#I spent way too long doing this but tbh I got distracted a bunch lmao

[urdrowning]

Hi :)

If you are taking requests, could you please do a Leah oneshot?

Maybe one where reader is really famous (a singer/model/actress/or whatever) and her and Leah have been dating for a while in secret. And Leah’s teammates are suspicious of who’s she’s always spending time with or texting.

Also if you could, could you include Leah introducing reader to them?

Could be England or Arsenal teammates. Or both lol.

Thank you :))

AN - tysm for the request !! i kinda got lazy at the end cause i caught covid while writing LMAO. i don’t really like the ending. MAYBEEEE i have a part two in mind of a soft launch.. maybe i don’t..

superstar / l. williamson

celebrity relationships are always awkward. when you’re under constant spotlight, it can be hard to settle down. finding someone who actually loves you for yourself, and not for your status isn’t easy. so that’s why you truly believe yourself to be the luckiest of the bunch.

leah williamson, your diamond in the rough.

you met leah at the BRIT awards in 2022. the minute you made eye contact with her brilliant blue eyes, electricity coursed its way through the both of you. the two of you spent the entire night together, getting to know each other. sat on tables next to each other, conversing through the speeches and nominations.

“if you win this award, i’ll take you on a date.”

she smirks at you and you’re taken aback. you’ve been so caught up in her presence that you didn’t realise that your section was up. you and your band have been nominated for the best upcoming artist award (tbh idk if this is a thing. if it’s not, pretend it is) before you even know it, the announcer has taken the stage and begins to announce the winner.

“and the winner of the best upcoming artist award is..”

you can barely even comprehend what they are saying, you’re rather distracted by leah’s hand, as she moves it to discreetly hold yours under the table. you’re in a blur as the announcer continues and you don’t even hear who wins. but, judging by how your band mates have all stood-up and look like they’ve won the lottery, you’ve got a pretty decent bet. you get hoisted up by your band mates as you walk on stage for the group’s acceptance speech. you let your band mates do the talking, as you’re too dazed to even think. (this very much goes viral in with your fans. your ‘fish out of water look’ is now a fan favourite meme)

despite suffering from equally massive hangovers, she’s true to her word, leah took you out on a date the following night. even though it was a small date at the arcade, you would probably still consider it one of your most fondest memories. on your third date, you kissed her. then, on the following night, she showed up on your doorstep, flowers in hand, asking you to be her girlfriend.

your one year anniversary together is approaching and the two of you are still as inseparable as you were when you first met. despite not being together for long, the both of you are unable to picture a future without the other in it.

leah is a private person, as are you. you both agreed to keep your relationship quiet and between yourselves. but, with your relationship approaching it’s first milestone, the both of you are getting restless. neither your family nor your friends are aware of your relationship.

how you’ve managed to keep it a secret from your band mates is a mystery of scooby doo fame. especially since you literally share an apartment with one of them. you consider your band mates your own found family, your forever bestfriends. each of you have been best friends since secondary school, and clearly, have been inseparable since. ironically, you’re all major football enthusiasts as well. you and your band mates are die hard lioness fans, even attending the euro’s competition in support (again, it’s a mystery how they didn’t find out. leah wouldn’t stop smiling at you in the crowd) leah struggled as well, her teammates are getting suspicious. the way she hides her phone from them as she giggles at it when you text.

“you’re seeing someone, aren’t you.”

leah’s head shoots up from her phone at the voice, only to be met with a suspicious looking keira walsh. looking at her with an accusatory stare.

“w.. what are you talking about?”

leah stutters out in an attempts to deny it all, but keira can see right through her, and is determined to get the truth out.

“don’t pretend leah, i know somethings up.”

leah sighs and looks down, avoiding kiera’s glare. she shrugs her shoulders lightly and appears similar to a child who’s got caught breaking the rules. she then reluctantly and awkwardly mutters

“yeah, i guess i’ve being seeing someone..”

keira’s stern gaze breaks as she excitedly sits down next to her friend and grabs her arms, flinging her about as she rapidly fires questions at her.

“who is it? what are they like? how long have you guys been together? are you being safe?”

leah looks mortified. she’s getting overwhelmed with the amount of questions that are being fired at her.

“keira, for gods sake, slow down! we’ve been together for almost a year now, and she treats me well.”

keira pauses her movements, looking at leah with her mouth agape.

“.. a YEAR?? who is she?”

——

“i’m so sorry, babe. i didn’t mean for this.”

leah feels incredibly guilty. she stares at you through the phone screen after relaying the earlier events to you. you’ve been quiet since she started telling you, appearing to be lost in thought. after leah’s fifth apology, it seems you snap out of your trance and smile at her.

“leah, honey, breathe. it’s okay, i’m not mad. it’s about time we started telling people.”

you truly mean it, you honestly feel quite relieved that she made the first move in telling her teammates, as you’ve been fairly close to cracking the news to your band mates yourself.

the thought of telling your band mates makes you nervous, you don’t know why. there’s nothing bad about your relationship. it’s not like you’re dating someone 29 years younger than you (looking at you, leo dicaprio) besides, they are lioness fans themselves and would most likely be elated at the news of you dating their team captain.

“i know, but i should’ve talked with you before-hand.”

leah secretly is filled with relief as well, she no longer has to hide her love from her friends. but it doesn’t make her feel any better about how she told them.

“you’re talking to me about it now, i think that’s enough.”

she shakes her head lightly, fighting off a smile. you always manage to cheer her up, no matter what. it’s as if you have super powers.

“i would’ve told you sooner, but keira’s loudmouth blabbed it to the rest of the team. i’ve been questioned all night.”

the minute she had free time, she’d facetimed you straight away. after she found out who leah was dating, keira’s shocked exclamation of your name definitely didn’t go unheard. her england teammates had hounded her with question after question about you and your relationship together.

you’re about to reply to her before she lets out a yawn. you check the time and realise it’s late into the night.

“go rest, sleepy. i’ll talk to rory and get her to speak to my other band mates for me. i’ll speak to you in the morning, okay? love you.”

she smiles at you sleepily as she mumbles

“love you too, goodnight..”

you end the call and take a deep breathe as you prepare to face your bandmate/roommate, rory. you and her have been inseparable for years. you always planned on telling her first out of your friends and family, you have the utmost trust for her and you’re hoping she’ll be understanding and not upset at you for hiding your relationship from her. you exhale slowly as you get up from your bed and knock on her door.

——

leah 💗:

‘my teammates want to meet you x’

the text almost instantaneously shoots anxiety through your veins. despite being a big fan of them, meeting leah’s teammates is an incredibly daunting thing. they intimidate the hell out of you.

y/n 🤍:

leah 💗:

‘baby it’s okay. if you’re not comfortable with it i’ll tell them no x’

yn 🤍:

‘no no. ofc i want to meet them, they’re just intimidating is all’

leah 💗:

‘aw babe you’re cute 🥰 they’re harmless. and i’ll stop them if they make u uncomfortable. promise x’

you both texted for a little while longer while agreeing that leah would come pick you up and take you to meet her teammates.

you told your band mates last night and it went down well. they were slightly hurt that you kept it from them but were mostly just excited for you and in shock that you managed to pull leah williamson herself. your train of thought is interrupted from the vibration of your phone, lighting up with a text from leah to let you know she’s outside.

she grins at you as you get into the passenger side of her car, leaning over to kiss you cheek.

“are you sure about this?”

she mumbles against your cheek, you can sense her nerves. she’s not nervous because she’s ashamed of you. she’s nervous because she can’t guarantee that her teammates will behave around you.

“i’m sure. i want to do this, it’s important to me.”

she smiles slightly at you, your words holding a great value to her. she then gives you one last kiss on the cheek before she starts the car and drives.

——

“girls, this is y/n. i’m sure you already know her, but please, be nice. she’s really important to me.”

leah’s grip on your hand tightens towards the end of her sentence as her sincerity shines through. it’s true, she cares about you enough to go to the ends of the earth for you.

“hi, it’s really good to meet you all. i’m a big fan.”

the rest of the girls sit there, disbelieving.

“YOU’RE a fan of US”

you chuckle sheepishly, using your freehand to play with the hem of your shirt nervously, one glance at the lionesses faces and you know you’re in for a tornado’s worth of questions. with a deep inhale, you smile and look at them.

“ask away.”

——

after being bombarded with question after question, the awkward and intense atmosphere has long left the room and you’re sat comfortable between leah and georgia. leah’s arm is wrapped comfortably and protectively around your shoulders, one glance at her face and you can see that she’s on cloud nine. all her favourite people are seamlessly bonding and she couldn’t be happier about it.

“let’s play a game!”

the loud voice of ella toone shouts, followed by the loud agreements of the lionesses. ella then excitedly follows up with a shout of ‘duck, duck goose’ but nobody else wants to play that. (ella hmu i wanna play duck duck goose with you so bad)

“y/n! if i win, i get to choose your next album cover!”

mary shouts, you smile at her and agree, feeling confident.

(you lost, now you have to explain to your band mates that mary earp’s is in charge of your next album cover.)

#leah williamson #leah williamson x reader #leah williamson imagine #leah williamson fanfic #woso fanfic #woso community #woso x reader #woso imagine #engwnt x reader #engwnt

[nxtherold]

𝐂𝐎𝐃𝐄𝐗  :  𝐃𝐄𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐈𝐂  𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒

A compilation of what the Nightmare says to each muse in the Fade, what their tombstones say, and what their Fears appear as.

𝐀𝐕𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐀 𝐇𝐀𝐖𝐊𝐄

What her fears appear as:           Her fears appear as the people she cares for, both alive and dead, corrupted by red lyrium. Templars and Mages from her time in Kirkwall are among these faces as well.

What her tombstone says:           Not Being Good Enough

What Nightmare says to her in the Fade:           “Nothing you did mattered, Hawke. All you ever did was make things worse. Carver and your mother both died because you were too weak to save them, you foolish girl. Bethany, (Fenris / other love interest), and whoever else you have left will all die. Knowing your history, it will certainly be your fault when the time comes, and you’ll have to watch the life leave their eyes. A familiar view, isn’t it, Hawke? So familiar that I imagine you’re seeing it in your head at this very moment. Ah, yes, what an accurate depiction of the fate awaiting anyone who dares care for a girl as cursed as you."

𝐍𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐃𝐑𝐈 𝐓𝐀𝐁𝐑𝐈𝐒

What her fears appear as:           Vaughan and his henchmen as well as slavers from Tevinter

What her tombstone says:           Oppression

What Nightmare says to her in the Fade:          "Why are you even here, elf? All your efforts to elevate your people have been for nought. When will you grow tired of being an accessory to heroes far greater than you could ever pretend to be? You were born from nothing, just like your mother, and you will die just as she did: as nothing. No title, no status could change that.”

𝐈𝐒𝐀𝐁𝐄𝐋𝐀

What her fears appear as:           Herself, given wholly to the qun. Also the Arishok, Rasaan, her mother, and Luis. Quite frankly, there’s a lot of faces from her past that Nightmare can use against her.

What her tombstone says:          Losing Herself

What Nightmare says to her in the Fade:         "You think I could ignore your presence, pirate? A most curious return to the Fade indeed. I’m just waiting to see when you’ll plunge your dagger into the Inquisitor’s back, just like you did to Hawke years ago. But she didn’t tell anyone about that, did she? What a good friend. Too good for you. And even after all the times you betrayed her you still had the nerve to cling to her coattails and leech off of whatever glory might fall your way. You see yourself as the captain of the ship, Isabela, but you belong on the bottom of the boat, not in the captain’s cabin. You are truly, and irredeemably, scum. The day will come when all of your so-called friends wipe you from their boots as they should have rightfully done years ago.”

𝐑𝐎𝐒𝐀𝐑𝐀 𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐒𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐃

What her fears appear as:          Various people she killed during the Blight.

What her tombstone says:         Despair

What Nightmare says to her in the Fade:        "The great Hero of Ferelden. Ah, look at you now, little Cousland. Bryce’s darling pup. You never had a choice, did you? They shoved that rot down your throat, clad you in silver, and told you to be a hero. And you’ve hated what you are every day since then. You can still feel it, the taint, as hot and fresh in your veins as the first day. How long till you become a shell? How long until the voices call to you, before dark hands drag you down into the abyss? Oh, my dear, what a pitiful existence. You saved the world, yet your life is unfulfilled, and it will never be. No amount of glory can make you content, because you’re too empty to ever feel whole again. But such is the tale of many heroes. I wonder, will you find your end at your Calling? Or will you become like Loghain first, too blind to see that you’ve torn down your own house. You are ruined either way. You will always, even after your last breath, be ruined.”

𝐎𝐂𝐓𝐀𝐕𝐈𝐀 𝐃𝐄 𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐔𝐋𝐓

What her fears appear as:           a ghostly apparition of the Shame of Serault

What her tombstone says:         Inability

What Nightmare says to her in the Fade:         "Yet another noble lady playing the part of a caged bird. But you're not caged, and you haven't been for a while. You know you could have done something about your brother before he got himself in such a sorry state. Instead you chose to smile and pretend everything was okay and then retreat into the woods whenever his anger turned in your direction. You stopped the people from overthrowing him. You let him continue down his dark path because you were either too incapable or too unwilling to confront him. Caspien may be cruel, Octavia, but you're effete, and Serault will be in far worse hands when you are eventually forced to step up and do what you should have done long ago. I truly pity the mortals who have so long been at the mercy of your family and will continue to suffer at your cursed hands for one more generation: the worst generation, surpassing even the horrors of the Shame's reign."

𝐏𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐎𝐑𝐀 𝐌𝐀𝐄𝐑𝐄

What her fears appear as:          Herself.

What her tombstone says:         Weakness

What Nightmare says to her in the Fade:         "Ah, the Bane of the Wicked. That is what you were once called, yes? How ironic it is that you are the most wicked of all. If I didn't know better, I'd swear you were one of us."

𝐂𝐀𝐋𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐀

What her fears appear as:          A vanguard of Tevinter slaves, turned against her by their masters.

What her tombstone says:         Silence

What Nightmare says to her in the Fade:        "You were never free, Calpernia, and you never will be. You simply keep hopping from one master to the next. It won’t be long before there is no one willing to take your side. No one to stand for you. We all know that you cannot make it on your own. You’re a girl playing a revolutionary, but make no mistake that it is make-believe. You’re merely a puppet, and your existence only matters when there is someone to pull your strings."

𝐀𝐑𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐄 𝐃𝐄 𝐒𝐀𝐕𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐍𝐄

What her fears appear as:         Tevinter slave-hunters.

What her tombstone says:         Loss of Identity

What Nightmare says to her in the Fade:        "How does it feel to be a pet, Arsine? Spending your days dancing away for the nobles in their plays? Sure, you get to come to court and play the Game, but you'll never be more than a useful tool at best. You're a novelty. A pretty face with strange ears to tickle the exotic tastes of the bored nobility. You'll never be one of them, but you're barely even an elf anymore, either. You're so tainted that the Dalish wouldn't even welcome you back at this point. The moment the nobles grow tired of you, you'll go back to being a nobody with an existance so inconsequential that neither the humans nor the elves will care that they've lost you."

𝐇𝐎𝐍𝐎𝐑𝐀 𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐃𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑𝐍

What her fears appear as:        Smaller versions of Nightmare himself.

What her tombstone says:        Loss

What Nightmare says to her in the Fade:       "Ah, Honora, you look well for someone who dabbles in all manners of filthy magic. I bet your heart has remained the same since our last meeting as well; cold and stagnant, like the dead husband who rarely shared your bed. The man you're always compared to. You once thought yourself a stronger mage than him. A better chief, too. But your people question that assertion, and now you have started to question it as well. I am the one who took Angof's life, by the way, not those agents of the king. And if you insist on crossing me, dear Honora, I'll take yours too."

𝐊𝐀𝐄𝐑𝐈 𝐍𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓𝐒𝐇𝐀𝐃𝐄

What her fears appear as:          Herself, possessed by demons.

What her tombstone says:          Corruption

What Nightmare says to her in the Fade:          "You have such faith in your precious Maker, little snake. So much that you cannot seem to accept the fact that you are nothing but a heretic. The Maker doesn't speak to you. Auriel wasn't written out of Chantry history because she was a threat to their control; she was written out of Chantry history because she was a cowardly, self-important witch who became the same zealous monster that you yourself have become. The only justice you will ever bring forth is your own death in pursuit of your worthless cause. And just like Auriel, history will forget you, too."

#I spent way too long doing this but tbh I got distracted a bunch lmao #[hawke ; codex] #[nalindri ; codex] #[isabela ; codex] #[rosara ; codex] #[octavia ; codex] #[pandora ; codex] #[calpernia ; codex] #[arsine ; codex] #[honora ; codex] #[kaeri ; codex]

[kidelder]

jiley & camline for that angsty ship meme pls 🥺

okay this is so much fun actually ksdfjsdf but i think?? it’s less angsty than i originally thought lmao  🥺🥺🥺

Jiley

Okay james and riley have such an interesting dynamic and i literally cannot wait to see the trust building between them and kudos to james for dealing with riley ksdjfsdf 

who is more likely to get injured doing small tasks

Definitely Riley especially since she is literally almost never careful enough. Like she has a butterfly knife that she constantly plays with and flicks around with a lot and bet she accidentally cuts herself a lot. 

 who worries more about the other

James skjdfsdf I think he would be the type to be more worried and persistent to get their injuries treated when it comes to injuries and stuff. Especially since Riley literally gets into trouble and gets injured way too often like every other day so he probably would get worried; while Riley would be the type that gets concerned only for people she cares about like James and the only sign that shows that is when she tosses a roll of bandages at him if he got hurt.  

 who is more afraid about the other leaving them

Both of them would be afraid of the other leaving them especially after they have spent some time together and are actually depending on each other?? and the fact that they literally only have each other to trust and lean on. Like James would probably be the one who��s more vocal about not wanting her to leave and Riley is the type who wouldn’t admit that she doesn’t want him to ever leave. 

 who is more likely to leave (for any reason)

I think both of them! At first it would definitely be Riley because she still doesn’t trust him, and she is kinda scared of actually trusting him? She feels as if that makes her vulnerable and he might become her weakness that could be exploited, and she’s scared she wouldn’t be able to protect him like how she couldn’t protect all the ones she’s lost. Which leads to her making dumb decisions that probably end up hurting him. Which causes James to leave her because any trust he has on her is definitely shattered. But both of them probably would be reluctant to actually leave each other once their broken bond is repaired stronger than ever. 

who is more likely to drunkenly confess

Riley sfsdfsdf she has a pretty loose mouth when she is drunk and she probably just says whatever that comes to mind. Once she feels comfortable enough around James, drunk Riley would be emotionally expressive Riley. She would be more honest regarding her feelings and thoughts rather than always resolving to sarcasm and humor. catch her just rambling about how she hates james for always being so disapproving of her but then he looks so hot that she wants to just both kiss and kick him for distracting her but then he has to do things that just confuse tf outta her like making sure she is safe or how he pulls the blanket over her when she kicks it off when she’s asleep-- yes she noticed that-- and how she took a peek when he showered that one time and she didnt get much sleep that night-- 

 who is more likely to push the other away (for any reason)

Honestly this would be Riley for a short while since there’s the whole trust thing. But also everyone she’s ever loved and cared for before all wound up getting killed so that is also another reason because she lowkey thinks she is the reason why she couldn’t protect the people she loves, and she wouldn’t want to do that to James, someone she might actually have feelings for, so she just ends up pushing him away and/or leaving. Cause seeing him getting seriously injured or dying on her watch would really break her, especially after she’s gotten way more attached to him than she would even want to admit

 who picks fights more often

Riley tbh because well, she is Riley. Skljdfsdf ok but like she will end up doing or saying insensitive things mostly because she likes to be a dramatic little shit, and to annoy James, even during inappropriate times and that would probably cause them to argue and fight a lot. 

 who usually apologizes first

I think James would be the type to apologize so they could wrap up the issue and move on and Riley would be the type to show that she is guilty and sorry rather than express it verbally. Catch her buying dinner or doing something genuine from heart after she’s done something wrong or upset James a little too far. 

 who is more likely to withhold their feelings for the other

I think both of them! They don’t seem to be the type to actually sit down and sort through their feelings like “okay i think i’m in love with you” but they would be showing it instead? Like they wouldn’t actually admit it but they certainly wouldn’t actually go out of their way to hide it too lmao 

 who is more likely to lash out at the other

Depends on the situation, mostly. If it’s a very serious and dangerous situation and Riley is once again trying to kill herself, I see James would get more upset than Riley, and her antics certainly doesn’t help ghjfdkg 

 who gets more jealous

i think it would be Riley most of the time. I see James as someone who has that naturally attractive and kind charm that people just get drawn to and he is just so nice to everyone that people can’t not like him. Especially those who clearly have other intentions, and that would actually annoy Riley a lot from time to time. And Riley literally flirted and did much more with James when he first came to kill her, so who’s to say she wouldn’t have done something similar with anyone else? And James definitely knows that. Riley has a certain confident sexiness vibe to her entire demeanor and she attracts just the right- or wrong kind of company.   

 who is more likely to support the other in a relationship with someone else “as long as they’re happy”

Skdhfsdf i would say both but Riley would be the type to hold grudges and she will literally be so salty even though she’s moved on (if she even manages to) and James definitely seems like the type that would genuinely wish the other to be happy. 

Bonus random hc: i dont think riley is the type to ever call anyone by their actual names skdjfsf and she definitely has a bunch of weird nicknames for people that she finds funny. Like she would be calling james as “golden boy”, “goldie” cause he’s like the top agent in their agency or like “superhero” cause she think he has some sort of hero complex always trying to save everyone he can kjgfds

Camline 

OK camline are literally childhood friends turned enemies and just thinking about it kinda makes me laugh cause this dynamic?? would also be so fun to write considering how they literally cant stand each other but then they both have their emotional sides that they never let anyone else see?? i cant wait for them to realize they have the other right there all along who sees through their bullshit 

who is more likely to get injured doing small tasks

i think neither tbH 

who worries more about the other

cameron skjdsd and he tries to always make sure that she’s okay, regardless of how she acts or what she says. 

who is more afraid about the other leaving them

i think both of them would be tbh, especially after they have grown to rely on each other 

who is more likely to leave (for any reason)

celine cause i see her being wary af in getting attached to cameron and she probably keeps telling herself she is just fine with or without cameron and she probably will leave him just to prove her point ksdfsdf 

who is more likely to drunkenly confess

i would say both of them! cameron probably is just his same good-nature self when he is drunk but if he is alone, drinking with only close friends he probably will visibly relax a lot and that might result in him being more honest with what he’s actually facing?? but he will probably just brush it off like it’s not a big deal. and it will prob take celine a lot to let down her guard but mAYBE if she’s drunk and comfortable enough she will let loose a few things that she would never say sober 

who is more likely to push the other away (for any reason) 

definitely celine cause i think even when they’re married, part of her still sees cameron as this playboy and also a competition and just someone she doesn’t know if she can ever fully trust?? 

who picks fights more often

both of them !! i’m pretty sure they bicker with each other at least 3 times a day over literally anything tbh but regardless if they mean it or not, it just how they function as a couple dslkfjdsf they’re used to it and i’m pretty sure if one of them starts being completely nice to the other for like the entire day, the other will start to get creeped out and get skeptical af 

who usually apologizes first 

neither tbh like if they are really feeling sorry, they would be the ones to show that they’re sorry instead of actually saying the word. but cameron will be the one more comfortable and chill with saying sorry. 

who is more likely to withhold their feelings for the other

celine !! cameron would be more vocal and expressive when it comes to telling his feelings for her but skdjfsdf she probably doesn’t believe him

who is more likely to lash out at the other 

i think at one point both of them would get angry and upset at each other back then but it’s more like years of misunderstanding and annoyance piled up sdjfsdf 

who gets more jealous

both of them klsdjfdsf they probably get petty and salty but they also wouldn’t just say it cause they’re stubborn like that 

who is more likely to support the other in a relationship with someone else “as long as they’re happy” i think celine will be the one who’s more okay with the thought of letting cam go so he would be happy and stuff like that because she probably thinks that’s for the best and cam most certainly would not be happy or okay with the thought but he is also someone who’s used to sacrificing himself so others can be happy. but both of them will definitely have the soreness remaining in their hearts for a long time. deep down they wouldn’t be happy with it, but they will gladly let the other go so they get to be happy. 

#kdjfsdfs this got a lot longer than i expected but it's so great to dig deeper into their personality and stuff #otp: kiss me kill me #otp: meet you in the afterglow #loulou #asks

[wildwcmen]

———  BASICS! ♡

NAME! ♡     ellie/elizabeth PRONOUNS! ♡     she/her usually but also like whtvr words are all made up and so am i ZODIAC SIGN! ♡     aries sun, leo rising, pisces moon hehehe TAKEN OR SINGLE! ♡     WIFED UP @heirbud

———  THREE  FACTS! ♡

1! ♡     i spent all day working on my tarot deck today. I AM PRODUCING MY OWN TAROT DECK and she is glorious.

2! ♡     last week i was freaking out at midnight because i couldn’t find my nintendo DS and really wanted to play pokemon soooo my wife went to target and bought me a new DS. that’s just the level of spoiled i am.

3! ♡   i’m a life and relationship coach with a BOOMING BUSINESS, so if i’m hella distracted that’s why!!! business gets busy. but i LOVE MY JOB, i get paid to talk to people and do energy work and it is literally the coolest fucking thing sofiowf i would work ALL DAY EVERY DAY if i could. i hope everyone finds a career that makes them feel like this tbh. i also wrote a self help book re: spiritual relationships sodfiojgfwer. but i still love to rp in my free time, it helps me get my creativity on in a new way.

———  EXPERIENCE! ♡

PLATFORMS USED! ♡   i started on gosupermodel at age 13...which was a long time ago...i’m 26 now. also proboards and visionfree lmao. when i found tumblr i stayed here because i love this shit/

———  MUSE  PREFERENCE! ♡

GENDER! ♡     i love to play hot ladies because I LOVE HOT LADIES??? sue me. you love hot ladies too. if you don’t, what are u doing here? LEAST FAVOURITE FACE(S)! ♡   rly just arianna grande osdjfoijewoifrwe I HAVE ALWAYS DISLIKED HER AND NOW I FINALLY HAVE REASONS WHY AND IT FEELS SO GUD to be right

MULTI OR SINGLE! ♡     MULTI ONLYYYY got my brain is too scattered for a single muse  FLUFF / ANGST / SMUT! ♡    

FLUFF :  sometimes but i get...bored rly easily. THERE ARE OBVIOUS EXCEPTIONS LIKE WHEN I RLY SHIP/LOVE SOMETHING BUT.

ANGST :  GIVE ME ANGST 24/7 THANKSSS MAKE MY MUSES CRY.

SMUT :   i haven’t written smut since i was still a virgin to be fucking honest lMFAOOOO.

PLOT / MEMES! ♡    yeah idk what this means but...yes?

tagged  by: a whole bunch of people, you’re all obsessed with me!!

if you’re reading this...tag, you’re it.

#i'm canceled ( ooc )

[motherlytm-a]

i finished ootp so here are my notes/modifications/headcanons etc etc. long post ahead so be warned lmao!

molly’s stress. harry noticed it as soon as he saw her. she still has the strength to give a rib cracking hug to harry of course, as she always does when she sees him. but the stress of everything, the worry she feels about the impending doom they’re all facing, the fact that she keeps thinking about her family dying has caused so much stress that she doesn’t eat nearly as much as she used to. she’s grown thinner due to the stress and it’s just really sad.

the twins and their inventions are still driving molly up the wall. the orders meetings are secret, not meant for the children to hear and so when she discovered the extendable ears, she probably lost it. she’s already highly stressed out and snappy because she has to be in constant quarters with sirius whom, at this point in time, she does not like. she gets a headache often too and so that was a kind of final straw sort of thing for her. just got real pissed at the twins.

not only is she stressed about the war and possibly losing everyone she loves, but she’s in a terrible state because of the fight that arthur and percy had. she loves both very much, and knowing that percy wants nothing to do with them really stings. all she wants is for him to be there with them, she feels incomplete without percy around and she’s often crying at the mere mention of her son.

molly loves tonks, but a lot of the time she’s really annoyed at how clumsy she is. again, it’s nothing really against tonks or anyone in particular, it’s just she’s dealing with a lot right now and the little things set her off.

molly hates mundungus because she doesn’t like how shifty he is. she really doesn’t trust him at all. and she never will tbh.

the twins deciding to use magic to “help” only to make a mess. molly has just had it. she’s done. with everything. it’s unfortunate that the twins often get the wrath but they push her buttons quite often so can she really be blamed?

molly hates that no one backed her up at the meeting. she only wants to protect harry and her own children, she doesn’t want them hearing the dangers, but even arthur wouldn’t back her up which ended up putting her in an even worse mood than she already was. really, in grimmauld place she’s pretty much always pissed off because of how stressful she finds the household to be.

molly and sirius are cousins by marriage. honestly i love that.

i think that molly is very insistent on cleaning the place because it offers a distraction. she can focus on the cleaning instead of focusing on her fears which are growing ever more present the closer they get to the school year.

molly wearing a purple quilted nightgown is the cutest thing okay. not really relevant, just cute.

molly being the typical mom to harry was fussing over him before the hearing. trying to brush his hair and make him look good was an aesthetic.

“molly gets her own chapter title” was literally a note i made.

arthur just going “i work here” like a straight savage. he’s learning from his wife.

“he got off! he got off!” “SHUT UP!!!” i stan one angry legend. also something i wrote in my notes.

when ron made prefect she hugged and kissed him a bunch of times and probably embarrassed the crap out of him. which she also would’ve done to bill and charlie and percy too with their achievements.

if you wanna see my in depth note about the boggart scene click here

i can’t believe the boys made ginny fall down the stairs. and molly was not happy about it in the slightest, so she was just in a very bad mood escorting harry to the platform. even more so because sirius decided to tag along.

molly definitely never approves of sirius trying to leave the house. stay in the house sirius. and stop trying to contact harry you’re gonna get in trouble.

if molly ever found out what percy wrote to ron, she’d be even more upset than she already is.

molly didn’t want the kids to talk about harry producing the patronus, because she know that he gets enough attention as it is and she doesn’t want him drawing even more of it. the boy deserves a break.

if molly knew her baby girl was dating somebody she would lose her shit.

molly doesn’t want her kids to participate in the dumbledores army thing. but in my headcanon, especially in molly’s hogwarts au, she would support it. because molly herself, after her brothers died spent a lot of time researching the dark arts and how to defend herself and her family. and she would want her kids to know how to save themselves as well. and she knows that umbridge is fucking useless. and in said hogwarts verse i think she’d even offer to harry if he needed any assistance she would be there for him. because as we all know molly is one of the most badass bitches in the wizarding world.

molly was on duty for the order, which i assume means she was doing the same job as arthur. guarding the prophecy which kind of gives me anxiety because what if it had been her that got attacked. i can’t even imagine that nope no thank you.

molly would’ve been absolutely furious with malfoy if she heard the song he made up about ron. and in her hogwarts verse, she would’ve had to stop the twins and harry from beating up malfoy even if she would’ve liked to see it because he deserves it. she also would’ve gone after ron to make sure he was okay, and probably cuddle him against his will.

molly would’ve known before receiving dumbledores message that arthur was in danger. the clock would’ve told her, because she wouldn’t have been asleep. without arthur by her side she finds it very difficult to sleep. and with what he was doing, guarding the prophecy she would’ve been even more worried and unable to sleep. so she would’ve seen that he was in danger and probably started panicking. and when the message confirmed what happened she would’ve definitely cried. she went straight to him, and seeing him in such a state would be very difficult for her indeed.

all she wanted was the comfort of her children. she needed it as much as they did. and being able to hold them and say it’d be okay was such a relief to her. she was also so grateful to sirius for allowing them all to stay, and honestly that moment was the start of her actually liking him. the fact that he was so willing to help out after how she’s been towards him just completely changed her tune about him.

harry is a son to both arthur and molly, so naturally she would want him to be in the room visiting as well. he’s family too.

the kids kept asking questions to arthur and molly was not having it. so finally she told them to get out.

molly would’ve been very worried about harry during the christmas break, and how he wasn’t joining them and distancing himself. she would understand and wouldn’t push him to do anything, but she would be very worried.

of course molly was extremely heartbroken when the gifts she sent to percy were sent back. she doesn’t understand why she has to be punished this way as well. she loves percy so much, and to be treated this way from her own child brings her more pain than she’s ever felt in her life.

arthur trying to use stitches made molly so angry. like just livid.

sorry but molly saying to harry “professor snape” just confirms that her and snape are bffs

molly would be very upset to learn that the death eater who killed her brothers escaped. she would feel overcome with rage and despair.

the fireworks that the twins set off? she’d love it. she fucking hates umbridge so she really couldn’t care less. like especially in her hogwarts verse she’d just be grinning at them and be so proud of them.

molly would also be so proud of minerva and how she reacts around umbridge. the woman has more restraint than molly would ever have.

book molly would probably be pissed that the twins quit school. my molly though, she’d be mildly upset at first but she’d also be kind of impressed.

in her hogwarts verse, molly p much follows minerva every where, especially when it comes to things like what umbridge was trying to do to hagrid. molly would’ve been there with minerva, and seeing them stun her? oh she’d be pissed and they’d probably all be on the ground in seconds flat because no one touches her best friend and gets away with it.

i want to imagine molly and arthur showing up with the order to help fight off the death eaters. and i would also like to imagine molly killing the death eater that killed her brothers because she deserves that revenge.

finally, molly would’ve joined in with the orders warnings to the dursleys, probably threatening that if they mistreated harry one more time she’d show up there and make them regret every decision they’ve ever made.

#* &. HEADCANON. #* &. OOC. #long post cw #long post tw #long post

[sleepymarmot]

A couple of months ago, after finishing COUNTER/Weight, I spent about a week in a total hangover, relistening to scenes and having feelings. I took some notes, but procrastinated posting them, and then finally got distracted. But, a) I hate leaving things I intended for tumblr unposted, even if they have value only for me, and b) I also hate posting things out of order, and there's a big TM liveblog incoming. So, here's a bunch of really random thoughts about C/w from past me.

The gnosis virus did go nowhere huh. I was hopeful for a minute when one of the finale intros mentioned it, but that was it. What was the purpose of that arc even. [Note from present me: Lol. At least I feel better about this one!]

Oh, and the patch AuDy left never reappeared either. And the idea from the faction game that Aria's images owned by EarthHome/Petrichor transmit Rigour code… That's the flip side of the coin. On the one hand, it's really cool to see the creative process – on the other, it sometimes feels like you're listening to people write a script for the tv show, but only get to see a half of the finished product. It's fascinating to see the universe grow organically and the players to come up with new ideas and get excited about them – but that means numerous retcons, some of them not even presented as such, because the creators forgot what the previous revision was or didn't thought it was important. It's a unique feature of the medium that player choice directs the narrative and it's not bound by railroading – but that means some roads lead nowhere, and some branches dry and fall off.

It's a bit harder to make peace with something that could have easily been developed more within the existing plot of the show. How come there's a player character whose consciousness consists of three different people in various combinations, but nobody seems to be curious how that works? No PC or NPC ever asked “Which one of you is speaking right now?” or something. The final episodes made a lot of things clearer, but it still felt too little, too late. Hard not to be reminded of that gripe about certain two characters sharing one character sheet one of whom was left underdeveloped and half-forgotten… Both are very ambitious concepts that require a double amount of work from the player, so I feel bad complaining they weren't realized to full potential, but…

Speaking of L&D… I still want to know how the hell did that one engineer all by herself design 4 gods, one of which became a basis for technology that was advanced even for the civilizations 80,000 years later? This woman singlehandedly surpassed any technological achievement of humanity before and after. Who Is She

I saw a “Wake me up: before you go go / when september ends / wake me up inside” meme and thought “heh, this sounds relevant, which member of the Chime is which?” and it already made me sad, but then I realized that I'd never actually heard the september song and looked it up and. The lyrics fit so well. What the fuck. It's an old song everyone keeps joking about. Why is it appropriate for a legitimate fanmix. What. I guess the word “September” will never be the same again for me.

I looked up the rules for Firebrands, the game used for the finale. Oh my, challenges for the dance minigame are so overtly romantic when you see them in a list together! Imagine this cast of characters having to answer to “do you place your hand upon my elbow, shoulder, waist, or hip?” lmao. Also I didn't realize “May I?” was part of the rules for “stealing time together”. (And I found out there's a party version of that minigame with bug-themed challenges. I might have dug too deep…) "Tactical skirmish" is a really fascinating concept, I've never seen such a masochistic combat system! Really faces the player with the violence they're inflicting: sure, you can always fight on, but are you ready to live with what you'll have to do? But for it to work fully, you need a lot of non-expendable NPCs on both sides. The one with the most likeable team wins! (Like Mako did.)

I'm relistening to Three Conversations and it's pretty interesting that Ibex has a bunch perfectly lifelike android bodies, right? There is no such technology seen anywhere else. Did Righteousness develop and privatize that? Are they so complex that only a Divine would have enough computing power to successfully mimic organic life? Can Aria convince Righteousness to help her perform on stage without leaving her duties? Also, like with AuDy, I wonder how Ibex & Righteousness' consciousness works. Is it a single mind, spread across every body he has, or even anything Righteousness is running on, having a bunch of different conversations at once if he needs to? Or is the original Ibex just gone, and what's left is a personality imprint hanging on to the connection to his still living body, imitating his former self like the automated recording Cass saw wore his face? In other words, has Ibex completely fused with Righteousness, or assimilated and destroyed by it? Does he not exist anymore as an independent singular being, or does he not exist at all? Most info indicates the former, but there was also “You’re not in there anymore” “No”.

If Orth and Jace are anime fans with their Kingdom Come and Panther, then Ibex is the guy who's way too into dinosaurs or paleontology. It's as if the heads of various confessions were called Triceratops, Stegosaurus etc. and only one of them knows wtf that means, and also he compares his Divine to… Were there scavenging dinosaurs? I'm looking at an article that suggests T. Rex might have been a scavenger, so yeah he would compare Righteousness to a goddamn T. Rex.

Hey what do you think is the most thematically aproppriate part of the Hieron anime for Orth to watch alone at night during the Kingdom game. What's the best thematic parallel for when he turns off the episode and thinks he made a mistake. Do you think that he once, after a long day and a long month and maybe a long year of feeling helpless and doomed, sits down for a distraction but ends up sobbing “How could they let this happen to Mother Glory”

On Joypark, there are definitely statues of Eidolons, ancient and holy, that were repainted and repurposed as Hieron deities. Imagine a giant Greek or Roman style marble statue of Apote – and it’s painted over as Samot, with an anime face and in really bright plain colors like these “reconstructions of original coloring” that actually only use base colors so they look like cheap action figures.

I was reading Austin's top ten games of 2016 list on Waypoint and he gave first place to The Sprawl! Aww!

The Downloads folder in my phone gallery is funny bc it mostly consists of every freely available f@tt map and also that one photo of Tristan Walker (because I tried to redraw it, very unsuccessfully). I go check a map and every time am met by Ibex just. staring at me. It's unsettling

Some of the many options for how Apostolosian gender could have been presented:

Apostolosians prefer to be addressed by the most neutral available human pronoun, represented as "they" in English, because the human languages don't have anything close enough

Apostolosian pronouns are represented in English by a set of real-life common pronouns and neopronouns

There's a list of Apostolosian pronouns and they're just used in English verbatim (Really impractical because the players need a cheat sheet, but the most fair)

Humans apply human genders to Apostolosians. Apostolosians may be offended, may find it convenient, or something else

As Austin said in the post-mortem, the Eidolon system is not gender. It's represented in English by titles/honorifics/etc

Any of the above, and the creators are aware of the difference between personal pronouns, grammatical gender, and social gender

And that’s not even touching the core problem of what the concept of gender in a futuristic, techonologically advanced society would look like. Yes, I'm complaining about this for the third time but I'm just. So tired of native English speakers' takes on gendered language. They could have made Apostolosian gender look like anything and they made it look like that fucking mess... God, I really hope TM is good enough to make me forget and forgive the experience of listening to “he... sorry, they” for 100 hours. [Note from present me: Well… mostly]

Here’s my take on this: eidolons in Apostolosian language are absurdly broad noun classes with associated classifiers (which fits both the idea that they’re gender but not actually, and that each of them is a patron to several unrelated aspects of life) Apostolosian: the word “(Apo)thesa” is used to refer to people who follow the corresponding eidolon, as well as for counting buildings, heavy machinery, military units, specific strategies and tactics, log entries, historical documents and chronicles, history textbooks and monographs, and eras :) Human: what the fuck

Very critical, imaginative worldbuilding in which 80,000+ years into the future humanity somehow has 21st century gender and 21st century capitalism! TBH, I find any sci-fi set in the far future inherently silly – we can’t really imagine the future technogy and its effect on society. But it feels like C/w barely even tried, and to hear it boast about “critical worldbuilding” is kinda strange. I assumed that meant they build the world critically, not that they recreate modern society or some aspect of it and criticize that! It’s just another Star Trek then! And it was already clear right during the setup when they said “We don’t want Star Trek aliens” and immediately created Apostolosians.

I haven't seen a single piece of fanart with Taako and Mako. Come on, does nobody want to see these two next to each other! Especially considering the outfits artists like to put Taako in!

I really don't understand how and why people do fandom activities on Twitter and Discord where the creators also have accounts. It gives me so much secondhand embarrassment. I can barely peek at Twitter posts before running away. Old-fashioned opinion apparently but I strongly believe the main fandom space and the interaction-with-original-creators space should be separate. I need a space where I can voice my opinions, especially negative ones, with complete freedom. I need to be able to say exactly what's on my mind. But I wouldn't want any of the people on the podcast to read something unfiltered like my complaints above. Being in the same space as the source content creators obliges any decent person to be diplomatic and constructive. And the creators, in turn, need a space where they don't come across complete randos yelling at them about something they said in a podcast three years ago. I'm already feeling uncomfortable because hearing to strangers pour their hearts out for hundreds of hours gives me way too much insight on who they are as people. Of course, nothing’s stopping them from lurking on Tumblr or AO3 and even reading this very post, but a platform where they have official accounts is still a different thing! I even feel uncomfortable talking about the podcast creators using their first names so much. To my ear, referring to a total stranger by first name, especially if it's a shortened form, sounds so rude! I'm not their friend, I don't have that right! But, of course, writing something like “Mr Walker” in my liveblogs would have been even weirder, nobody does that...

Is it a common experience to not even think about fanfiction after listening to Hieron, but going straight to AO3 after C/w? I feel like since Hieron is still a work in progress, writing/reading about it is stepping on the GM&players' toes, and C/w is finished so it's like they gave us the keys to the playground, it's the fandom's turn now. This story has so much blanks and they must be filled! In one of the early episodes they joked that something cute they said would encourage people to ship Mako/Cass and I was like "Bold of you to assume they aren't already" and, indeed, I was right and it's the most popular C/w ship on AO3. Too bad I’m so indifferent to it…

It’s a shame we never had a full scene with Ariadne or even learned what they were up to during the finale.

I still don't understand how Ibex went from “evil CEO” to “leader of a proletarian revolution”, these sound like completely opposite concepts to me

I probably have talked about this too much and have pretty much given up on ever getting a clear picture due to all of these reimaginings but… Righteousness and Voice… Ibex takes Righteousness out of Mako but he still has Voice, that was pretty much openly stated, correct? So how does that work? I’m guessing Righteousness is hidden somewhere in Voice’s code. But if so:

Did Maryland know? On the one hand, she’s too competent not to. On the other, why would she ever allow or accept that?

How did Righteousness not get corrupted by Rigour too? Maybe it did, but broke off the connection with the rest of itself to contain the damage? Or maybe, on the contrary, it kept in contact and was sending intel to Ibex the whole time? But in that case he would have provided more help in the finale.

#friends at the table #blah blah blah

[victor-v]

so yesterday i finished all for the game for the second time in my life (weird thing i've never read a book or series twice) and it wrecked me for the second time. it was unexpectedly nice that i actually understood everything with so much clarity, but that makes sense i've got lot of practice in reading english since then. also, i wrote my thoughts on the book this time.

i can't understand how a book can have such an impact on me, i hate that and i love it, everything else that crossed my mind is under the cut

★huh andrew really bullied aaron into dressing identical to mess up with neil

★"i don't swing either way" is the phrase that made me feel more valid that the whole queer community ever

★neil is pure nihilism

★how can i EVER forget neil wore a tight long sleeved TORN tshirt that andrew bought this is way too much

★seth is dead and all kevin can think about is the line up tbh i do that often

★they are making a scandal about how they sit

★kevin telling neil "destroy him" filled me with power

★the most unreal part is neil ALWAYS keeping his roots another colour the guy must dye his hair every fucking week

★how did neil buy andrew's promise to protect him from the japanese mafia's professional murderers when the only people he physically bullies is an obsessive young adult with anxiety, a princess in high heels and his sunshine sister in law

★wait a fucking minute andrew saw neil filled with terror while holding the phone and immediately gave him the car keys so he could be alone fuck

★nicky fucking hemmick attended to improv class

★ according to dan few athletes were crude enough to start trouble at an ERC event, you mean as crude as neil?

★how to take care of your teammate while he's in a crisis according to: andrew→show concern and reassure him. wymack→10 seconds of vodka

★"hey, jean. jean valjean" is peak comedy

★the ravens walking in v formation is genuinely the most cringy thing you can think of

★neil first finds out the only possible person to date him is andrew because he was jealous of renee are you kidding me

★andrew only missed 13 from 150 shots on goal for fucking real what a Man

★renee is an angel, she's specifically andrew's angel

★neil truly is a watcher

★bee wearing a bee costume is the only good thing on this world

★dan and matt dressed like greek gods!!!!! they can adopt me already

★can you believe nicky is the one who got into neil's brain and planted the idea of realying on someone, and since then neil actively pursues an investigation on andrew's relationship status how on god's name i missed that HOW he's not even subtle about it damn

★he first worries about renee now about kevin goddamn it josten how can't you se how much you care about him

★it's funny how sexuality is such a heavy topic between them when they sure as fuck have some pretty huge stuff going on you know like dying in the hands of the mafia or being tortured

★i imagine andrew running to renee all bonkers like "listen if the cute guy asks, for fucks sake tell him i'm gay but make it ~casual~ maybe this way he'll get it"

★the sole mention of thanksgiving dinner makes me want to die

★kevin is checking the scores in a newspaper I forget this book is so 00's

★they should have spent the day eating turkey and frozen pie at abby's fuckkkkkkkk

★are you kidding me they are in the middle of a conversation and andrew casually chokes neil a little but it's ok they carry on wtf

★"we are all going to regret this" is the fucking worse piece of foreshadowing in this book

★neil interrogating andrew the same night he was raped what kind of fucking piece of shit does that

★i can't fucking believe neil went ahead and shoved andrew's hand under his tshirt in front of kevin, wymack, betsy and two fucking lawyers are you kidding me

★neil asking "are we? friends?" to nicky is so relatable because i also would have an aneurysm if someone told me i am their friend

★someone else tries to flirt with him and he immediately considers andrew how i was too ace to see it the first time i read

★jesus fucking christ riko is one truly fucked up sociopath and neil is the bravest motherfucker on the land

★how can he face riko like that in the nest and be extremely pure in other occasion

★"are we watching the ball drop? i want to make a wish" he wants to make a wish and i want to die thanks

★i can't believe the whole if it means losing you then no and side effect of the drugs shit it's unreal fucking unreal how oblivious neil is too ace to realize anything SOMEONE JUST CALLED YOU "DREAM" THE LEVEL OF ROMANTICISM

★the amount of heavy staring in this trilogy is ridiculous and all i can think about is twilight

★these books made me see how far from the 00s we are, for many reasons, but mostly for some jokes that can't let slide; like calling neil a battered wife, domestic misogynistic violence is not a joke

★i can't believe from all people, wymack was the first one to get andrew was into neil

★"that doesn't mean I wouldn't blow you" is such a funny phrase to be said casually why is it

★"you are a racoon, not a fox" oh andrew

★it only took andrew admitting he had a crush for neil to be all sentimental and shit, and that disarmed andrew too

★they are like some kind of animal that while you think they are fighting, they are actually mating, that's exactly what nora meant with feral

★half of last book is neil mooning over andrew jfc

★nicky made neil smile while distracting him from riko im gonna throw myself off a cliff

★i can't quite believe neil goes through a detailed monologue about andrews memory the man is impressed and borderline turned on about every talent on his crushe's shelf

★i literally can't follow and will never understand the quarrel/promise/agreement between aaron and andrew what a bunch of pretentious idiots

★every time neil's phone buzzes all i fear is the fucking countdown

★i thought "i want to see you lose control" was a collective fever dream i can't believe it's written on the books

★if i was nicky i already have told andrew to stop his freaky pretentious shit towards me

★neil to the upperclassman: ha ha fellas is it gay to unthinkingly call andrew in the middle of a anxiety breakdown

★"you gave me a key and called it home" is as soft as heartbreaking i want to jump off a cliff

★"i won't be like them, i wont let you let me be" is actually pushing me off that cliff andrews feelings are a fucking storm

★neil was kidnapped and tortured the day of my bday and that's not a coincidence

★neil's talent to twist the truth in order to convince andrew of anything is outstanding

★excuse me they have no right to be this soft i hate them

★they miss so many opportunities to be funny about the whole "protection" thing

★did he really had a mental breakdown over where to fucking sit on the bus lmao

★"don't come crying to me when someone breaks your face" is the second most awful piece of foreshadowing

★lets be honest for a second andrew should be a fucking writer because all those things he says? edgy myspace pretentious poetry

���im sorry but i don't care about literally anything except neil smiling onto andrew's neck bye

★andrew ghosted a kiss across neil's hip im dead for real

★abby kissed neil's forehead farewell after cleaning all his injuries i have no words he's recieving all the affection he deserves

★cant believe you don't see aaron is fucking worried neil is taking advantage of andrew

★i mean yeah ok don't talk love but neil is sad that nicky thinks it was only hate sex, and he immediately acknowledged it meant more than that to him bc his demi btw wtf does hate sex mean i can't believe you hate someone so much you wanna suck his dick

★they all went horseback riding when will i have a group of friends like that

★"who's humanising who in that relationship" i know right nicky

★kevin locking himself to have a panic attack is the most relatable thing

★the car encounter with ichirou holds the same tension as a mr robot scene

★the proposal of playing olympics and being unstoppable feels like marriage or smth

★neil is literally having his hot girl summer

★i adore neil's overflow of emotions after swallowing everything for so many years. represented, thanks.

★andrew terrorising katelyn who the fuck does he think he is what an annoying asshole

★"did you know i've never been skiing" is the most epic line

★i cheer to the sole mention of laila

★alvares can deck me right now and i would say thank you

★"war is profitable" aaron knows what's up

★sometimes i want to slap them is2g

★that scene at eden's where they are all discussing how roland found out and aaron ends up being the only straight one lmao boy it's your punishment for being so homophobic

★the whole "deadliest piece on the board" spech is 100 times better when you consider kevin was wasted and overly exaggerating every word and gesture

★can you imagine those few fans supporting kevin's new tattoo screaming YAAAAASSSSS QUEEEEEEEEEN while snapping fingers i'm cackling

★matt in court body slamming into anyone that's been a problem to the foxes: VIBE CHECK MOTHERFUCKER

★neil kissed andrew in castle fucking evermore the audacity i adore him

#the foxhole court #the raven king #the kings men #all for the game #tfc #it really fucking wrecked me #how can a fucking book do this to me #my thoughts

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boyfriend!yixing

FORGETFUL

will literally forget everything and anything

speaks Chinese all the time when he comes in because hes tired and not thinking

and you’re like ????? I don’t speak Chinese

and he’s shook because he didn’t even realise he’d slipped into it

even though he’s maybe the most forgetful person in the world he never forgets important dates

your birthday, anniversaries you didn’t even know you should be celebrating

he never misses them

always wants to do couple things with you

couples cooking !!

which really means he hands you things and drinks wine

and you make sure he stays far away from the rice

even though he insists he knows how a rice cooker works now

he just really thinks it’s important you sit together and eat with each other no distractions

couples workout !!

which really consists of you drinking the protein shake you made and watching him do push ups

he wants to make sure you share everything like your hobbies

so he takes you dancing with him

he loves trying to teach you his dances

and you always wanna know they newest exo choreo tbh

you die a little every time though because its S O HAR D

and youre not a good dancer

but yixing is always patient with you trying to teach you as best he can

and he insists on sharing your hobbies with you

he always makes time to share yours

and he’s always got some crazy new hobby to try together

y’all have done everything

synchronised swimming

bird watching

anything you can literally think of tbh

literally just loves spending time with you

tries to teach you guitar and you sort of suck

but he just thinks its so adorable you’re trying

he usually puts you in his lap and guides your hands

but you actually started to get really good

and he’d always catch you playing his

so he buys you a guitar for your birthday

and you guys always have impromptu jam sessions

also tries to teach you Chinese which you are also really bad at

but you try and you leave him little notes written carefully in Chinese

he keeps every single one

loves solving puzzles with you

he finds it really therapeutic

you get all the answers wrong but y’all have fun doing them

once he brought home a jigsaw puzzle of the globe

y’all spent daysssssss trying to solve it and you leave it half solved and the next morning it’s complete and you’re like ???????

and kyungsoo’s like lmao took me 45 minutes whats up with you two??

hes always up at like 5am so you pack him a lunch box and leave him a little note on the bathroom mirror with dry erase markers

and when he gets up he always erases it and leaves you a sweet little note

he loves talking to you and telling you about everything

whenever he gets homesick he just lies down with you

and tells you everything about china

and what he wants to show you

and makes a bunch of plans of where to bring you when you finally come visit

you’d been going out for years when you finally had your greatest test

you asked him to help you when you moved

and of course like the sweetheart he is he did

he spent like a week with you

painting the rooms

(which always ended with a paint fight)

assembling the furniture with you

you guys spent like an entire day trying to assemble your bed

you hadn’t slept the night before

and being as clumsy as you are you knocked over like everything else in the room

and you spent the whole night mad at inanimate objects

but y’all never got mad at each other

and that’s when you realised he was the one

because you were both tired, way too warm and angry as hell but you never snapped at each other

you guys never really had a fight until he came home too late one too many nights

you didn’t mind because it was his job and he just wanted to prepare for his solo as best as he could

to make everyone proud

but he had been home past 4 or 5am every night this month

if he even came home

and you saw him once in the last two weeks

and you were getting a little bit more than upset

even though it felt unreasonable

nd you told him you were getting kind of lonely by yourself and you missed spending time together

and he was like omg because he didn’t even realise really that he was upsetting you

so he promised to be home by 9pm and you could have dinner together and just spend time together

and then it was 2am and he still wasn’t home

and it all got too much for you and you just started crying

he came in and your eyes were all swollen and you were just sitting on the floor drinking some wine

and he’s like ????? what happened why r u crying?

and you’re like omg amazing!!! You’re late and you didn’t even remember!! Love this !! im going to bed!! Thanks for wasting my entire night!!

nd then he’s like no NO NO NO IM SO SORRY I FORGOT

nd you want to be mad at him but you cant because he didn’t mean to

nd you just breakdown and start sobbing and he runs to you

he’s cuddling you and stroking your hair and apologising

because he didn’t mean to and you know it and he doesn’t know how to fix it

nd eventually you fall asleep because you’re so tired

when you wake up yixing isn’t there

and you almost cry again until your door opens

and yixing comes in with water and some painkillers

in case you have a headache

and then he asks If you want to go out for breakfast or cook some

and you cry all over again because he is so sweet

always thinks of everyone but himself

so you always gotta remind him to look after himself

hugs hugs hugs

always hugging you

bear hugs

back hugs

side hugs

surprise hugs

hugs hug HU G S Hu GS

just loves to shower you in affection

like always kissing your cheek

or shooting you winks

nd you think its lame but that makes it all the more adorable to you

always cuddling you

sometimes he comes In late and sees you curled up on the couch asleep waiting for him

he just grabs a blanket and curls around you

nd you wake up and youre like ??? but you fall back asleep because he’s so warm and he’s home and you can relax

you get really lonely when he’s away

so he bought u bear to cuddle while he’s away

nd you do because it smells like him

nd he doesn’t feel so far away when you have the bear

really nice couple bracelets

the thing is you guys didn’t get them for each other

Suho got them for you

after a year

he says it a blessing so you will have a long happy relationship

since then you haven’t taken them off

lots and lots os skype calls when he’s away

if he’s gonna be somewhere for a while you actually send him letters

nd he loves every single one

it’s always such a nice surprise for him

nd he thinks its so precious you take the time to write to him

loves taking walks with you

especially in spring by the cherry blossoms

nd he’s just strolling through the park with you holding your hand when he casually says something like

“I think id like to have our wedding here”

nd you just choke on the coffee you’re drinking

because ?????????? marriage ???????????

nd he’s just like omg r u ok what happened should I call a hospital???

nd he doesn’t even realise why you’re having a heart attack

he just adores you so much

pls love him just as much

if not more

#exo scenarios #kpop scenarios #lay scenario #another request done lets have a round of applause for kayla #slowly working our way through #boyfriend!series #boyfriend!yixing #request #admin pear #headcanon

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AU To Fly Where A Crow Flies - Eliza and Chibs request

@come-join-themurder here we go. #38. Eliza catches Chibs masturbating XD

FIRST OF ALL THO: To anyone who usually reads TFWTCF, I know there are Chiliza shippers among you (tbh we all ship them a little bit, even though Tiggy has our hearts, right?) anyway, I am going to be working on a bunch of AU things like this once I am done with the story (whenever that will be, lmao). So... yeah just wanted to explain this a little bit first. This one in particular doesn’t go completely off canon but of course, this never could have happened in TFWTCF because... you will see hahaa. p.s. This is 1970 words so... yeah. Also, this is set between season 3 and 4, when Tiggy is in prison.

If I’d learnt anything about parenthood, it was that babies were exhausting. I had no idea what I would’ve done if I hadn’t had Chibs around in those early months to help me out with Alex, because there were times when I thought I was going to lose my mind from sleep deprivation and the stress of hearing a baby crying seemingly constantly. It wasn’t like that everyday, of course; but on the days where I did feel that way, I despaired at what I would’ve done if I was on my own. By rights I should’ve been, with Tig in prison. The fact was, though, that on those bad days, Tig seemed almost a fuzzy memory to me. I missed him between visitation, and lying in bed alone at night was taking it’s toll. I missed the feel of his arms around me, the whisper of his lips on my skin, even the early morning “Hey Kitten”.

Chibs was a patient co-parent. Alex’s night time screaming fits never seemed to bother him, and when he saw I was about to snap he was there to calmly take over whatever I was doing, whether it was hushing him or feeding him or changing his diaper. I was so used to Chibs always being around that I never even really questioned it.

That day had been a bad one. I hadn’t seemed to have a second to myself. Alex had puked up on three different tops of mine, and that was after an almost completely sleepless night the night before. On top of that, I had been a little weepy and emotional all day, with the slightest thing liable to make me burst into tears. Chibs had become used to seeing me like that and had sweetly done the bulk of the more difficult tasks around the apartment and with the baby, trying to give me a break. It didn’t really work in the end, but I appreciated it all the same. Still, I was exhausted so I went to bed early once Alex was down for the night, leaving the Scotsman out on the couch in front of the TV.

As exhausted as I was, as I lay there staring up at the ceiling, it quickly became clear that I wasn’t going to get to sleep any time soon. My mind seemed to be running into overdrive. And as I turned my head to look at the empty space beside me in the bed, I once again became all too aware that something was missing.

I’d been lying there pointlessly for around half an hour before I gave up. Sitting up with company was better than being alone and lonely. I sighed and rolled out of bed, getting to my feet and heading out to the living room.

Chibs had the light off, so the only light was from the TV, which was on low volume. I was about to speak and explain I couldn’t sleep when he emitted a muted groan. I froze where I was, suddenly understanding the slightly slumped posture he was displaying from what I could see of him over the back of the couch. In the flickering light of the TV, I saw his hand moving in his lap. I immediately felt my face beginning to heat up. Shit. And yet, for a minute, I couldn’t move, rooted to the spot. I didn’t think he’d seen me yet, but from this angle, stood behind but slightly to the side of where he was, I caught sight of the expression on his face; his eyes were closed and he was biting down on his lower lip. A curious sensation swept through my lower stomach. I quickly turned and crept back into my room, hoping he hadn’t noticed me there- he hadn’t appeared to, anyway.

I lay back on my bed, my mind reeling. In all the months he’d spent here with me, helping me with Alex and generally looking out for me, I’d never thought about what he’d sacrificed- the partying, the croweaters, the freedom… Jesus. I felt guilty. But aside from the guilt, I felt something else… the expression of pleasure on his face, the guttural moan… Since I’d given birth I hadn’t really felt sexual at all. But now, in spite of everything including my embarrassment at what I’d walked in on, presented with the first sexual situation I’d witnessed in months, I found myself getting turned on.

Chibs P.O.V.

Once the baby was asleep and Eliza took off for bed early, I considered my options for the night. I knew she’d never begrudge me leaving if I wanted to go for a drink or a ride- she was always telling me I should go home, do something fun, sleep in a bed instead of on the couch- insisting I didn’t really need to be there. I knew she could handle herself, but I also knew she was vulnerable. And the truth was, I didn’t really want to leave. I loved Alex. I pretty much saw him as good as my own. And Eliza…? I stopped that thought in it’s tracks.

I hit the lights, parking myself in front of the TV, though I wasn’t really watching it. Absently, I realised I had a semi-hard on. I glanced towards her bedroom door and the nursery before deciding ‘fuck it’ and unzipping my jeans, pulling my cock out, slowly stroking myself to full hardness. Jesus, it’d been a while since I’d fucked. My mind flickered absently between different girls, different fantasies. It was funny how the stars of these fantasies were all redheads these days. I closed my eyes and failed to stifle a grunt by biting down my lip.

I sensed movement behind me and off to the side. I froze for a fraction of a second, but then I heard a door quietly shut. “Shite,” I muttered out loud to myself. Eliza had caught me in the act.

I gave myself a couple more pulls but then I realised I wasn’t gonna finish now. Obviously she’d be embarrassed. I probably would be too, if it wasn’t for the fact that I’d fucked so many croweaters in plain view of people in my time that I didn’t really have any qualms about nudity. I did care, though, about Eliza’s comfort. I didn’t want her to feel uncomfortable with me.

Sighing, I zipped up my flies and headed over to her bedroom, prepared to knock and- what? Explain? She was a grown woman, she didn’t need an explanation. Put her mind at rest, maybe. I was about to knock when I heard it- a small whimper. I quickly dropped my hand back to my side. I knew that sound. I just didn’t expect it to come from her, of all people, seconds after she’d seen me jacking off. Now what did I do?

I’d be lying if I said it was the first time I’d thought about it. I wasn’t sure at what point shit started to change for me when it came to her; just spending all my time around her made it impossible for me not to take notice. Setting aside the fact she belonged to Tigger, that is- she was a young, attractive woman. She’d always been pretty. Dark red hair, big kind brown eyes, blowjob lips, nice tits, small waist. The exact reason Jax and Clay had sworn us off her from the very beginning. But there was more to it when you spent time around this girl. She had this sexy little sway to her hips when she walked- natural, not put on like some croweater trying to grab your attention. A distracting laugh that could be equal parts innocent and dirty. The fact she was always so free with her affection, touching your arm or hugging you, snuggling up to me on the couch with no idea how fucking intoxicating her smell was...

Jesus Christ, Filip, you’ve got to stop thinking about her that way.

“Eliza?” I said her name through the door. There was a beat of silence.

“Um,” She responded in a slightly higher pitch than normal. She clearly didn’t know what to say, but she knew she’d been rumbled, just like I had been.

“It’s all right, lassie,” I called to her, “Just… I’m sorry, love.”

“Oh… No, it’s okay…”

“Are you gonna come out here?” I didn’t know if I wanted her to or not.

“I… I don’t think...”

“Look, I don’t want it to be awkward between us. We need to clear the air.”

“Air’s clear!” Eliza called, sounding a little panicked now. “Let’s just forget about it.” I’d like to, but there was no chance of that happening. The fact that she’d seen me and moments later she’d been touching herself too…

*

Chibs opened the door and came inside the bedroom. I was a little surprised at the boldness of the move, though I had at least managed to somewhat compose myself. He approached the bed, which I was sitting up on against the headboard, and I saw his eyes rake my body. I’d never quite seen him look at me like that before, but I felt the heat rising in my neck all the same. After a second he seemed to shake himself and he sat down on the edge of the bed, keeping a little distance away from me.

“I, uh, should’ve realised,” I said awkwardly after a pause. “I mean… you stuck here with me all the time...”

“No,” He dismissed, “Ye know you’re not talking me into leaving you alone.”

“Chibs… Kozik has offered millions of times to swap with you. You should get out, you know… live… find a girl,” I said the last part as a joke and it did earn a small chuckle, but not enough to break the cloying tension between us.

“I know ye feel it too,” He said in a low voice after a moment, looking me in the eyes. “Ye know you’re not just a mother… you’re still a woman.” I wasn’t quite sure what to say to that- I guess he was right though. I had kind of been ignoring myself since Tig had been in prison, and especially since Alex was born. It’d been a very long time since I’d last…

“Well,” I replied breathily, “We don’t exactly have a prison clause, so…” I shook my head. I knew it was kind of inappropriate to even talk about this with him, but given what we’d both witnessed tonight it was kind of hard to get away from the issue at hand. “Look, I’m serious, Chibs. Just… Have Kozik come stay with me instead. You trust him, don’t you?”

“Aye… but I’m pretty comfortable here,” He shifted and as he did so his hand brushed mine. I felt a jolt go through me but I didn’t rush to pull away and neither did he. All that was touching were our little fingers.

“Yeah?” I don’t know what made me look, but my eyes scanned him from his lips down to his crotch. It was then that I realised I could see see a very visible bulge through his jeans. I licked my lips involuntarily. When my eyes snapped up again, he was watching me silently. I could hear that his breathing had deepened and his eyes had become darker. Suddenly, he cleared his throat and got to his feet. He looked over me one more time before tearing his eyes away.

“I’m not going anywhere, lass.” He said decisively, before leaving the room and closing the door behind himself. I slumped back against the pillows, confused by what’d just happened.

From now on, we were both going to have to start knocking before entering.

#to fly where the crows fly #to fly where the crows fly au #sons of anarchy fanfiction #chibs telford #eliza morrow #sons of anarchy

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9/1/17, 1:04am - Girls, Fertility, Etc

Ok, computer’s tryna brick out on me so that’s a pain in the ass but I really wanted to write about this week before I got too far away from it because it was fucking incredible lol.

That date with Sally that I left off on ended up going absolutely phenomenally.  It almost crashed and burned though. Right when I got off work and we were supposed to meet up she stopped responding to me. I thought she pulled the dirtiest flakeout I’ve ever seen when I got around waiting for 45 minutes, but eventually she told me where to meet up with her lol. At her apartment complex I stood out in the lawn, waving at this cat that was on its hind legs staring at me through a glass door. As I’d wave it’d shimmy around. Such a cuuutey. She finally came outside after a bit, and she said she kind of wanted sushi which I was just going to suck up. But as we walked across the parking lot her dog freakkkkked out whining, it was so loud and tragic sounding that we decided to just stay in and get food delivered if we wanted it later. (We didn’t, probably should’ve, I hadn’t eaten all day lol) First I got to know her pets a bit. Her dog was rambunctious as fuck, and her cat was the calmest friendliest cat I’ve seen in a fucking minute. Like snuggling up on my hand licking me to pieces friendly. I fixed her dog’s collar, and she was kind of impressed immediately by how well I got along with both of them. I made us some coke and rum, we sat down and watched the tick and cuddled with her pupper in the dark for a while. After three episodes and three more coke and rums we were both pretty fucking tipsy and started to ignore the show in favor of just talking about shit. We were talking about chinese food (she loved that I’d tried all her favorites at Gourmet Kingdom), and religion and a whole bunch of stuff, tried to restart the show a few times, but got distracted making out instead lmao. We fucked on her couch. We both wanted to smoke one of her cigarettes but she didn’t have a lighter, so she dared me to run naked across her apartment complex parking lot to get one from my car. I popped outside and was immmeeddddiately almost spotted by this family of like 5 or 6 people that walked out at the same time. Hid behind a tree and tweeted about it lmfao.  So when I got back we sat outside on the porch, her on my lap, both of us naked smoking cigarettes and chatting about whatever. It was a beautiful fucking night. Then she invited me back to her bedroom and we had sex some more and passed out.

I woke up throwing up with a terrible hangover. Probably should’ve eaten something. She didn’t remember much, but we talked about how she had a good time and we want to see each other again. It’s just hard with my schedule taking up all my weekends. I guess we’ll see.

So Sunday I came back home, ate some wendy’s and nursed my hangover by finishing watching the tick (pretty solid, actually. Definitely enjoyed it). When I felt better I hit up Becky to see if she still wanted to hang out. She said she still wanted to, I went into the bathroom to wash up and found out Sally fucking chomppped my neck, gave me one of the biggest hickeys of my life lmfao.

Hanging out with Becky was awesome, too. We watched the new Death Note movie, and she’s really into horror movies so we watched Children of the Corn since neither of us had seen it. Went down on each other and went out to chipotle lol. While we were eating she told me that she does the same finger gun-point thing I do, and that apparently it’s a stereotypical bi thing. That’s fuckin neat/weird lmao. We went back to my place, watched the first episode of stranger things and then fucked a bunch, cuddled and talked about anime for a long time. Bonus self esteem points for a girl wanting to fuck the shit out of me totally sober lol.  I’m supposed to see her again tomorrow before I head out to work. Gonna go to her club meeting where she’s gonna teach me some japanese! Pretty fucking cool. Both of them are awesome. There’s no way this could backfire on me, right?!

lol anyway, Monday I went out to hang out with smith and dan all day. Smoked and played melee for hours. Got bodied in tournament, probably shouldn’t have entered lol it’s too hard to play high. I was like napping under a table. Hung out at smith’s that night playing rivals of aether and smoking, got caught up on Dragonball Super with him, was super cash. But the reason I stayed there was for my fertility test on tuesday! Almost fucking overslept and missed it lmao, but made it there late enough that they’d still see me (called ahead thank god lab appointments aren’t so strict). Got the results just a couple hours later and I’m sterile! Fucking made it, fam. No more pregnancy scares, nothin. So pumped actually lol. Hung out with Karn for a sec before heading back home to gboro. Was going to skip entering the tournament because I felt really off, but did anyway and managed to get fourth. Pretty neat, but missed making some money by thiiiis much lol. 

Went out to karaoke and smoked with some people out back again. People fucking love me there, I love greensboro so much. It’s like living in easy mode where everyone just thinks you’re great.  Actually for the first time someone hated me instantly it was this fat chick who was making these 4 bear pun jokes and I was reallllly stoned and just didn’t get it so I was like “why? Is it because you’re a bear?” and I snorted and she fucking gives me these Daggers and says “no it’s because my name is Panda, you fucking asshole.” lmao I guess my fat shaming comes out a little too easy.

There was also this suppppper plastered dude there who saw that me and this girl knew all the words to this song that someone was singing (I mean it’s karaoke people pick fucking popular songs), so he claps us both on the shoulders and he was like “HEY. Have you (points to girl) met him?” so we like semiawkwardly shake hands lol. Then he claps his arm around my shoulder and gives me this sly look and says “eh? I’m pretty good, huh?” I about laughed my ass off hahahah.  She was fairly cute. Had some acne, but a nice body. I thought she was going to have to hate me bc she was friends with that panda girl (which occurred afterwards) but then when she saw me sing she actually wanted to talk to me a bit. Complimented me a bunch, said I did great. I said I’m glad to hear it because i’m never really sure. And she said “well it doesn’t really take much to please this crowd.” I asked her what she did and she said wait tables, and I say yeah but what about for fun I think. She said Well I hate myself so I’m here most of the time. I Actually laughed my ass off that time. Was just like “same, tbh. Too me for me.” I’ve been getting drunk and saying ‘t.b.h.’ a lot like it’s a better word lmfao. Idk. her name’s mary though. I had hit up my gay queen friend Josh to see what he was up to, and he encouraged me to hit up the bar near my house to hang out with him and his friends. Is like referring to his friends as the queen’s guard and shit it’s all way too tryhard for me. We were gonna go party at someone’s house so he had me pick up a bunch of beer. Instead we went back to his place and had a really long heart to heart and made out for a while. He was a much better kisser than most guys and his lips were nice, but godddd fucking damn do I hate the roughness of dudes’ faces. I warned him a bunch of times that I was just teasing him and that we weren’t going to hook up, but he wanted me to stay and cuddle with him, so I did. He was talking shit saying he could beat me at smash bros, so I had to lmfao. We played a bunch and made out some more and he wanted me to give him a massage or some shit because I had been rubbing his shoulders earlier, but I wasn’t really having it. We ended up hanging out until like 7am so I was just like “alright nah I’ve gotta go to sleep now.” Then in the morning I said I had to go throw up and was going home even though he wanted me to stick around. It was honestly a pretty weird experience, not in that it was awkward that he wanted to hook up with me so bad, but moreso in that a lot of the things he said or did to try to get me to stay or hook up with him were like... literally the exact same kind of moves I had pulled with girls in the past. Like I heard my own words coming out of his mouth and that was very amusing. Like I literally laughed in his face when he was talking about some positive characteristic of my personality. I mean we did have a nice heart to heart about a lot of shit, but He kept saying shit like “i know we had a connection the moment I met you” and shit, and it made me think he was just trying too hard to see shit that wasn’t there. Acting like that other dude who wanted to hook up with me while I was stoned as balls. Maybe all dudes really are pigs? bahahaha. w.e.  Actually, nah. Like Josh’s friend Prevo or whatever was actually a super respectable dude, seems like he really cares about his daughter and everything. But at least most are. At least I am lmfao.

I remember I got some great hot dogs from this woman on the curb named cherl. Ball park franks. Delicious. I spent way too much fucking money celebrating my infertility that night hahahaha.

So the next day I took it easy. I really didn’t feel all that great, it wasn’t totally a lie to dip from Josh’s. So I sat around watching hearthstone and shit until I got motivated to watch Becky’s favorite anime. Kyoukai no Kanata (beyond the boundary) had me fucking hooked instantly. Was really good, binge watched it until like 630am. Then slept most of today.

And at work earlier I finally beat that hearthstone challenge thing I was working on the past two weeks too. Fucking luckedddd out it was super satisfying because I was like actually hating it intensely hahaha.

So this week was fucking prime. Always feels cool to be getting up to story worthy shenanigans. Excited to see Becky again tomorrow.

Something something motivational signoff. <3