#The beginning is always the hardest

[the-ellia-west]

HI I wanted to say that I think your book sounds awesome and I really hope I can buy it when it comes out :3 is it okay if I ask when you started writing it/when you started planning to make the idea an actual book? And how are you publishing it? I'm currently in the process of drafting a book I hope to publish someday so I'm just curious

@vyuntspakhkite-l-darling

Oh, definitely! Thank you for the ask, I'm happy to answer any questions or chat anytime! <3

I started writing this project about 4 years ago, and it was literally just me bored on the couch after being gifted a notebook for my birthday by my Grandma and asked and I quote: "Can you write me a story?"

So I did. And well... uh... I wrote a story, (although, admittedly, a rather bad one). I wanted to turn it into a real book after I started rewriting the whole thing and typing it onto my computer.

I'm still figuring out publishing because it's still being edited and proofread currently, but my advice to you is this:

Build your craft, write it out whenever you can, and after that... Idk, I'm still figuring it out myself lol

Your story is bound to change from draft to draft and you might have to cut things you love. But ultimately it's your world, your project. You got this!

If you keep at it you'll eventually make something you can be proud of! I hope your draft and story goes well, and I'd love to hear about it!

Maybe I can give you some advice or ideas if you want

#It's honestly a lot of trial and error #All of it's difficult #You should just write until you get something that you feel like you can continue #The beginning is always the hardest #baby steps i guess #Have fun with it

[eatingfood]

#!!! aaaah #I really hope my urge of wanting to be upfront will go away #it’s been 4 days #the beginning is always the hardest #moving on is so hard

[stormpoetics]

I needed to read that - we all did

#i'll never get tired of saying he's too precious #this is why beginning either a project or one of its subparts is always the hardest - those are the moments that you feel you can't write #or it's too mediocre etc. as soon as you're past the introductory parts and into a steady flow it practically writes itself

[vspin]

How dare this story not write itself...

#writing #lord i am trying #the beginning stages of a new hobby is always the hardest lmao

[almostdeath]

Okay. I am hungover but...I will sit my ass down at my desk and write that one shot with Glatt and LN!Quackity.

I really like the idea of Glatt being able to manipulate the machines in the casino. In a way that he can let people win a little bit to get them motivated and have the delusion that luck is on their side...just so they would lose all they got after that. After all...this man knows enough about scams. And what place is a better place to scam people than an actual casino?

#dsmp #dream smp #jschlatt #schlatt #pumpkinduo #schlackity #pumpkin husbands #quackity #glatt #Las nevadas #i promise...i will try to write something- #i will chain myself to that chair if needed #the hardest part is always the beginning

[cookinguptales]

me when I began writing this story: it doesn't matter if the beginning is poor. you can rewrite it later. you can cross that bridge when you come to it.

me now, crossing that bridge: fuck.

#beginnings are always the hardest thing for me to write haha #I really half-assed this one and now I am reaping those rewards lmao #writing liveblogging

[sunlightdrop]

so look to the horizon, open up your wings... fly away to find your destiny, and set yourself free!

#rapunzel #tangled #tanglededit #disneyedit #tangled the series #rapunzel's tangled adventure #ttsedit #rtaedit #filmedit #animationedit #♡ #*edits #*gifset #this may be my favorite tts song.. i can't even begin to describe how much it has helped me through !! #i always go back to it during my hardest times... <3

[agentc0rn]

I finally did it!! I composed my first cover online with and on my computer ever... (+ LOUD SOUND WARNING for headphone users, the ending especially gets loud...my apologies in advance!) -> AZ's what-if battle theme

#pokemon #pokemon music #az pokemon #pokemon az #pokemon xy #pokemon x and y #pokemon legends z-a #in hindsight the pacing and rhythm is off at certain parts but honestly i am proud at how decent my first attempt turned out to be. #Anyways nothing can be truly perfect #there is always room for improvement. #he was the beginning and the end...hardest description for a character ever #i made the beginning a callback to AZ's past as a king with regal tones #then shifted to a sorrowful passage before entering a respite and changing to a more hopeful #uplifting one where it shows AZ's gradual acceptance of inner peace + discovering the thrill of battles #in other ways you could see the uplifting tone as the kinder side + noble aspects of AZ's character that could have been seen in XY #like he loved pokemon right? And he did care for his kingdom too with his technology and stuff #the rising and falling pitches also can be reflective of his stumbles and regression to his grief along the way

[semiotomatics]

figured i had to talk about it eventually

#this has been an original post #personal spewage #my cat wally #...died #last month #and i have not been taking it well #to say the least #but the absolute hardest part #has been that normally. when i am sad. when i am struggling #i go to him for comfort #thats how its always been since the moment we met #i needed him and he needed me #and we were always there for each other #and now. hes not here when i need him #i cannot even begin to describe the pain i feel in moments like this #tho #i will say #we ordered a memorial cast of his pawprint to match marshmallows #and the DAY i brought it home #a little over a month after we said goodbye #was the first time i dreamed about him since the flood dream #i dreamed about him two more times that week #so like #i do still get to see him #but hes not here right now #and i need him so bad right now #i need him so so so bad #i hope i get to see him tonight #or soon at least #i miss him so much

[aggressive-almond-cookie]

There are days when I wish my memory would be wiped just so I could play octo expansion for the first time again.

#splatoon #aiko plays squid games #it just gave me so many hyper specific emotions I cannot begin to articulate #though I guess also if my memory was wiped I wouldn't have all the emotional background prefacing it #how much it meant for me to tackle that challenge and come out on top #how so much of it was peppered with corrupted pieces of my childhood #an echoed atmosphere of what I was pursuing #by some standards #so much later in life than most people do #it meant something to me I can't even grasp it to explain it #this time my persistence meant something #my pain meant something #I am clever but I am stubborn and insatiably curious and that means I will learn a lot of lessons in the hardest way #and that's not something that makes me lesser. It's something that gives me an incredibly rich array of life experiences. #I am capable and I am resilient and I'm always growing #sorry I think I had too much coffee my mind is racing lol

[heyitsphoenixx]

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#personal vent incoming to just get off my chest don't be weird about it #i've known since i was a kid that my dad was overtly abusive but #just in the last 3-5 months i've learned my mom was and currently is almost just as abusive #but she's just covert about it instead #all of my adolescence was about surviving my dad who was so obviously a monster that he was almost easier to deal w in a way by comparison #this is. what an utter mind fuck #there's also like. no member of my family that i can turn to for help #bc they're either just as bad or my mother has ruined any relationship i might have w them over time #and i also fear being a burden #so i'm making a plan to get out but god it's overwhelming thinking about doing it all alone #and the thought that it might take years to actually get out or get healthy #she's kept me isolated from any support for so long #and im afraid any family that could possibly help wouldn't fully understand or they would be just as bad as her #and it feels impossible to progress at all bc im living w her and literally filed as her dependent on taxes #like ik this is gonna be the hardest thing to escape in my life and i've already escaped a lot #but this time i have to largely on my own #is v scary #and she's conditioned me to believe that i can't make any right decisions on my own without her #and that anything i do is always 'backwards' #makes it that much harder to make a clear plan #her work schedule is so inconsistent that it makes getting therapy online (since i don't have a license or car yet) nearly impossible #to do it without her or my brother listening #that i've just felt trapped for years #but. i can Tell i'm getting better now and rapidly. more than i've been for a v long time #so the process is just beginning and i think even she can tell #which is also dangerous #but ik i can do this its just the amount of time and effort and organizing behind her back and doing it alone thats v overwhelming #but anyway #we stay silly

[frecklystars]

Just got home from seeing the Barbie movie again and I was smiling so big my cheeks were sore haha… and I’m STILL smiley thinking about all kinds of things I’d do with the characters… this movie is rly saving me from all the horrible bullshit that happened this year

And that’s the thing. I’m daydreaming!!!! For the first time in so many months I’m thinking of things to draw!!!! Fuck I haven’t thought of drawing self ship since December ;-; and I haven’t had any daydreams of my F/Os like going on dates and stuff for even longer than that, until now, I’m thinking of Ken carrying me bridal style so I won’t have to touch the sand, I’m thinking of Barbie painting my nails and telling me nobody is ever going to hurt me when she’s there to protect me, I’m thinking about Ken’s arm around me when we’re in our cowboy getup and he’s got hearts in his eyes all for me while he’s calling me his sweet girl. I cannot believe how much this movie is helping me feel so loved and comforted. This movie makes me feel like myself again when I watch it. I feel like myself when I’m thinking of them and that’s… such a foreign feeling to me bc it’s been so long and I get so teary every time it hits me like a wave

Sometimes I still get scared that Barbie or Ken would want to hurt me. I had a nightmare last night that they were approaching me, and literally all of my nightmares have involved my abuser since the end if 2022. And they weren’t hostile towards me at all (the very first time I had a F/O dream where they were gentle) but I was still flinching and crying and begging them not to hit me. But they looked at me, horrified, like they couldn’t even dream of doing that to me. And I jolted awake crying. But ;-; it is a little bit easier for me to think that those fears implanted in me are so ridiculous at least when it comes to my Barbie movie F/Os… Barbie would be so devoted and kind bc Barbies are so devoted to supporting each other. and she’d be so gentle w/ me and try to uplift me so much. And if Ken so much as accidentally stepped on my toe I think he’d force himself to stand 100 feet away from me and cry with guilt, like when you accidentally step on your dog’s tail and you profusely apologize to them a million times even though they automatically forgive you

#i got rly tense during the movie this time in the beginning. the first 10 minutes are always the hardest #and that scene where they’re wearing rly short shorts and crop tops #those are the hardest parts. but then I get over it #and it’s so comforting knowing how… smart Barbie is and she’d never ever allow anyone to manipulate her #and she would protect me from that kind of thing and I hope Ken would too #;_; this is the first time in so long I’ve… I’ve doodled. I’m. doodling right now and I am getting tears on my tablet bc I haven’t #felt this way in so long and I’m so scared it’s gonna disappear

[hatake]

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#bro being attached to someone who is not attached to u sucks #we went from spending at least an hour together everyday #to we have not talked once in three weeks lolololol #the hardest part is i put more emotional effort into it #even after they moved i messaged first and last #the last time they didn't even leave me on read bc they didn't actually check it for like a week lolololololol #i hate having a pathetic side ( T U T ) #ppl always say moving on is the best revenge #but there's no revenge to be had if the person has never and still does not give a shit abt u to begin with #i don't want to miss this person anymore or have any feelings towards them generally #i want to scrub them from my mind entirely #is that so much to ask?

[soldier-poet-king]

Big emotional day for les mis letters readers who are both deeply religious and deeply pro rev & social justice but also stricly non violence, by which I mean me and maybe 2 other people on the face of this earth

1.1.10 is THEE crux of the book politically and also my entire life problem and philosophy and this conversation haunts me every single time

#les mis letters #like. growing more and more radical as i grow more and more religious #but im also extreme anti violence #but also like i GET IT #yes reign of terror was bad but like. in the beginning some points were made wrt the philosophy of the frev? #MURDER IS ALWAYS WRONG. #but etc etc grieve for the aristo if you will grieve for the poor etc etc #CONFLICTING AND EXCRUCIATING TENSION #how do i explain that im increasingly radical BECAUSE im religious #and yes the thunderbolt is horrible. but you cannot blame it without examining 1500 years of gathering clouds #im truly. too fuckin soft for this life #thinking abt. how the guillotine cannot be neutral. one cannot see it and remain neutral #i think the issue being from an anglo country and raised super catholic. both very FREV haters (perhaps understandably) #but my big dumb idealistic heart is all about atonement and redemption and reconciliation and justice and mercy #and balancing all of that is the hardest shit in the world #im just. the conventionalist. the ideal. the infinite. the divine. #i could keep rambling but in some aspects it boils down to an ends vs means and justice vs mercy debate #but ends and means also exists alongside apathy. and the status quo is also untenable and unethical #its about each and every single human person!!!! how am i supposed to deal with that!!!! how can i be Good in such a complex world #idk im not a frev expert i took like. 1 elective in uni. im a classics person #i am TOO SOFTHEARTED FOR THIS. once we get to the jehan description im gonna mcfuckin die #because for a whole ass decade ive grown and changed and i keep coming back to his love and philosophy and just. him. #the most me. and idk how to explain that prouvaire (canon not fanon) illustrates (imo) the same tension #but also the same goals i have. the same person i am trying to be

[dragonfangs]

"So? That doesn't mean anything when it comes to her!" They were dragging it out, huh. / cont. ; @compatiissante

#compatiissante #( * interactions / the beginning is always the hardest. ) #the first thing i write here in 2 years and it's stupid ... v in character

[ephxmerall]

#** t h e c o n n e c t o r [ OOC. ] #|| *stares* #*staring intensifies* #the enabling is strong with some of you....... #you know who you are #i've been trying my hardest not to give in #but i think it's a losing battle at this point #that said #someone will be leaving my roster if this does become an actual thing #possibly more than one #i'm unsure at the moment #but just.... #rewatching water 7 and enies lobby has given me some strong robin feels #and all the shit she's gone through up until becoming crocodile's right hand? #i want to... #as ame said #stick my hands in and feel around the juicy bits #y'know? #her character has always intrigued me too #i actually liked her more than nami in the beginning #fun fact ||