#not snz and not a vent... just passive musing #had a dream two nights ago where someone who i used to know (and love a little) wished me goodbye with a #kiss to the hand before i flew away from them forever on a magic chair #which is very stud//io g//hi//bli-esque and frankly very unserious but #the feeling of grief i felt saying goodbye to a friendship which i had once held so close to me - and which i know can probably never #be as close as it was at that point in my life - stuck with me for a long time even after i woke up #it's been something i've been thinking about for awhile... but the dream felt like such a concrete and painful severance #i think that like a childish part of me wants to hold the people i'm close to at #the same distance and trust that they will stay there forever #but logically i know it's natural that the people i met under certain circumstances might drift apart once those circumstances change #for one or both of us... i guess friendship really is just a lucky convergence at one point in time where everything aligns #like i know this and i have known this for awhile but god does it hurt #especially those kinds of goodbyes that feel so gradual... not like a clear severing of ties but just a gradual disappearance #i think i probably have to not feel so hung up over what i used to have. and for the most part i am not; life goes on #but for those people? #i sometimes just miss them #there's a special kind of hurt knowing that i could reach out to them and say hello and that they would probably respond but that it might #never be quite the same again

[cillyscribbles]

i love you broken speech i love you heavy accents i love you regional dialects i love you pidgins i love you sociolinguistics i love you beginner speakers i love you interjections i love you language

#learning language is genuinely such a magical thing #(ie absolute hell while you're doing it but god it feels so GOOD afterwards) #kinda like art. guess that's why i like it haha #cilly.txt #i'm just. man! thinking today #thinking about how my friends keep enduring me rambling on and on about lithuanian registers near daily because i find them so fascinating #thinking about how i sometimes say a phrase i translated in my head and get a weird look because it's not a thing in english #thinking about how nice it is to be taught by people who can tell just how GARBAGE you are right now but theyre genuinely thrilled #that youre trying and making an effort #thinking about how my teacher fr just told me to stick my tongue out so i could pronounce the danish 'dd' easier #thinking about how some kids had to spell out their names 3 times to me in lithuanian sign language because it was my first time there #but god were they thrilled when i finally got it #man #humans #learning #it's all so incredible isn't it #just #what an experience my god

[spleen9000]

huh apparently wood cutting boards are fairly antimicrobial due to absorption of moisture by the wood and (depending on your washing & prep practices) can harbor less bacteria than plastic cutting boards

#just saw something saying you shouldn't cut meat on wood cutting boards and thought that seemed fishy with no context and I guess it was #plastic is not a magically more foodsafe material..... #also theoretically you can sand down an old cut up wood board #and in my food service experience those plastic boards get all rough and cut up sooo fast #and like they're put in soapy water and sanitizer so it's fine #but it doesn't seem like it would be an inherently safer food prep surface in any way #people are also cleaning their wooden boards with soap like. how would plastic be any better in the first place #look this up yourself though before telling other people I'm just some guy on the internet not a food safety expert

[cityandking]

ok. daichi dragon age au. seeker of truth — trained healer but still first and foremost a seeker, more templar-adjacent, heavy on the shield imagery and the stubbornness of justice, staunchly andrastian but operating outside the bounds of the chantry

OR. daichi from a super remote mountain dalish clan that his dad took refuge with when daichi was a wee baby for mumblemumble reasons; trained healer and the keeper's first (keeper helaine?); half-human so a little awkward and ungainly compared to the rest of the dalish kids but stubbornly making up for his deficits

#I just can't decide if I want him to be a mage or not. on the one hand yeah he should be! #he could be a follower of Mythal or Sylaise and really devout. then he has to leave the clan for some reason and he can pass as human #but it's such a strange thing being out in a world so different from the one he knows and have to recalibrate everything #but ALSO SoT daichi so steady in his faith that he calls a spirit of faith to him and that being a guiding part of him as a person— #not necessarily faith in the maker or andraste but just the undiluted belief in doing what is right and just #plus the shield imagery. tho I guess dalish!dai could have a shield. and who's to say the seekers can't have magical healing if they want #also it makes his dad's story way different if he's andrastian or dalish soooo. yeah. anyway. #I'm permitting myself one (1) procrastination ocposting before I go back to work #daichi #.dragon age au

[child-of-hurin]

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Can't stop thinking about this interview where the interviwer said mona awad's book was of the magical realism genre and mona awad agreed aghsbsdnjfmg

#I remember a super shitty quote attributed to terry pratchett about how 'magical realism' was #just a pretentious way of saying 'fantasy' #i still think that's an EXTREMELY ignorant thing to say & that it's an extra bad look coming from an anglo-- #--but my god. I guess i can see where it comes from i guess #inane post

[chibishortdeath]

Heyyyy, remember Billy Danasty, well I got around to drawing another OC. Her name is Gloria Tzuentes. She’s not a descendant of Drolta, but she is distantly related to her through other extended family members. All her life she’s been outcast and bullied because of some of her family members’ poor history with the law. She has a lot of trouble trusting people. When they first meet, she and Billy do not get along, she initially thinks he’s a coward and a jerk. Billy thinks she’s a huge hypocrite and careless. As the story progresses tho, they both realize they’ve been putting up fronts for similar reasons and have a lot more in common than they thought.

Her sprite is supposed to be a similar color palette as Sypha, just with that darker bluish to stand in for black. It was really difficult trying to get her blazer right, and I still kinda think the sprite makes it look like a hoodie, but yeah d(TwT ). The color looks really crushed and messed up cause for some reason instagram did that to it lol.

Also! Billy Danasty with his hair down! :3 Yeah anyway, she’s cool, I gotta think more about other characters and plot points and stuff for this cause it’s been fun making Castlevania OCs tbh.

#castlevania #castlevania games #castlevania oc #akumajou dracula #my ocs #tzuentes oc #art post #my art #yippie! characters #agdjfkshsjfakflja yeah but please remember: she is not a descendant of Drolta #I kinda see the Tzuentes family as being a different magic family similar to how the Benaldes is #they’ve just had a really rough history with having a historical serial killer be their main claim to fame oof #and Gloria has had to hear about it often oof #her story is gonna be kinda a ‘you aren’t doomed to be just like your family even if that’s all people expect of you’ kind of a thing #and yeah she does find out she can do magic stuff but she doesn’t know it’s real initially #aaaaa idk what else to say and I gotta go grocery shopping today so I can’t be online much aughushajdjsk #ok bye hope she’s cool I guess d(>.< )